TracyinKS

GOOD MORNING VIOLETS! I lost my bounced weekend pounds! now to get caught up with Denise and get into the 230's! TracyTX: That is great!!! Schexy: Where did you find the mini digital scale? I KNOW I will need this after I start getting fills... Margi: Good to hear from you! Katie: Don't sweat the slow starts we all have to learn how to adjust to our bands! I feel that I should be a lot further along, but then I realize that this is for life and not a race. Michelle: 10 lbs!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHOOOOOOHOOOOO!!!! all that sloshing around paid off. Dynamo: 2 inches off your neck is AWESOME!!!!! Jennifur: I had big issues with my nutritionist (required by insurance)..all she did was tick me off, so I would of been livid with the treatment yours gave you.... but I'm on the stubborn side of hard headed.. :eek: Yes: Where are all our MIA violets? Christyand Ross, Panda and Darla???? Please check in ladies and let us know how its going. Kat: WOW a rally in the mountains sounds like so much fun! I just bought a new EzPull clutch kit for my bike and rode it over to BIL house over the weekend so he could install it for me. We are planning on going to a weekend camp in June and also we are doing a charity run, where I will need an easy clutch for sure. Everyone have a great day, and go get that glass of water!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Another Low Carb fan here....... but it helps me with so much more than just losing weight...... (but that is ME) Some things........ Drink your Water cut the soda NOW Start NOT drinking with meals NOW so you stay fuller longer Eat your carbs at the end of your meal so that the Protein gets in there first Don't drink or eat 2 hours before bed GOOD LUCK

Michelle: I meant to say that YOU ARE GOING THROUGH all the same stuff we went through pre-surgery. DO NOT change your date!!!!! You WILL have it done, and you've come through sooooo much to get here! Right now as I type this..... I can't even tell I had surgery.. its only my sheer WILL holding me at all til I start getting fills...... and it sure is nice to be able to wear some of my old clothes.. that right there sista is my motivation to drink that water and NOT give in to the McCrapMonster that my boss is smelling up the office with RIGHT NOW!!!!

Wow Violets.. I just caught up on all the weekend posts! Janie: YOU ARE STILL SHRINKING!!!!!!!!!! Kat: I snorted water out my nose with the boob comment from your DH! Laura: WOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOO!!!!! ( I always weigh nekid! ) Terri: Another pound gone AWESOME! Judy: I see that you are closing in on ONEderland too! What day is DH having surgery? Angie: How was your weekend post fill? Everyone Else! HANG IN THERE!!!!!!!!!!! For me.. well I ate way too much crap this weekend, didn't drink enough water and didn't exercise..... but the NSV is that even though I did have a Blizzard it was a KIDS size and not a LARGE! Even though I had a Cheeseburger I DID NOT EAT THE BUN....... I have to take DBF to the airport later today so I will be out for the p.m. and then I want to do some major house cleaning.... I still have two weeks til my first fill.......... Like Jane.. I can eat anything and I continue to bounce on the weekends because I'm eating crap, and then work all week to get it back off..... TracyTX: How are you feeling today?

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!! You are looking GREAT! I wish I was in the 230's with you!!! Look at how baggy those pants are getting!

GOOD MORNGING! I am up early and hoped for some peace before the house woke up.............. WRONG! Thanks Kat for the thoughtful words on ds, bio. I am going to put it off. He is oblivious right now as it should be.

Hello all! I am now at home. I did throw away the meatloaf and now I'm trying to decide what ds and I are having for dinner. DBF went solo to go pick up his boys... (we were both a bit testy when I got home, and I just told him to go rather than us pick at each other for being late. I also did a really hard thing today........ I ended up spilling the beans about my surgery to the TOP benefits people at Corporate. REASON? Because I started getting my bills and I noticed that the OUT of Pocket Max was showing about 2 THOUSAND dollars more than what it was supposed to. I called BCBS customer service yesterday and they had all the wrong amounts reflected in their system.. the rep was taking it to her manager, and I called our head hauncho benefit guy to give him a heads up. This morning I had a voicemail from his assistant wanting to know if I could fax her my EOB's so she could see what what going on, but mid message she realized that it was personal info and recanted her request... I thought about it and decided for the greater good, I would share my experiences and findings so I emailed all 4 of my EOB's which detailed my surgery and lab work and Surgeons name.... We shall see how they take it, after all they are the HEAD of the BAC (Benefits Administration Committee) THEY are responsible for ALLOWING BCBS to cover my band........ could be interesting.

