Jennifur

Morning all need to do some serious catching up today but off to work now. We had a blast this weekend.... but this morning i was doing my am throwing up and there was some blood (noticible but small amount) in there.... could i have possibly torn something flying down the water slide? I'm a little freaked out anyway... PAM (((hugs))))) I'm sorry talk to ya all later

Hey all just a quick hello, i'll catch up later i'm off to Six Flags MA with my dd and friends for her birthday.... I'm so excited for a lot of reasons 1. I don't have to leave early to go to work 2. I'm 40lbs lighter than the last time I was there 3. I have another grown up going to playwith me have a great day

Morning everyone I'm exhausted.... worked an 11 hr day then right to the dr... Loosing so much hair it is scaring me... drew blood, came home for 30 mins to eat a buffalo chicken tender and then went to BJ's to stock up, and get burgers and fries, today is dd's bday and she wants cheese burgers and cheese fries (pms week too. lol) and brownie sundays instead of cake.... soooooooo leaving in 15 mins for work then runnin home to cook for her and her friends then maybe pass out... at least i'm keeping myself occupied. OMG... X-mas.... count me in....... but we were talking about that yesterday... mom told ds he could get a wii and wii fit for his bday... I freaked.... I said how about community xmas present.... she had no clue how much they are... my neighbor has a wii fit and ds plays with her... he is a yoga master, it is so funny have a good day everyone

morning have a good day

hi everyone I'm off to bed.. long hard day and was doing well until mom made popcorn.... shit can't do that... it is something i can eat..... oh well... talked to a guy i recently met today... going to see the Police and Elvis Costello friday night and he is going too... maybe we can meet???????? thanks all

Morning gals omg... 2 days and 4pages... i must have lost 100post with no puter. Thanks all for your support.... me... I'm a sap... I love him and not ready to get rid of him... BUT... I am ready to open my heart up and maybe go on a date or 2 ... it is a start... and who knows.. maybe i'll meet someone who will sweep me off my feet... As for food... didn't eat much.. 2 oz pulled pork and then some multi grain chips and a south beach protein bar... did get my 64+oz of water in. I'm late for work... will be back later Tracyks- I'm addicted to the pulled pork nachos... mmmmmmmmmmmm .. just like the ones from lunch that day... I make pulled pork every week... dd loves it and it is something i can choke down even on a bad day.. and good protein.....when i'm really feeling hungry... not often... i will put black beans, homemade salsa (for tomatoes and onions) a little shredded lettuce and hot peppers... oh and 2% cheese of course... Have not lost but have not gained either.... ttfn love you guys

Today is not really a good day.... after he looked me in the eyes and lied right to me... i have not heard from him.... nothing..... not a word... no hi, sorry .. f' you... kiss my ass... nothing... i woke up sick as a dog ad have been crying all day......and he went so far out of his way... i just don't get it anyway... maybe he is packing up and will just show up... yeah... i almost believe that one.... i just don't know why he would say such things that would make me hurt more it is going to be a long few weeks

hey gals Thanks... today was a bad day..... kev and i met and hugged and loved and nothing... he is still not here.... (and love didn't invove sex) my heart is completely broken, he has 4 days and i am moving on. . . Actually, i'm getting ready to head out with a couple of friends... Kat and Pamela.... thank you and I love you both..... vodka is probably not the answer but i do need to get through the next 4 days then i'm out looking for someone to share my life with.... because what i've soul searched the last 2 months... and while with all you guys in SA.... is that I want the big deal.... no just what i've had and not for someone to care for me... but about me love you all for your support....... it was just a bad day..... and when all is said an done i'm not going to drink anymore love ya

Hi guys well... no verdict... still not here is ... if he is telling lies they sure are good ones ... last night told me he was renting a uhaul today... so i'm a mess... got up and made a huge Breakfast, eggs, grits, hash browns, sausage, and corned beef hash... of course i picked but kids were happy.... i'm going through a slight meltdown right now not knowing what he is doing... and going to mow the lawn in a few...to distract myself i'll keep you all posted... that is if i'm sober later... because vodka has been my very best friend for the last 3 days

