smoothazz

I know exactly how you're feeling. I mourned the loss of my old self and all the comfort I had always taken in food. It's unsettling to think about what life is going to be like without that soothing outlet of the huge meal or being able to reward yourself with food. For me that's how I'd always lived and largely how I dealt with emotions.
I'm around 3.5 months post op (sleeve) and still adjusting. I'm getting used to: being interested in other things, my new relationship to food, my new body, my new relationship with other people, etc.
As of today I'm down 79 pounds and people are noticing what is happening big time. Everyone is commenting on my weight loss. I look totally different - at least 10 years younger. It has changed the dynamic with others and with myself - I feel a lot more confident.
I won't lie. I do miss eating big-guy style every now and then, but I think it's letting up some. If I really stop to notice when it's happening, it's usually emotion driven - I'm bored, stressed, depressed, or maybe I feel like I've earned something and want to treat myself. What it is NOT is that I'm hungry!
So, I'm really trying hard to find things I can DO (not eat) to replace the food part. I have a bunch of yard projects to keep me busy after work. I'm playing more with my kids (hiking, sports practice, walking/talking, etc.). I find that if I sit and watch tv or play video games, it triggers my eating for pleasure feeling because that's what I've always done and they're associated now... Hope that will break over time. I'm working out at a gym dedicated to circuit training. I'm training for a big hike to havasu falls this summer. It's amazing to me that I'm doing all of this!
Leaving the old me behind and committing to changing much of my behavior and approach to life hasn't been without its challenges. But the new life, the new me, I'm stepping into is looking pretty damn good. It's worth it. Yes, you will have to change, but it's worth it.

I know exactly how you're feeling. I mourned the loss of my old self and all the comfort I had always taken in food. It's unsettling to think about what life is going to be like without that soothing outlet of the huge meal or being able to reward yourself with food. For me that's how I'd always lived and largely how I dealt with emotions.
I'm around 3.5 months post op (sleeve) and still adjusting. I'm getting used to: being interested in other things, my new relationship to food, my new body, my new relationship with other people, etc.
As of today I'm down 79 pounds and people are noticing what is happening big time. Everyone is commenting on my weight loss. I look totally different - at least 10 years younger. It has changed the dynamic with others and with myself - I feel a lot more confident.
I won't lie. I do miss eating big-guy style every now and then, but I think it's letting up some. If I really stop to notice when it's happening, it's usually emotion driven - I'm bored, stressed, depressed, or maybe I feel like I've earned something and want to treat myself. What it is NOT is that I'm hungry!
So, I'm really trying hard to find things I can DO (not eat) to replace the food part. I have a bunch of yard projects to keep me busy after work. I'm playing more with my kids (hiking, sports practice, walking/talking, etc.). I find that if I sit and watch tv or play video games, it triggers my eating for pleasure feeling because that's what I've always done and they're associated now... Hope that will break over time. I'm working out at a gym dedicated to circuit training. I'm training for a big hike to havasu falls this summer. It's amazing to me that I'm doing all of this!
Leaving the old me behind and committing to changing much of my behavior and approach to life hasn't been without its challenges. But the new life, the new me, I'm stepping into is looking pretty damn good. It's worth it. Yes, you will have to change, but it's worth it.

This is truly the thread that just keeps on giving!!! I bet it will have years and years of posts on it before it dies! If it ever does!!

