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Losingit2018

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  1. Congrats!
    Losingit2018 reacted to Linda72 in Just checked in at the hospital....   
    So today is surgery day I just checked in at the hospital. Surgery in 2 hours. I'm so excited not really nervous at all. It's been a long 10 months of preparation so I'm definitely ready to take the next step. Here goes nothing🙏🏻
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    Losingit2018 reacted to AZhiker in problems years later   
    Sounds like you need to be scoped to be sure you haven't developed an ulcer or erosion
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    Losingit2018 reacted to AZhiker in Weight gain pre surgery and people’s expectations   
    I am so proud of you on so many levels. You were able to identify the sources of negativity, address them, face them, and advocate for yourself! Hurray for you!!!! I have no doubt that you will be totally successful with your weight loss after having surgery. I did not lose but a few pounds in my 6 month pre-op period. But I have been hugely successful after surgery. I don't think your doctor can accurately predict how every individual's body will respond to surgery. I can tell that you are determined to make this work, and that is what it takes. When you think of it, it's kind of silly and unrealistic to think that someone who has wrecked their metabolism by dieting, and who needs WLS as a last resort, will be able to take off loads of weight before surgery. If we could have done it, we would have already, right? Please don't let that idea rattle your confidence. If anything, let it make you more determined than ever to prove him wrong. Your coworkers are being just plain selfish. Period. You take care of yourself right now, OK? Please keep us posted about your journey!
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    Losingit2018 reacted to Emily Jane in Weight gain pre surgery and people’s expectations   
    So much to touch on here and it may ramble but it all has a point so stick with me. 😂🤞. The first day I met my new doc 6 months ago, the last thing he said was, “I can tell who will be successful after surgery by the amount they lose before surgery”. Talk about pressure! Lol. Anyway, fast forward 6 months and the surgery scheduler calls to say I’ve been approved for surgery. I was nervous initially because I ended my 6 months 3 pounds heavier than I began so I was stoked that I was approved so quickly.

    SS said if I was able to take the next day off work (9/27), I could have surgery on 10/8! Oh boy! First person I call is my husband, who immediately starts in on me about how I need to wait until AT LEAST November because we can’t afford surgery now! Never congratulated me or anything. I actually hung up on him. Then I tell my bosses/receptionist. Bosses and nearby co workers all start in on what an inconvenience it will be with me out. God forbid they call their own patients or check their patients auth. No congrats there. Receptionist is like I don’t care what you do, I just want to go to Vegas for Halloween. 😒. I finally call my mother in law, who is loaning us money for this surgery and she immediately screams, “YAHOO!!!! CONGRATS!!! IM SO PROUD OF YOU!!”. Tells me to absolutely do the 8th. Don’t wait! Go for it! I get to my desk and after 30 seconds of pause just cry because only one person of the 6 I just told was happy for me. I let my old insecurities set in and figure, if more people are against sx so soon then maybe I should wait. So I scheduled it for 10/22.

    Fast forward to today. I’ve been incredibly agitated the last two weeks. Everyone at work is worried about how my sx will inconvenience them. I went from two weeks off work to one week and two weeks half days to maybe I can work from the hospital since I’m not doing anything. I’ve been binging on food left in the pantry (pasta, brownie mix, coffee) because I tell myself my hubs will be more relaxed if I eat shit and save money these last two weeks. In the back of my mind though I have the doc...”I know who will be successful after surgery based on how much weight they lose before surgery”. I KNOW I’ve gained weight the past two weeks. Wouldn’t be surprised if it was 10 pounds. 🤷‍♀️. So the self loathing begins. “The doc thinks I’m a shit patient for gaining weight and he’s wasting his time working on me because he knows I won’t be successful”. “I’m worthless”. “Why can’t you just make people happy and lose weight?!”.

