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Morning gals up a little atere than I wanted to be - but not really awake yet if that makes sense talk to ya'll later Have fun Judy!

Morning girls I took a muscle relaxer last night and feel so much better, a little pain this am but nothing like yesterday. I'll take another tonight and hope that will be my cure all. We are heading up to my sisters today, BIL is going to go over some stuff with me on what to expect out of this job so I can exceedingly shine at my 2nd interview. The cafe is set to open in 2 weeks, they are busting their butts now so can open a week before mothers day. That will be so good so i can pay back the loan I'm going to have to take from my mom. I am just so completely stressed out - I hate to tell her how much I need for the next 30 days. Oh well, i'll have income in 2 weeks I hope you all have a good day, it is damp and rainy here for today and tomorrow then beautiful for the rest of the week. going to get lots of yard work done

Well, it is rainy out here after a beautiful week. Here is the thing... I raked up the yard the other day and with the sun and rain, OMG, the grass is getting long and very green. Mom is going to get me a lawn mower today - it is going to rain for the 3 days and back in the high 40's but by friday it is going to be 70 here... I'll have a jungle LOL I'm so glad it is spring, now if it can just be nice enough out at night i'll start walking again. I am going to clean out the stroller so i can take ds with me, he would like to walk but would never survive the 3 mile treck i do.

Jane my house was empty for a couple of years when i moved in, I had only had 1 wolf spider experience before then. OMG, my neighbors laugh at me but i buy spider killer by the gallon and spray the entire outside of my house 3-4 times a year so they never come back. I set bombs off in the garage, I only did that once last year and there was the biggest dead spider on the floor I've ever seen. Nightmares for weeks. If i could afford the pest control I would, but it is $500 a year for them to take care of the mice. I'll stick to my gallon of spider spray> LOL My mom has a house in Sedona - she says when it rains in the spring the tranchilla's (sp) come out of the large hole in the ground to get dry, they would be everywhere, in offices, hospitals, houses, she had one just walking up her stairs.... and she wanted me to go out there... I THINK NOT

Morning girls i'm down another .5 today, slowing down i guess, but i'll take it, i'm back to my start weight for the contest so now everything I get credit for. My back has been hurting so very badly, during the day i'm not too bad, but at night, i just cant seem to lay anyway without feeling like i'm going to die. I am going to make an appt with my pcp next week I just can't function not sleeping and the pain is horrible. ughhhhhhhh have to work tonight - everyone wants me to take my hours back, i just can't do it - i miss it because i'm home but i can't go back to nights

night gals

You are my hero! I don't know where to begin to get a life and i don't have to answer to anyone You guys are going to have a great time

Tracy I am trying to hit my sweet spot after a year too, the only problem is my dr doesn't like to give fills, he is a believer in you have to work for it. I could eat a full plate of food, and I have been, I don't know why he doesn't work with Melissa though, she has never had any restriction. I would be so happy at 180 that is only 5lbs from my goal. But as my bandiversary comes up next week, I would have never in a milliion years have expected to feel so good in general and have gained any of my self confidence back, and take charge of my life, kind of, and want to go out and thrive on compliments. And to be where you are and quit smoking!!!! that is amazing. you guys are the best

