Fallenangel2904

Some days I honestly feel like a failure. I'm a little over a year out and am no where near where I need to be and even managed to regain a few pounds, Took a few off, working on the last 5-8 but I'm still mad at myself. I was a heavy weight, 379lbs staring. At first I dropped weight like crazy, losing most of my weight in the first 3 months. Then I hit about 280 and my body stopped losing weight. I mean it was the stall from HELL. Months I was stuck at that weight. The lowest I got was 278 for a brieft day when I had a stomach bug then right back to 280. I guess I got discouraged, old habits set back in and then slowly I crept on a few pounds then a few more. Over the holidays I had gotten to 294 YIKES. I'm down to 288 now, hoping with in the next few weeks of strict eating and working out I can get back down to 280. But I don't want to stop at 280. I would ideally like to get out of the 200's some day...I know I have to work extra hard now because I've lost some restriction and I can eat larger portions (SCARY!) I've managed to pull myself back THANK GOD, because I refused to see 300 on the scale again!

There are still 4 weigh-ins to go, so you are definitely welcome. Just post your weight, and your goal weight, and we'll get you added to the charts. Welcome!

Um don't beat me up lol but is it too late to join in on this? I realize I won't have as much time as everyone else but I am just getting back on track and really think this will help me get there.

You are definitely not alone. I know when I first came here it seemed I was one of the biggest ones, but there are other 'heavy weights'
My highest recorded weight was 379, though I know I was bigger it just wasn't documented.
Today 6 months post op I'm down to 280. Basically 100 pounds down. I hadn't been under 300 in SO long, it's amazing to finally be here.
You can do it!

3 month update. Down 77lbs from highest, 57 since surgery.

You can definitly use it to sautee chicken. It's my understanding you can use it any place you would use oil, butter margarine etc. A little In a pan before sautéing veggies or meat. That's prob how ill be using it but If anyone had more suggestions please post!
As far as smell and taste yea it does have a coconut flavor- not sweet though, if you've ever had shredded unsweetened coconut it tastes like that but- well oily obviously lol

I wasn't quite 400lbs but close. I was over 380 at my biggest but I think I was closer to 400 then I thought. I was too big for my scale. I have got down to 359 for surgery. I'm 2 and a half months out and down to 305. All together 74lbs lost so far.
As a heavy weight is is a longer journey but it is completely doable. I wasn't sure I would be successful with the sleeve at first at my weight but I'm convinced I can now. There is a BMI over 50 board on OH and some of the people there started over 400 and have lost a LOT. It's very inspiring.

I injured my knee last year causing my to gain 40+ lbs (possibly more- I don't know my heighest weight) I had always been very mobile and active for someone mg size (300+) and after that I felt truly helpless and immobile. It was the worst feeling ever. My knee is still kind of messed up and I know weight loss will help. Honestly I feel like I've 'outgrown' this city- NYC it's just NOT a good place to be fat in. There is so much walking, stairs, turnstyles- it's almost impossible to be far here and live okay- at least THIS fat. I want my life back, that's what I realized and that's my main motivation for surgery- to live a normal life here.

3 month update. Down 77lbs from highest, 57 since surgery.

6 months post op
Breakfast- low fat string cheese (wasn't very hungry)
lunch left over tilapia from last night. Some sliced avocado and pita chips
dinner stuffed chicken breast (stuffed with spinach and low fat mozzarella cheese) and brussle sprout leaves cooked with some bacon and cranberries. Sooo yummy!
snack skinny cow chocolate pop

I wasn't quite 400lbs but close. I was over 380 at my biggest but I think I was closer to 400 then I thought. I was too big for my scale. I have got down to 359 for surgery. I'm 2 and a half months out and down to 305. All together 74lbs lost so far.
As a heavy weight is is a longer journey but it is completely doable. I wasn't sure I would be successful with the sleeve at first at my weight but I'm convinced I can now. There is a BMI over 50 board on OH and some of the people there started over 400 and have lost a LOT. It's very inspiring.

I injured my knee last year causing my to gain 40+ lbs (possibly more- I don't know my heighest weight) I had always been very mobile and active for someone mg size (300+) and after that I felt truly helpless and immobile. It was the worst feeling ever. My knee is still kind of messed up and I know weight loss will help. Honestly I feel like I've 'outgrown' this city- NYC it's just NOT a good place to be fat in. There is so much walking, stairs, turnstyles- it's almost impossible to be far here and live okay- at least THIS fat. I want my life back, that's what I realized and that's my main motivation for surgery- to live a normal life here.

