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I picked a weight that I remember I was happy with how I looked. I have made myself mini goals, however and I try to pick a weight and a date to make it by. My next mini goal is 230 by Labor Day!!

Congratulations!!! I remember that feeling of exhilaration and anticipation of the new life ahead!!

OMG I totally want to do the Zombie APP!! There is actually a 5k where you run away from Zombies!! I was training to do that this December. Now maybe I will do it!

I had my second fill yesterday. Pretty much quick in and out. I weighed in at 240 (WAH!! ) and the assistent said that they tell their agents that losing 1lb a week was normal. Uhhhh..what? SO then I go and see my Dr and he asks how things are going. He and his other assistent look at the band through the machine thing-pretty cool and I drink the gross stuff. He adds a fill and looks at a suspicious red spot I had near one of the laparoscopic sites (its nothing, apparently). He aspirates the needle and then refills with whatever he took out. Drink the white yuck again and then a jaunty "see you next month"..as I walk down the hallway I remember to ask, ok so what am I up to on my fills? And he says, 4cc. Umm again, what? I was already out of there so I didnt stop to question, but I thought thats what I left at last time. I thought in July for my first fill that I was filled to 4. Anyway- I most certainly have a feeling of faster restriction on this one. Pretty excited about it too. When I got in the car I looked in the mirror and the inside of my lips were outlined in the white chalky stuff. Yuck.

I weighed in 2 days ago and Im at a high 237.8. Just barely made it to 237. I really need to get better at changing my portion size. Ive even experianced some stuck food several times and it hasnt stopped me from changing my portion size. I will say, though, that I found this app where you take a picture of your food and it logs it for you so that you can be realistic about what and how much you eat. Its called the Slow Carb Diet app and its available for Android and Iphones. You can type in a description as well. Its not magically going to calculate calories, carbs or portion size, so you have to be honest in the description box. Its easy for me because I do carry my phone everywhere I go and It has helped me be honest with what ive been eating. I noticed it has helped me cut out my snacking (almonds) especially at work. Im struggling to make it to 2lbs a week. I have a fill appointment next Tuesday and Im hoping to jump off from that fill again. I would love to see 230 by Labor Day! Also bought a kettleball to work out with and I am AMAZED at the heart rate you get going when swinging that around! I still have the pain in my calf from my Zumba debacle. It was a little stronger yesterday for some weird reason. I start a new shift for the next 6 months on September 6th. Its still 4 10 hour shifts, my days off are different and I will be starting work 1 hour later and leaving later. The good news is that it will allow me to have more time to take classes before work without taking time away from my family. Already scheduling those days. Stay motivated- see you soon!!!

Thanks EVERYONE!!! Lets keep at it together! 2 more lbs this week! Woot Woot!

Thank you all for the kind support and words of encouragement. I know my husband can be a d**k. Sometimes in 100% of what he says and sometimes in 1% of what he says. I know he is insecure, ugg, and despite my flip flopping back and forth I have stayed and we have worked stuff out together. i wont make excuses for him. I have wondered and asked him who screwed him over to give him this attitude but have moved on as I want to remain as positive with him. Last Christmas when I was in the approval stages he bought me many gradually getting smaller items of clothing like work out stuff and sexy stuff too and said it was something he looked forward to. So he does flip flop too. He wants to me be healthy and look great but doesnt want me to run away. Im not offended if you think he is a d**k, haha, I think he's a d**k on occasion as well. I will talk with him again about how much it hurts me when he comments like that. Just last week when he had a heart to heart with me about fast food choices that he thought would disappear (and to my fault, did not) he said he was concerned with telling me because I always become upset about it. And to be honest, its probably because I need to be truthful with myself about how inconsistent I am being (because I am embarrassed to admit I have slipped up) but also the way he bluntly tells me that I could have lost the weight on my own. I hate to sound like those abused woman that make escuses and say "but he loves me" but I agree about him having serious self esteem issues. I am so glad I joined this group- your support helps. I hope this blog helped someone reevaluate how they take non supporters and remember to BELIEVE IN YOURSELF!!!

Im so mad- I wrote this whole emotional explanation about what was going on and during preview a virus notification came up and I lost the whole darn thing!!!! I will have to sum up my emotions briefly here. Husband met me when I weighed 212. I gained weight as our relationship grew. Then our sex life got crappy because of my body issues and no stamina, aka cardio ability to participate. well.. Basically I had become a starfish! Did the LBS, he was supportive despite admitting to sabotaging me in a previous diet. He lamented in the beginning that he would die and I would look awesome and someone else would get to benefit from my hard work. When Ive mentioned the 2lb a week weight loss- nothing- dont expect a parade , but geez, no atta girl?? then I mentioned from another weight loss area this woman that lost 104 in a year! and his respnose was, 104, you should lose that in 4 months with this surgery because if not then why did you even get it. I told him 2lbs a week is good to which he replied, you could have done that on your own without the surgery, aka not spending the money... He has commented several times about my portion control and bought stuff for me that I cannot and should not eat, like ice cream and muffin cookies. I love him, but I now keep my daily struggle to stay on track to myself. I had hoped for a more supportive partner, but thats what Lap Band Talk is for. Sorry- I just wanted to vent and now that I lost my original post I am livid.