Hi guys, I know this is long, as i read it I was sick to my stomach and evdn have a can of that stuff right next to my laptop! xo jen Latest Drug in Middle School - Dusting First, I'm going to tell you a little about me and my family. My name is Jeff. I am a Police Officer for a city which is known nationwide for it's crime rate We have a lot of gangs and drugs. At one point we were # 2 in the nation in homicides per capita. I also have a police K-9 named Thor. He was certified in drugs and general duty. He retired at 3 years old because he was shot in the line of duty. He lives with us now and I still train with him because he likes it. I always liked the fact that there was no way to bring drugs into my house. Thor wouldn't allow it. He would tell on you. The reason I say this is so you understand that I know about drugs. I have taught in schools about drugs. My wife asks all our kids at least on ce a week if they used any drugs. I like building computers occasionally and started building a new one in February 2005. I also was working on some of my older computers. They were full of dust so on one of my trips to the computer store I bought a 3 pack of DUST OFF. Dust Off is a can of compressed air to blow dust off a computer. A few weeks later when I went to use one of them they were all used. I talked to my kids and my two sons both said they had used them on their computer and messing around with them. I yelled at them for wasting the 10 dollars I paid for them. On February 28 I went back to the computer store. They didn't have the 3 pack which I had bought on sale so I bought a single jumbo can of Dust Off. I went home and set it down beside my computer. On March 1st, I left for work at 10 PM. Just before midnight my wife went down and kissed Kyle goodnight. At 5:30 am the next morning Kathy went downstairs to wake Kyle up for school, before she left for work. He was propped up in bed with his legs crossed and his head leaning over. She called to him a few times to get up. He didn't move. He would sometimes tease her like this and pretend he fell back asleep. He was never easy to get up. She went in and shook his arm. He fell over. He was pale white and had the straw from the Dust Off can coming out of his mouth. He had the new can of Dust Off in his hands. Kyle was dead. I am a police officer and I had never heard of this. My wife is a nurse and she had never heard of this. We later found out from the coroner, after the autopsy, that only the propellant from the can of Dust off was in his system. No other drugs. Kyle had died between midnight and 1 AM. I found out that using Dust Off is being done mostly by kids ages 9 through 15. They even have a name for it. It's called dusting. A take off from the Dust Off name. It gives them a slight high for about 10 seconds. It makes them dizzy. A boy who lives down the street from us showed Kyle how to do this about a month before. Kyle showed h is best friend. Told him it was cool and it couldn't hurt you. It's just compressed air. It can't hurt you. His best friend said so. Kyle was wrong. It's not just compressed air It also contains a propellant called R2. It's a refrigerant like what is used in your refrigerator. It is a heavy gas. Heavier than air. When you inhale it, it fills your lungs and keeps the good air, with oxygen, out. That's why you feel dizzy, buzzed. It decreases the oxygen to your brain, to your heart. IT KILLS YOU. The horrible part about this is there is no warning. There is no level that kills you. It's not cumulative or an overdose; it can just go randomly, terribly wrong. IT'S NOT AN OVERDOSE . You don't die later. Or not feel good and say I've had too much. You usually die as you're breathing it in. If not you die within 2 seconds of finishing 'the hit .' That 's why the straw was still in Kyle's mouth when he died. Why his eyes were still open. The experts want to call this huffing. The kids don't believe its huffing. And that's why its more accepted. There is no chemical reaction, no strong odor. It doesn't follow the huffing signals. Kyle complained a few days before he died of his tongue hurting. It probably did. The propellant causes frostbite. If I had only known. It's easy to say hey, it's my life and I'll do what I want . But it isn't. Others are always affected. This has forev er changed our fa mily's life. I have a hole in my heart and soul that can never be fixed. The pain is so immense I can't describe it. There's nowhere to run from it. I cry all the time and I don't ever cry. I do what I'm supposed to do but I don't really care. My kids are messed up. One won't talk about it. The other will only sleep in our room at night. And my wife, I can't even describe how bad she is taking this. I thought we were safe because of Thor. I thought we were safe because we knew about drugs and talked to our kids about them. After Kyle died another story came out. A probation Officer went to the school system next to ours to speak with a student. While there he found a student using Dust Off in the bathroom. This student told him about another student who also had some in his locker. This is a rather affluent school system. They will tell you they don't have a drug problem there. They don't even have a dare or plus program there. So rather than tell everyone about this 'new' way of gettin g high they found, they hid it. The probation officer told the media after Kyle's death and they, the school, then admitted to it. I know that if they would have told the media and I had heard, it wouldn't have been in my house. We need to get this out of our homes and school computer labs. Using Dust Off isn't new and some 'professionals' do know about. It just isn't talked about much, except by the kids. They all seem to know about it. April 2nd was 1 month since Kyle died. April 5th would have been his 15th birthday. And every weekday I catch myself sitting on the living room couch at 2:30 in the afternoon and waiting to see him get off the bus. This Officer is asking for everyone who receives this email to forward it to everyone in their address book, even Law Enforcement Officers!

Hi guys Tracyks- Hugs - I can honestly tell you that I understand, dbf is more mental than ever and has admitted that he is extremely jealous of me and is afraid i'm going to find someone else.... and this really does make him more mental than ever... it is like a freaking roller coaster ride oh... ladies... just in case you are wondering... i still love him and probably always will, but i don't know if that matters anymore... to me... good sign huh Pam - glad you are good, and enjoy the R&R and the pampering Tracyk - I have a friend who is on the board, she was banded Last March, Melissa, shee posted for me remember? Anyway - she has not lost much since surgery - had her port fixed - still not loosing, she does look great but our Dr only has her at 1.75! I was telling her today that was it? I know others that are almost maxed. I'm glad you are eating again. I only have 1.25 and think now I could go to 1.5 or 1.6 and go to the next level Kat - that is a horrible story about your friend. I'm reading it and sadly thinking to myself... that is why i can't meet a normal guy... they are all with the crazy women. LOL Well, don't know what to do with myself, just had a cup of sliced sub type lettuce, 3oz tuna with salsa and 1oz provolone cheese. I'm going to add to those numbers if it kills me!

It has been so nice here this week, not it is damp, chilly and raining on and off all day and is going to continue all weekend. I did most of my running, getting ready to tan and run to the bank but don't have any money and loosing it staying in the house. i just want to go to bed

Reflux sounds horrible, I'm afraid I have some going on or part of my allergies. I get post nasal drip that tends to make me lose my voice every spring and either that is beginning or i have reflux happening, it is not burning but feels like i scratched the back of my throat to the point of being irritated, but no pain, no back ups...and for the last year I've been eating hot sauce like it is my job. I have never stayed in Vegas, 8 years ago, I went to LA and ran through the airport and that is about it, a 20 minute visit.

