bluejeansmama

Im in Pa...near reading
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Millersville. Lancaster county. Was sleeved 2/29/16.

Hi guys.
Not feeling so great tonight. I've been stoked for the past week, as I got my surgery date, and it's coming up fast. I realize how incredibly lucky I am to have such an opportunity and to be able to have a fresh start at such a young age (I'm 25), which is also why I don't understand why I can't seem to stick with a simple pre-op diet.
I'm incredibly frustrated by my behavior. My boyfriend of 5 years broke up with me 2-3 days ago, and I've been fighting binge urges pretty much non-stop since then. Sometimes I manage to overcome them, but carbs have always been my weakness when it comes to bingeing, and since yesterday, I've been eating crap. I still have about 7-9 pounds to lose before my surgery.
I'm terrified that I won't be able to change my behavior in the future and that I'll gain every pound back and more, thus wasting the 10K$ loan I took for this. I just want to cry right now. So frustrating.

We all failed every time we tried to loose weight before, or we wouldn't have had surgery. I am one month post surgery - and I still half expect to wake up and find that it was a mistake and the weight is back on - but I am just putting one foot in front of the other and pressing on with the plan, trusting it to work. So far, so good. Find other ways to pamper and comfort yourself. The joy of a slow walk in the evening - the pleasure of music you love - a nice warm epsom salts bath. there are so many ways to feed ourselves besides carbs. <3 You're worth it.

Breaking up usually solves more problems than it causes. A year from now you will be healthier and happier, and he will probably be the same jerk he is now.

Sounds like you just dropped 200# without any effort!
Seriously though, you CAN do this!
Think of how far you've already come, and look ahead to the day where you'll be able to look back and congratulate yourself for making it through even though it seemed impossible!
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Hahaha! If only it was that easy to lose actual weight, I'd be 10K$ richer!
Thanks for the encouragement. I'm looking forward to surgery! I'm just scared of failing because I've failed everytime before, no matter how genuinely motivated I was. All the positivity I'm reading on this forum is kind of helping overcome the self-doubt, though!

I work in an office with a ton of thin and fit 20 somethings. (I'm 29 but have been told that I come across "much older and wiser." Um, thanks?)
As frivolous as it might sound, one of my biggest fears is having to interact with them when it comes to things like clothes, exercise, and shopping.
Right now, I am the funny, loud, super confident fat girl who "doesn't care" about what I'm wearing and makes fun of her own weight. I'm scared that when I lose the weight, I'll be forced into this world for the first time and I won't know how to handle it. Even though I make good money, my husband and I have a ton of student debt, so my wardrobe budget is very limited as it is. The thought of having so many more options available to me is terrifying. Even though I would love to have nice clothes (and I think it would help me professionally to dress better) I've hidden behind this persona of someone who doesn't care for so long, I don't know how to make that transition without looking like a flake.
I also worry that my weight has been my shield for a long time, and I'm afraid of what will happen when it's gone. I'm afraid of the attention, which, as someone who can currently command a room, is crazy. I'm not afraid of people looking at me and listening to me, but I am afraid of people really seeing me, if that makes sense. I'm afraid of losing my bubble.

I have about 100 pairs of shoes so I really hope my size doesn't change...my husband will lose his mind if I need to buy all new shoes

Yes there are people on this forum who regret the surgery, but I'm not one of them! Best thing I ever did.. If I was able to be successful with diet and exercise alone then I wouldn't have ever gotten up to 360 pounds in the first place. The way I feel about it is our stomachs are not MADE for eating three square meals a day plus a few Snacks here and there.... An unsleeved stomach is the size of a FOOTBALL ya know so you can fill up and then not eat for a few days.. Do I really need a stomach the size of a FOOTBALL in a culture where you eat three times a day?????
Been sleeved for three and a half months now and it's going great. I can eat anything I want but choose not to most of the time. The portions are satisfying and I'm losing weight albeit a bit slower than many other sleevers.

Ask to speak to the Office Manager. Explain your situation and that you can't get past the Insurance Coordinator. That may help.

Thanks you guys! Tomorrow, my surgery date will officially be two weeks away. I'm going to start the whole pre-op diet thing from scratch today. I can do this. I might be back to square one on a weight loss standpoint, but I'm sure if I walk everyday and follow the diet plan, I can lose 12lbs in two weeks.
Let's do this!

You recognize you have a problem. You reached out for help instead of making excuses. You'll be fine. I do recommend reaching out to a counselor to help learn other ways of coping so the urge to binge is lessened.
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Look at that. Bozo broke up with you and you've already met someone new.
A five-year relationship is significant, but don't mourn it by gorging on crap. Voodoo dolls are so much more effective. KInda Familiar is correct -- this is your time. You have the power to take good care of yourself, right down to eating for surgery and thereafter. A breakup is especially the time to take good care.

