Jennifur

Here are my kitties, the smaller one (Maroke is her name) is the one who ate the mouse poison that i have to give vit K to every night

I have to take new pictures with the walls down and the fridge moved... but here was up to last Friday

Hi Pamela - how sad about the twins, they are in my prayers Tracy - ok tomorrow your on girlfriend... (I didn't bring lunch today so i was out of control) Laura - I was so drugged up i let everyone in.... My best friend from when I was 4 walked in and said.. OMG when did that get pierced... it was a party... btw, she was the one who went in for my emergency csection. and you do look so cute

Mornng gals it is so cold here today......YUCK I won't turn myy heat on yet so it is hard to get out of bed. Mom is going to take pictures today at some point and i'll post them later. Before, with no cabinets and with no walls and ceilings. My house is a disgusting mess but will be so nice when done. I hope everyone has a good day, thinking of you all...

Hey all quick check in and i'm going to bed. I'm tired. Worked on the kitchen all weekend. Completely gutted except some nails I need to pull. I love my mom - I'm doing all the work and she is buying the stuff.... so on that happy note, insulation was on sale for $9 a roll so we went to get it, and we looked at lights, i got a track light, a small light and ceiling fan for the kitchen while we were there. What a great xmas present (this is my gift) I'm going to pull nails tomorrow and and start insulating, and go get sheet rock before Wed, that is on sale for $6 each too. TracyKS - first... Happy Birthday! Second.. it will work, and honestly, I cried when I read what you wrote, because it is very similar to what I say daily. Tracyk- now that w e are back to the same again... I guess I better get going to keep up this time Pamela - thanks... Everyone.... hey - i'm g oing to pass out Just wanted to check in and not completely vansih love ya all

Morning everyone Judy, I was thinking of you ... that you must have a cruise coming up soon. Tracyks - how exciting.... can't wait to hear details Terry - That is great about your new addition. I love dogs, but the reality is my kids can't breathe... so i'll keep my kittens Haydee - yeah, i'm a little nervous myself. I'm going alone but then again i'm doing it to meet different people Tracy, Jane, Michelle, Kay - how are you guys doing I had a long post and lost it so this is th summary. Yesterday was a better day, I guess I can't change or beat myself up forever about what i've done, just move on and grow. I'll post pics of my kitchen this weekend, the ceiling is down and the walls started coming down last night, they will be gone by saturday. I'm so tired, can't wait to sleep in - it's cold and dark here now

Good Morning gals All I can say is Thank you... and i do love you all. Terry - I am really not in a good place to bail, and if I left tomorrow i would feel like I was running at this point. BUT... I know that my 4 year plan is going to happen. Either TX or SC but it will happen. I found a place last night for a beginner line dancing lessons. I can't start this week because i have too much going on the next 5 days (dumpster coming to get ri of my ceiling and walls and construction mess) but I'm going. Yesterday I have officially decided to make the changes to get out of what is bringing me down and I'm doing it! I am still in a bad place but going to pick my ass up and make new friends. I was talking to one of my very best friends, and we both decided that I am much happier when I'm down south. She agreed, but said I would have the same problems, and yes, maybe I would but.... they would not be the same people pulling me down! A step... that is all I can do... Anyway- hope you all have a good day and thanks for your support.

just wanted to say hey i don't have health insurance so there is no help for me, i can't afford to live let alone pay for help doesn't matter didn't want a pitty party, i'm beating myself up enough. i was offered a job in buffalo yetserday but i don't want to leave the cold to go colder an snowier - all i know is there are things i love about here but things i need to get out of - the life has been sucked out of me - people here suck, no social groups or anything that i don't have to travel 1-2 hrs for oh well.... life will go on.....it has to even if i don't care i'll check in soon

hi gals just a quick check in Tracyks- congrats Terry - glad you made it through your mom's service Tracyk - hey there ... you feeling better? Jane - you got sick too? Kat - glad you are feeling better Denise - what cute grand babies! Laura - how are you feeling these days? any better? Suzie - you still working hard? Gina - hey there... i Pamela- I'm so sorry about your dad... and somehow missed your drunk post... I'm sure it was funn Judy - hi - don't you guys have a trip coming up? Well - me, I'm just super depressed, I went to the date by myself, and I thought I convinced myself i wwas ok with it... but 5 drinks and a small pc of fish later... I hooked up with a boy... (judy cover your ears)... and that was all it was ... a hook up... and I did naughty things in public... and with a 24 year old!!!!! can't i go to jail for that... ? what a charmer he was.. Anyway, when all was said and done i instantly hated myself for what i did and have come to realize i have not an ounce of self respect for myself. I am a month behind on my mtg and don't have money until Friday and there is just nothing i can do about it and hope that will not be too horribly late where they freak. I'm so depressed i'm not sleeping and eating horribly because i can't get much down and keep it down. and no health insurance until 11/1 and i have to pay for it again... like i need another expense! anyway, enough of me... just know what a horrible person I am and I'm sorry I am not here like I should be. I miss you guys but i'm just so down I don't want to bring anyone with me. Love you all!