I know exactly how you're feeling. I mourned the loss of my old self and all the comfort I had always taken in food. It's unsettling to think about what life is going to be like without that soothing outlet of the huge meal or being able to reward yourself with food. For me that's how I'd always lived and largely how I dealt with emotions.
I'm around 3.5 months post op (sleeve) and still adjusting. I'm getting used to: being interested in other things, my new relationship to food, my new body, my new relationship with other people, etc.
As of today I'm down 79 pounds and people are noticing what is happening big time. Everyone is commenting on my weight loss. I look totally different - at least 10 years younger. It has changed the dynamic with others and with myself - I feel a lot more confident.
I won't lie. I do miss eating big-guy style every now and then, but I think it's letting up some. If I really stop to notice when it's happening, it's usually emotion driven - I'm bored, stressed, depressed, or maybe I feel like I've earned something and want to treat myself. What it is NOT is that I'm hungry!
So, I'm really trying hard to find things I can DO (not eat) to replace the food part. I have a bunch of yard projects to keep me busy after work. I'm playing more with my kids (hiking, sports practice, walking/talking, etc.). I find that if I sit and watch tv or play video games, it triggers my eating for pleasure feeling because that's what I've always done and they're associated now... Hope that will break over time. I'm working out at a gym dedicated to circuit training. I'm training for a big hike to havasu falls this summer. It's amazing to me that I'm doing all of this!
Leaving the old me behind and committing to changing much of my behavior and approach to life hasn't been without its challenges. But the new life, the new me, I'm stepping into is looking pretty damn good. It's worth it. Yes, you will have to change, but it's worth it.

Smoothazz... That is amazing. I really appreciate your perspective. One of my goals to to go kayaking. I went last summer with my wife in a double kayak. I was so heavy that it took an unexpected amount of energy and time to make it down stream. The back of the kayak was so far down in the Water that I was basically drag the kayak through the water. Later I found out that the weight limit on the kayak was 250 lbs. Ugh!! I will get below the limit and have an amazing kayak ride with my wife someday soon.

I agree with you. I've never been a long distance runner. I could always do quick short bursts (base to base) but running can be a new goal. I've heard wonderful things about Couch to 5K. Worth checking out. I've even bought a bike that I haven't ridden. So many ways to get and stay fit! 5Ks are an excellent start. I feel inspired!

Well Fellas...I SURVIVED!!!! Let me be clear that I did a nice brisk walk/jog vs running! Lol!!! 54 minutes...but I got it done damn it!!! My daughter had a great time which is what I cared about most. Thanks for all the support because it was much needed! I think I'm ready for another one now that I've caught my breath!!!!

I know exactly how you're feeling. I mourned the loss of my old self and all the comfort I had always taken in food. It's unsettling to think about what life is going to be like without that soothing outlet of the huge meal or being able to reward yourself with food. For me that's how I'd always lived and largely how I dealt with emotions.
I'm around 3.5 months post op (sleeve) and still adjusting. I'm getting used to: being interested in other things, my new relationship to food, my new body, my new relationship with other people, etc.
As of today I'm down 79 pounds and people are noticing what is happening big time. Everyone is commenting on my weight loss. I look totally different - at least 10 years younger. It has changed the dynamic with others and with myself - I feel a lot more confident.
I won't lie. I do miss eating big-guy style every now and then, but I think it's letting up some. If I really stop to notice when it's happening, it's usually emotion driven - I'm bored, stressed, depressed, or maybe I feel like I've earned something and want to treat myself. What it is NOT is that I'm hungry!
So, I'm really trying hard to find things I can DO (not eat) to replace the food part. I have a bunch of yard projects to keep me busy after work. I'm playing more with my kids (hiking, sports practice, walking/talking, etc.). I find that if I sit and watch tv or play video games, it triggers my eating for pleasure feeling because that's what I've always done and they're associated now... Hope that will break over time. I'm working out at a gym dedicated to circuit training. I'm training for a big hike to havasu falls this summer. It's amazing to me that I'm doing all of this!
Leaving the old me behind and committing to changing much of my behavior and approach to life hasn't been without its challenges. But the new life, the new me, I'm stepping into is looking pretty damn good. It's worth it. Yes, you will have to change, but it's worth it.

Well, I made a simple curry sauce and added a can of chicken to it for lunch today. I ate a small portion very slowly. And, drum roll........ I didn't puke! Thanks everybody!

What a great thing to do... maybe I should get into running this summer! Although I have always hated running... maybe biking.

