Scared I won't be successful

[KJS55 5]

Scared! Oh yeah! I was so stressed during the pre-surgery diet I had a stressed induced hive outbreak! That's how scared I was! I am four day's post-op. And, I still have fears of failure. Do I want to cheat? Yeah. Especially on my first day home from the surgery my family is eating bacon, sausage, eggs and I'm drinking Protein Shakes. No fun. I've pulled myself through be reminding myself how long I have struggled with my weight. I remind myself and focus on my goals. There is no other way really to get through this. I don't regret this path and I know it will take time. Just relax and focus on the benefits. Good luck!

[Frustr8 7,886]

You're not the only one who goes into hives. I call them" stress bumps" got them before my last Thursday. appointment then distressed & distressed that they would see them and think I had fleas, Nearly had panic on top of anxiety, they noticed depression on my medical history, asked if I could be bipolar? Geesh, I'm the diagnosee, not the diagnoser. Told them the closest I come to manic is jumping to conclusions.
Maybe I am bipolar but if so, nobody has brought me into the loop. That would be my,luck, to be the last to know.
But I got through that day super fine, they were very nice people, more than willing to,my on a gurney for them. Besides the other day I was in like a mezzanine level, if they pushed me out the window I'd only get lightly bruised. I'm acrophobic, I make sure I'm never too far from the ground. Rumor has it, the post-Bariatric Ward is on the 8th floor of the Main Hospital, la la la I don't hear it, if I don't hear it I don't have to think about it. According to Noel Grimm, Late Lamented 's friend, aka the Vision. aka Wallace the Wierd, I was thrown from a building in ancient Persia and crushed under a load of been melons. He also claims he was the driver of the Melon Cart. Strange Dude, sleeps under an inverted chrystal to channel to wisdom of the ages into his chakra, and he is certain he was there. This explained my aversion to melons so strongly,that I vomit if I even smell their sickening sweet smell. Cantaloupe, Persian melon and especially watermelon. I stopped the car and made Tomkitten get out when he had watermelon-scented gum in his mouth. Well, it was for My Protection and who wants to wear what I last ate?😜