just a quick hello i'm tired... got all the new cabinets at my house, rest came in today... 1 layer of wall and ceiling off the kitchen, closed the pool, got the front yard mowed and most of it cleaned up for fall, just need to finish the jungle back yard and gut the kitchen. oh and to boot, i have been visiing the obgyn at least 1 time a week, i don't have health insurance after 10/1 and i'm bleeding so badly i'm in the bathroom every hour at least. I have to go back for a consult tomorrow to find out some lab results and determine what we are going to do in November when new insurance should kick in. I just don't know how to deal with all this i am glad that everyone else is doing better or getting there talk to you all soon

Hi guys checking in, Judy - thanks for the updates Tx gals,.... glad you are ok... how about Haydee other than no power? is her house ok Kat - LOVE YOU!!!! Pamela - I thought it was you who did Zumba..... LOL... i remember too Michelle - you go girl... Tracyks, Jane hey i feel like i'm missing everyone so tired, got up and left at 6 for work bbq and meetings, out at 4:30 to go pick up u-haul and cabinets, unloaded and returned the truck and just getting home, Can't see straight. Oh... Judy, you are right i'll land on my feet, always do, just a rough spell, just want it all to be good again... doesn't even have to be as good as it use to be... just even anyway... talk to ya'll when I can tomorrow is going to be a long day too

Hey gals I am going to bed, this is crazy week.... ok out of control... walking, going to the gym, working, gyno, cyst, lots of pain, running out of health insurane 10/1 so i can either rush and fix my insides or .... wait until 11/1 when my new ins kicks in. I am exhausted and so financially tapped, I'm just so on overload I didn't take a before of ds play room which is in the works of being my laundry room... but i'm going to take pics of my empty, now dirty kitchen with no table before they take the cabinets out Saturday. My sister called freaking out, they are taking the cainets out of her house tomorrow, so ran like a crazy woman to get a u haul truck there so they will load them for me. It is going to take me forever but it will be nice when I'm done I'm goingto bed..... I had personals for everyone but i'm just out of control tired and can't think love ya'l

morning gals we got left overs of Ike, lost power at 1am Sunday night, it was tropical here and so windy. I couldn't sleep because 1, it was so hot, and 2, because I was afraid i was not going to get up.... long day yesterday. My boss was home in Buffalo and experienced the same thing. I'm mental eating, my tummy feels so bloated but my legs and arms are shrinking. I don't get it Kat - omg... that just sounds horrible, take care of you! Laura - take it easy - forced bedrest is not fun Tracyk and Terry - so glad you guys are ok Haydee is ok but would love to see her Michelle, I love being set up on the Y, does yours have fitlinxx? I love that I account for everything I do there. Jane hey there Suzie - are you still motivated Pamela - you sound crazy busy - but must be an amazing teacher Tracyks- hey there sister - enjoying your new kitchen? I know i'm forgetting someone, i'm sorry not intentional I got up early to walk but I think i'm going to pass and do Water aerobics tonight - i'm getting out of work early and it is freezing here this morning. Talk to you all later

Hi gals So glad Terry and Tracy are ok, anyone hear from Haydee????? I'm just checking in... so i don't get completely in a horrible place, so busy i'm just exhausted. Going to try to get the floor down in the laundry room today - found out Thursday my cabinets will be here in 3 weeks.... how can i do that? I thought 8-10 overwhelmed is an understatement Tracyks - you are so good (picture day) anyway hey everyone.... i'll be back later

Tracy, Terry and Haydee. Stay safe and let us know you are ok from time to time... ya'll are in my prayers My stress level just picked up 100000 times, my sister is going to have cabinets for me in 3 weeks... what happened to 8-10? I'm not ready, i'm going to be working my ass off Plus, so stressed can't even choke down coffee today... WTF... you know that is bad for me. Stress ... a bad thing

Morning gals Tracyk- I am so there with you, I am in a bad place too and feel like a cow, the stupid scale is not moving, I can't eat much and have been working out like a fool - 2 weeks now ... and can't get that 6lbs off, it is frustrating. I know 6lbs... big deal... but you guys all kicked my butt - i've been stuck here since my fill. I think monday i'm doing liquid diet - to get back on track I called the guy from the bar last night, that was a big thing, I'm going to see him this weekend. Might invite him up for a drink tonight if i see him in my travels Kat -- that is so awesome! I got teary when I was reading that story. Anyway - off to get ready, I'm going to have coffee with my friend Kim on my way to the train station to pick up one of the boys Have a great day

