Whats wrong with me?????????????

[dsrjrr 0]

Okay 9 days to go Ive cried alot today could it be my nerves???Im not a cryer so this isnt like me!

[chichigirl 1]

Letting go of an old 'friend' if you will, can cause sudden outbursts of uncontrollable crying. You are about to let go of something that you have probably depended on most of your life for comfort and solice, now you are going to be going 'cold turkey' at least emotionally regarding food. It will no longer be there as your crutch, and believe it or not, that is a good thing. food was never meant to soothe us or to make us feel better, it is only suppose to nurture our bodies so they can function properly, but I'm not telling you anything you don't already know.

Letting go and starting a new life is both frightening and exciting at the same time. Your emotions will fluctuate from one end to the other, but eventually they do settle down and things will be just fine, actually better than they have been for a long time.

Allow yourself to feel all that you are feeling, then move on. You are embarking on an exciting journey that will lead you down a healthier and happier life.

That said, you're fine, your're normal(whatever that really is) but most of all you're human and that's a special and remarkable thing to be.

Good luck, and if you need to, stock up on Kleenex and then invest in the company:D .

Cindy

[TheWomanWithin 0]

surgery and the stress of making a huge life long decision would be my guess )

(psssttt...Im having the nerves too)

[Hedwig 0]

I am 7 weeks away from banding and I asked the same question. this is what I've researched and wanted for a year. now that it is finally happening I am scared. It's becoming real. I keep thinking what am I doing? Is this crazy? I am afraid of passing away. But the truth is we are doing what we need to do so that our lives will be livable. at least thats why I am doing it. so I have a happier and healthier future.I am not sure what you are going through but I know what my mind has been going through. I hope you feel better and I am sorry you are crying. Everyone here has helped me and just reading the threads has gotten me through so much. Just keep reading and find some comfort from the others. big hugs .

[NJChick 3]

There's nothing wrong with you so don't do this to yourself. I know its hard but try to think about the positive. I too was a bundle of nerves (shoot, who wasn't) and I tried not to think about it.

Try to stay busy.

HUGS and KISSES but mostly CONGRATS !!!! You can do this

[sleepyjean 0]

I am 7 weeks away from banding and I asked the same question. this is what I've researched and wanted for a year. now that it is finally happening I am scared. It's becoming real. I keep thinking what am I doing?

I can relate. I made up my mind 6 months ago that I was going to do this. But now that I have a date and my pre and post op appointments scheduled, I'm getting scared. I don't care about dying - after all if I die, I'm not going to know it. I'm scared mostly that something might go wrong with the surgery or that I don't have it in me to do what I need to do. It's easy to say how committed you'll be when it's months away and you don't actually have to <i>do it</i> yet. I worry mostly that I am a lost cause and will somehow manage to screw this up and I will be obese forever.

[Dody 0]

I'm not banded yet and don't have a definate date yet, but expecting the early part of May maybe. I'm scared too for many reasons, but strangely I haven't given much thought to the food part of it. I'm scared because my health isn't very good overall. I've had 5-way-bypass and although I have clearance from my cardiologist I'm still scared. I guess I've made the decision to have a surgery that a lot of people feel isn't needed, but I feel is desperately needed for me. My cardiologist feels I'm having elective surgery, and I feel I need to lose weight for my heart to be healthier. My problem. I don't drink Water...despise it. I have loads of bladder infections and you would think I would have learned my lesson. I buy bottled Water with good intentions and it's all sitting in the fridge. I would much rather reach for a diet soda anyday then water. I have no idea how I'm going to turn this around. I hate iced tea; don't care for koolaid; and I know I have to get that water down somehow. I'm just afraid of not being able to do it.

The thought of giving up my diet drinks bothers me far more than the thought of cutting down on food. I'm OK with that, because I'm a night eater who doesn't eat a thing all day (another not so healthy way to do things) and I'm just worried about changing my whole lifestyle.

Anyone got any ideas on how to come to grips with this? The surgery itself doesn't scare me, except for my health issues, but the thought of having to adhere and change my lifestyle after banding is a big worry.

[*susan* 1,709]

Dody, I hate Water too and am also most stressed about giving up my diet coke. I am also concerned about not drinking with meals. I usually drink 2 glasses of diet coke with dinner alone.

As far as the rest, I am not having any real nerves to speak of. Then again, I don't have a date yet. I am meeting with the doc tomorrow and hope to have a date before I go home. I do worry that I will be the person to screw this up. I am going to be private pay and really want to succeed and have this be money well spent. But, I crave food, especially crunchy, salty food. I don't eat because I am depressed, bored, happy or whatever, I just love the way it tastes.

Hmmmm, maybe I am more nervous than I thought. I am sure once we all have our bands, we will be glad we did it and find it is the best choice we have made for our health and lives.

[Poodles 0]

I have been having "cold feet" too. The "what if's" have left, and now I am just trying to find an excuse to change my mind. Second thoughts, third thoughts, too many thoughts going around in my mind.

But then I remember that I am doing this for my own good. I need help. My fat butt is just going to get bigger if I don't do something. So I am doing it for "my own good."

It is scary to change. It is weird to think of life differently. But we must change. For our own good.

Be bold, true (to yourself), stout-hearted, and brave!

[ethansgrandma 0]

this is a big decision for you. but i would do it over again in a heartbeat. try maybe doing some relaxation techniques. my docs psycologist gave me a meditation cd which is really good for calming you down. good luck and my prayers are with you.

[Victoriana 10]

You know It hurts to grieve a loss. Your doing the very best thing you can do for yourself. letting your emotions be validated, ask for help and step back and think about ways to get your needs filled. One of the biggest contributors to depression is not allowing your emotions to surface and pass. Another great cause for depression is not expressing when you have a need. Just ask Friends if they can meet your need. Sometimes they wont be able to but you would be surprised at how often and willing they are to meet your needs. Its freedom. And its human. We must live in relationship to each other. Isolation is dangerous. I cried too. I am usually the strong one about things. I found out that crying actually produces chemicals that make us feel good. I think they are called endorphins. (I'm not sure) but I am so relaxed after crying. At first I thought that it was exhaustion. But it was more like peace. You are doling exactly what a lot of us did preband, but after band things start to feel different and better. Your doing good even if it doesnt feel like it.

[vinesqueen 2]

You poor thing! I know that before I was banded I thought I was going to wear a hole in my carpet from all the pacing. I'm such a big baby too. Oh the tears I shed!

In the end, this was the right thing for me to do. I can only wish you peace to find your way and your decision.

[vlb11752 0]

About a week before my surgery, I got up one morning and I was on here and just started crying, for about 3 hrs before my dh got up. I was afraid of failure.

I was banded 3/14 and I haven't had those thoughts since. This is going to work, if I let it. And I'm going to let it.

64 oz of Water? no carbonated beverages?....what was I doing?

3 weeks out...I'm doing great...drink almost nothing but Water (and I've always hated it..now I really do want it)...yesterday was the first day I REALLY wanted a Coke...but it went away when I started doing something else

I'm not saying every day is easy...but not nearly as hard as I had myself convinced it was going to be...

A bad day healthier is better than a good day slowly killing myself with food.

[JJB 2]

I had my band placed on January 24th of this year. I also went through a time before where I would cry and I actually got a little depressed. I think I was disappointed in myself for getting to the point where I needed surgery. And I was upset about having to let go of my favorite thing food. But now the only regret I have is that I did not do it sooner. I feel so much healthier and happier then I have in years. I LOVE my band and this has been a lot easier then I thought it was. Everyone is different but for me it was the thought that I have went through all this so I am not going to mess it up. Good luck to you on this new start.