Sorry for the delay!!! I weighed 239 and change this last time... I have to weigh in again on Monday! Im excited about the loss but I wish it was more like 3lbs a week instead... So funny because every time I think about updating my blog because I know im behind on tracking my weight I keep saying 139, hahahaha...I havent been that low since I was about 19! Anyway...I was trying on clothes last weekend because we ELOPED!!! YAY!!! We ran away and I wore a dress similar to what I wanted. It was more about the moment, the meaning of the ceremony...and then I saw my pics!! WTH, I look like I need to be making tortillas in a mexican kitchen, lol (I am Mexican, BTW) hahaha.. I will post my most heinous pics when I am at home since I am doing this from work (oh oh) :ph34r: So I keep saying that I have some nagging little support issues from my partner... I will post about it on my next weigh in on Monday. I promise. Also feeling fuller this last week. Ive had some serious stuck issues twice in the last two days when I was eating my protein. Once with chicken breast yesterday at lunch and this morning with my eggs and sausage at breakfast. It might have happened some other times but I cannot remember past these last two. It was pretty painful. Trying to avoid mushy slider protein like the tuna w/mayo and melted cheese that I have been eating in a pinch. Getting too long- let me start another blog entry!

Yes. The one i have is called Run Double. I believe it was free and you can use it with or without your playlist. You can repeat runs if you dont feel comfortable going forward.

I got a new scale yesterday because I wanted to see the numbers instead of squinting down at little hashmarks. I now weight 241. I am somewhat pleased. I guess about 2lbs a week is ok. I would rather that it was 3lbs a week, but its better than gaining. I had to try on clothes this weekend. Shopping for a very important event. I realized that in the past I never liked to try stuff on because I hated knowing that the size didnt fit me. But I had to try on the dress this time because I wanted to see which one looked better on me. Neither did. I looked pregnant and not in a beautiful glowy way either. I think this is why women can become obsessive over shoes and purses. Those are two fashion items that you really dont have to worry about size wise, other than the shoes. My birthday was this weekend, too. The big 4-0. Yay me. Kevan (my SO) made a comment about how he hated not being able to enjoy meals with me anymore since I got my surgery. I really hate hearing that. I WAS enjoying my meal. I love him but he had been really give me conflicting statements. Theres a history there about the support/no support with him. But I will leave that for another blog. I added some pics of me that I could find. Further proof that I avoided the camera like the plague. Time to go have my first mini meal of the day!!

Congratulations on your new start. Remember to keep walking around to help heal faster and keep us posted here on LBT. It really helps to have support.

I dont know what that is! Sounds horrible! Are crackers ok to eat after lapband?

I just got my first fill last Monday and Im starting to feel a little hungry sooner. I was also having trouble getting all my calories in and now im worried about weight loss stopping.

I didnt have a preop diet. After my consultation I was scheduled for a consultation with a nutritionist and a psych evaluation. I also had bloodwork and some cardiopulmonary type test. I had to log my meals for 90 days. I kind of wish I had been placed on a preop diet because I actually GAINED weight from my first consultation to the day of surgery (12lbs)

You are not being nosey. My DH has not had WLS. I agree that it will be very special for you and your DH, because he has. He will be able to understand what you are going through and what you are feeling. He will understand your weak moments and the times where you feel this is never going to work, My DH has been athletic his whole life and despite being a pack a day smoker, can jog on the treadmill at a 5 mph speed forever...I dont know how he does it. He also eats like a linebacker and on three different occassions we have had to use another extra table at a restaurant to fit all of this plates! ARRRRGGGG its hard to eat sometimes around him!

Had my first follow up appointment today since my surgery on May 1st. First, my weigh in. 243. Not bad.. Its ok. Then I was whisked off to another room where I was getting a FILL!!! Yay. I asked the PA about my band size and he said it was a 10cc band. Then they did a fluro test with the yucky white stuff to see how the band was doing and I got my fill. It felt weird havng my DR knead under my rib section to get to my port. I guess he filled to 5cc first then watched the fluroscope thing and thought it was moving too slow so he aspirated out about 1 cc and watched it again. He mentioned that he thought there might be a kink in the tubing and checked that out too, He asked me about my calorie intake and I said I was doing ok but that I thought this fill was going to make a big difference now. I also mentioned working out, and he said that working out was important but right now the calorie intake was crucial. He wants me to stay between 1000 and 1200 calories. So now Im supposed to be on liquids for 24 hours and then regular foods after. Not sure how quickly I can get back to regular foods, I think I have to slowly work back into that. The Dr said my fill would be tight and to follow up if I began to vomit everything back. So I go back in a month. Im excited all over again. A little nervous too. Im ready, and after the convo I had with DH Sunday morning (another blog, another time) I am re-dedicated to eating the way Im SUPPOSED to eat!

