Tori1983

So, five weeks post op on Tuesday. I am on solid foods now and I am 24 lbs down since starting my pro-op diet june 8th. I am having no BAND issues. I am having a mind issue. I eat and I make my self sick b/c I want whats left on my plate. I dont have my first fill yet but I was really hoping The band would be more than this. Right now I am thinking I should have gone Bypass or sleeve. I was just hoping the want to eat would go away. I hate being full and mentaly I still want something. HOW do I get rid of this. again, wouldnt have needed the surgery if I didnt have an eatting problem!! Just FRUSTRATED!!!!!!

I am 9 days post op... here is what is bothering me: My back hurts almost all the time.. Normal? When I am hungry it littleraly hurts... My stomach my back my head. This never happened before. I could go all day and skip breakfast and lunch...Now I have to eat something. I was wokein up at 4am yesterday b/c I was so hungry. I tried to ignore my gut pain, back pain.. but couldnt. I had to go and eat a little piece of meat and a cracker just so I could go back to bed.....Normal? I know I am supposed to be on liquids still but damn going on 5 weeks of liquids.. I am doing soft mushies and liquids too. just looking for some help. Thanks.

I cant begin to tell eveyone how much this site has helped me. On my way to surgery I was having pre-surgery jitters! I just kept thinking to myself what other people went through and how much it was worth it in the end. Today on a 'sore'day I just keep telling my self everyone has been through this and they are fine and I will too..soon. To be honest the first reasons I did want bannded is b/c I hate the way I look. I have always hatted the way I felt aobut myself and they way I looked in clothes. I guess the 2nd reason was for my health. It wasnt until I was getting on the surgery tabel when I realized how much more stuff I will be able to do with my kids when I am healthier and smaller. hit me Like a ton of bricks. And that is when true happines for the surgery hit me. I cant wait to go swimming with my kids for the first time. My 4 kids 6,5,4 and 2. Thats a lot of past-summers comming up with excusses why I couldnt get in the pool with them. But, next summer. I am all in. I am missing out on too much. so thank you for this site and everyone who post. Your words are what got me through the drive to the hospital and what kept me in the hospital when I wanted to run. lol. THANK YOU all and good luck. -Tori

Ok. let me start with my pre-op diet. 3 weeks of optifast shakes, sugar free drinks, sugar free jello and that is it. I SUCKED on this diet. It was the most horrible thing in the free world. I was starving to death! I felt like total crap. I did my shakes and diet during the day but at night I would have some chicken ( baked ) or a bite of what I cooked for supper. The whole time I would beat my self up b/c I am cheating all the time. How in the hell will I be able to do the post-op diet. And will I even be able to get my band b/c I am cheating. Just a horrible time for me. I had my band June 29th ( yesterday ) got to the hospital at 5am. Signed some paper work. They took me to the back room and I changed my clothes, peeded in a cup and sat in bed. Two nurses came in and started my IV ( wasnt so bad ) and gave me my Heperain ( spelling ) shot in the stomach. This didnt hurt me at all. Some people say this hurt, but I didnt hardley feel it. They we played the waiting game. My doctor, his nurse, surgery nurse and anistisiologish ( spelling ) came in over an hours time to talk to me. Finally the anistisologist came in, gave me some drugs to relax. I guess I relaxed. I remember everything though. I was wheeled into the operating room. Creed was playing kinda loud. but I liked that ( distraction ). I scooted over to the table. They started setting me up and then Kid Rocks' All summer long started to play then they put my mask on and I went to sleep. Woke up with a VERY sore throat. Coughing. I was crying. I wasnt unhappy or sad or mad or hurting. just crying. lol. I told the nurse I had to get up and pee. She told me I needed to stay in bed a little longer. I told her,no. I need to pee now. I guess she didnt belive me and I acctualy started to pee on myself ( i guess with the drugs I had no ability to hold it in, I tried!!) she finally let me up and i Got out of bed just fine and walked to the bath room to finish peeing. lol. I walked just fine and sat down just fine. I was sick to my stomach. but they gave me some meds for that. I got back in a CLEAN bed. lol and rested. She gave me more pain meds and I just chilled waiting around. I was a little sore but nothing like my previous, horrible c-section. about an hour later I was put in a wheel chair and brought to Xray where I did the barium swallow. I was more than happy to do that nasty shot of barium. My mouth was sooooo dry!! and sticky and nasty! So, then I was put back in the wheel chair and they gave me a wet wash cloth to whipe my mouth out and try to get that barium out. But, i loved my wash cloth. it was so nice. they wheeled me back into recovery. I just sat in my wheel chair and sucked on my rag. lol. then about an hour later the doc said I was good and I could have water. The nurse gave me 5 medicine cups ( like the cups that are on nyquil or pepto ) full of ice and water. I had to drink one every 10mins. best thing in the world!!!! I drank them just fine. Then i got some pain meds to go :yikes: and then my IV was taken out and I got dressed and off to home I went. We stopped by walmart on the way home and got some things I needed. I feel the best when I am up moving around. I came home and fed my friends dog and took her for a walk. relaxed for a little bit and then walked the dog some more. I feel great! iam sore the most where my port is, and my back and left shoulder is sore but nothing thats not tollerable. I do take my pain meds every 4-6 hours. ( I am not here to prove anyting. Pain sucks and I dont want any lol ) Last night was a little rough. My back and shoulder hurt. SO I was up walking alot last night. but I am good today. Just got out of the shower and about to feed the dog and take her for a walk again. I just cant express how relived I am. After my HORRIBLE c-section I had my self expecting something like that. But, when its nothing like that recovery. I feel.... great. The best part is.. is im not hungry. for two days I am just not hungry. My band isnt filled at the time but, you know right where you feel hungry??? That is where my incisions are and I cant tell if I am hungry or just sore. But, I rather feel sore for the rest of my life then hungry. lol. I am just relived that it is IN me and I have it. I am writing down everything I drink for my post op apt. the 13th of july. take care everyone.

