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HA!!!!! Last fill my petunia!!!!

Yesterday was a fill day. I am going to make this my last fill. This is the fill that will get me to Onderland. I weighed in this morning at 232.8 and I know for a fact that my scale is two pounds off so I am actually 230.8. So this fill has to help me lose at least 31.8 pounds. My goal was to be in Onderland by July 4, 2010. That’s 10 lbs a month including this month. I really tried to be 220-something by March 24, 2010 (my two year bandiversary). Well, obviously I was not successful with that. That’s okay though. I still have my main goal and I am still determined to get there.

I am kicking up my physical activity. Every day I have to do something (walk, exercise video, clean up, cut the grass, play Wii – I don’t care… as long as it’s something). I want to join the gym, but I’m waiting for EKG results. Since my blood work and chest x-rays came back great I am almost sure that my EKG results will allow me to begin working out. I really just want to be able to master the elliptical machine; use the abductor and inductor equipment; and use some sort of arm machine to try to tighten up my flabby upper arms. I’m praying that the elliptical machine will not only help me build cardio strength, but will also lift my sagging thighs. I love losing weight, but I hate that I allowed myself to get so fat that my skin is loose. I saw a woman at the hospital the other day. She was wearing short sleeves and her arms led me to believe that she has lost quite a bit of weight. Her skin was loose and covered with shrunken stretch marks. But she was wearing those short sleeves with confidence. Who could blame her, aside from her arms, she looked great (fully covered in her shirt and long pants) but great. So, I’m increasing my activity so that even if I end up with “loose meat” I can still look decent in clothes. I’m also doing it because I’ve had a few weird episodes of chest pains and burning sensations from my jaw line down to my chest. That’s why I had all those tests done. Heart disease runs in my family. I need to everything I can to avoid any kind of heart disease.

So this morning I am drinking my protein shake – very slowly because I am very tight. Usually after a band it is recommended that I do liquids for 24 hours. I think I may do 48 hours. We’ll see it may be longer, I really am tight. All I can do is sip. But that’s the norm for me right after a fill. Anything more and I’m asking for trouble.

So I’ll be checking in later to record how I’m doing.

You went from 324 to 206??!!! Wow! That is awesome. I can’t wait to see 206!! That post just inspired and encouraged me. I really needed to see that. Keep up the great work.

I do get on the scale - every morning – I can’t help myself. But you are correct - those NSV's are the best. They are what really tell the story! Needing smaller sized clothing, fitting comfortably in a charge or airplane seat…. You can’t beat that!

Some bands are tighter in the morning. I can eat much better in the evening than I can in the morning. Even if you get some taken out you may still be tighter in the morning. I think it has something to do with the fluid draining from the port tube into the band while you’re lying down. That would make the band tighter. Then, after you’re up and about, the extra fluid drains back into the tube (or at least that an explanation that I’ve heard before).

If you are a week out and all you can get down are small amounts of mushies then you may need to have a little taken out. But really, only you and your doctor can answer that for you.

The Diva

Your baby is not fat. She is gorgeous. My baby was chunky and cheeky when was that age in fact, most babies that I know are - especially the breast fed ones and mine was defintely breast fed! You know they could be looking because they are envious. You can run around with your baby, you engage your baby, and you've got your own style. Before my surgery, I couldn't get around well at all. I used to stare at moms who could join their children in play and wish it was me. Just Friday my baby's choir was tie dying t-shirts. I was the only mom who couldn't get on the floor - I sat in a chair and helped. Did I look and wish I could get on the floor? Yep I sure did. So when youa re getting those stares, remember you are out there enjoying life and they are sitting on the sidelines watch YOU!

I know how you feel. What’s really horrible is that children will tease other children because of what their parents look like. My baby, who is now seven used to come home telling me that her classmates would tell her that “her mommy has a big butt” or that “her mommy is fat.” It broke my heart to know that my daughter was suffering on the playground and in the classroom because of my weight issues. I didn’t want her to grow up ashamed of me. I’m big on attending her functions, games, and practices. I did not want the day to come when she either asked me not to come; avoided me; or pretended she didn’t know me when I showed up at her school. Of course at age five (when this started) to seven; she still thinks mommy is the bee’s knees. I knew that could change by the time she turned ten and I did not want that at all. My baby is thin and very athletic, but so was I when I was her age. Teaching her a healthy lifestyle is so important to me.

Here’s to us chubby mommies that are working on getting it together not just for ourselves but for our beautiful babies.

Being able to fit into smaller clothing is not a small victory. That's huge! That means that your weight loss journey is successful. I get so excited when I go down a size. Of course it means having to get new clothes or alter the ones I already have, but aside from the cost involved I really look forward to dropping sizes. When I started my journey I was wearing a size 32. This week I wore a pair of size 22 pants to work that were way too big. I would have jumped for joy, but they may have fallen off (okay, that's a bit of an exaggeration - but you get what I'm saying right?).

The Diva

I can’t speak for anyone else, but eating (or rather – not eating) was not a problem for me the first week after surgery. I would get full from less than a half cup of broth. My problem was the burp that came after. I had the loudest most embarrassing burp imaginable. I have a 14cc band. My surgeon put about 2cc’s in the band the day of surgery so I had slight restriction from day 1. Week three (the mushies) was much harder for me than weeks one and two. I guess my appetite kicked in when I started chewing. I used a Magic Bullet to mush up everything from veggies to fried chicken – yeah I said it… I put wing dings (minus the bones) and chicken broth in my magic bullet. Trust me; I tried to eat it all but I could not. I did get permission from my nutritionist to go from doggone near “strainable” mushies to mushies

I could chew.