Morning gals just wanted to check in... lots of work to do... i'm gutting my kitchen in 3 weeks and want to get everything else in order so i only have 1 huge mess. Haydee - first... you are so beautiful... I agree with Tracyks ...LOL I don't know who you guys are talking about because I don't watch tv so much... but I wish I could find someone to help me over come my eating and emotional issues... I know I've come a long long way but I'm stuck and mental. I use to use my flex account for my head dr, who i love but not for food issues. I should call my insurance and find out if there is someone. Jane - I am so sorry... I didn't think it was possible for a dr to be more of a hard ass than mine but that is just not right. I lost my thought.... shoot HI everyone I'm off to the store to get stuff to make dd breakfast... I could not sleep and it ticked me off... back in the day i could sleep til noon... I'm exhausted but guess I have a ton on my mind, kev... kitchen... money...I woke up because i was having a dream about framing out the stairs in my kitchen and then just couldn't get it off my mind...ughhhhhhh, at least it is nice today, and since i'm loosing my tan i'll nap in the pool later. hugs and kisses

Laura you are so tall and tiny... so even though you might not see it, maybe you are just adjusting or shifting to your last loss? You can do it. Terry... I agree with what you said 100%. I am so stressed I am mental... Today is the day for Kev to shit or get off the pot...so needless to say i'm a mess...and a different kind of mess than normal with him, almost a "omg.... my life is going to change and I'm not going to be single anymore".... maybe this is really it? I feel like pre wedding jitters type of thing.... If you don't hear from me later you know he is here and we are getting things settled ttfn

Morning gals just a quick hi... running late Hey... Just heard about Dolly? You gals ok ?? hugs and kisses

just checking in to say goodnight I actually went to bed at 7 and woke up for a drink and going back to bed. i am beat! I am afraid to weigh myself, i feel like 1 night at the pizza shop did me in .....

Morning gals Terry, glad mom is better... Yes... hanging with all kinds of people... I don't really have anyone in mind for the wedding because me... well I have high hopes... but trust me... i will go from hanging with the boys for searching for one to date and bring to the wedding. Army guy is in AL somewhere... I don't remember the city because I am only familiar with Navy bases but he was really nice.... too bad so far away Well, 6am and i'm off to work... i'm tired today Have a great day everyone

Hi guys a quick check in and hello... Tracyk - how did you get back? boy I missed a lot... ok the race is on? I'm kind of stuck again, i need to get going too. Oh well... Couldn't have anything to do with the parties at work we have.. which is where i'm coming from... Hi all... so glad to be back

Terry... I'm so sorry about your mom.... HUGS

Morning everyone What a great feeling.... drinking my coffee checking in with my gals... I so missed that. Where to start... I have been a little stressed out... love my job but was only part time and it was costing me $175 a week just for gas to get there so i got behind on my bills again, Kev... (don't need to say any more about that)... I met a guy... and we have been hanging out... but it is all fun, he doesn't want anything and we all know i'm too mental over kev to be in a full swing relationship... so works out great..... The boys on the job ... OMG... I've have lots of offers... but I'm not ready... August I will be... remember I gave Kev a deadline... and I don't know if i'm ready to give him up but after Aug 1 I will look for something more serious with someone else. I might have been borderline ready since I got back in May. I am holding 203 which sucks but i'm happy there for now...I between loosing again, not able to eat right and the stress... I lost so much more hair it is disgusting... it would have been ok but since i lost the same amount last year i actually have bald spots. So.... Problem #1 solved, I turned in my lease early and got a Malibau - it was a rental, 2007... my car payment is $50 less a month and gas is $50-70 a week so that is a huge help... Work problem... I went from working 20 hrs a week to 45.. The owner of the company and VP and my direct boss loves me and I think they are going to offer me a job...and I got an offer from a local construction company for next spring when this job is over. so this is the best thing in the world for me!!! Boy problem.... we will see in 2 weeks.. .but I am invited to lots of social events, infact, Monday night I'm going to an event for the place I'm building which is a beer distribution warehouse and there are lots of people. Hair problem... don't know about that either... but i'm going to the dr on the 30th so i'll see.... Denise.... your house is beautiful Pamela = you are right I so deserve that... but $300 later i have my laptop back... so now you get me back I'll be in and out today, I worked at the pizza shop last night and i have not done that since June 1 so my ass is kicked, i'm going to get my nails done and hope the sun comes out so i can nap in the sun... we are having a steak bbq today and then i'm going to see my other friend tonight... not sure whhere we are going yet. I am not caugt up reading... and maybe more than 15 pages...

