The Good, The Bad, And The Whatever

[smmrsue 56]

Hi Springers! I hope all is well. At least tolerable. I have some guilt over taking a hiatus but felt it was essential to my lap band survival and mental health. I wish I would have been there for more of you. Sorry.

An update on me.

I'm down 53 lbs!!!!! Yay! My goal was 50 in the first 6 months including pre-op, and I made it in 4.5. I am also no longer morbidly obese, and just plain obese. Lol.

I have had two fills. Each 3 mls. I am pretty sure I'm very close to my green zone, maybe only 1 ml to get there. My doctors office only does fills every 6 to 8 weeks, my next one being late August. Let me tell you sitting up with a giant needle sticking out of me is weird! I'll never get used to that.

I haven't been exercising really. A little but not much. I'm having a horrible time with motivation and using fear as an excuse. I had a complication where it felt like my stomach was being shredded by metal and was excrustiatingly painful. Turns out I was right. A couple of sutures mystery have come off of my port hooks and activity would shred my muscles. O.U.C.H. So I had to take a month off to try and let scar tissue form. I lost weight better in that month. I feel like when I exercise hard I don't lose fast, and I'm terrified of that pain. My surgeon said if rest didn't fix it he would do another surgery to either repair or just rake it out if it wasn't able to be repaired properly. He is NOT taking it out, NO WAY.

I love the band now that I have restriction. I mourn bread sometimes and eating all of my food while it's hot, but I wouldn't trade this.

I hope everyone is doing well, and I hope to be able to offer support more. Tale care!

[scorpiolady 83]

Oh Summrsue it's awesome your back. Sounds like even with your complications your doing great.

Our room is a little quiet now but we'll still here, checking in on each other.

(((BIG))) hugs on your loss. That's really great!

j~