I’m Back

[carrielee 87]

Hi friends, I was in this group, then I left it. I had my initial appointments scheduled with my surgeon, the dietician and my psych eval, had cleared things with insurance, then got really cold feet and decided I wasn’t going through with it. Well this past week I had another new weight related health diagnosis that shouldn’t be something a 31 year old should be diagnosed with, my weight is still climbing, got told by two different doctors they won’t treat my pain because it’s my weight causing the pain, so I’ve emailed my coordinator at Dr. Houston’s office and plan on calling Monday to get appointments back on the schedule.

I guess I just need some reassurance that it’s ok to go back and forth with commitment in the beginning?

[ShoppGirl 5,072]

Absolutely it’s okay. You weren’t ready before that’s all. I have heard a few stories of people who were on the fence and backed out for a while and then finally decided that surgery was the next step for them. It’s major surgery. You have to be certain. Nothing wrong with taking your time with that at all.

[carrielee 87]

I felt ready to do it and then just doubted myself and felt like hey, I can do this on my own, but then I got this new diagnosis and I looked at myself and my list of conditions and my age and realized I am truly eating myself to death. I’m currently 5 ft 1 and 284 pounds and my list of co morbid conditions just keeps piling on—-hypertension, hyperlipidemia, Type II Diabetic, arthritic joints in my spine, sciatica pain, sleep apnea, and then the new diagnoses of Right Ventricular Hypertrophy, and CHF...at 31!!! I’m looking at a very short lifespan if I don’t do this and I don’t want that to be my reality, so it’s back on the surgery train I go.