Frustr8

5ft 8 in, size 12 feet, as I lose weight feet are narrowing but getting shorter? Don't think so, some people say they do, IDK about that. Highest W 365+ , surgery weight 319 on September 5th 2018, current W 242 at 6 months, my dream goal/ size is 175 Or Size 15 Junior and that would still be on cusp of overweight/ obese by BMI standards, I will be truly grateful to be below 200 pounds, maybe 195? Spent too many years hating the Frustr8 I was, I will be grateful for what I. CAN ACHEIVE st 73 years old. The last time I was at 195 and yes, it has been years ago, although I looked a large/average it wasn't that,bad for me. I gave up on looking like TinkerBelle and Peter Pan long ago. At 195 I had good defination of my body parts, no snide little kid came up to me and asked " Are you a Lady or Fat?" wanted to tell him to go play in traffic or worse, but after I reach 195 I still want to lose those last 20 pounds it will be my choice, not some arbitrary size someone else set up, and being in control, oh THAT means the world to me. Too much of my life was spent conforming to others standards, not talking back, believing the line Nobody could like me for me, I was just an extention of family members, someone's daughter, wife, mother and that should be my goal in life. Why did I believe that stack of hooey? I was raised to be sunservient, a husband . was my only goal, once you got one, no matter the model, you never let them go, if you were emotionally or even physically battered, you sucked it up for the greater good, as long as bones weren't broken, you wore long sleeves, covered bruises with make up , you were female, it was all you deserved. Someone on here accused me of desiring martyrdoom, nope, I just didn't realize there was another way to live. And if someone on TV was also battered I was told " See you're not so bad off, you're warm and fed! Yeah and food was my friend and comfort when nothing and no one else was. It was far easier to become a widow than to get a divorce from food! But I am stronger, albeit older, braver, I can and will stand up in a diminishing size body, and it is my choice finally not somebody elses, and Surprise Surprise most people like ME for ME, not somebody's extention , Frustr8 is really cool on her own , those who don't, well I wish them well on their own journey and trials for like Popeye I Yam what I Yam and it more than suffices in my World!???

Your body is saying " Bad Anna, we know you can do better but we'll hurt for a while just to remind you!" It it had been major, it would have done what Precious Pouch does to me, slimey, puky misery that gone on for a while, I have had times I ended up dry heaving toward the end. A lot of us have had episodes where our minds write checks, and our new streaml8ne guys refuse loudly to cash. After this misery you'll engage Your Good Sense before the hand extends toward the plate. You're human, 1 flub- up can be expected! A fellow traveler on the path to Bariatric Nirvana****Frustr8

My bad habit, my son Tomkitten would say impetuousness, I say he lives on Someday Isle " oh Someday I'll do it, just not now when it's needed" biggest growl we have with each other!

You know I almost hate having testing anymore, sure I make it through but there is always an addendum. Chest/Abdominal MRI. to check Thoracic Aorta Aneurysm- " Surprise you have a noticable Renal cyst on 1 kidney: My question? Which one? I have 3. Now neck Cat Scan to check what's causing neck pain that increases daily " Ahhh-em You have a thyroid nodule, you better notify your PCP and have further testing and scans. When I was scanned for bladder problems they announced I had diveriticuli in my lower left colon. They had better hurry up and get me fixed up, it gets increasingly hard to find replacement parts for a mid 1940s jalopy like me, pretty soon we will have to resort to binders twine and bailing wire to repair, not only will I be on the Blue Collar Comedy Tour, I will BE the Blue Collar Your. I can see Jeff Foxworthy over my inert body ." If your doctors have to resort to___ and ___ , you might be a Redneck!" Someone once said to take life with a grain of salt, shoot I'm the whole blue box of Morton's now, can't even hope for Diamond, just generic Morton's.

The very same boiling water that softens potatoes also hardens eggs, it all depends what you are made of inside.

And my notorious Pouch? is named Precious, because I fought for over 3 years to obtain her. There are days when i wish I had a zipper, so I could pull her out, spank her for all the ornery.digestive tricks she wants to pull but i realize we are now life- companions, trying very hard to make my peace. 6 months and she still hopes I'll surrender and let her always have HER Way. But life, especially bariatric life, is a constant learning experience so best to go with the flow as time goes by!

Other hard journeys do not discourage me, instead I am inspired to keep on with my own bumpy journey, some are smooth like a log flume ride, some are like a twisting and turning amusement rollercoaster but we all seem to find our finish l8ne in the end, don't we??

Well mine just did fine, almond milk and fruits that have not given me fits in the past, no melon, no banana, they both make me puke. I am heartened to do this again, in the meantime since it wasn't as runny as I thought, next time add liquid clear up to the Max Line, shorted it a smidgen I'll eat it is like (non) dairy freeze custard, oh and I added a scoo0 of protein powder, by hand I have trouble mixing it smooth, but it's smooth and hidden here. I think I will be brave to do it again and may try one of the Green Smoothies Fluffy Chix and the others talk about, think I would enjoy a little avocado et al.

