On The Verge Of A Breakdown!

[crazy4pluto 2]

first i want to say thank you to everyone who posted concern about me and that i haven't been on in quite some time. i ended up becoming very ill and actually have been off from work since may. i am getting better with the help a wonderful treatment team but this sure isn't how i thought this journey was going to go. my treatment team tells me all the time that i am strong and my having developed the complications isn't my failure (which is how i began to see it) but just my challenge and that i have the personality that will not only get me though this time but allow me to help others in the process. my stricture is stretched to the maximum at this point and in the past month i have finally begun to try to eat normal foods(not pureed). i win with some and others not so much but i have faith that in time this will all work out. as far as weighing they've been doing blind weights because i got so sick and lost a lot of weight that they didn't want me to completely stress out as i gained weight as i began to finally eat again. it has been quite the adventure but like i've said many times--i would do the surgery all over again because even if i don't end up at the numbers that i had hoped for--i've still lost over 100 pounds and nobody can take that away from me!

again i want to wish everyone strength, happiness and calm as you go though your own journeys. remember it's really not about the numbers---it's about becoming a healther you!!!!

also, for anyone who has developed a stricture or kink (which thankfully shouldn't be too many of you)---yes there is light at the end of the tunnel, just make sure you follow exactly what your treatment team suggests you do and make sure you communicate honestly and as often as needed with the questions and concerns you have. i'm telling you, if didn't know i could tell my treatment team how i feel or know i have their complete support with this---i would probibly not be typing this message to you today.

[crazy4pluto 2]

I found out after my second stricture stretch today that I may have a kink right in the middle of my sleeve too. How did your procedure end up turning out? I am only 3 weeks out from surgery and I'm worrying I will never eat food of any kind again

first of all breathe! i'm glad you posted me because there are not many folks (thank goodness) who experience strictures. communication with your treatment team and staying as positive as possible is what you need to do. everyone heals differently and it's no ones fault you ended up with the stricture but there is light at the end of the tunnel. luckly your treatment team found your stricture early so you should since your stomach is still healing form that you will probibly ride right through the puree process. i'm not a dr so i can't say that for sure will happen but i sure will pray that happens for you. but even if it doesn't i am proof that time can/will get you hopefully to the point of the final eating phase of "eating the foods you want just in healthy amounts". good luck and i'll be praying you start feeling better soon!

[slimmom24angels 47]

Hi, I am so sorry that you are going through this. But always remember that God will put no more on you than you can bare. I am praying for you, as well as others who are on this journey with us. Don't give up, stay in the race. And I look forward to your good report!! Be encouraged and stay encouraged.