I am hiding my name as I am a regular poster here on the boards so I have a new screen name.

About 4 years ago, I went to rehab for 30 days because I was drinking too much. Fast forward about 2.5 years ago I relapsed. I was banded 2 years ago. I drink every day. Sometimes 2 drinks, sometimes a bottle of wine. Over July 4th weekend I drank 6 bottles of champagne with a friend of mine between 2-9pm along with shots of tequilla. I was not hung over as my tolerance was so high. I drank the following day probably another bottle or so of champagne. I decided to quit on Sunday 2 days after July 4th so Sunday I had 2 beers. I don't like beer.

By Tuesday I was feeling terrible. I was going through huge withdrawals so I went to the hospital knowing I would see my doctor the following day. The gave me Adtavan (spelling). for the anxiety and insomnia. I went to the doctor the following day hoping he would support me in my recovery to rejoin AA and to get through the next 1-3 days of withdrawals and he didn't. He referred me back to my Psychatrist who handles my depression and bi polar disorder (I have been balanced for 3 years). I called him not to receive a call back or anything. That day I decided the withdrawals were too much so I had a beer. Since then I have been trying to limit my alcohol consumption to 2 drinks but it is more like 4 or 5. Mostly champagne and tequilla.

I don't want to go to rehab again. I do believe that if I can get my doctor or Psychiatrist (who is on vacation and I see in early August) to help me with the withdrawals I can get sober again. I did enjoy AA when I was involved with them 4 years ago however I had a hard time finding a suitable sponsor which I know is key.

I am not looking for sympathy but understanding. I would really like to get this back under control. How did you get sober? Is there a chance for me if I'm serious again? Fit for Life.

one day at a time.

One day at a time. sometimes one minute at a time. You can do this. You did it before and you know what it takes.

I don't know how big of an area you live in. Getting a good sponsor is important and sometimes it takes going to a lot of meetings in other areas to find someone. There are AA meetings online too.

Somebody really important in my life who died from this disease, but died clean and sober used to say "work the steps or die"