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HUGS Kat tonight was margarita night, so since i have been on liquid/mushie... 1 great margarita (keri-rita - a margarita recipe from my ds's speech therapist) and I'm done.

I am doing laundry and going through clothes once again. I packed the clothes that I want to share in the bottom, going to put a towel in between them and put my clothes on top. I'll just bring my laptop bag with me on the plane which is big enough for a book or entertainment. The clothes I dont bring back will leave room for my buys

oh Judy I really do and I know my violet sisters will help me relax Starting to work will be good for me too, and away from family and the BS plus i'll get to work with guys, so maybe a little flirt now and then will help me feel better about myself.

ok, I just wanted to make sure I didn't upset anyone. That is all that is important to me. Yup, that is me, crap jobs and i can't commit to anyone or anything right now I have laundry going and i'm going to get it all done and away or gone today and pull out my suitcase and start putting stuff in there that I know I'm not going to wear before then.

Cute idea, i don't know if i'll have room. I have 1 pr of pants, i have not put them on in a while but maybe when dd gets home i'll have her take a pic, I need some motivation to get the last 25 gone. I need a good laugh NSV - i got my rings on this morning for the first time in oh..... 10 years

Haydee, thanks and a bit better, not great but better. I just don't want to offend any of you :coolgleamA: Laura, i'm the same, friday and monday is when I have to check, they will have my cell number and I will not bring my wrk phone. I'm going to try to do dishes and straighten up the kitchen, the crazy kittens are eating my laptop as I type

Morning everyone, i'm awake and drinking coffee. DD did her dishes this am so I can move forward. it is raining again but I can at least tackle something today and it is not so overwhelming. I had such a killer migraine last night by time I went to bed I couldn't think, I'm going to have my coffee and take a pill. I need to get my clothes ready for my meeting on thursday morning because I'm working tomorrow and Thurs night. I hope to have a better idea Thursday on when i'm going to start so I can give Pizza shop a time when I need to be replaced. Well I'm down to my ticker weight this morning, so that is -5lbs from my contest start weight but only 3lbs away from Onderland again, which to me is the most important thing. Hope you all have a good day, and again, I'm sorry if i said something to someone here:frown:

Michelle, glad your cat came back db acknowledged my breakdown today and actually came over to care for me for a bit, i just needed to snuggle and nap and tan, now i'll be up all night and as i type mom comes in and gets in my face asking me what my problem is and if i got off my ass and did something i would feel better. nice to know my 2 weeks of yard work and stuff has all been worth my 1 day off I f'n give up

Night everyone i'm going to bed, i have a serious headache from my deep thoughts and sadness today make it a great one!

You guys are so funny I am counting down the days, I so need to get out of here

Haydee - Kat hit the nail on the head OMG here is my fear... I would get the smaller dress and not fit into it or be a tight squeeze, I would feel like such a failure and even worse about myself, ( I'm good at beating myself up) I am sure you are going to be amazing in it either way!

You guys are funny today something has to make me smile, i can always count on ya'll

Losingjustme - first of all, i've kind of followed you and what an inspiration you are.!!!! I did add that too, I do drink Protein Drinks, but OMG my dr is so against them, he thinks you are not learning to eat properly. I did do them but didn't make them too thick and waited until I could move on to the dairy phase. I was golden by the book,

My best advice, follow your dr's instructions, but hope some of those things give you some ideas.

I'm just a week over my year out and it is funny, I just got a fill, the first one in a long time that has done anything for me, but I decided to go back to post surgery diet so I've had to back track. After day 8 of my 2 week clear liquid stage, I could not have 1 more cup of plain broth so i went to a sub shop and got some french onion Soup with out the topping (bread and cheese) and put it in my magic bullet to make liquid, was a little thick but not as filling as the creamy Soups. After plain warm broth that was fantastic. Because I know I can have more, I added some lean ground beef to it this time to make a little thicker and added Protein ( I don't know if I would do that post surgery) That was satisfying for a few more days, then tried cream soups but all the good ones had hard veggies in them or just didn't do it for me. Stage 2 beginning mushie stage for me: I made the insides of stuffed shells, ric cheese, seasoning, egg, parm cheese parsley mixture and put sauce over it and baked for mushie stage. Refried Beans with a little melted cheese and lots of salsa to keep moist was another one of my favorites. I put everything in the 3-4 oz cups that you can get at the store, the disposable tupperware type things, and never filled them. What ever you do... just make is mushie and take it slow! Good luck! Oh, today is day 5 of my fill and I just had some ricotta cheese today and it was good. I needed to remind myself what it is all about. Take care