Morning gals Pam - HUGS you are in my thoughts this am I have a busy day, have to go to my aunts this morning and take care of her meds then i'm going to meet dbf so we can withdraw our family court petition. I only filed one because he filed one to lower. Remember that, it was months ago and still being dragged out? Anyway - he wanted to drop his and asked if i would drop mine. I can go back at change of circumstance so when he gets his settlement we can go back (or when dd needs braces next year). Well, scale is down another lb today, i'm officially back to my contest weight plus i got a visit from TOM today - I lost track time of but the good thing is, hope to lose a lb or 2 when it is gone, plus it will be gone right before our trip. How nice Anyway Hope everyone has a good day Kat - glad Rick is keeping you busy, you are in my prayers and will be waiting to hear about your allergies... Did you go back to old glasses? Are you feeling better?

Night all KAT WHERE ARE YOU???????????

How depressing I just went on to my ticker to get a little info... how sad, I've only lost 12lbs since November. I'm ready to run to the nearest bridge :redface:

Hi I have been laid off 2 times in the last 18 months and just found out today because of where I had been the last year that I cannot get unemployment from the company that just laid me off from lack of work. I did go to school after the first time but because no experience in the new career choice, could not get a job. After this last layoff - I have been extremely depressed and I take it personally and have to wonder what could I do different or what I did that was so wrong. I guess just saying, it is not easy and there could be lots going through his head, but it is all about choices, sit around and do nothing or take charge and do something. I got my last job with an agency and it was suppose to be perm and they have already have been working hard to get me a job, and I go for my 2nd interview and am the top canidate with a major commercial construction company (the job to go with the education I've been working on). Congrats on the surgery!

Heather, I have always been a semi cheap date and i went 9-10 months without a drink, and now, no physical issues but OMG, 1/2 decent drink and i'm done and when I finish the entire thing, call me a cab.

I need to venture out on the site more, just gets so overwhelming This is such a great idea

Michelle I'm well within +/- 5% with my ticker weight... so you are safe. when and when all is said and done before our trip...or May 1... what is the contest date? you will still be able to ad a lb or 2 or 3 or 4... now if this was the other day, we would have been in trouble. LOL

Go TracyK!!!! That was an amazing post - very impressive. I shave every day so i would have to cut all my hair off to get 5lbs. LOL. Well with that much antibiotics you should be clear of any issues for our trip. Lets hope I get this job so I can afford to go... Hey Judy - you are amazing Happy Bandiversary!!!!!

Hi gals Well today has been a day to say the least I got my garage cleaned, what a mess. We have a section full of stuff, my mom is having a garage sale for the Susan G. Koleman breast cancer walk. She has to raise $2300 to be able to do the walk, then walk 20 miles a day for 3 days. She did it last year and is doing it again in Boston MA this year. I am only getting $94 a week from unemployment - $25 because I work a day and they are taking it from my step mom... are you kidding me??? I can't do that to her, and i can work 5 hrs and make that amount of money WTF? On a happy note, I have a 2nd interview on Tuesday with the construction company and I am their top canidate. They are going to want me to do some kind of "task" for them so I'm going over to talk to my BIL on Sunday and get some pointers (he owns a construction company) but he knows i'm perfect for the job and will get it. I don't know the start date, 4-5 weeks.... holy shit... no money until then... I'm having a slight panic attack today and just don't know what i'm going to do. Anyway, Pam, if i had money I'd be there in a second. LOL Michelle, so proud of you Tracyks - maybe you can hook up with someone for a free TT??? HMMMMMMMMMMMM or you can always send them my way. LOL

That is just absolutely amazing. I hope to add some more to that... help it get to 850 by our trip????? I'm sure that Michelle all by herself will get our total to 850 >LOL That is only a total of 17lbs in a month between divided out... doable

NICE!!! my big mouth just gets me in trouble!

LOL Laura, that was my thought too Tracyks - Did I write that?????????? That sounds like my story to a T except that dbf is now mental more mental than ever and 1 day he is freaking, and the next not. I'm sure he is backed off the last couple of weeks because my bar is closed for a month or 2, it has been 4 weeks and I'm going through withdrawl. I only had a drink or 2 when out but it was my place, I stayd away for a long time because i Hated who I became so now I get such compliments that I love going just to feel good about me. And when I'm there he can tell with my attitude so he can tell when i'm home a lot too, I need ego booster but I'm getting more independent every day and I love it! Pam- Since I posted my start weight, I gained 7lbs!!!! I have lost 5 of that this week but shit.. I'm feeling the same way, and does 7lbs feel like I was right back at 278... how strange is that? It was enough for me to get back to shakes and tuna only. I was starving at work last night but everytime I was going to eat something i just put it back and told my self what a cow I was and I didn't need it and that my dr is going to be so disappointed in me next week, let alone myself! Anyway, I'm going to relax for a few then head out to work on cleaning my garage

YEAH MICHELLE - go you It stinks i was back up but going down was enough to keep me from eating last night at the pizza shop too