ho11ieberry06

Hello everyone, my name is Holly and I'd like to share a little bit about me with you.

I have been battling with my weight my entire adult life.  Even though I haven't always been overweight or obese, I've always struggled to keep the weight off.  In my early twenty's I started going to a gym and I learned how to eat right, do cardio and weight training for my body to sculpt it to how I wanted it.  I was very active, I went to the gym 7 days a week, mountain biked and even ran.  I went through a bad divorce, had back surgery and moved to a new town and I know that all of that caused a lot of emotional stress on me.  It's not an excuse, but I know it's the core reason for all of my weight gain.  I'm extremely embarrassed and ashamed with myself for ever letting this get so out of hand.  

For the last 10 years of my life I have gained over 150 pounds.  I know a lot of the weight gain has to do with my emotional well being and it's a way for me to shield my self from getting hurt.  But the ironic thing is that I AM hurting my self in the long run by keeping this weight on.  I have tried diet after diet, gone to a weight loss doctor and I actually had a lot of success.  I lost 70 pounds only to put it all back on and then some.  Now I find myself at my highest weight ever and I just can't take it anymore.

I never wanted to do surgery, I always thought I could do this on my own.  For goodness sakes, I was an athlete, I know how to lose weight and eat right.....right?  Wrong!  It has taken me a long time and the realization that I need to set my pride aside and figure out that I need to take care of this and I need help.  So I finally decided that surgery is the best option for me.  I want to be healthy and active again and I want to have a family one day and my hope is that having surgery will help me achieve this goal.  

I hope to be able to make new friends here who are going through the same thing as me.  Good luck on your journey!

Holly