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I am so proud of myself right now...... I stayed in for lunch trying to get this report done... I heated two slices of meat loaf up since it has been the only thing I've eaten today and I was so hungry I almost launched right into OLD TRACY behaviour.. (shoveling it in fast) I took a couple big fast bites and realized what I was doing.. I then sat down the fork and took a BIG CLEANSING breath.. took my time and stopped before I even finished the first piece... (I can not bring myself to throw it away... yet, but I PROMISE I'm working up the courage) for those somewhat new to the thread...... I have a HORRIBLE time wasting food! LOL Our mentor Kat from the april 06rs said it ...... "either you waste it or it goes to your WAIST!" This phrase literally sticks in my head when faced with throwing away perfectly good food... mine, kids, dbf.........

Michelle: OH Mommy!!!!!!!!!! LOL I would be bawling at the milestone.. I'm such a sap!

Haydee and Jennifur: this is my $.02 on the bf issue.(truly I don't mean to sound harsh in the written word..know that I say this out of concern and experience).... you have your answers but you guys are both waiting for the answer to change. Both of you are being used. They both know they are loved enough to want a commitment, but they are stringing you along and not returning the same love..and the fact that Haydee you have waited to have kids... STOP waiting on him. All the years you both have vested in the relationships have been your crutch of security but it is not secure.. it is a false sense of security and one that you NO LONGER NEED. You are both STRONG, INDEPENDANT WOMEN who have made a choice to take this big WLS step... it is JUST THE BEGINNING!!!!!!! and watch out world... we have two single hotties on the horizon! You don't need the emotional baggage that is tied to the dbfs. LIFE IS SHORT GIRLFRIENDS! TIME TO LIVE IT!

GOOD MORNING!!!!!! Deanna I think you are my Pizza twin, because that is the same type of stuff I would do... (and yes, we love Papa Murphy's) The Delite crust is their (Low Carb version). I had more to say but I had someone come in to my office... I'll be back later.

Good to see you KCQ and welcome Katie! I want to say a heart felt thank you for all the feedback and pm's... it all really did help to see it from outside my RL world. My son is a mere 3.5 yrs old.. but dare I say the MOST INTELIGENT LITTLE MAN! (LOL mamma bias talking here ) I always go through this when I get a request to meet up with one of the two....and yes their lives are drama filled and and our biggest drama is maxing out the Home Depot Card because of a busted sewer line! LOL DBF and I have been together over 2 years now so my son was 1.5 when our two families blended...... I am putting it off for now its what is in my gut truly.. I just have this fear of later down the road when my pubesent son who is towering over me decides to go all teenager on me and seek out Shrek and think he is COOL,.. but this is me over thinking it. I KNOW!!! thanks for letting me vent..... Back to bandtopic............. I ate Mexican tonight! I had 3 chips and salsa.. and 99% of my chicken quesadilla... but it was only a HALF SIZE... normally I would of been p.o.d at the small size but tonight it was about right........ I do need a fill.. and I hope I can feel it... I REALLY want to be in the 230s for my June 1st pic........ more and more people are noticing and it is totally weird because I have so much to lose... 28 lbs is a drop in my BMI bucket! FAT ANGELS IN TIGHTS UNITE! Well I'm off to bed.. I just watched Grey's finale and it just stunk! What a depressing way to end the season....... I am thirsty but I try not to put anything into my mouth right before bed time..... (I think oprah did a thing on it a year or so ago) HaVE A GREAT evening you Night Owls! p.s. Laura.. good luck with all the wedding planning........ invite everyone! .. those that won't come will send money and gift cards! LOL and I still have some of my old towels (and I was married in 88) good towels that out lasted a marriage.. hey now thats an ad campain waiting to happen! A friend of mine a work just got married (she's such a young thing like you) I got her HOME DEPOT gift cards.. and for the shower I got her a mop bucket filled with supplies and goofy things like mouse traps and light bulbs.... the more politically correct attendee looked horrified but the bride and her mom (also my bestest work bud) LOVED IT!!!! and they used the Home Depot card to buy kitchen paint....... OK GOOD NIGHT FRIENDS!