I've always loved McDonalds sausage egg McMuffin. For years I would often stop and grab Breakfast at ye Golden Arches and savor the lovely McMuffin during my commute. Ah, it may have been true love.
So, having just passed my 3 month post surgery anniversary and having lost 73 lbs, I decided to return to my love for a special treat. I'd reward myself with a warm, soft, Sausage Egg McMuffin.
As I held her in anticipation, breathing in her delicious aroma, I was taken back to so many lovely early morning encounters. I didn't waste any time and began to savor the deliciousness.
It started well. So good. Mmmmm. Then things started to not go so well. I started feeling something stirring below... and it wasn't pleasant.
Before I could get halfway through the anticipated act, I was feeling nauseated. I had to pull over and then it happened.
I threw up. Like 4 times. My old love lay discarded in a random parking lot. I knew then that it was truly over between us.

I was pushing the limits of XXL size shirts when I started this. Now those shirts are huge on me. The crazy thing is that most XL size shirts are like skin tight on me, showing off what gut and moobs I have left. Is it just me or is the difference between XXL and XL just crazy?

I was pushing the limits of XXL size shirts when I started this. Now those shirts are huge on me. The crazy thing is that most XL size shirts are like skin tight on me, showing off what gut and moobs I have left. Is it just me or is the difference between XXL and XL just crazy?

@@smoothazz
Maybe try taking the Top off the muffin, next time, I do that with a lot of sandwiches. What you really need is the Protein, anyway. So, go "topless" from now on.....!

OMG!!! Smoothazz when I read your post I almost fell out my chair!! you were describing me. You see I too had a "Love Affair" with the sausage egg mcmuffin, every morning on my way to work I would stop by the drive through and order not 1 but 2 of them, I would then park in the parking lot and proceed to remove the top part of the muffin always (I never ate both top and bottom muffin cause it was too much bread I thought)and every single bite I took of that sandwich I enjoyed. The first bite was like heaven in my mouth, that's how hooked I was on those little things. They would serve as my breakfast/lunch, after I ate them I was good till dinner. But like you, I had surgery this past January and as of two weeks ago I had not even been back to McDonalds, but two Saturdays ago my son had an early baseball game and he asked me to stop so he can get Breakfast so I did. Well as I was standing at the line ordering, some crazy notion came over me, I thought wow what would it feel like to eat one of those little pieces of heaven again, what harm could it do really especially since I have been good for almost 3 months now, needless to say I ordered one, this time I took off both muffins and ate only the egg, meat, and some of the cheese. Well to end this story, I have to tell you that I ate about 3 bites and I had to stop. Gone was the feeling of happiness I used to get when I would eat them, unlike you it did not make me sick but, I did not find it delish anymore, I had to end my Love Affair of so many years right then and there. Thank You so much for sharing your story, to me it's quite funny that we had this in common

I've always loved McDonalds sausage egg McMuffin. For years I would often stop and grab Breakfast at ye Golden Arches and savor the lovely McMuffin during my commute. Ah, it may have been true love.
So, having just passed my 3 month post surgery anniversary and having lost 73 lbs, I decided to return to my love for a special treat. I'd reward myself with a warm, soft, Sausage Egg McMuffin.
As I held her in anticipation, breathing in her delicious aroma, I was taken back to so many lovely early morning encounters. I didn't waste any time and began to savor the deliciousness.
It started well. So good. Mmmmm. Then things started to not go so well. I started feeling something stirring below... and it wasn't pleasant.
Before I could get halfway through the anticipated act, I was feeling nauseated. I had to pull over and then it happened.
I threw up. Like 4 times. My old love lay discarded in a random parking lot. I knew then that it was truly over between us.

Haha... yeah. My little McMuffin was just no good for me. I was once "Lovin' it"... now not so much. I think I'll date around the food world a little more. Maybe my soulmate is a smooth chocolate Protein Shake (although so far they all just taste fake!).

I've always loved McDonalds sausage egg McMuffin. For years I would often stop and grab Breakfast at ye Golden Arches and savor the lovely McMuffin during my commute. Ah, it may have been true love.
So, having just passed my 3 month post surgery anniversary and having lost 73 lbs, I decided to return to my love for a special treat. I'd reward myself with a warm, soft, Sausage Egg McMuffin.
As I held her in anticipation, breathing in her delicious aroma, I was taken back to so many lovely early morning encounters. I didn't waste any time and began to savor the deliciousness.
It started well. So good. Mmmmm. Then things started to not go so well. I started feeling something stirring below... and it wasn't pleasant.
Before I could get halfway through the anticipated act, I was feeling nauseated. I had to pull over and then it happened.
I threw up. Like 4 times. My old love lay discarded in a random parking lot. I knew then that it was truly over between us.