Sometimes it's a fact of a child being brutally honest and even so it still hurts. Has happened to me many time. I used to babysit twin boys as a teen (I was a fat kid, teen and adult) And one of my earliest memories of being called fat was one of the little boys I baby sat for. I was 13 or so and I remember the little boy pointing at my belly and saying 'your so fat' but but in a nonchalant way. He was only 4 but it still hurt a lot. Kids can be cruel both intentionally and unintentionally. His mother overheard him use the word fat a few days later and she pulled his aside and explained that you shouldn't call someone that, that it can hurt their feelings and isn't a nice word. He just didn't know, but good parenting helped correct it and I alway remember how I applauded his mother for that
Then there are the intentional insults by children that make me want to not only yell at the child but yes the parent. Fat hate is one of the few forms of prejudice that is still looked on as 'okay' or 'Socially acceptable'. We need to teach children from a young age that its NOT okay. It should be preached right along side gender, race and sexual orientation discrimination.

I blame it on the parents lack of discipline and teaching respect. In my adult years, I don't think I was called fat by kids but rather a/s/s/h/o/l/e adults. I was teased and made fun of everyday while I was in school, up until high school. I guess the bullies got different bait. It still hurts to think about what my classmates called me and you begin to believe it because its beat into your head several times a day. Looking back I wish I had the willpower to stand up for myself or knock their teeth down their throat. But I knew it would have probably made the bullying worse. Funny thing is now, 90% of the kids who made fun of me have been in and out of jail, rehab, strung out on drugs, have 10 kids all by different men. Some are way bigger than me now. Karma is definitely a b/i/t/c/h.

They told me 6 weeks but I admit I went swimming at 2 weeks. I was out of town visiting a friend and I don't get to swim in a pool very often (it was winter and they had an in door pool in their building) so I did it and I was fine. I think as long as your incisions are not open you'll be okay.

YES! Exactly as Aussie said! I didn't want to post here for fear of being the odd man out, but Aussie summed up my feelings perfectly.
I think it's important for pre ops to see both sides of the coin. Before surgery I think I looked at surgery as a fix for all the things wrong with my life. 'If I have surgery everything will fall into place' with relationships, jobs, family, friends and overall happiness. That isn't the case. Just as we tell people surgery isn't a quick fix for weight loss, you can't have surgery and just expect to be skinny- same goes for the quality and happiness in your life. Surgery isn't going to just magically give you that either. I hate to break this to people but being thin DOESN'T automatically equal happiness.
I was someone who struggled with bouts of depression pre op, and that hasn't just gone away post op because my size shrank. I think on some level I thought it would. I've actually experienced some difficult emotional changes post op. I can not stress enough how important the psychiatric part of this process is. I need to get myself into therapy and I regret not doing it sooner. Don't just brush that off as unimportant. This process is SUCH a mental process as well as a physical. Therapy is an important tool and I recommend sticking with it from the beginning.
Just my two cents and my experiences, of course yours will vary, but if you have any sort of underlying issues just know surgery isn't going to cure them. You have to do that on your own regardless of your size.

Made these the other night and they were yummy! They aren't very sweet though so if you want a little more sweetness add some Splenda or even some honey or agave. The calorie info for these is without any of that though. Going to add some dries cranberries in next time!
1 banana (mashed up so it's smooth)
1/2 cup whole oats
1/2 scoop of vanilla Protein powder (could use more but didn't want an over powering whey taste)
1 egg white
Mix the banana, Protein and egg white together. Add the oatmeal and combine. Drop Cookies on a greased cookie sheet and bake at 350 for 15 or so minutes until light brown. They don't have a cookie texture per say but are a great snack if you have a sweet tooth or even as a Breakfast treat!
Here's the nutrition info for one cookie. This made me 4 Cookies.< /p>

YES! Exactly as Aussie said! I didn't want to post here for fear of being the odd man out, but Aussie summed up my feelings perfectly.
I think it's important for pre ops to see both sides of the coin. Before surgery I think I looked at surgery as a fix for all the things wrong with my life. 'If I have surgery everything will fall into place' with relationships, jobs, family, friends and overall happiness. That isn't the case. Just as we tell people surgery isn't a quick fix for weight loss, you can't have surgery and just expect to be skinny- same goes for the quality and happiness in your life. Surgery isn't going to just magically give you that either. I hate to break this to people but being thin DOESN'T automatically equal happiness.
I was someone who struggled with bouts of depression pre op, and that hasn't just gone away post op because my size shrank. I think on some level I thought it would. I've actually experienced some difficult emotional changes post op. I can not stress enough how important the psychiatric part of this process is. I need to get myself into therapy and I regret not doing it sooner. Don't just brush that off as unimportant. This process is SUCH a mental process as well as a physical. Therapy is an important tool and I recommend sticking with it from the beginning.
Just my two cents and my experiences, of course yours will vary, but if you have any sort of underlying issues just know surgery isn't going to cure them. You have to do that on your own regardless of your size.

