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Plateau...please go away

May 19, 2009 182.2   For the past two weeks or so, I have been at or about 182 lbs. I want so very badly to be in the 170's. :smile2:   I know this is a journey...I am not going to give up. I am going to put my metabolism in gear. I haven't been walking as much, so I am going to increase my activity again. Also, I need to drink my water too! So...let's see how those two goals work for me!

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One Year Out -- Now What?

Nov. 29, 2009 162 lbs.   I celebrated my one year bandiversary on November 20th. I have lost a total of 51 lbs. and I am only 9 lbs away from my goal weight. I feel good about the progress I have made even though it has not been an easy journey. It has really been rough at times. I have spent more time trying to work the band than I have been working out. I would love to be at goal weight of 153 lbs. by my birthday, Dec. 17th. It will only require that I: 1. do some form of cardio workout 3-4 days 2. drink my water 3. take my vitamins 4. eat the way I am supposed to...   I haven't come this far (and spent over 13,500 dollars) to stop before I get to my goal, which is pretty conservative. My doctor thinks I should go down to the 140's but I think that is too small and would be hard for me to maintain.   Ok...I am on my way to a thinner, healthier, happier me!:thumbup:

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Confused about success...

September 24, 2009 159.6 lbs.   I can't believe that I weigh only 159 lbs...I haven't been in the 150's in a very long time. I am happy, but also confused.   I get so much attention that you would have sworn that I lost these 50 lbs overnight. I can't go anywhere and it doesn't help that I work in a high visibility possition.   I look in the mirror and I do see that I look much better, but I don't see the "skinny" person that everyone is raving about...I don't know if it's a mental thing or not.   I haven't been this close to my goal since I got married over 11 years ago.   I am very happy about my success, but I am having to adjust to the amount and kind of attention that I am receiving.   I can't believe that I am at the end of the journey to reach my goal weight of 153 lbs., but I know that the hardest journey will be addressing the issues that caused me to yo-yo diet for half my life, maintaining my goal weight, and adjusting to the new healthier me.

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Progress Report

Sept. 1, 2009 weight 164.8 lbs start (nov) - current = loss chest - 40.5 - 35.5 = 10 inches loss waist - 41 - 29.5 = 11.5 inchess loss hips - 47.5 - 40.5 = 7 inches loss arm - 14 - 12.5 = 1.5 inchess loss thigh - 28 - 23 = 5 inches loss   Total inches loss = 34 inches Total weight loss = 48.2 lbs.   The weight loss has continued at a rate of approximately 5 lbs. per month. I am amazed at my total weight loss of 48.2 lbs and 34 total inches loss. I am wearing 8's and 10's and feeling good about myself. There are still times that I look in the mirror and I see the overweight person that I used to be...I don't know if that will ever change.   I am approximately 12 lbs. away from my goal of 153 lbs., which will put me at a total weight loss of 60 lbs. I can't believe that I am this close when I have been so far away. Now I must work to adjust my psychological addiction to food that cause me to be overweight in the first place.

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Praise Report

July 24, 2009 172 lbs.   I was excited this morning when I stepped on the scale and it read an even 172 lbs. I increased my exercise by getting in my 10,000 steps with steps, treadmill, and walking more. In addition, I have been drinking the protein water.   I am excited that I am getting closer to my goal. I don't think I want to get all the way down to 150 lbs. Currently, I am 172 and wear sizes 8 and 10's. I really just want to be a fit size 8. I think 155 - 160 lbs. will allow that comfort, so I am less than 20 lbs away from my goal.   It's a slow journey, but a worthwhile one. I struggled at the beginning and wondered what had I done, but I am very glad I did it.

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Unfill = weight gain, now what?

October 6, 2009 165 lbs.   Last Wednesday, I had .25 removed from my band. Since then, I have been able to eat more than I ever. Consequently, I have gained over 5 lbs.   I am somewhat confused and I don't know what to do. I don't want to be miserable as I was, but I think I need a little more restriction.   I am torn. I also realize that I have a sick addiction to overeating.