Cant belive that 3 weeks have gone by already!! I am leaving on sunday at 1 to head to my friends house ( 5 hrs away) then leave Tuesday at 4 am to head to the hospital!!! I am ready. I am not nervous yet. lol:scared2: I will probley get nervous on the ride to the hospital. Its funny but the only thing I am worried about is my IV. lol. I know that is stupid. but after having my c-section and recovering. I KNOW nothing is worse than that recovery. I got my pain meds today. Ready to pack!! going to walmart tomorrow to get my GAS X and some other things I will need that week. I am ready. I hope that my liver will work with me and it will not be inlarged. I am ready ready ready!! Lets get-r-done. I am going to the movies tonight. Seeing Knight n day!! :smile: I dont care what anybody says. Tom Cruise is still HOT HOT HOT:thumbup: xoxox To all. I will write back next time hopefull Bannded. lol.:tongue2:

Thanks everyone for the support. I am back on the BANDwagon. I did really good today. Its funny... I only saw one person on here mention heartburn. I NEVER have heart burn.. ever! Just when I was pregnant... the day I had my babies.. no more heartburn. but now, this diet. I have KILLER heartburn. As soon as I drink my shake I can just felllll it come on. Horrible. I have put the scale away. I am not doing myself anything good about obsessing about this. Either I will get the surgery or not. I am the deciding factor. . I'm acctualy am on the lower side of blood preasure. and blood sugar is normal. So, I am hoping that this will play a role in the size of my liver and its not to bad to start with. I am putting everything i have in these last 12 days and hopefully it will be good enough. To the pose above. about cutting me all the way open and c-sections!! girl you are right:cursing: I had a c-section in 09' OMG! worst pain in my life! horrible. I cried for 3 days non stop after mine. The most horrific moment in my life. I told my hubby that if Kohen was number 1 instead of number 4.. he would be an only child. lol. the whole time I am think..." and women opt to have a c-section????!!!:scared2:" lol.thanks guys. YOu have been an huge help.

That depends on your doctor. My liquid diet is EAS shakes, sugar free drink/jello and water/ crystal light and that is it. but alot of people on here dont have to have a diet. or some have a liquid diet where you can have Soups and a small meal but, watch your carbs. So, it all depends on what your doctor wants you to do.

Thanks guys, Yes. only liquids. EAS shakes, sugar free drink and Jello. I have cheated. I am not going to lie. But, not bad cheats. Only chicken ( baked ) or just a bite or two of supper. NOthing bad or horrible. I just dont know how I can make it another 13 days. How do I shead at least 6-8 more pounds. I need the weight OFFFFF!! Oh, I cant stand to think If I dont do this I cant get the surgery.. its all just too much. I feel that IF i get the band I can let this mental hell go. I will have the band an be able to work with it. I can handle the two week liquid diet after surgery. B/c I can have chicken or beef broth and other Protein shakes and other liquids. but this is just toooo strict. IF I could just put down the food I wouldnt need this surgery. Oh, I need the next 13 days to go by fast.. but then I dont. b/c I need the time to loose the rest of the weight... oh what hell!!!

Monday was my class. It was really good.. informative. Liquid diet is still kick my a$$! I am ready for this to be over with. I am sick to death of worring about my weight! Am I loosing enough? will the doctor be able to do the surgery? how much is everyone else loosing? Just on and on and on. I weigh myself at least 5 times a day. I fee like I am being lost in a weight black hole. just 13 more days of this shit. I want this over with. I want to KNOW I have the band that way I can focus on my weigh. Feeling really down today. Depressed, anxious. Feeling that if I dont get my band it will be my fault. with no one to blame. 13 more days....