guess what..... I GOT MY COMPUTER BACK!!!!!!!!!!!! I miss you guys so much... I have a lot of catching up to do (boy has it been crazy) but the first thing I did was email my army friend (remember him???) because he was looking for me and now i'm here checking in. I have to write a book to fill you all in... so i'll work on that later Laura, I did get your email, my phone is so full it has been freaking out... I've had several slips and every time i do something "blonde" I laugh about that. Terry.... thanks... Everyone... I have 15 pages to read and i'll catch up with you all... HUGS AND KISSES Oh... I'm finally working full time and love my boys... almost all of them... LOL

oh.. my sweet roomie= thanks for teaching me how to take a pic... i took one driving down the road, was not smiling but looked great otherwise... not looking up but with the camera up in the air.... i'll post it tomorrow

I do love it... and Pam... well... they all visit me every day but the same 6 all the time... in another 2 weeks I will have a real home there, electricity and .... hmmmmmmmmm 10 crews at 1 time and they will have to come sign in with me.. like i am the gate keeper... we went to the bar for dinner, i tried wings, ate 3 and choked... so now i'm having a good night drink and heading to bed. 4:30 comes early anyway someone who i had not seen in months was there and she was staring me up and down with the holy shit look..... felt great anyway... off to bed... love ya all

Ok final pic... where the dozers are... that is the future parking lot... That is my hardhat... and yes... the sams 20oz water bottle is full of crystal light rasp green tea I only share my port o pot with my boss right now... the workers have their own on the other side... so I'm drinking my 80oz a day As for the pic attached to this... see in the far right corner the dumpster? well, besides that is bigger than my office... that is where they decided my new perm trailer that is scheduled for delivery the 13th will be located. I'll post pics of that too. Anyhoo... I'm off to pick up ds, i got out of work early because it was raining and came home to catch up in the quiet!

Yes I am finally online. I hit an email so I could catch up (went back to my last post) So ... where do I start? I miss you all terribly, I miss coffee in the morning and laughing so hard i can't stand straight from the pain in my stomach. Jane... did you ever get the batteries???? Kat - how are you feelin'? Tracyk- congrats .... I think you will be so happy Michelle, Hey... what ever the question was... I raised my hand. Tracyks- omg you should go on another "you" trip or do something special for you... I hope those boys appreciate you.... don't you miss the quiet sitting on the porch reading??? Terry - did you already go back or going this weekend??? maybe you can find your way up north to have coffee here.. Pam - you must be so glad school is almost done? Laura - your dad is chartering a plane and taking us to Vegas??? LOL Denise - nice to see you are around,... how is the grandchild? you must be loving it! Haydee - hey there girlfriend.... thanks again for the presents... they were really good... how's things going with you? Judy - How are you doing... been enjoying the hot tub? Do you go in when it is hot outside? We are about to get a mid july hotspell this weekend - how is it there? Me... well, I just started eating this week, I was only having a chicken tender if that a day and obviously in starvation mode and didn't lose an ounce. I am forcing myself to eat... like day 1. I made a fresh mozz cheese & tomatoe salad, have 1/3 cup of that every day. Found these great pretzels, they are from Snyders, and are buffalo wing flavor... which is great and satisfying for me since that is what I crave. have 1/3 cup of those a day, a south beach diet breakfast bar, 10g protein 140 cal and I made pulled pork and have 1/4 -1/2 cup of that for dinner. I just started that Tuesday and finally going down again... was 202 this morning, almost back to onderland. My job... hmmmmmmmmmm I LOVE IT. I am completely exhausted getting up at 430 and working and driving for an hour every day, taking care of house, pool, lawn, dinners for kids... i've been falling asleep on the couch at 5pm getting up and doing a little more and in bed by 9:30. DD had needed her computer for end of the year projects and I just have not had the energy to really care or deal with my computer. I still don't know what i'm going to do... but i miss it....I use it for so many things and i go to reach for it and it is gone. Anyway... I'm going to see if i can post some pics I took today at work ... I was the only one there and was fooling around... they were digging right where I was and got great shots I'm going to keep my puter on for a day or 2, i need to do some work so i'll be around love and miss you all hey there suzie... get that ac on???

i miss you guys just a quick check in to let you all know i'm alive. I know... maybe you all think i'm an early riser but that is honestly far from the truth... 5am is killing me, and I have a 12 hr day tomorrow work is great but i miss you guys i actually for the first time skipped right to the end ... 4 pages Haydee, thanks for the package.. i ate a serving and am sick. LOL Pam... you are sooooo sweet. miss ya'll, i'll catch up in a day or so, i'm actually going to bed in 20 mins... that is a shocker too

I can do that????? I'll play later done running on my way to get ds

Tracy how is Robbie doing? I think in the 15 pages of post i saw he was hurt pretty badly?