So I have been feeling pretty down lately and i dont really even know why i am being banded on 2/15 and i just keep on thinking what if something happends and i cant get banded what if what if what if .. yesturday i went to my surgeons office to get the sleep apena machine to do my last thing and it wasnt in bc of the snow the other day so i just felt like it was a waste of a trip everything around me seems to be falling apart and i dont know how to pick up the pieces at all it feels like everything is shattering around me .. and alls i want is so be happy and not be depersed and have this super ober feeling that is inside of me I have been doing so good with not drinking coffee or soda to get ready for my surgery and yesturday i wasn feeling down to and caught myself drinking a latte that made me even more down I Need to do this for me and its so hard i hate letting myself down I Just dont know anymore Im just feeling so down and i cant snap out of it