Do I need a therapist?

[ladykatie_ 117]

Ladykatie, I shared your worries! I started therapy about two months ago and it is rough. I've actually gained weight since we're digging around in some traumatic stuff, which has triggered even more emotional eating than ever. I'm a mess, filled with shame and all kinds of nasty bubbling stuff.

But I think it's worth it. I keep going back for more. Because I want to be prepared for my surgery, and I want to have tools to use when I suddenly can't turn to food to anesthetize my feelings.

I think that's what I'm most afraid of. The "stuff" that comes up to the surface that I have to face. Things that are buried under food and all the comfort it brought to me. However, I genuinely want to know how to deal with these possible issues. I don't even really know what my issues are!

Well... maybe I kind of know. I grew up with an evil step-mom (my dad has since divorced her) that abused my sister and I. She also taught all of us kids horrible eating habits (i.e., it was okay to have cake and ice cream for breakfast) that probably didn't help my case either. She was a crazy one that did weird stuff.

I definitely don't want to get into it on here (bury, bury) but maybe it's that, among other things, that I need to deal with.

[superbariatricbabe 180]

I'm so sorry! That's awful. :/

Therapy can be rough but it's worth a shot. It's better than suffering alone and numbing your feelings with food. I hope!