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My mini-goal is to get under 100 pounds to lose. My feb goal is the same as January...exercise at least 3 times a week.

You all are so sweet and take such good care of me. It really warms my heart. Thank you. My fill was done under flouro and I am sure he said he put two cc's in. Now I am second guessing myself! (I am a little nuerotic if you haven't noticed yet). I had it done monday morning and I was on fluids mon and tues. Wed I ate about 1/2 cup amounts at a time...maybe a little more, but grazed rather than sat down and ate a meal This morning I had a piece of WW bread, 1 tbsp penut butter and 1/2 banana for breakfast. I got hungry again around 1pm so I had 1 cup of ground beef with cheeze melted on top. Yummy. So far so good. I have to eat slowly and I get full very fast but that is the whole idea right? I have been reading a little about you all....Mandi and Yoda...wow..you are huge losers! xox Congrats. Audree...all went well except for my bright idea to walk everywhere I went. I have shin splints like you won't believe! Cloe...thanks for the love! I appreciate the advice. I hope restriction doesn't kick in while I am on my tip! I still can't believe I am going. We have almost the same goal weight...It will be fun to reach it together. Neenah...I can't wait to get to your starting weight! I am almost there! Glad you are doing well.

Hi I'm back, tired and broke! But I have my fill! I don't really feel any different which freaks me out a little. He put 2cc's in my 4cc band. Maybe it will 'kick in' in a couple of days. I am glad I went ot TJ for this first fill, but like Brenda recommended, I will find someone around here to do the rest of them. I am off to work now, will write more tonight and catch up with everyone.

Congrats! You must feel awesome! You 'lost' a whole person. That is amazing, truly a unbelievable success! Yeah!!!

I also had some anti-anxiety medication from my Dr. It helped get through the nerves and helped me sleep. I brought liquid tylenol 3 with me, but didn't have to open it.

Holy Ticker Yoda! Wow! You are doing great! Congrats on the new clothes.

BK-I agree with Steph on this one...something has gotta give girlfriend! I am a very busy person, and it probably feels like you can handle it, but anything you can do to simplify your life right now will be of great benefit for you. Make sure you are taking time for yourself, even if it is just a walk, or a bath. I also recommend filling your head with healing, nurturing, loving thoughts... maybe a motivational / inspirational book or "book on CD". I gained and lost 4 pounds over the last couple of weeks. I wouldn't worry too much about it, it is probably just your body's way of adjusting to the new eating regime. You are an awesome person...remember that, and again, PLEASE, take some time to recharge your batteries. Steph... thanks for the tips. I am leaving soon for my first fill...:help: soon it will be all over and I am sure everything is fine...I just keep telling myself that! Thanks again.

Audree...I am sure you are doing great. I stopped losing for a couple weeks when I went back on solids, but my clothes kept getting looser, so it is all OK. I leave for my fill in a couple hours...a bit nervous...but I am looking forward to having it behind me. I have terrible flight connections, but I got a really good deal. I will just bring a book...or two. Wish me luck and please send warm fuzzy thoughts so that I can keep my neurtic side (ie...what if my band slipped) under control. xoxo

Kirsten...thanks, this is a good idea. I am leaving for my first fill in a few hours. I am feeling nervous...just the usual nuerotic stuff like 'what if my band slipped' what if I PB on the plane on my way home etc etc. I need to stop and breathe! I will let you all know how it went! Thanks to those who have shared your first fill experience here...it is very helpful and reassuring. Bye for now!

That is good advice, to ask your dr... I was told not to lift more than 10 pounds for 3 weeks. No ab work (sounds like your job needs abs) for 3 months. Maybe you can transfer departments for a while? Best of luck to you...and be careful!

Hi everyone! I am glad you are all doing well. I am not sure if I told you I get my first fill on Jan 22! Yippee! I have been a little stuck in the weight department for the last couple weeks, but I am not gaining. I am really looking forward to restriction. BK...that is great news about your Dad. He will get a little better everyday. I will send you warm fuzzy thoughts. I see our stats are still very simaler...that is so fun! Best Wishes.

Hi Cloe! Just wanted you to know that I am thinking of you! Hope all is well.

Hi Laura, I live in Victoria as well. I was just banded in Dec. There are a couple links for support for weight loss surgery patients that I will send you if you private message me. As far as good 'professional' counsellors I don't know. Maybe ask your GP. There are a few community based counselling centres depending on what area of town you live it. Good luck on your journey...I am happy to meet someone else from Victoria.

Thanks Audree, and congrats on your clothes feeling looser. I used to feel like a slob because my clothes were too tight, now I feel like a slob cause my clothes are too loose! But I'm lovin it! I had trouble getting my calories in for the first couple weeks as well. Just make sure you are taking Vitamins and getting enough liquids so you don't get sick! (Nag Nag). I can't wait till you weigh yourself...it will be very exciting. I got Tom today so I am going to try not to weigh for a week. I usually weigh daily. I leave on Sunday for my fill! Yippee! Shopping AND restriction...sounds like heaven to me.