I'm home from the gym quiet here today Kat - I'm glad you are at least eating something. I love multi grain chips, i make nachos with them ya know it is funny, i was out of control eating this weekend and then on my obgyn's suggestion, I started taking my flinstone vitimin/minearls.... I am not throwing up but feel sick enough that i'm not even hungry and when I do eat can't eat much... could be some left overs from when I was just throwing u[ like crazy a couple week s ago ... who knows... but if my scale doesn't move i'm going to lose my mind. I lost my meagurements from pre surgery which really stinks but i have a starting point from now... my belly is 1" bigger and my leg measurements are 2" smaller, which is odd for me anyway sorry about all the typos i just realized, fingers not working gym at night when walking a huge site and climbing all day is bad... i need to go in the am oh and kat... yes i am pretty pissed off still.... not to worry i will have a firm date for the wedding this weekend!

Tracy- i'll scan it tomorrow at work and post it from there. I can tell you but i've altered a bit, enough that i just put he stuff in it. My mom got me the best slow cooker cook book in the world. anyway, going to work out and swim lessons

hi everyone bad place bills are piling up and I'm stressing and i just got a court date for a dental bill Kev "took care of" on 8/12 - thank goodness i keep emails... that is all i can say. I am just so stressed out because i'm so close to being caught up, infact, I will be even closer on the 19th but i am just at my witts end here, it seems the harder I work the more I get behind. anyway - needed to vent... check in ... what ever it is Terry, i'll get your check out this week

Morning gals I don't know why i keep getting logged out.. how frustrating Anyway, lazy weekend, i don't know why i'm so tired. Yesterday we went to lunch, ate 1/4 of my burger no bread and almost died, what a waste of $9 - then went shopping for dd's school supplies that she just got the list for, went for a little over a 2 mile walk, cooked dinner for the kids, ate 1/2 cup of chili I made on Sat, made lunches for today and off to bed, and I'm still tired. didn't sleep well Anyway, Kat, I'm working on a long list like that too, but needed to get the house together so i can focus. Denise - what sweet babies...glad it is going good with the girls Laura, your turn next. Hey everyone.

Terry I was so happy to see the walk on the news, it is something that might help with my closure and awareness. I'm going to shower and get lunch with the kids, i am dying for French onion soup! That is about my speed

Laura Thanks, and i'll go through it my entire life, but it is ok, i'm in a better place about it and much more aware of things around me. I have to tell you... with dd, i picked at the craziest stuff that you would have thought would have been bad, grilled in butter bagels and cream cheese, reubins, and vanilla icecream with hot apples were among my favorites (still are) and lost 25lbs when i was carrying her! so don't beat yourself up too badly, you are eating for 2! So eat 1/4 cup of chips and not the entire bag....I am still laughing about the fat girl at heart... because I am too!!! you better take pics of yourself with that cute baby belly.. I gained so much with ds i just looked fat... very fat for most of it... you are going to be cute, you really are tall and slender so will now have a baby bump.... i don't know if that is coming out wrong or offensive... not meaning too,...... just trying to say you are going to be stunning !

You guys are so sweet It is not easy reliving and I'm sure the walk is going to be hard, but there are so many people who deal with this type of situation. Anyway... thanks... but there is the rest of my story that i don't always find easy to tell. I'm just getting up, drinking coffee, and going to go for a walk, i ate 1 bite of store bought potatoe salad last night and threw up for hours... yuck reality check!

I'm sorry but glad that you were there for your sister. That was the short version, you could not even imagine the horrible details that were left out. My daughter remember's how I was, she is walking with me.

Hi guys sorry for the drama post... something i've been working on yesterday and today. I was late yesterday and went to have a drink and a share nachos with friends... my treat for all the hard work, I was in home by 7 and alseep on the couch at 8. I was beat. Got up at midnight to pick up a friend who was at the bar and couldn't drive, and stayed and drank water for 3 hrs. Got up late this am, went to pick up friends car, grocery shopping, cooked some food (stew beef black bean spicey chili) went to the gym, had a cheese burger and here I am. Terry - what a beautil necklace I'm sending the dress back I got, I'm wearing the dress I wore to grams funeral to the wedding. It was snug then and I had to wear a sucker in thing, fits perfectly now without the sucker in thing.... and if i lose another 5-10lbs in 3 weeks like i would love to, it will just fit perfectly! Well, i'm going to shower from the gym, i'm yucky ttyl