Im not near my goal weight and this past year I let my emotions dictate whether or not I was going to follow "the dietary rules". I'm proud of the weight that has come off but I know that I chose not to do better.

I don't do "do-overs" or resolutions, I can only wake up every day with a prayer of strength against my addiction to food. Now, with that said I do have a goal to learn to cook healthier. My southern roots tend to creep in and well, everything taste better with butter or gravy on it. Oh oh.... Let the judgement begin. I can't change what I don't admit to. My band is at a good fit right now, my problem is my consistent desire to want this for myself. I spent soooo many years feeling undeserving of so much, it's a constant battle to look past myself and see what others see in me. I'm starting to feel desirable again and I'm so excited to see my husband. He's been deployed since sept 2,2013 and will be home in a few weeks. He's only seen my face and I have lost about 15 lbs since he left. That was with 2 major holidays, thanksgiving and Christmas.

Anyway, I don't blog or post often. I just needed to see my feelings in writing.

Happy New a Year Blessings!!

Im not near my goal weight and this past year I let my emotions dictate whether or not I was going to follow "the dietary rules". I'm proud of the weight that has come off but I know that I chose not to do better.

I don't do "do-overs" or resolutions, I can only wake up every day with a prayer of strength against my addiction to food. Now, with that said I do have a goal to learn to cook healthier. My southern roots tend to creep in and well, everything taste better with butter or gravy on it. Oh oh.... Let the judgement begin. I can't change what I don't admit to. My band is at a good fit right now, my problem is my consistent desire to want this for myself. I spent soooo many years feeling undeserving of so much, it's a constant battle to look past myself and see what others see in me. I'm starting to feel desirable again and I'm so excited to see my husband. He's been deployed since sept 2,2013 and will be home in a few weeks. He's only seen my face and I have lost about 15 lbs since he left. That was with 2 major holidays, thanksgiving and Christmas.

Anyway, I don't blog or post often. I just needed to see my feelings in writing.

Happy New a Year Blessings!!

This is where you can get some support. It is up to you if you want it. I don't post all the time. I do read what comes through on my email and if I want to comment I do. I feel that we all have our own stuff and sometimes it helps to post to get it off your chest.

Understand totally. Congratulations on the 15 pound lost. Hugs to u and hubby. Happy new year.

Im not near my goal weight and this past year I let my emotions dictate whether or not I was going to follow "the dietary rules". I'm proud of the weight that has come off but I know that I chose not to do better.

I don't do "do-overs" or resolutions, I can only wake up every day with a prayer of strength against my addiction to food. Now, with that said I do have a goal to learn to cook healthier. My southern roots tend to creep in and well, everything taste better with butter or gravy on it. Oh oh.... Let the judgement begin. I can't change what I don't admit to. My band is at a good fit right now, my problem is my consistent desire to want this for myself. I spent soooo many years feeling undeserving of so much, it's a constant battle to look past myself and see what others see in me. I'm starting to feel desirable again and I'm so excited to see my husband. He's been deployed since sept 2,2013 and will be home in a few weeks. He's only seen my face and I have lost about 15 lbs since he left. That was with 2 major holidays, thanksgiving and Christmas.

Anyway, I don't blog or post often. I just needed to see my feelings in writing.

Happy New a Year Blessings!!

Fifteen pounds in four months is great -- that's about a pound a week....and as you say the holidays and husband away, the emotional eating. I think you're doing beautifully. Just keep choosing yourself and your health first. Best wishes for this new year and have fun with your husband!

Damn Southern cooking and eating. I'm from New Orleans, where "We don't eat to live, but we live to eat." Where most other areas of our beautiful country finish the holiday food weeks on New Years Day, five days later, in NOLA, we start with King Cakes celebrating the Mardi Gras/Carnival season....... With all of that said, YOU HAVE LOST 15 POUNDS...... And even more impressively, you have lost/maintained through the holidays! Hold your head high, continue to pray and work through this lifestyle change ONE DAY AT A TIME! Best wishes to you and your husband in 2014.

Southern Cooking can be lightened up.. it takes some work though.. I go to emilybites.com and she has some pretty good recipes that she has reworked... however, when I make chicken and dumplings for husband and kids, I eat the chicken with some veggies and a small dumpling.. fried chicken I try not to do often.. if I do I eat a thigh without the skin.. Part of the beauty of the band is it tells me if I am eating too much.. so I can eat some of my Southern foods but not near as much as I used to.. I had some blackeyed peas, collard greens and a tiny piece of cornbread yesterday... it was very good and I was happy.