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Why am I afraid to reach my goal weight?

Sept. 7, 2009 164.4 lbs.   Okay...this is a strange feeling that I must confront. I have become satisfied with my current weight loss and I have no motivation for losing the 11 lbs. to get me to my goal weight of 153 lbs. It has been a very long time since I have been in the 150's... probably high school was the last time.   My mind tells me that I should try to get to goal by my 1 year bandiversary of Nov. 20th. It's a realistic goal to lose 11 lbs in two months.   I don't understand why I am so afraid. I don't think I realized how much I used my obesity as an outward covering to shield me from experiencing life. I now feel like I no longer have a shield and consequently, I am noticed more often than ever by women who compliment my outfits and men who open the door for me.   I just need to take one day at a time and enjoy the journey...

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Delivered's Journey

March 15, 2009   It's 12:09 a.m. and I can't sleep for thinking about the life that I have missed because of my struggle with obesity. For the past 10 years, I have gained and lost the same 50 or so pounds several times. In November of 2008, I decided to take matters into my own hands and I had the lap band surgery. I thought it was the answer to my prayers and in some ways it was...I did not gain any weight during the Thanksgiving and Christmas holidays (for the first time). However, actual weight loss has not been easy. I thought I would be half-way to goal by now, but I am not. I have lost 17 lbs. in about three months.   I recognized that I would have been more successful had I been more disciplined. I have some issues that must be addressed in order to have any weight loss success. I tend to sabatoge myself in amazing ways...chips, candy, icecream...you name it.   So...I need to recommit to myself and my success. I am starting this blog as a daily journal to record my thoughts, successes, and challenges. I plan to exercise daily as well. Okay...I can do this!

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Delivered's Journey

March 26, 2009 190.8   It's been a great week. Several people have noticed that I have lost weight. My clothes fit much looser and that's always a great feeling. I wore a suit to work today that I hadn't been able to wear before.   I have been able to eat more for lunch and dinner. Today I took chicken strips and removed the breading, dipped it in gravy and mashed potatoes and did not have any problems. When I got the full feeling, I stopped immediately instead of trying one more bite.   I am so happy that I have now lost over twenty pounds!   Life is good and my band is making sure that I get to experience more of it!

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8 Month Progress Report

August 1, 2009   Then(Now) = Amt. Lost   Chest 40.5(36) = 4.5 inches :biggrin: Waist 41(30.5) = 10.5 inches :thumbup: WOW Hips 47.5(41.5) = 6 inches :eek: Arm 14 (12.5) = 1.5 inches :thumbup: Thigh 28(23.5) = 4.5 inches :thumbup:   Total inches lost = 27 inches:thumbup: Weight 213(169) = 44 lbs:thumbup: Starting size 16/18 (XL) Current Size 8/10 (M)   I am so excited about my progress. The journey has been rough and there were times when I was disappointed, but I definitely am thankful for the life that the lapband has helped me to attain. I feel good about my physical self again. I can dress with confidence. At this point, I know I have to reevaluate my goal. I want to be able to wear size 8's. I have no desire to be smaller; however, I haven't been smaller in a very long time, so I don't know how I would look at a smaller size. I guess I will take it 10 lbs. at a time. I will evaluate how I look at 160 lbs. and then 155 lbs.

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Delivered's Journey

March 30, 2009 189.8 lbs.   This morning I weighed and was happy to discover that I am continuing to lose weight. I really feel like I am at the "sweet spot" that everyone refers to. I am trying desperately to meet my three goals.   1. 10,000 steps...this morning I walked three laps (over two miles) instead of my usual two laps around our subdivsion.   2. I am working on my water intake.   3. I am eating my protein first and decreasing carbs. For breakfast, I had a shake and for lunch I had grilled catfish.   So...I am on my way!