I can, I have, I AINT EVER doing that again, lol.... It got stuck and it was painful, and like ive repeated ad nauseum, I have no fill, but something stopped it and any other bread item ive tried to eat, like pound cake one time. With that one, my son ran into the garage to get DH because he thought I was dying. I felt like I was dying. But the real reason to not do it is the carbs. Even the bagel slims that they make. Sigh...I miss lox and bagels....

Im so glad you joined, Traci!! I read your blog post and I can feel all what you are saying because I am there myself. I hope you stay excited and when things get you down, know that you can turn to people on LapBand Talk to listen. Keep blogging! I want to know more about whats going on with YOU!

Some of you might remember a previous post where I mentioned making plans to work out and sleeping through the alarms. Well, today I made myself get up, completed packing my gym bag to catch the 8:30am Zumba class and then off to work! DH was annoyed as I hurried out the door (thats another blog) and made it to my Zumba class about 3 minutes late, but I stepped right into a jampacked classroom and started shimmying like ya do. This was a new instructor to me and her music choices were so much fun! I could see how the class would be packed in there like that and thats when I got the snap in my calf! OUCH!!! I wasnt even doing anything strenuous. I was unbending a leg to step down when I felt a SNAP and then a bunching up of my calf muscles and I was hobbled. I made my way to the back of the class and gripped my leg, doing my best impression of the hunchback of Notre Dame. I knew this hurt, I had it before when I was doing another jump up during a country dance for a historical re enactment group I used to be part of. Again, not doing anything seriously bad just moving my leg wrong. As I left the gym, I felt tears of pain and rage flow down my checks as I called DH to tell him I was hurt and I was on my way home. I was angry because I was really getting excited about being back into the swing of things and I felt that I had made a step (hahahaha) in the right direction. Being hurt like this would put me out of working out again probably for about 2 weeks. And I WANT to work out. It makes me feel like im really doing something this time. I also completely missed the weigh in part. As you might now, Im having trouble with the food part because I know I have no restriction right now. I have to GET OVER IT, I know that. And I will. I was just really wanting to contribute more to my weight loss life changes by staying committed to regular exercise. Sigh. hmm.... I wonder if I can do water Zumba now?

Thanks for the support. I will speak to him when I get back to work next week. I know he will stop because the same thing happened with another co worker when he made a comment about them smoking.

We first moved here last year in April and that was one of the first things we noticed, that even in the middle of the week restaurants were BUSY! Ever restaurant, not just the popular fast foods, im talking every one of them that we could see from the HWY.

You've definitely had a challenging day. I feel your frustration and I know what its like to have to put off your surgery. Im wishing health and a speedy resolution to your concerns so that surgery can happen...

Congratulations!! Cant wait to hear how its going! Keep us posted,

I have been lucky enough to work for a company that helps their employees with health checks made available on site, comprehensive and affordable health insurance plans to chose from and healthy meal choices available on site. My employer even make the healthier meal choices more affordable! Well today I had a yogurt for breakfast and when I went to get lunch they were already breaking down the salad bar and all their prepackaged salads were gone. I had gone to get some soup (always two choices, the regular stuff and a "your health your way" soup choice)and that was gone too. I could have waited and left site but that would have led to some bad choices so I opted for chicken fingers. Ok and there were some fries on there too. Took my meal upstairs to my cubicle and start reading some online stuff. So the chicken breading is thick enough to peel off which I do because OMG its as heavy as cement when I hear a voice behind me say, " Do you really think you should be eating that?". Its my boss and I am mostly irritated than embarrassed (although some of that feeling is there too). I stammer an expanation about removing the breading on the chicken and I cant believe that I was explaining my meal choices to him and then found some other subject to bring up. I am annoyed. Mostly because he knows that I had this surgery because I needed to get the time off and he wasnt going to give it to me. He said that it wasnt for emergency or medical reasons, and that the surgery was cosmetic, which in hindsight is wrong since our insurance would have never covered it unless there was a medical reason for it. Im annoyed because this is like the second or third time that he has scrutinized my meals. My boss is a very healthy man that eats like a bird , for health reasons, I have assumed, and maybe he means well but even my SO has never made a comment like that to me!! And maybe my SO should be making those kind of comments to me to help me stay on the straight and narrow, but what it comes down to is that the whole point of me not trying to tell the world I did this (WLS) was to not give everyone an instant opportunity to turn into the food police! This lapband is supposed to be my food police, not the casual observer that has no input and nothing to gain from my success or failure. I can understand why some people are hesitant to tell their families, friends or coworkers about their new life, because some people think that knowing it gives them a right to comment on your actions! For some, being overweight is already enough of a judgement that is being passed on to you. Someone knowing and watching your every move (or lack of movement, lol) can feel like you are under observation, because like it or not folks, watching people fail seems to be an entertaining pastime for many in our country. If it wasnt, reality shows wouldnt be so successful. Anyway- done with my rant. I know I have met my calorie quota for the day (and then some) but Im not beating myself up because I know my exercise level and how much fuel I needed to burn to make my day a successful day. Comment if you have experienced food police since you made the decision for WLS.