Surgery soon and reflecting on my journey so far

[dunnadunna 26]

Hi everyone, my name is Kayla. I'm a 30 year old musician, singer, wife, and mother. My Gastric sleeve procedure is scheduled for 4/27.

I wasn't always as big as I am. (HW:314) in fact, when I met my husband nearly 12 years ago, I weighed 129lbs. At 5'8" that's kind of the low end weight-wise, but I wasn't healthy. Once I felt safe and loved, I let go and started eating again... Like mad. I ate on 150lbs in two years... I went up and down from there. So for the last decade, I've been hovering, on average, between 280 and 300. I did get down to 220 after becoming a vegetarian for a year and a half after a bad case of food poisoning (as with many of us, I have some issues that manifest in my strange relationship with food). When I got pregnant, my body demanded meat. By delivery, I was 305lbs. I dropped about 20lbs and put it back on. My body began to feel major consequences of all the weight. I stopped playing quidditch and indoor soccer which I had done up to last year.

Finally, as my son began running faster and faster, I decided I wanted to keep up with him and to do the stuff he wanted to do... I went into cooper bariatric on October 22nd, 2015. They told me I had to be nicotine free for 4 months, I quit on the 23rd. Since then, I have completed all the hoop-jumping and here I am, drinking only Protein shakes and Clear liquids.

As a performer, it's hard to look at myself and then present what I feel is inadequate, to others. I have been learning, albeit slowly, to love myself. I wrote a song to fluff myself up. If you want to hear it or see the video, I'm happy to post a link, but I don't want to assume.

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[KindaFamiliar 3,867]

Link me...

I'll take a look...

It's music...

I like that sh*t...

[dunnadunna 26]

Link me...

I'll take a look...

It's music...

I like that sh*t...

thanks lol

It won't let me share it in here, it seems. I'll message it or something.

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Edited April 21, 2016 by dunnadunna

[dunnadunna 26]

Well, in case the link doesn't work, you could look me up. Kayla Jay "I don't care".

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[dunnadunna 26]

http://www.kaylajay.com/home/blog/new-music-video-available

Here we go

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[Montana Gal 448]

You have a beautiful voice! I wish you well on the 27th, you will do great.

[dunnadunna 26]

You have a beautiful voice! I wish you well on the 27th, you will do great.

Thank you so much, I appreciate that!

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[butterfly23 423]

@@dunnadunna sounds like you are ready for the 27th! Congrats on kicking the nicotine, that is not easy! Shows that you are really committed to WLS, yourself and your family. Glad you found BP, keep us updated.

[dunnadunna 26]

@@dunnadunna sounds like you are ready for the 27th! Congrats on kicking the nicotine, that is not easy! Shows that you are really committed to WLS, yourself and your family. Glad you found BP, keep us updated.

Thank you!

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[New Jersey Rambo 30]

Good luck on 37th! It will be great and you can get back to playing soccer and your with your son soon! I had my surgery on 2/1/2016 I'm down 50 lbs since my hospital weight. The fist month was the tough but it gets easier and better soon after that. I feel the thing that was the most helpful for me was after being able to swallowing pills I started using the best Vitamins I could find after starting them I had more energy and felt better! Keep me updated!

[KristenLe 5,980]

Best of luck!

[dunnadunna 26]

Thanks, you guys. It means a lot.

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