LOL on the crossed boobs comment! You can't see the pic most likely because of your big brother firewall! Thank you SARA!!!!!!!!!

Angie: You are probably not losing as fast as some because you are already in ONEderland! I bet your fill WILL help, and I bet you start losing inches QUICK I hope everyone is having a great day... I have yet to get any water in, because I ate lunch and now am waiting my hour before drinking. My dilema from earlier is that the mother of my son's half sister has emailed requesting that we get together this summer.... quick background: My son's bio father is a low life (with strong sperm) he was my rebound loser after my heartbreaking divorce and I got pregnant after a life of infertility.. so my son is MY MIRACLE and I literaly thank God everyday for giving him to me, and having him is worth ALL the heartbreak and life changes that got me to the point of hooking up with such a loser.....because of this I over analyse everything that affects him......... Bio "Shrek" has 4 known kids with 4 formerly infertile women, my son being the youngest (that I know of). While I was with him and during pregnacy I made nice with 2 of the other mothers and was allowed to pick up the kids for weekends.. (I felt this was my duty) anyway when I booted "Shrek" the visitations ended because I was the only one giving it any effort...... my son has not seen any of his half siblings since he was 6 months old. They however are now 10 and 11, and know about their baby brother........... I have tried to do the right thing by emailing occassional updates and pictures.. and any that they send me goes into his book that I'm creating for when he gets older. Shrek lives a mere 5 blocks from me but does not have contact. He sends about $20 a month to SRS for child support so that the arrest warrants stay off his back. (there is a whole long drama induced story where he is concerned) The last time Robby saw him was a year ago April, and Robby just refers to him as "that big guy, or his other daddy". I never say anything negative about him because I don't believe in it, and if he asks questions I answer as diplomatically as possible, but he may make one or two comments every couple months I will say this too... when I first had my son, I truly believed that everyone deserved to know their bio's even if they were a piece of crap. I refused to use him as a pawn....... but the day I found out that he had left him alone in a car at a downtown gas station in no car seat hanging out the window saying hi to all the passerby's I was LIVID.. (he ran in to get cigs) and I only found this out because another mother at daycare saw him and thought it was ME who left him and wanted me reported.. she told the babysitter and the babysitter told me..... Yes, momma grizzley syndrome went into affect and I took him to court to get supervised visitation and sole custody....... I got the sole custody and he failed the Court ordered Supervised Visitations and that was over a year ago............. My family thinks I should not have any contact whatsoever with Shreks family or other kids.. they say it will only confuse him and make him want Shrek... but I am torn..... I will not have any other children and DBF and I are not married although we share a life and he thinks of DBF's kids as his brothers... they don't LOOK like him they don't share the same last name........ oh... and another thing that makes it difficult the email I got today from one of the mothers... well she has a female partner now, and she makes no bones about it that she doesn't like me.. she FORBID we have contact.. so emails I get are always without her knowledge.. STICKY situation......... but it all boils down to...... WHAT IS BEST FOR MY SON? Should I put off the meeting til he is older?

