bellabloom

I am about 9 months out and have lost all of my excess weight and more and more!!!!! I've never been so thin in my life. I wouldn't have done this if I wasn't willing to get to 100%.

Here I was at the beginning of this and now 9 months later. My stats are sw 245. Cw 122. Height 5'6. Not sure if I'm done or not. But I'm close.

Here I was at my heaviest and today. Trying to decide wether I'm done losing or not. My stats are sw:245 cw: 122 height 5'6 ish.

Gosh you look amazing!!!

Before I was considering surgery, my family would make comments all the time about how concerned and worried they were about how fat I had become. They were worried about my health etc. my future. How much I ate. They didn't understand why I wouldn't choose to lose weight in a heathy way, likes its so easy...

Who am I to scold anyway. I drink alcohol and eat Taco Bell. course I'm below goal weight! Hang in there, stay strong, get to goal weight, and chocolate will perhaps be an occasional indulgence that you can handle. But now isn't the time!

I didn't think you were judging me. I'm here to hear what other people have to say. I'm fine with being told others thoughts. I've love your posts thank you!!

I don't understand why you couldn't just have some willpower and shit your mouth. You don't need to change your diet just get active. Being overweight isn't the problem it's your attitude and inactive lifestyle. I just want you to be more "fit" and "active". (My ex) I thought you were fine fat. Just eat more vegetables. I'll just fuck the fat off you. my personal favorite. Don't even get me started on the stuff my family said before I was considering surgery!!! About how "worried" they were about me

When the skinny Asian girls at the nail salon are teasing you about how tiny you are and squeezing your tiny waist in their tiny hands! When you try on a shirt from the little girls section at target and it fits. Ha. Yeah. I'm really petite.

For me it's scar tissue built up inside of my sleeve that is closing it up so nothing can pass.

Height 5'5. 122 lbs. size 2

I love what you say about it not being about weight as much as living a healthy life in all ways. I get way too fixated on numbers. I can't even connect the number to what I see in the mirror. It doesn't seem to matter how thin I look, I'm more concerned with the scale shows. I know it's really unhealthy. My therapist and I discuss it all the time. I don't want to live in fear either and I am. I so relate to what your saying. Why did I do this if only to live in the same sort of fear prison. Having an eating disorder is one of the most difficult mental illnesses to live with. I've struggled with this since I was in college and it's hugely affected my life. It was a risk doing this surgery because of this issue I have, I knew it could go the other way and trigger anorexia when I did the surgery which is why I've been seeing a therapist the whole time. It's not that I want to hurt myself or be unhealthy. My therapist says fear of regain is really common especially for someone like me. I feel better today anyhow. Not sure what I'm going to do about the structure. Having the one dialation made it so much better than it was and I hate to have another surgical procedure as I've already had five surgeries this year. I am able to eat a lot of the time now and I'm going to keep working on it.

I've had the structure since the day I had surgery. I've never been able to eat correctly. I had surgery in March so I've been dealing with this for 7 months.

I do see a therapist who specializes in eating disorders. I had one before I had wls and it's still something I am dealing with. I don't want to look anorexic, I don't want to look skeletal, but the fear of regaining and the relief I feel when I see my weight go down is hard to deal with. I've had an eating disorder for years so it's not surprising that it's still an issue. For me the surgery was a must, I had crippling back and foot pain and my weight was escalating like crazy. I was eating out of control and I was going to continue gaining. I knew that this surgery could trigger my eating disorder and it has. Anyway, hence the therapist. I know I need to get more Protein and less carbs and I really want to stop throwing up. I'd like to live without worry and get to a place where I can eat and enjoy and not worry. This is a physical journey for us but also a mental and emotional one. It's a journey I am on to try and find balance and health and happiness.

I'm not trying to be mean, but I'm concerned about you already slipping on something so sugary so soon! Be careful and stick to your decision. Cookie dough is not a welcome thing in your life any longer!!!

I'm feeling.... Tired. Wls surgery has been a hard road for me. And I'm scared too. It's all too much to write here but suffice to say I've had a complicated path. I now have a sleeve and I also have a stricture in the middle of my sleeve. I've had it dilated once. I'm pretty much at goal. My goal keeps dropping. I'm scared to stop trying to lose. I thought 125 was my goal but now it's 115. I'm pretty sure that's as low as I'll go. I'm TERRIFIED of regain and of falling back into old habits and patterns. My stricture makes it very difficult for me to eat many things. I didn't do well with vegetables and meats. For months I thre up everything I ate!! Now I've discovered to my horror that Taco Bell, for some reason, most of the time stays down. I can sometimes eat a small salad or some Pasta, a few bites of a sandwich. I can eat tuna and cheeses.. It's hit or miss. I throw up about half my food, down from 90% of my food. My doctor wants to do another dilation but a part of me likes how restricted I am. It feels like a safety net. And yet when I'm forced to eat Taco Bell or other carb rich slider foods, I don't like it. I want to be able to eat a salad and meat! But I don't trust myself to eat those things. The stricture really keeps me in check. But I'm tired. I'm tired of throwing up all the time, of never knowing if something is going to stay down. I'm falling into eating some of the things I used to eat like bagels, sandwiches, eating out a lot.... It frightens me. I won't gain now because my portions are so small but someday that could change. I don't know what I want it do. But I'm tired. Really tired. This isn't easy.

Okay I'm so confused. Argh. You are all saying that carbs clog you up, but for me, I can't seem to get down meat! Cheese works but meat gets super stuck. I've lost soooooo much weight I've been eating whatever Incan to try and find what works and I have better luck with things that are wrapped in bread or tortillas. Why do I have to be so abnormal. I hate having to eat carbs.

Today I tried on a shirt in the children's section of target and it fit me.

Here is me before and now. Almost to goal weight

Wow! I hope I lose that much weight! ! Did you work out a lot during the process? I didn't work out at all. I just started back at the gym yesterday. I was extremely conscious of my calorie intake and kept it very low. Still do for the most part. I want to lose another 7 pounds then I'm done.

Wow momma! Ha ha. Having fun thrift store shopping in my new body!

Oh man. This is all so funny. I feel bad! My breast were awful before and they actually got better!! But my stomach looks like crap. Need a tummy tuck ((

Your hubby is a hotty! You guys look great together

You look awesome! Just wait your not going to believe just how quick you'll be in single digit sizes!!

Mine has gone away now that I've been eating more