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OMG...Dilated Pouch

July 14, 2010   Last week I went to my lap band doctor to have my band checked out because I hadn't been able to keep anything down. I thought or felt like something was wrong. My doctor determined that I was too tight and consequently my pouch had dilated. He removed 1.5 cc's and I am scheduled for a check up after six weeks. If all is well, then I will be able to get a fill. Although I was happy that my band hadn't slipped and I didn't have to have another surgery, it has been tough being able to eat so much. For the past week, I have been devouring any and every kind of food imaginable.   Since then, I have gained 10 lbs. Yes, I went to the doctor last Wednesday and by Tuesday morning, I had gained 10 lbs. The scale read 171 lbs. and I had been around 160 for the past year.   I am sick...what sane person allows food to kill them? Who can gain 10 lbs in a week with a lap band? I can and I have...   Tuesday morning, I was determined to put an end to this madness. I woke up and went for a walk before preparing for work. At work, I drank water. I increased my protein and decreased my junk food intake.   I know that I need a lifestyle change and it begins with my commitment to myself.

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I hate plateaus

June 21, 2009 178.6 lbs.   I know that the band works for me when I work it. If I were to be honest with myself, I have not worked the band at all. The band is doing its job in spite of my weaknesses. I can't eat skittles, icecream, and m&m's and expect to lose weight. I hardly drink any water and I haven't been doing any purposeful exercising.   So...I have to quit lying to myself. Do I really hate plateaus? If I hate the state that I am in weight wise, then I will exercise, drink my water, stop eating slider foods, and increase my protein intake. It's that simple.   Otherwise, I don't hate plateaus, I hate myself as evident with my destructive behavior.

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A new beginning

March 19, 2009 197.4 lbs.   Today is the day...I am taking my life back. I was relying on this band to save me and that's not possible because I have to save myself. I have to take some steps to help my band, which is a tool. This is my plan:   1. Drink my 64 ounces of water 2. Eat more protein and less carbs (before 7:00 p.m.) 3. Exercise everyday for 30 minutes with a goal of 10,000 steps.   I am not going to wait until Monday. I am going to start today! It's simple...drink water, eat more protein, and exercise 30 minutes. Sounds simple, right? I am hoping to release the me that's aching to be freed from this fat suit.   I am going to get my hair cut today too. I was going to wait until I reached my goal weight, but no more waiting...today is the day for my new beginning.   I am on my way...

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Idk

July 19, 2009   I must be the queen of plateaus because it seems like I am always trying to come out of one. I guess I am averaging about 5 lbs. per month of weight loss per month. So...it takes about two months to lose 10 lbs. I know that slow weight loss is best for the skin, etc...   I am also thinking about having a slight unfil because the stress of eating impacting me negatively. I have never had a good relationship with food. In the past, I was glutton and now I am afraid to eat. I experience a lot of stress prior to eating and there are times when I don't eat at all in a social situation because I fear having a PB episode.   I don't particular like the shakes anymore. I waste more than I drink.

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Let's see what happens with .25 removed

Oct. 1, 2009   Yesterday, I went to my appointment and had .25 removed from my band. I didn't know how much was in my band, but the nurse said that I have 6.35 remaining in my 10 cc band.   I immediately felt a difference and was able to eat and I continued to feel restriction too, which I was afraid wouldn't be as effective.   I feel like I made the right decision.

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What is too small for me?

September 15, 2009 162.6 lbs.   Yesterday at church, the preacher's text was MYOB...Mind Your Own Business. Immediately after church, this lady approached me to say that I know this goes against what the preacher said because I have to mind your business. She proceeded to explain to me that I was too thin. She went on to say that had she not been plump, she wouldn't have survived her battle with cancer. To say the least, I was speechless. How could I respond without being or seeming rude?   This has become an ongoing problem as I get closer to my goal weight. I haven't been this small in a very long time, so people equate it with too thin when I don't think it's actually the case.   I am fortunate that my body can carry more weight. Currently, I can wear sizes 6, 8, and 10s. I don't want to be unrealistic, but I do want reach my goal.   What a journey!