I wasn't quite 400lbs but close. I was over 380 at my biggest but I think I was closer to 400 then I thought. I was too big for my scale. I have got down to 359 for surgery. I'm 2 and a half months out and down to 305. All together 74lbs lost so far.
As a heavy weight is is a longer journey but it is completely doable. I wasn't sure I would be successful with the sleeve at first at my weight but I'm convinced I can now. There is a BMI over 50 board on OH and some of the people there started over 400 and have lost a LOT. It's very inspiring.

You are definitely not alone. I know when I first came here it seemed I was one of the biggest ones, but there are other 'heavy weights'
My highest recorded weight was 379, though I know I was bigger it just wasn't documented.
Today 6 months post op I'm down to 280. Basically 100 pounds down. I hadn't been under 300 in SO long, it's amazing to finally be here.
You can do it!

According to the BMI scale and what a 'normal' weight should be my excess body weight was about 220lbs.
That would put me at around 160lbs. For myself I think I'm okay if I don't get there. I've already lost 100lbs another 50 would be great. That would leave me around 230 which I know for some that is a starting weight lol but I would be okay there. If and when i get there i can reevaluate.
I'm mostly just going to see where my body will take me and be happy with the number/size even if according to the BMI chart that still makes me overweight. Then again i like having a little meat on my bones which i know isn't everyones cup of tea. But for me- I'm mobile now, something I wasn't 100 pounds ago. I can shop in normal clothing store now, I can live life and my health is good again. Something it sure wasn't at almost 400 pounds. I'm grateful for that and as I put that into perspective the number on the scale becomes less and less important. Just my opinion.

Hate to break it to him but being thin doesn't automatically mean you're attractive. Not to sound like this ****** bag, but I've seen many uh less then beautiful people looking people who were thin so that kind of blows his theory out of the Water. I still believe beauty has nothing to do with waist size. If you are beautiful you are regardless of wearing a size 2 or a 22.

YES! Exactly as Aussie said! I didn't want to post here for fear of being the odd man out, but Aussie summed up my feelings perfectly.
I think it's important for pre ops to see both sides of the coin. Before surgery I think I looked at surgery as a fix for all the things wrong with my life. 'If I have surgery everything will fall into place' with relationships, jobs, family, friends and overall happiness. That isn't the case. Just as we tell people surgery isn't a quick fix for weight loss, you can't have surgery and just expect to be skinny- same goes for the quality and happiness in your life. Surgery isn't going to just magically give you that either. I hate to break this to people but being thin DOESN'T automatically equal happiness.
I was someone who struggled with bouts of depression pre op, and that hasn't just gone away post op because my size shrank. I think on some level I thought it would. I've actually experienced some difficult emotional changes post op. I can not stress enough how important the psychiatric part of this process is. I need to get myself into therapy and I regret not doing it sooner. Don't just brush that off as unimportant. This process is SUCH a mental process as well as a physical. Therapy is an important tool and I recommend sticking with it from the beginning.
Just my two cents and my experiences, of course yours will vary, but if you have any sort of underlying issues just know surgery isn't going to cure them. You have to do that on your own regardless of your size.

You are definitely not alone. I know when I first came here it seemed I was one of the biggest ones, but there are other 'heavy weights'
My highest recorded weight was 379, though I know I was bigger it just wasn't documented.
Today 6 months post op I'm down to 280. Basically 100 pounds down. I hadn't been under 300 in SO long, it's amazing to finally be here.
You can do it!

I am wanting to respond to this question, but am not sure how coherant my response will come out as so please bear with me.
I went in to this surgery thinking that being skinnier i would be a happier person and get all the things i was craving, partner, family, full life. Never really ever being a skinny person it all looked so easy on the outside.
I am now the skinnier version of myself but still find myself looking for those same things. Yes it is easier to shop, and I can buy cute/sexy clothes and feel comfortable in them, i fit into seats, flying is a breeze, i can run and keep up with most normal people, i am fit and healthy. Life is easier but I still feel that there is something missing from my life.
I would say on a happiness range I am probably between 5-7 each day, which is definitely higher than pre-surgery.