You're adorable. Reading your post made me smile. Thank you. <3

Nah...
You'll be right...
We ALL have shitty days...
We ALL f**k our s**t up at times...
Just get up, shake yourself off and move on...
Look for bright sides...
In fact, here's your first - you've already lost however many pounds the boyfriend weighed, so that's a great start!!!
This is YOU time...
YOU!!!
Screw what anyone else wants of you...
You gotta do what YOU gotta do...
Find support here if you need it..
But don't get down on yourself for your cravings...
Congratulate yourself EVERY TIME you don't cave..
You got this...
You're all over it like a fat kid on a cupcake...
Kick its arse!!!
Plus -
How could you go wrong with a cracker of a nickname like that??!?!
Good luck to you...

I check in for my surgery tomorrow (3/22)! at 8am and am supposed to be the first person in!!! WHOOOOHOOOOOO! My birthday is Sunday (3/27) and this is by far the best gift I could have given myself. I had internalized stress a coped with a side of junk food for a while and I am beyond ready to get myself back on track. I gave my friends and family a disclaimer a few weeks ago that I am no longer holding my tongue and can not continue to be EVERYONE's emotional go to person- I was trying to be there for everyone but neglected myself tremendously.
But on a lighter note...how long did you stay in the hospital? I am expecting 2 days and planning to return to work Monday of next week (3/28) since I work a desk job.

I am out of surgery and doing well. The pain meds are wonderful so I am not experiencing much pain. No nausea, I asked for the patch. I love the ice chips, I just tried to walk to the bathroom and got really dizzy, I need to take it slower. The staff here at Kiaser are amazing!

Thanks everyone, I have been doing great on my pre op liquid diet! I still need to pack for the hospital, but I am not going to bring a lot with me.

Also, ask for a bariatric surgeon to review your case.
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I also have Aetna and my bmi is currently 41 as well. Insurance told me it would take 7-10 business days. And for me, it took to full 10 days to hear back that I was approved. My surgery is 3/22 :-)
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Hi Everyone,
I used to frequent the post-op sleeve forums daily but have gotten out of the habit. I'm now pregnant and over a year post op so I'd like to touch base with others going thru the same.
A little about myself:
Surgery Date: 11/14/2014
Current age: 31
Height: 5'6"
HW: 310
LW: 193
CW: 214
I am 17.5 weeks pregnant with my first child. I actually got pregnant about two weeks after my 1 year surgery anniversary. I had been on a great track for losing weight, but in august of 2015 we found out my gallbladder was full of stones and sludge. I had it removed on 8/31/2015. I had asked my bariatric surgeon (different than my gallbladder surgeon) if he would remove my gallbladder at the time of my original surgery but he said that was no longer a common practice. Had I know then what I know now, I would have requested a different surgeon. Apparently rapid weight loss causes gallstones. I knew that, but I didn't know it could do it past 6 months post op. Anyways.....the ordeal of having my gallbladder out brought me from my lowest weight of 193 to 199/201ish. I stayed there pretty much from September to December when I found out I was pregnant. I have gained 12 pounds since the day I discovered I was pregnant. That's partially due to my heavy workload that required me to sit at a desk 12 hours a day with a 45 minute drive each way (7 days a week for the next three weeks!). I am also struggling with low blood pressure. My OB insist I continue eating throughout the day because I have already had one fainting spell. I have not seen my bariatric surgeon as he is in another state from my home (I had been working away from home at the time of surgery). Other than that, my docs assure me I am quite healthy and I am expected to have a completely normal pregnancy. They are sending me for a consultation with maternal fetal medicine for high-risk pregnancies just to be prepared though.
Ok, there's my "quick" intro. We will find out on 4/4 if it is a boy or girl. I think it's a boy. I am not showing yet unless I suck in lol. I was able to wear a size 10 jeans before getting pregnant but I am in a size 14 maternity jean now. Thankfully what started out as additional weight on my butt has started gathering just in the baby bump area so hopefully soon I'll actually look pregnant and not go up anymore in pants size. I still try to eat healthy but I give in to the need for carbs occasionally and healthy fats. I eat yogurt, fruit, orange juice, meats (not deli), cheeses, and yes, even coffee. I usually have stuff like that throughout the day while I'm at work and then one healthy meal in the evening. I am still really restricted in the amount of food I can consume, so I have to make sure I make healthy choices.
I'm not sure what I'm looking for in posting all this or coming back to this site. Maybe just to touch base with others in a similar situation. Any advice or questions, I'd love to hear. Thanks for listening.

I just called my insurance and they said approved!!!! I am so grateful and in awe. Thank you God!

I really hate these Drs that make people jump through extra hoops, and "earn" their surgery and "prove" their dedication. It is just an ego trip for the Drs. The fact she already lost weight on the pills before should be enough. Her weight is so low, she is going to lose and get denied by insurance.
They are professionals being paid for a service, the fact that some of them try to treat their patients like children or pets, is so annoying.

Here are the basics:
Drink Water until your eyeballs float.......no drinks with calories.
Do not eat anything made in a factory.
Eat lean Protein first, and lots of it.
Eat more veggies than fruit....the greener the better.
Don't become part of the sofa.
Good luck....and visit us often. Just keep in mind that opinions and tact will vary, but we mean well.