Need advice... scare and acting out

ejezyk · August 21, 2006

Hola, I have been banded since Oct 2005 I have lost 25#'s and am now running 3 miles 3 times a week.

I have 3.5 cc in a 4cc band I have not lost weight in a few months. :paranoid

I am eating around the band.... I will start to eat feel the fullness go walk around let it go down and come back and eat more I am not following the get up and get out in 20 minutes and I am lingering on food all day.

I am eating Soup and ice cream :help:

Alot of my old behaviors are coming back Like eating late at night and eating foods I should not (pastries).

I have been trying to get pregnant and Have had two failed attmpts at intrauterine insemination and the hormones are HELLL

I am taking a two month break before we try IVF.

I am finishing my dissertation this semester. All the hard work is over.. my data came back good.

Now I just feel like I am sabotaging myself unnecessarily.

I see my surgeon tomorrow and he is going to ask if I need a fill ... I feel restriction and I stop just short of PB or getting stuck and then I eat again NOT FEELING HUNGER.

What should I do? :violin: I know what many of you will say but maybe I just need to read it.

mousecrazy · August 21, 2006

First of all, it is good that you understand what you are doing. That is a big step.

Now, when you go see your doctor, I would say don't get another fill. That will likely cause you to do even more creative "eating around the band." Learn to live with the restriction you have now. Learn to eat healthy foods, the way we are supposed to eat them. You might want to consider a referral for some counseling to help you with your emotional issues surrounding food. Perhaps you are not really ready for motherhood? Whatever is the issue, it would be best to address it now, then be prepared for motherhood and a life of health and healthy eating in the future.

I am not into scolding for this behavior...you are feeling bad enough already. I hope you feeling bad enough that you are ready to change.

Good luck with all of it! You've had the power all along....

Cindy