Please please please

jbperry21 · July 4, 2008

Hello,

My name is Jamie. I'm a 28 year old (single :thumbup: )female in Asheville, NC. I had my lapband on March 31, 2008 at Memorial Mission Hospital with Dr. Christopher Edwards. I've lost about 27 pounds so far, but most of that was before surgery. I've got about 100 left to lose. I've had a total of 4 fills (first fill of 6cc in a 14cc band, 2 hours later a complete unfill due to esophogeal spasms, then 1 week later 3 cc, 2 weeks later 1.5ccs.) My Dr is being very conservative with the amount of my fills because of my initial reaction. I can't eat as much as before, but I feel like I can eat way more than I should be able to. I've started excersicing more, spending more time outside working in my yard and things like that. I'm trying to make it to the gym at least 3 times a week and do 2 miles at least on the treadmill.

I just really need some support and some tough love I think. I know I can do this, but I seem to be falling back into old habits too easily. My roommate is no help because she's always going to McD's or somewhere like that and asking if I want anything or asking me to go with her. I know it's not her fault, but my willpower seems to have slipped out the window on occasion and it's depressing. It's my own faul that I haven't done better and the worse I feel about it, the worse my eating habits seem to get. I never really thought of myself as an emotional eater, but I've realized I am. I've had a falling out with my father and it's hammered home how little family I really have in my life and how distanced I am from everyone on that side of the family, another thing that just seems to give me an excuse to give in.

I've rambled, I know. I've avoided the boards for the past month or so and skipped my support group meetings the last two times. I've always tried to deal with things on my own, but I realize that I'm not doing a very good job of it at this point.

raedelicious · July 4, 2008

Hey Jamie,

I am so sorry you are having it rough. We were banded on the same day. I have gone through some rough Patches, but if you have a support group...go to it. I don't go to a support group, but I do use this website. I visit it daily.

BTW, you are not rambling on...this is real...you are experiencing some real life issues and this is HARD!

Yesterday, I had my worst lap-band experience...no nothing got stuck...I did not PB. Simply, I went to a party and stuffed myself slowly...cheetos, potato chips, almonds, crackers with spinach dip, a hotdog with its bun, I kept getting up and doing this...I knew exactly what I was doing...I was behaving like pre-lap band...I gorged and grazed. I felt so uncomfortable, and while I was doing it, I kept asking myself WTF...but I couldn't stop...but today is a new day, I would like to beat myself up over it, but I know it is counter-productive.

Also, it really sucks to have an unsupportive roomie...

Keep on fighting...my goal is to be a success...you read on here about the struggles...and I want to be one of those who makes it to goal or pretty damn close...

Good Luck