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The tightness continues

April 12, 2009 188 lbs.   Everything that I have tried to eat has gotten stuck the past few days. I have tried to search the forum that discussed the TOM, but I have been unsuccessful. I just hope this tightness ends when my TOM ends.   I am losing weight because I cannot eat. I have tried to increase my intake of fluids to compensate for my lack of nourishment.

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July - August Progress

August 1, 2009 169   July 1st Aug. 1st 175 lbs. 169 lbs. -6 lbs.:biggrin: Chest - 36.5" 36" -1" Waist - 31" 30.5" -.5" Hips - 42" 41.5" -.5" Arms - 12.5" 12.5" 0 Thigh - 24" 23.5" -.5"

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25 lbs. GONE FOREVER

April 13, 2009 188 lbs.   I am officially 25 lbs. lighter! The bad part is that it has taken me nearly 5 months to lose it, but the good part is that I don't have to worry about gaining it all back and then some as I have done in the past. I am 6 lbs. away from my May 5th goal...which I am going to strive fervently to reach. I am trying to tackle 10 lbs. at a time. I am so ready for my TOM to end. I have a couple of overnight work conferences coming up this week and next week. These are sometimes difficult because I am usually surrounding by good food or eating at my favorite restaurant. Nothing is worse than getting stuck or having an uncomfortable moment in front of colleagues! So..I am learning to order soup or grilled fish....which is good for me anyway!   Okay...I have to go get my taxes done today. I pray all goes well!

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Delivered's Journey

March 27, 2009 190.8 lbs.   I am happy that I have been holding steady on my weight loss. In order for more weight loss to occur, I can rely on this band totally! I have to start meeting my three goals.   1. Exercise with a goal of 10,000 steps per day....This past week, I have walked four of the five mornings. I am really proud of myself for that. I have found that it is best for me to walk in the mornings (before work) so that I don't come up with an excuse to not walk after work. When I was on a campus, I was able to do a lot of walking. I have found that this is a lot more difficult when working in an office. I am averaging about 6,000 steps per day. I must "step it up" -- no pun intended:thumbup:   2. Drink 64 ounces of water everyday.... I have increased my water intake, but not enough.   3. Eat more protein and less carbs.... I have been drinking a low-carb, high-protein shake every morning, but I am unable to eat all of the meats I was once able to eat pre-band. So...I am having to figure this one outl. I can't eat tuna, nor can I eat chicken salad. I can consistently eat grilled fish, but other meats are hit or miss....I have to work on this one.   I am taking it one meal at a time, one day at a time because I my family deserves it and I am worth it!

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New Month - Renewed Focus

June 1, 2009 178.8   Chest - 37" Waist - 31" Hips - 42.5" Arm - 12.5" Thigh - 24.5"   I am so happy that I am over halfway to my goal of 150 lbs. I am receiving compliments on a daily basis about my weight loss. I am striving to reach my goal because I haven't been at it since high school. However, if I don't lose another pound, I still feel good about my progress. I feel so much better about myself. I was headed on a path of destruction. I have no doubt in my mind that I had I not opted for the lapband, I would have reached 300 pounds during this end of my stressful year on my job.   I know that I must become more consistent at drinking more water, taking my multivitamin, and exercising in order to promote more weight loss.

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April - May Progress

(May 1st - 184 lbs.) April 1st - 189.8 lbs.   April 1st - (May 1st) = lost chest 38 (37.5) .5 waist 33 (32.5) .5 hips 44.5 (43.5) 1 arm 13.5 (13) .5 thigh 25.5 (24.5) 1   So... I lost 3.5 inches and 5.8 lbs. this month!:biggrin:   Not great, but definitely not bad! I am 1 lbs away from my 30 lbs. goal!:thumbup:   I must keep on keeping on... We all must keep on keeping on!

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Praise Report

July 10, 2009   Today I decided to wear a sleeveless top for the first time in approximately 10 years. I feel liberated. After spending the last couple of months noticing others who wore sleeveless shirts, I decided to get out of my box. My husband was impressed and noticed immediately. I feel very good about the progress that I have made on this journey.

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