Anyone Else Feel Bulimic?

[NEONATAL RN 0]

I was stuck for a couple of months before Christmas, indulged over the holidays, and just went for a fill last week. I was a little afraid because in Oct., I was filled too much and ended up in the ER for dehydration. Now I feel the band is working, I can drink, even eat a little, and feel truly lucky. But then there is the times when I want to eat something, having nothing to do with hunger,and don't care if I PB. In fact I feel like good, I had what I wanted, it tasted good, and now I don't have to worry about the calories. This is truly a head thing. And now that I am tighter, if I eat too close to bedtime I get terrible reflux all night. Of course, I can't get myself to exercise either. Maybe it is just winter? Anyone else play head games with themselves? I should be so happy that I have come this far(80 lbs), but thought I would be so much farther by this time(banded 9/03) Thanks for listening.

[Guest Kira M]

I'm pre-op, but I sure do understand the head hunger thing. Do you think you might want someone to talk to about this, like maybe some therapy? I mean, as long as you feel like you have control over it, and it isn't controlling you, that's what is important. If it was me, I would just keep a really close eye on the behavior. If you ever feel like it's getting out of control, RUN, don't walk to your nearest therapist. I hope it resolves for you.

[lianna 3]

Ohh, I never feel like that about PBing, never! I hate to PB. I have only done it a few times because I hate it so much. I am so afraid I will mess up my band if PB too much. I really avoid anything I think is "iffy". I wont even eat bread because the first time I got stuck on bread it was so miserably painful, it isnt even worth trying now for the chance it will happen again. However, I do fight the head games. I have to fight the munchies many nights. Sometimes within an hour of eating I get the munchies.....so you know that is ALL in my head, lol.

[emtbaby4 0]

I was stuck for a couple of months before Christmas, indulged over the holidays, and just went for a fill last week. I was a little afraid because in Oct., I was filled too much and ended up in the ER for dehydration. Now I feel the band is working, I can drink, even eat a little, and feel truly lucky. But then there is the times when I want to eat something, having nothing to do with hunger,and don't care if I PB. In fact I feel like good, I had what I wanted, it tasted good, and now I don't have to worry about the calories. This is truly a head thing. And now that I am tighter, if I eat too close to bedtime I get terrible reflux all night. Of course, I can't get myself to exercise either. Maybe it is just winter? Anyone else play head games with themselves? I should be so happy that I have come this far(80 lbs), but thought I would be so much farther by this time(banded 9/03) Thanks for listening.

i thought that way before getting this done. i am not a big fan in throwing up. 80lbs thats great. i go for my band on march 1