My Head Is Making This Difficult...truly Scared

[Pookeyism 1,143]

I will, for the first time in almost 20 years, step into an arena to demonstrate swordfighting for my group "Dagorhir".

It will be at Space City Con in less than two weeks.

I. am. so. scared.

I still can't see myself as a size 14-12. I am working on this really great costume, leather fighting corset, and the whole nine, and I put it on and I FEEL like it doesn't fit...I don't understand this, and so far no one has really been able to help me with it. I am in the process of cutting the costume DOWN, because I can see it has become too big, even recently, but I FEEL like I have somehow fit a size 20 or so into this 32" corset

I want to represent my group and myself well, but I literally get anxious trying on clothes and such, and the dressing up is freaking me out - but I have comitted myself and alot of people are looking forward to seeing me, and I am needed to help out.

Any suggestions? I can't shake this - I dream that I am walking around like a T with both arms out because I have squeezed all this fat into this costume - but I kow that is not so. I can see there are no buldges, no "squeeze" effect - not a tight lace or button, except for the corset, and that isnt much - just enough to protect my tummy (and boobs)...

phew! This was not what I thought would be my issue....

[Webtrekker 39]

I suggest taking a picture. I think you will be able to see how you really look in it as opposed to the mirror. It's hard to get over the sizes issue.

[Izuri 428]

I agree with Webtrekker, take some pictures in it and post them up by your mirror so you see them repeatedly. Maybe wear the costume around the house for a few hours every couple days just to get used to the feel of it. Write out some positive powerful statements about you looking good or that you are small and fit into this outfit perfectly and say them repeatedly while wearing it. It sounds really silly, but sometimes those kind of things help. You could also try tapping, which helps me when I'm feeling anxious, but it won't help probably with the body mismatch issue.

On an unrelated (or related) note, that is so awesome! I want to do something cool like this when I get to goal. Do you feel comfortable enough that you'd post pictures here? Maybe having all of us, who will be honest with you, might help reassure you?