AllisAngels428

I am 3 days away from being banded. Ive had cravings, after cravings. 10 days into the pre op diet, yes I gave into a craving. You cant beat me up for it, because Ive already done it to myself. On the 12th day in I gave into another craving. It was at that point I said NO MORE!!! I am spending my own money to change my life forever, the giving into the cravings must be stopped. Oh yeah, I know the cravings are going to come and go. Its all psychological. Food has been our friends for so long. It has comforted us, loved us, not looked down upon us, and been there for us our entire lives. We are addicts. Much like crack addicts love their crack, we love our food. We dont eat to live, we live to eat. We are all here because we made a decision to change our lives, but no one told us we would still feel the same way about food. No one told me I would still crave Mexican food and pizza. I thought I had gotten it all under control, but when a craving comes it consumes me. I cried, I was so upset with myself. What is it that I cant fix in my life, that causes me to eat?? What is the food going to fix, that another solution possibly couldnt?? What is so imperfect about my life, that I internally think that food will make it all better? I dont know, because from the outside looking in, my life is pretty great. I really am very lucky. Our bodies cant take much more of this abuse. If our bodies are our temples, then my has been vandalized and burned. When do you choose life over food? Im choosing life today. Im choosing that when the cravings come Im going to try and talk myself through it. Im choosing to us my lap band as my tool to a more healthy life. I am choosing ME today instead of FOOD. Today I win, not the food or the cravings. Today is about ME!!!! Make today about you too, let yourself win! :Dancing_wub:

Hi out there- I just needed to vent. Its lunch time here at work. Since I went to bed last night I have been thinking about these amazing chicken quesadillas from a local mexican place here in Richmond. I had almost convinced myself that it was ok to go get some. Im 10 days into the liver shrinking diet, and frankly Ive come to despise carnation instant breakfast, string cheese, and ham and turkey sandwiches. I know every Dr, has a different diet, this is the one Im on. Low carb, high protien. Its like Atkins. I wanted these quesadillas so bad today, I mean I had convinced myself and my friend at work it would be ok. My friend kept saying do you know how sick your going to be? Alli- why do it now. So I called my Mom, aka the voice of reason. I told her how I was feeling and what I wanted. She threatned to kick my butt. She said Ive come so far to undo all the good I have done. I just started crying. I dont know why I want these stupid quesadillas. Its just FOOD. Why am I wanting something that isnt good for me? I feel like a crack addict. Im jonesing for a quesadilla instead of crack rock. AHHHH! :smile:

I was a self pay as well. It has gone really fast. I went to the seminar in January. I met the surgeon (again) in February, I scheduled my lap band the same day (28th of Feb). I had my test run on March the 26th, and my surgery is April 10th. My head is spinning by how fast it has gone. Next week at this time, I will be at St. Marys recovering from the surgery. I didnt have to do the sleep apnea test, so Im not sure what that is about. Before you know it, your day will be coming. My insurance didnt cover my lap band, so thats why Im a self pay too. Sometimes I wish I would have done it sooner. Its just been so much easier!!! BTW Im totally craving mexican while Im on my liver shrinking diet!!

7 days til my band day with Dr. Schroder!!!! I cant stand it I am so thrilled!!!

First, I have to tell you I am on day 7 as well. THIS SUCKS!! I know the outcome is worth it though. WILL POWER!!! Honey if you want this bad enough, you wont buckle to that desire to eat the wrong food. Plus the moment you cheat, it makes you sick. Take a fools advice! I had to have a few chips, boy was that a mistake. SICK SICK SICK!!! Just know that your doing this for you and this is only temporary!!!! You have made a commitment to yourself, and dang it your not gonna let anything stand in your way. Believe me, I have this talk with myself everyday for the last 7 days as I drink my carnation instant Breakfast. Mmmm <gag>. Fight the temptation, and hang in there!! Banding date 4/10/2008

It is the one they have been using in Europe for a long time that just got FDA approval here. It is made by Johnson & Johnson. Your band has a UPC so to speak and once you have the surgery you can log in and basically have a virtual place to "keep tabs" on your success. I havent been into the site that deeply yet, but I love anything with a website.

Hi everyone! My name is Alli. On April 10th I will be getting the Realize Lap Band surgery here in Richmond, Virginia with Dr. Greg Schroder. Im really excited about this because I have had a life long struggle with my weight. I am almost 31 years old, and I want to be healthy!! I am currently on the liver shrinking diet, and I feel like I have already lost some weight. I have 7 more days to go on this. I am really looking forward to this new chapter in my life. I am also really scared. Thanks for listening, feel free to send advice! Starting Weight: 363 Goal weight: 130