OMG I just typed out this big email and lost it!!!!!!!!!!!1 Summary Haydee - here would be a question - if you stayed with the 18 could you have it altered before the wedding??? Or what if it was too big and you needed to order another size how would that work? Me personally I am mental and have so many things I bought a size smaller because I know I would fit into them... needless to say I have now given most of them away because they are either not in style or.... i totally passed that size. I'm still loosing but not as fast so I guess those are just questions I would have to help make a decision. I am so sad today, all the things you gals are posting are things that have been overwhelming me. I have cried most of the afternoon. I feel like I know it is time to turn down the next road, and I can see that turn, but like i have to say good bye to the old one. Maybe that is good, but still sad, and still overwhelming. I don't trust anyone in my life or much of anything. I don't trust part of my family and don't trust people I just met or don't know well. It is a very sad thing, what kind of life is this... but hope just a transition... I so need our weekend to just have fun with people whom i trust and know better than most in my RL

Judy, what a difference. Holy smokes!!!!! and what a great NSV

I LOVE my flat iron, dd and I use it every day (she has my nasty hair) to the point where the spring just went in it.

Judy so true, Jane - she is right but I guess what i was saying was that I understood where you were coming from and you are not alone I'm freaking might even start packing today.

Jane funny, because I was kind of stressing because I feel like I'm huge and will be such a failure in comparison to some, that is the summary, but you said it best

OK last post for a bit DS is so tired and nuts.... he is driving me crazy! I don't want to waste gas to take him to the sitter to lounge around today. but tomorrow, I might just do it... But I'll miss them when i'm in SA :wink2:

Tracy - OMG you brought tears to my eyes for you and you look so amazing and happy

Suzie That is great but I do understand. I still feel huge, OK not huge but as I tell people I lost close to 80lbs, I think OMG, I was just so disgusting and how did I ever get that way? Over the weekend I ran into a friend at the bank, I have not seen her since the month before my surgery, she had the bypass and had some issues but she is 4 years out and still looks amazing, she has gained 15lbs but is aware of it and going to get it back off, she is very tall and actually I think she could have used it, she almost looked too thin. Anyway, her sister is considering banding and will not do bypass after watching her sister so I think it was fate that I ran into her. She has lost friends and had people saying she was on Crack and that was why she lost so much weight. People are just Horrible! So we are going to get together and catch up. She also knows the insurance TT tricks! Yipee Terry - Hugs on today!

Morning gals What a weekend, worked the entire thing, my body hurts in places I forgot I had, it has been a long time since I worked like this, or so it seems. Went out sat night after work, have still been on liquids and only had 2 drinks, thank goodness they were not strong. I had on a pr of jeans, my fav big flip flops and a black halter top, (that was how I went to work -flip flops) NSV a friend was hanging all over me, not really in that sense but kept telling me how amazing I looked and that there was something different about me. (with a big smile) Yesterday, I took dd shopping for her great report card and got her some new clothes and me a new halter top, skirt and water shoes from Target and sundress from Walmart. The skirt was a 16 which I'm ok with because I could never wear target skirts at all but the dress...it was a size 14!!!! I cannot remember the last time I was in a 14, the green one was my favorite but the zipper was broken at the bottom so I sent dd out to get the brown one, she was mia forever so i opened the door and walked out... The young girls at the desk were like OMG you look great in that ... not many people can wear that style and not look pregnant, which was what I was afraid of. Then I put the brown one on and got dd's opinion and then went back out to the girls. 1 loved the brown (so did dd) and the other (and me) liked the green. So I got the brown because the zipper was ok. I guess the brown one makes my itty bitties look bigger too (so i was told) And... down another lb today to boot, I'm now -2 for the contest and 1 more and i can change my ticker again. I raised it a couple the other day when it was telling me i was a loser for not changing it in 80 days. LOL Rainy and cold here, so ds and I are just going to hang today, he planted with gram yesterday went to bed at 10 and is up already, it is going to be a long day!

You guys are funny I too am bringing a large suitcase so I can have room to bring stuff back and a small carry on. I so need my hair done today but don't have the cash so it kind of works out, I'm going to go next week and it will be perfect for our trip. Who knows, I need more chocolate in my hair so I am not sure what color it will be