Yasmina, good for you. Best of luck breaking the news. Just remember that ultimately it WAS your decision and you have the right to keep it as private or as public as you chose to.

First of all, you are right, you are not a freak, you are going through what we all go through at one point. I think the only advice I have on how to deal with stress is counselling and exercise. Maybe talking to a friend who has been there, or allowing yourself to really FEEL your feelings and be mad, sad, angry, etc if that is what you are feeling. I don't for a minute think that you are a suck or that you should get over yourself. That is so far from the truth. You are having to deal with huge issues without your 'coping' factor of food. It sounds to me line you are very insightful and caring. I loved what you said about being a junkie getting a fix...I was there yesterday as well. What you said really brings me clarity on that issue. As for your daughter, I don't know what to say. You must be heartbroken. It is so hard to let go and let them live thier lives and make their own mistakes. I feel like I am failing my kids if I see a train coming but can't pull them off the tracks in time. My only advice is that we all do things in our own unique way, and that includes out kids. My oldest quit school and made some self destructive decisions even though I begged him not to. I realized that the tradition of going to school, finishing in 12 years, going to college, getting married etc is just a big checklist society has imposed on us. Some of us will do it all, but in a different order, and others will stop and start a few times. In the end, we all get to where we were intended to get. (By the way, my son is doing awesome now)With my son, I tried to always give him support and tell him that he was loved, and that even though I don't agree with his decisions I still love and support him. But you know all this. I am sure your daughter knows she is loved. She is just going through her 'thing' right now. We don't know why things happen the way they do. Learning to let go is the hardest part for me. I hope this encourages you. BTW, I moved out at 15, I dropped out of school 3 times before I finished, got pregnant at 18, married a DIFFERENT guy 6 months later after only knowing him for 14 weeks, got divorced 8 months later at the ripe old age of 20. I then finished school, worked in the days, went to college/university at night, remarried, had my second son, divorced again, raised my children alone. Now they are grown and when I look back I wouldn't change a thing. It must have broken my parents hearts to see me choose such a difficult path for myself, but the blessings have been huge. It probably doesn't sound like it, but really they have been. My family is very proud of me. My life is something I am proud of, and I value my relationships becuase I know how precious they really are. You just never know how things are intended to work out. Huge hugs to you. I hope this helps.

I ate a bit too much and didn't exercise yesterday...can anyone say sabatoge...Anyways, I am not beating myself up, today is a new day and I am feeling a lot better mentally than I was a few days ago. I have been thinking about all the things in my life that I am thankful for and it has really been an eye-opener for me. Sometimes I get stuck in the long hours, and watching what I eat, and cleaning the house etc blues, but in the big picture I am really blessed. My parents and children are happy and healthy and loved. I am so thankful for that. I want to see if I can stay the whole day in this mode...just thinking about what I am thankful for, and not what I want of wish I had. Have a fantastic day everyone. I am thankful for all of you!

Hi Heather. Yoda was right, we don't bite, although I don't guarentee sanity...but if you have been lurking you know this already. You must be getting so excited. I hope you and astrotoes get a chance to meet. Congrats on your date.

:sickYoda, I hope today is a better day! :kiss2:

LBT has been a huge help to me and I don't know what I would have done without it. It has helped me see that my feelings are normal. Having said that, I have also had times when I felt bad becuase I didn't feel like I belonged or fit in with the people on my 'monthly' chat, and I wish to God that I had never read that the band isn't really working until you have had your first fill. Whether or not the above things are true, they really got me down. I also started eating soft foods a week early because 'everyone else' was eating soft foods way before me. (However, I did listen to my Dr. and wait 3 weeks before exercising. lol) Good question.

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13-3 miiles in 50 min 14-30 min 15-nothing 16-10 min walk outside 17-10 min walk on treadmill

13-3 miiles in 50 min 14-30 min 15-nothing 16-10 min walk outside 17-10 min walk on treadmill

My scale went down one pound! Yippee! By the way, I stumbled onto something I think is quite clever...I went to have some Cereal this morning and there were no clean bowls. (Kids!) So I put my cereal in my measuring cup and I could actually measure how much I was getting. Then when I added the milk and ate it, most of the milk stayed in the cup because I couldn't scoop it up, thus making my liquidy Breakfast more of a solid. I may be on to something here, because I will be the first to admit the whole portion thing is a little screwy in my head. Enjoy your day everyone!

Wll here we are...the next day...and guess what song was in my head when I jwoke up. I think I may have to boycott this thread! Maybe that 'hands in my pocket' commercial will come on and wipe out dear delta. Have a great day everyone!