Haha... yeah. My little McMuffin was just no good for me. I was once "Lovin' it"... now not so much. I think I'll date around the food world a little more. Maybe my soulmate is a smooth chocolate Protein Shake (although so far they all just taste fake!).

I've always loved McDonalds sausage egg McMuffin. For years I would often stop and grab Breakfast at ye Golden Arches and savor the lovely McMuffin during my commute. Ah, it may have been true love.
So, having just passed my 3 month post surgery anniversary and having lost 73 lbs, I decided to return to my love for a special treat. I'd reward myself with a warm, soft, Sausage Egg McMuffin.
As I held her in anticipation, breathing in her delicious aroma, I was taken back to so many lovely early morning encounters. I didn't waste any time and began to savor the deliciousness.
It started well. So good. Mmmmm. Then things started to not go so well. I started feeling something stirring below... and it wasn't pleasant.
Before I could get halfway through the anticipated act, I was feeling nauseated. I had to pull over and then it happened.
I threw up. Like 4 times. My old love lay discarded in a random parking lot. I knew then that it was truly over between us.

I've always loved McDonalds sausage egg McMuffin. For years I would often stop and grab Breakfast at ye Golden Arches and savor the lovely McMuffin during my commute. Ah, it may have been true love.
So, having just passed my 3 month post surgery anniversary and having lost 73 lbs, I decided to return to my love for a special treat. I'd reward myself with a warm, soft, Sausage Egg McMuffin.
As I held her in anticipation, breathing in her delicious aroma, I was taken back to so many lovely early morning encounters. I didn't waste any time and began to savor the deliciousness.
It started well. So good. Mmmmm. Then things started to not go so well. I started feeling something stirring below... and it wasn't pleasant.
Before I could get halfway through the anticipated act, I was feeling nauseated. I had to pull over and then it happened.
I threw up. Like 4 times. My old love lay discarded in a random parking lot. I knew then that it was truly over between us.

Haha... yeah. My little McMuffin was just no good for me. I was once "Lovin' it"... now not so much. I think I'll date around the food world a little more. Maybe my soulmate is a smooth chocolate Protein Shake (although so far they all just taste fake!).

I've always loved McDonalds sausage egg McMuffin. For years I would often stop and grab Breakfast at ye Golden Arches and savor the lovely McMuffin during my commute. Ah, it may have been true love.
So, having just passed my 3 month post surgery anniversary and having lost 73 lbs, I decided to return to my love for a special treat. I'd reward myself with a warm, soft, Sausage Egg McMuffin.
As I held her in anticipation, breathing in her delicious aroma, I was taken back to so many lovely early morning encounters. I didn't waste any time and began to savor the deliciousness.
It started well. So good. Mmmmm. Then things started to not go so well. I started feeling something stirring below... and it wasn't pleasant.
Before I could get halfway through the anticipated act, I was feeling nauseated. I had to pull over and then it happened.
I threw up. Like 4 times. My old love lay discarded in a random parking lot. I knew then that it was truly over between us.

I've always loved McDonalds sausage egg McMuffin. For years I would often stop and grab Breakfast at ye Golden Arches and savor the lovely McMuffin during my commute. Ah, it may have been true love.
So, having just passed my 3 month post surgery anniversary and having lost 73 lbs, I decided to return to my love for a special treat. I'd reward myself with a warm, soft, Sausage Egg McMuffin.
As I held her in anticipation, breathing in her delicious aroma, I was taken back to so many lovely early morning encounters. I didn't waste any time and began to savor the deliciousness.
It started well. So good. Mmmmm. Then things started to not go so well. I started feeling something stirring below... and it wasn't pleasant.
Before I could get halfway through the anticipated act, I was feeling nauseated. I had to pull over and then it happened.
I threw up. Like 4 times. My old love lay discarded in a random parking lot. I knew then that it was truly over between us.