    Tonight I told hubs I was going to bed early because I was “agitated” and when I laid down I stared at the ceiling sobbing my eyes out. I couldn’t cry harder if I tried. Then it hit me: why am I letting these people control my life?! So I text my husband to come to the bedroom to talk (I’m a millennial. It’s what we do).

    I proceed to tell him how angry I am. I’m angry that he was so concerned about money that he never congratulated me for a year of hard work. I’m angry that I let my co workers dictate my pre and post op care. I’m angry that I let my husband choose my surgery date. Most importantly, I’m angry at myself. Angry for letting them take away my initial happiness. Angry for being concerned about my co workers feelings over my own. Angry that something my doc probably meant as encouraging was twisted by my mind to negate everything I’ve done in the last year because I gained weight. As if the weight gain negated all the physical therapy, the personal training, psychology work, food logging, nutrition appointments, weekly classes for united healthcare, monthly support groups and $8000 in money to better my health for this surgery and life change. Angry that I let my emotions get the best of me and ate shit instead of grabbing my mother in laws credit card like she offered and getting the proper food I need pre op.

    He listened and apologized. We chatted a bit over his fears/concerns, my concerns (I’m not afraid of surgery) and my need to work on my people pleasing. It was cathartic. It was also humbling that I thought I had this mental aspect under control when clearly I did not if I let all of these people live rent free in my mind.

    Friday I’m going to for my pre op appointment and I’m going to be open, honest and an advocate for myself. I’ll probably stumble at some point in the future but I’m taking a screenshot of this post to remind myself that it’s ok to advocate for yourself and then pick myself back up.
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    Losingit2018 reacted to Sosewsue61 in REGRET   
    You are in a deprived nutritional state, and recovering from major surgery, so be kind to yourself. Forgive your altered state.
    What would you tell your best friend? You would say, it's done - how can I help? Your thoughts can out and out lie to you.
    Would you shame someone that needed knee replacement - by saying 'well if you hadn't gotten so fat you ruined your joints, you wouldn't need an 'artificial knee' ? Woukd you shame someone for needing a c-section instead of 'natural' childbirth? NO. You would say - this is an opportunity for you to be mobile again and enjoy your life, live fully. And your body wasn't going to cooperate with childbirth, you have a healthy baby to love.
    This surgery is a tool for you to improve your life. Your original reasons for wanting it are buried behind some undeserved guilt and fear. Stay strong, it will improve.
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    Losingit2018 reacted to CrystalV in REGRET   
    Yes, started anti depressants and started working with a therapist
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    Losingit2018 got a reaction from FluffyChix in Nervous Excited Anxious Happy Sad - Surgery in 9 hours...   
    Hang in there, Mark. You got this. Life is getting ready to get so much better for you.
    Please let us know how the surgery goes when you are able.
    Good luck!
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    Losingit2018 reacted to Orchids&Dragons in Nervous Excited Anxious Happy Sad - Surgery in 9 hours...   
    Ask for meds or a nausea patch. It will help a lot.
  9. Congrats!
    Losingit2018 reacted to Mark1107 in Nervous Excited Anxious Happy Sad - Surgery in 9 hours...   
    Hey everyone. Thank you for the words of encouragement! Surgery went well. Hooked up to a morphine drip.
    The Dr. Also fixed 3 hernias I had! I only knew of the small one in my belly button, not the other two.
    Still in the hospital room overnight, SOP. They gave me an ounce of Jello and it completely filled me up.
    Fast food on TV MADE ME SICK TO MY STOMACH!!
    Nausea is so real right now.
    The stichtes are glue closures.
    Great insurance no money out of pocket.
    2 hours before my surgery the first person of the day canceled since they ate before the surgery so my surgery was at 6am not8.
    Fast food cravings are gone!
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    Losingit2018 got a reaction from FluffyChix in Nervous Excited Anxious Happy Sad - Surgery in 9 hours...   
    Hang in there, Mark. You got this. Life is getting ready to get so much better for you.
    Please let us know how the surgery goes when you are able.
    Good luck!
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    Losingit2018 got a reaction from FluffyChix in Nervous Excited Anxious Happy Sad - Surgery in 9 hours...   
    Hang in there, Mark. You got this. Life is getting ready to get so much better for you.
    Please let us know how the surgery goes when you are able.
    Good luck!
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    Losingit2018 got a reaction from FluffyChix in Nervous Excited Anxious Happy Sad - Surgery in 9 hours...   
    Hang in there, Mark. You got this. Life is getting ready to get so much better for you.
    Please let us know how the surgery goes when you are able.
    Good luck!
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    Losingit2018 got a reaction from FluffyChix in Nervous Excited Anxious Happy Sad - Surgery in 9 hours...   
    Hang in there, Mark. You got this. Life is getting ready to get so much better for you.
    Please let us know how the surgery goes when you are able.
    Good luck!
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    Losingit2018 reacted to KaysMommy in OOTD   
    @sheribear68 I love the dress and the boots. You look ah-ma-zing.

