Sorry, but I just had to vent tonight.

I'm sick of feeling like a patient still. I am a month out, as of yesterday. (I know that's technically still early, but it seems like forever). I have a persistent sharp pain in my lower belly, starting from my bellybutton stitch and going upward and right to about midbelly. When I asked my surgeon about it, he said it just had to heal, and that the cuts in the abdominal area are deep, and since that's the muscle I use to stand, move, etc...it will take a long time, and a scan really won't reveal much. I just have to wait it out. It sucks.

I'm tired of eating pureed food. I'm supposed to be eating it for another week. I don't want to eat soft food either. I want to eat some actual food. I got stuck at a restaurant with a friend tonight where there was NOTHING on the menu I could eat, so I ordered a cheese quesadilla and scraped out the middle. I still can't grasp 'eating in public', because normal people shove food in their face at an alarming rate, and I need to take my time. So I ate it too fast and felt ill.

So I felt bad and went to Target and bought a bunch of soft stuff to eat.

RAAAAAARGH. Frustrated.

Just hang in there. You will look back on this time and realize how short it was in the scheme of things. Think about how much time it took from when you started thinking about having the weight loss surgery until the time it took for you to have the surgery. I don't know if you had a lot of insurance hoops or not, but chances are it took a lot longer than a month's time. Soon enough you will be on "normal" foods and yes eating out at this stage is pretty difficult. I would try to avoid that until you are cleared to eat solid foods.

Yeah, I try not to eat out at all, but we were on a long drive and people wanted to stop. I didn't bring anything with me cause I didn't think I'd be out that late. You're right, it won't seem like that long, and my insurance approval period was 3 months, but it's just...ugh.