I bought a Farberware $19 at Wal-Mart, shoot I thought , it looks like the "Big Guys" maybe just a less powerful motor. First 2-3 times it preformed adequate, fine I thought , things are gonna be fine, then I decided to try making a blueberry smoothie, darn thing locked up tighter than a prison door. When a mess I got, and trying to free the container, shake container did loosen although the power blades did not and there I was in Lake Purple Pain. Spend a little more, get something a little better, might have worked to blend water and powders but failed me when I need it most. Now I own a Nutriblast, gonna go make me a "Good for you" smoothie, and I have faith in this one to work. Even if my Previous Pouch isn't very big I'm going to try it! May the Power be with me!

My guess is you've experienced your first " dumping: episode. Some are sensatve to even a minute amount of sugar, and brown since it also contains molasses, hence the brown shade , could be worse. That's why you are told no "carbos" you can't plan ahead who will and won't have it! I know of at least one Bari- pal who also dumps for higher fats content.

Wow, what a Quickie that was!

Wow @ Recidivist, a major Blow-out! That is some Scary Larry stuff to happen, get better, get everything fixed up and get back out here with all us! We'll put a small sandbag on the Victory Bench to save the space for,you, but I believe you'll be able to claim it soon!

Don't let your mind write checks your body can't cash. Wasn't a recliner but another comfy living room chair, took my walker and Tomkitten to pry me up and out, I was shaking l8je a half- froze dog before it was all over! Just Warning!

Let us know how everything goes, if pictures don't lie he looks a very kind and tolerant,person . But Satan and my first surgeon I consulted were pleasant to look upon, it was their inner hearts that were black and evil. Wasn't the first translation of Lucifer "Son of The morning" a shining but fallen angel plotting a take- over from God? But may Dr Pleatman be all you desire in a doctor, you deserve the very best when YOU are deal8by with your life!

Wowsers, you sure it's ALL you? Looks like you snuck some kinfolk' s snapshots in. Hey Guys I do want what she's got, dont you?

Yeah I always hated push-ups where my Boobs hit the floor long before the rest of me. Felt like saying" Houston We Have a Problem Here!" And Downward Dog always meant a whole lot of Upward Rump to me! If I get locked into this position does my local EMTs haul me to the hospital in such a position? Attention, we have middle-aged lady on board, bent at 60 degree angle, our assesment - Major Cramp. ETA 4 minutes or when we stop laughing! HCDFG, hardly can drive for giggling!?Oopsie!

Applesauce, even the unsweetened tastes sweet now, sugar free puddings, many Jello flavors to choose from although my one dietician groaned h9memade cheesy potato soup, skim milk and lower fat cheese, said not happy with that. Told them okay but my pouch was, and anything that does not puke up is my friend. Also pureed down pears, did you know They are less- allergic- invoking than apples? Never did before, but you learn a lot around here. Weird things I CAN'T handle, bananas, cottage cheese and Greek Yogurt straight although in a smoothie I usually can do okay.

Lady Sin there is nothing sinful about that, you're coming right along good, I would say. Keep on keeping on My Friend.

May it be a Treat for You and never any Tricks happen. Going to be neat telling everybody you want to " I had my surgery on April Fools Day!"

Bariatric Patients as a rule don't retain enough stomach acid to digest carbonate, usually you just pass it,out in your stool indigested, but perhaps it could affect your kidneys also. They along with the g.I. system get wastes disposed of.

You must have got the same model pouch as Fluffy Chix, hers is very cast iron, gave her hardly any trouble. Gosh I wish mine had been the same instead of a more tempermental model but Precious and I will still make our peace. Just had my 2 oz of pureed down "Not so Sloppy :sloppy Joe mix with lean meat. And I think she is going to accept it, happy 6 month Surgiversity to us both. Yeah tomato isn't the easiest thing to handle but if you could do it, Hurray for us both! Going to wait more than 30 minutes to drink anything just in case. See my path has had briars, bumps and twists to,it, in some respects I am 6 months , in others 3 maybe 4 but I will get there to the finish line?I'm a jalopy where many of you younger ones are Ferraris, Like the old time Timex Watch commercial " I take a lickin' and keep on tickin': so I guess I'll still be okay.Talked to one of my bariatric nurses today, told me to stop having "diet envy",that I am still doing just fine, maybe I am slower through stages but I have a great weight loss to show for things, can't compare oranges and apples, but sometimes I feel like a gnarled old crabapple. But maybe God likes all kinds of fruit in his Garden,yeah I LIKE that thought! And your restriction may hit in other ways, if not you're still doing your thing, just your way! My Proud moment, down to 242 from surgery weight of 319, n9w that I think is Good! But it has been in fits and spurts although I never really have stalled. Remember, a jalopy, that's me. I guess I chug a chug along.

Wow Jenn, I know you had to work hard to get there so fast, congratulations on such a smooth weight loss. I know you have to be proud of you!

Ah but that would mean insurance was doing something to help us instead of existing only for the frustration quotient. Nice is not in the first name of any plan I ever encountered.

And I like them both, mine still looks like " What happened Man?" but maybe my appearance will settle down soon. If not I have a lot of odd- looking relatives to resemble. Thanks Aunts and Uncles for all those cousins, surely there is at least 1 or 2 I look like. Just hope it's not the polecats, gamblers or felons on the family tree. Almost prefer on of the moonshiners, they were at,least small business- men. ???

Sort of like Willie Wonkas Golden ticket only this one reads " Entitles Bearer to 1 (one) Bariatric Procedure to be done no more than 60 days from above date" Just a little Fizzy Lifting Drink and you're through. Then the real work of the Future starts, and that can be the toughest stage of all!