    @AngieBear I love that jacket. You new pieces look great on you.


    Today it’s going to be raining all day here. I’m ready. I love this sweater I’m wearing. I tried to get a back shot so you guys could see the back. I also got a new coat yesterday. I needed something that wasn’t camouflage to wear to work. I hope you all have a great day.



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    Losingit2018 reacted to sillykitty in OOTD   
    Last day ... tiny bit less boring

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    Losingit2018 reacted to sillykitty in OOTD   
    LOVE!
  17. Congrats!
    Losingit2018 reacted to Snapcase- in OOTD   
    Somethings I can finally wear after 20 years! A soccer jersey!! So excited!!

  18. Congrats!
    Losingit2018 reacted to johnedwin in Gastric Sleeve after 50 (Senior Sleevers)   
    well i turned 50 3 days before my surgery and i am a young 50.. and i have lost 54 pounds in less than 2 months.. day of surgery weight i was 347 now down to 294...
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    Losingit2018 reacted to Wineguy in Gastric Sleeve after 50 (Senior Sleevers)   
    I'm over 65 and surgery is scheduled for early December...I'm already on a restricted diet for gout, so dealing with things I can't (shouldn't) eat is not new. However, Protein heavy food and Water is getting a little tiresome. Yes, I know it will be a permanent issue after the sleeve, but I love my veggies and fruit.
    This step is drastic as we all know, but having been fat my whole life I'd like to see what it's like to be able to wear normal clothes, sit comfortably in a plane seat and not be greeted by friends as "Hey...big guy". Whatever my life expectancy is...I want that experience. Plus I'm tired of using a CPAP for my severe apnea.
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    Losingit2018 got a reaction from Serengirl in Gastric Sleeve   
    For the rest of your life. Seriously.

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    Losingit2018 got a reaction from Serengirl in Gastric Sleeve   
    For the rest of your life. Seriously.

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    Losingit2018 got a reaction from susunorm in Before and after   
    Wow awesome transformation!
  23. Congrats!
    Losingit2018 reacted to susunorm in Before and after   
    Today let’s post our before’s me and after. No numbers! Here’s me!


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    Losingit2018 reacted to laura1116 in Liver problems 1 year after Sleeve   
    My daughter is one year out of gastric sleeve surgery. She has done very well but in the last couple weeks she has been experiencing very high liver enzyme’s and Billiruben in her urine. She is in the hospital right now and they have ruled out Hepatitis. They do not seem to be paying much attention to the fact that she has had gastric sleeve. She only drinks alcohol socially. And she is only 24.Has anyone heard of this complication a year after surgery or more?
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    Losingit2018 reacted to apositivelife4me in One year post op PICS   
    I said I was sorry. If you have spent time reading in these forums you have seen how people interact and say things that others do not like or get offended by. I said something wrong, but I have as much a right to be in this forum as anyone. I make a valuable contribution just like everyone else. That being said, I am not perfect and should not have said what I said.
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