I could really use a mentor!

[jennynoblemiller 8]

I'm going in for VSG tomorrow. I'm going in at 251 pounds as of this morning-- lost only nine on my two week Protein diet-- and I'm suddenly riddled with anxiety. I haven't quit the black coffee, which I should have, I know, and I fear I just haven't done anything right! Although I've been really open about my surgery, excited and proud to be taking this step for my health, I woke up today just ashamed that I'd gotten to this point and terrified that I won't get it right.

I live in Boston, am a 44 year old married woman with a five year old daughter, but I'd take just about any sane mentor from anywhere!

Thanks for being out there, wherever you are.

Jenny

(p.s. how do you get one of those ruler things that tracks your weight loss at the bottom of your messages?)

[BeeLee37 109]

I wish you the best of luck for tomorrow

Please do not be nervous about surgery. When I had mine done I had my husband drop me off at the hospital on his way to work which meant I waited from 5am until 11am by myself, excited the whole time. When it was time I was smiling and happy and everyone was surprised by my lack of fear or concern LOL. When I woke up I was relieved it was finally done, I stayed over night and was released the next night when my husband picked me up. Easy peasy.

I had my surgery on March 25, 2014. So far I have lost 32 pounds total but only 16 pounds since surgery. I don't know if I am mentor material but I did want to wish you the best on your surgery.

[jennynoblemiller 8]

Thank you! And good luck with your continued losing!

[LML8789 52]

Hi Jenny---just wanted to wish you luck tomorrow---I'm sure you'll do great. You wouldn't be normal if you weren't a little anxious. I'm 5 months out and I can honestly say that the hardest part was the pre-op and that's where I struggled the most. (none of us are perfect!)

I think we've all had those thoughts of being ashamed but you know what--change that thinking and just be grateful that this option is open to all of us that want to pursue it. I have a ways to go but I feel like the sleeve saved my life. I have my days where the negative thinking takes over---I'm not going to hit my goal, I'm going to gain it back--etc but on most days I get that it's one day at a time and I'm proud of myself for deciding to make this journey. (I'm about to turn 52 & my kids are grown; I wish I had done this when my kids were younger like yours--you'll be a healthy role model for your daughter!)

Keep posting and let us know how you are doing---I feel like I have a whole website of mentors and have learned so much from everyone here. Good luck tomorrow!!

Lisa

[BeBeSpArKLeS 70]

HI Jenny, congrats on your decision to have surgery. Your anxiety is TOTALLY normal! I called to try to cancel my surgery with any excuse in the book and I am so glad that I didn't actually cancel it. I am 13 months out and down 108 lbs. It has been nothing short of amazing! My 2 year old son loves that I run around with him all day long and ride on his toys. Your daughter will have so much fun with all the new things you can find you will do!