I've been so focused on all the things I'm giving up and (no surprise) found myself a bit depressed.

I made myself make.a list of all the things I will gain. Here are my top 10, what are yours?

1. Going to an amusement park and.actually being able to ride a ride.

2. Playing with my kids.

3. Being able to go on float trips without flipping the canoe everytime I move.

4. Joining a softball team again and other athletic activities.

5. Getting rid of all those meds with ugly side effects.

6. Not having to shop at *special* stores and.pay extra for my size clothes.

7. Not being afraid to have my picture made.

8. Sitting in a normal sizes chair without getting my butt stuck (or risk not fitting at all)

9. Feeling sexier and more confident.

10. Last but DEFINITELY not least....not being in pain 24/7

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1. Knowing what it feels like to be thin. (Never have been)

2. Crossing my legs! (Never been able to do that)

3. Playing more with my kids.

4. Being able to ride amusement park rides.

5. Not having the seatbelt lock on me every time I bend over in the car.

6. Climbing stairs without breathing so hard.

7. Buying cute clothes.

8. Being more self-confident.

9. Not being "the heaviest friend"

10. Dancing.

1. Being able to keep up with my 4 1/2 year old daughter.

2. Have more energy

3. Be able to have more children (I have PCOS)

4. Be thinner and healthier

5. Take up less room lol

6. Be able to enjoy amusement parks

7. Be more active

8. Be able to actually buy clothes instead of just hoping they have my size

9. Be able to walk into any clothing store

10. To start doing stuff that I used to love to do before I gained my weight

Here's fun

1. Tie my shoes/buckle then without being out of breath.

2. Not having to do the "dance to get in my pants" morning routine.

3. Not spending 70 dollars on a good fitting pair of jeans.

4. Being able to walk up stairs and not have to pretend that am not tired in front of students ! Meanwhile , I am dying inside ! Lol

5. Being able to wear heals and not feel like people are watching me for a good laugh.

6. Being able to go to a normal store, look at regular clothes and not have people stare !

7. Not bring that fat cheerleader who everyone loves and breaking the stereotypes (i do backhand springs for a living lol NOT.., and not everyone who is fat is lazy !)

8. Quit hearing all the time, "you are such a beautiful young lady, but if you lose done weight, you'll be drop dead gorgeous !

9. Tired of having an X besides my sizes !!!!!

10. Being able to have a healthier lifestyle !

1. Be able to fit a towel around me

2. Stop hearing "you have such a pretty face"

3. Boys giving me the time of day

4. Water park/beach/bathing suit

5. Falling not being as embarrassing... know what I mean?

6. No more chaffing

7. Not being embarrassed at how huge my clothes/underwear looks off my body

8. Not sweating all the time

9. No more panting because I went up one flight of stairs

10. No more wearing a cardigan every single day (in florida!) because I hate my fat arms

- Kaylee Ann ~ Surgiversary: 6/11/12

5. Not having the seatbelt lock on me every time I bend over in the car.

9. Not being "the heaviest friend"

Omg right?

- Kaylee Ann ~ Surgiversary: 6/11/12

3. Not spending 70 dollars on a good fitting pair of jeans.

Can't wait to get old navy or other cheaper jeans instead of lane Bryant's super expensive jeans!

Can't wait to get old navy or other cheaper jeans instead of lane Bryant's super expensive jeans!

Exactly ! Lol

10. No more wearing a cardigan every single day (in florida!) because I hate my fat arms

- Kaylee Ann ~ Surgiversary: 6/11/12

This is so true for me. I can't wait to wear tank tops.

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1. Leading my kids by example

2. Not getting strange looks in Ann Taylor

3. BREATHING without so much effort

4. Going to baseball games without getting bruises on my legs from the armrests

5. Never having to fly with a seat belt extender again

6. Running

7. Embracing the looks I was given

8. Getting back into team sports

9. Never again having a dr tell me to lose weight

10. Longer life with less risk of disease

9. Never again having a dr tell me to lose weight

Doesn't it seem like doctors blame every medical problem you have on your weight? "Oh you have tumors all over your body and are bleeding from your eyes? Get on the elliptical fatty"

- Kaylee Ann ~ Surgiversary: 6/11/12

Doesn't it seem like doctors blame every medical problem you have on your weight? "Oh you have tumors all over your body and are bleeding from your eyes? Get on the elliptical fatty"

- Kaylee Ann ~ Surgiversary: 6/11/12

Lol, so true...

Doesn't it seem like doctors blame every medical problem you have on your weight? "Oh you have tumors all over your body and are bleeding from your eyes? Get on the elliptical fatty"

- Kaylee Ann ~ Surgiversary: 6/11/12

That is soooo funny and TRUE!!!! Thanks for the laugh!

Going to get a pedicure without feeling like the person doing your pedicure is laughing or talking about you in a different language or feeling like they are arguing about who is gonna service you lol

Going to get a pedicure without feeling like the person doing your pedicure is laughing or talking about you in a different language or feeling like they are arguing about who is gonna service you lol

Omg so true

Can't wait to fit "in" a chair, rather than "on" a chair. Also looking forward to being able to wear standard jewelry (7.5" bracelets, 18" necklaces, etc) and not always having to look for the larger one. Anxious to wear short sleeved blouses and dresses/skirts again.