Haydee: I snorted coffee out my nose!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LOL! Judy: WOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOO!!!! Well they say the butt and boobs are the first to go! (and also KUDO's on DH's 8lbs!) Lunasa: I'm a Libra too! I had my son when I was 33 so you have plenty of time to get a handle on your band and weight before starting you next big project. Jennifur and Terri... RE the colonix..... very interesting about the intestinal CAST... My sis is loving the stuff, but like I said she has major bathroom problems. She is amazed at being able to go. OK....... finally saw a new low number on the scale today.. so I lost all my Branson weight and the weight from eating solid food.... to do this I am forcing myself to only eat small amounts and protein first... so I'm in DIET mode. My boss went home and told his wife that I was losing weight and now she wants to know what I'm doing.. So I was honest........ Eating Less, Watching My Carbs and drinking my water! (that is AFTERALL what I'm doing.. right??) All the 16's I'm in are stretchy, and I carry my weight all over... esecially in places like my arms.... OH TO HAVE TANK TOP ARMS... a girl can dream...... right??? I need to start in on water I'm slacking today........ it is a quarter til 11 and I have not had one thing to eat.. and I've only drank my coffee..... I'm having a moral dilima which I may get into later today, but I will say it involves my son 3.5 and his biological half sister 10...... but I need to digest the email I got before I get into it. OFF TO GET WATER!!!!!!

Deanna: hit the clearance rack you never know what you may find! WHOOOOOOOHOOOO Terri! 14's!!!!

OOPS sorry for not reading the entire thread before posting........ but please aware.. he is a sabatour waiting to happen... be strong when/if it happens.

What she said...... A bit of tough love and all the directness of a guy. We all need it once in a while (at least I do) As for your BF Cajun: I agree that you should kick him to the curb... he is an ass and will continue to be so.. ESPECIALLY when you start losing weight.. he will then feel threatened and even more insecure than he does right now, and if you quit being his victim he will just get more hurtful! LOVE YOURSELF ENOUGH TO MAKE HIM GO AWAY!

CONGRATS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! that is great great great news! You'll be on the losing side very soon!

I can't feel it or the port.......... the only time I know its in there is when I eat Beans and my billy the little bad ass band knocks me on my butt... NO MORE BEANS for TRACY!!!!!!! (although most tolerate them well)

I have a pair of size 8 jeans still with the tags.... I bought them when I was loosing the last time and was able to get on 10's of the same jean.. they are stretchy and they were on sale for 4.99 so I bought several pairs! The clothes I really want to get back into are my size 12 Levis.. I look at them now and think....... damn was I really that little???? The jeans I can get into now are stretchy 16's I'm hoping to get into my old levis around 209 lbs... (I think I was around that weight when I grew out of them) I really am so happy to see the inches going down with only being down 27 lbs! My shirt goal is to feel OK in a tank top, but my arms are already floppy and will be just horrific by the time I get to goal.... I can feel my upper belly getting smaller and I can see it in my face.. I really really really want to be in the 230's by the time my June pic comes around

Be patient grasshopper they will come! Just keep posting and keeping this thread close to the top.. as more get their dates they will come looking for others and I think Lucky 7's is a GREAT NAME!!!!!!!!

HELLO Fellow Violets!!!!!!! I had a hard time getting in today so now it is already afternoon! I was VERY happy to see the weight on my siggy this a.m. now I want those 230's!!!!! I have had 1 pc cajun string cheese 1 fairly large pc of meatloaf 1 cookie ( ) 44 oz's of water..... My sister and her best friend just started a colon cleansing program Colon Cleansing, Constipation, IBS, Colonix, Cleanse, Detox – Online Resource and I am about ready to try it myself, I wonder if it would be ok for us! I'm guess it would be since we have all our innards. I will warn you the pics on the website are DISGUSTING so if you thought my surgery pictures were gross..... BE WARNED..... I will also say that my sis (who is only on day two) is already a believer.. she's had bathroom problems her ENTIRE LIFE... she used to run from my grandma if she had a bar of soap in her hand! LOL sad but true. Feed back anyone???? NSV: I am now able to wear 5 pairs of my old jeans and two of my old "good" bra's that I had gotten too wide for. My boss, today said he could tell I was losing weight.... (HE DOES NOT KNOW I HAD SURGERY) but he does know that I'm on a diet and paid to see a nutritionist. Also... this is pretty amazing because he is a near retirment normally unobservant MAN!