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I have nothing to add but my spine surgeon is total tool as well. I can't stand him. That's why I'm getting surgery. To avoid having to see him for more surgeries. Ugh.

I couldn't get the mirena placed due to pain. So now I'm back on the pill. Blegh. I was kind of distressed.

That's what I drink from fountain soda machines at restaurants. We have it at work too in case something crazy happens. I'm still pre op.

I bought mine off the rack and David's. It was discounted from 900 to 150. I loved it. I had time so I had the zipper back taken out and they put in a corset back. I got it about 6 months before my wedding. The corset back worked out due to weight fluctuation.

I want a smart fork lol. https://www.hapi.com/product/hapifork

After drinking shakes and eating a little bit of food through out the day I don't even get hungry. It's that head hunger. It's crazy. I'm about to try hypnotism. Lol.

I just talked to my team yesterday. We were shooting for 11/23 but now they don't think I'll make it. Blegh. That week would have been perfect because I'm already off 3 days for thanksgiving.

These were in my office this morning. Wooooo!!

Baritastic is cool. I'm trying it out in pre op.

I always always always feel like crap after I cheat. Both physically and mentally. I don't think it's worth it anymore.

I wish I had advice but I'm a little overwhelmed too and my surgery isn't for another 7 weeks. I guess just listen to your body. It knows what it wants. Are you taking Vitamins and supplements?

My surgery is supposedly Nov. 23rd that's what we're shooting for. The doctor just told me try eating 4 ounces of high Protein food, or Protein shakes and bars every 3 hours. I'm replacing two meals with protein shakes currently. I've lost about 6 or 7 lbs since last month. Thanks guys. I think I was having a panic attack or something. I feel a little better after some sleep. That feeling of "screw it. This is stupid. I'm not doing it" scared me a lot. I'm going to get back on track today and not worry about everybody else. I may take myself to a movie and shopping at goodwill for my birthday lol.

Now I'm crying because I'm so hungry and it's midnight so I can't make anything and I don't want a protein bar.

Also I turn 30 on Sunday and I told everyone not to get me anything and I didn't really want to do anything special or make a big deal about it. Now I regret that. Because now we aren't doing anything. Not like my friends would show up anyway. Lately people have been MIA. Maybe it's because I'm having the surgery. And that's all I talked about. Maybe it's because I wouldn't eat out with them this month. I feel so alone.

I don't know what's up with me. I was soooo excited and soooo into this pre op process and ready to go with such enthusiasm!!!! Now I'm dreading doctor visits and I'm so hungry!! Today was a bad day on my diet. I went to Starbucks had a mocha and an egg and sausage sandwich for Breakfast. A cup of chili for lunch and nothing for dinner because of all the food I ate. Now I just feel hopeless. Maybe it's because I've been sick and on the period from hell or hormones or something I don't know. I'm just blaaah about it all.

After a failed mirena insertion attempt I would have murdered someone for a brownie yesterday. x.x

I love fair life. It's all the milk I drink now. I had regular milk after a few weeks of fair life/soy milk and got really sick.

I'm no expert on eating disorders but I am a mental health professional. If it's not causing someone distress or health problems chewing food and spitting it out is not disordered eating. I can see how it can lead to an eating disorder though.

Those look good.

Dr Surdulescu said my insurance won't pay for the lab test until I have a home study. She said this is common. Since I don't have symptoms and haven't had problems with anesthesia she said she would accept a negative home test and turn it in. I've had 5 surgeries in the past 3 years and have been fine.

I've been up since 4 am because my uterus is still angry with me. And my husband is snoring. "My uterus" wanted to strangle him lol.

My doctor said in the last 2 years it's how the insurance wants it. She said it is waaaaay less reliable than a lab test.

I just had my consult. My insurance ONLY pays for at home sleep study and then after the results come back will they pay for the lab one. I was told the same thing, a negative doesn't mean I don't have apnea but she said she'd be satisfied with a negative home test because my age and neck size etc.

Yay!!!

It's all over my Facebook and blog. When people try to get me to do something or eat something I shouldn't I let them know.