You will do fine on your liquid stage… That’s my prediction and I’m sticking to it. This is not a promo, I promise, check out my blog. I was honest to a fault. Of course there are lots of really good blogs here on lbt. Reading them helped me so much; maybe it will help you too.

Good Luck and be Blessed!!!!!

The Diva

Well here I am. Back in the 230’s and would you know I am not happy? Heck I was 233 last June. I am 236-8 now. I’ve recently been as low as 234, but can’t seem to stay there. I am coming up on my two year bandiversary. I thought that by now I would be much smaller.

I had major surgery last June and it took a lot out of me physically because my recovery was long, painful, and hard. I’m glad that I did it though. I am so much better off than I was before. I can move around and I don’t need any apparatus. When I sit down, I’m not spending all of my time trying to figure out how I can gracefully get back up out of the chair. So though that road was tough and I gained 33 pounds. I am better, stronger, and happier. I wish I was at least back to 233lbs, but I know I will get there.

My bandiversary is March 24, 2010. I promise me that I will be in the 220’s by then. I don’t care if it’s just 229.5 – as long as that scale does not register anything above that. Of course if it says anything from 225 down, I’m gonna hafta buy myself a sundress! Of course that means I’d better start working a whole lot harder on getting rid of this arm flab; but everything comes with a cost.

Fellow banders, I am back with a vengeance! I just checked out TMG333’s pictures – check her out – she looks fabulous! I want to post pictures that look like that. I can be obnoxiously competitive sometimes – but I have to give her props. She looks great. I wish that I looked that good after losing 100 lbs, but I was quite heavy when I started. At my heaviest I was about 340 – 350. I can hardly believe that myself, but it’s true. It’s time to post more pictures. I want to see for myself if I have made visible progress. I also want to have record of the 230’s because once I get into those 220’s it’s all downhill from there (not effort – just my numbers J).

Two-hundred twenty something pounds – GET READY BABY because I am coming through. I don’t plan to stay for long, but I do plan on celebrating my being there! Wooo Hoooo for me!!!!!

It’s possible that no man will ever see me naked again. I have been celibate for seven years now. This is by choice, but now I think I am stuck. Seven years is a long time – those youthful years are gone and I won’t get them back. In that time I let myself balloon into a 332 blob of fat. Then in March 2008 I got the band. I lost 99 pounds – but had major surgery this summer and gained 27 lb back:scared2::thumbup:. Hopefully that will go away as soon as I start moving again. Although I look fairly decent in clothes, I know what I look like naked and I can’t see anyone wanting to be with that. Plastic surgery will cost me a fortune but I think I’d better start saving because between the flab, loose skin, stretch marks, and my c- section belly pouch – I am a sexual nightmare. It’s a shame because I am pretty and clothed I can look quite sexy at times (I hope this doesn’t come off as conceited). I just don’t think that a man would go from she looks hot in clothes to she looks like a flabby hag naked and be happy. I need an awesome plastic surgeon and a top of the line successful shrink – just writing this has put me in a funky/dismal mood.

So .... My surgery didn't go smoothly, my recovery has been rough... but I am back. I am losing those 27 and then some. I can safely lose 1 – 2 lb per week. That means that by the end of next June I can safely lose between 40 – 80 lb (I didn’t count any 5th weeks in a month – there should be at least one between now and then – I am pretty sure there are two). I’m shooting for closer to the 80lb marker than the 40 lb one. I’m done dwelling on those 27 lb (at least for right now I am). I am going to focus on 1 – 2 lbs per week – if the first 27 comes off quicker that that – well then Halleluiah!!! If they don’t – then I am good – and Halleluiah anyway.

I still may need that shrink…

I can't remember the name of the pill right now, but

I am going to look for it tomorrow when I get home from work. My surgeon gave me a prescription to prevent gallbladder problems. As soon as I get the name I'll post it here - maybe you can ask your surgeon about it. Prevention it so much better than a cure.

Congrats on you progress. How have you been doing since you posted this blog? Ok - I might be just a little bit too nosey....

I am soooo close!!! I’m sitting here, and sometimes standing over there and I am staring right at it! I mean I can almost touch it… it’s mocking me. It’s saying, “If you want me come get me. “ I want it. I mean I want it sooo bad that I can really feel it. It knows this – that I want it. It also knows that this want though extremely strong is also fleeting. Once I get it, I won’t want it anymore. In this aspect I am just like a man. As long as there is a chase (a hunt) for it, then I will pursue it with all my might. But once I get it, once I truly know that I possess it, I will no longer be satisfied with it. I will be about the business of moving on to better things. But right now, I am standing on the cusp, my toes are gripping the edge and I am reaching for it with all my might. I will get it. I will not turn back, I will not regroup. I am going to lunge for it if necessary and then fight like hell to hold on to it until I am sure that it is firmly in my grasp.

Two hundred and forty…. I’m sorry baby, but I just don’t want you anymore. It’s not you – it’s me. We were good for a while, but now it’s time for me to move on. Trust me; I am only making room for someone else to move in here. This is just how it is, and you’re going to have to accept it. I don’t want to hurt you, but I have to do what’s best for me and right now what’s best for me is to move into the Two Hundred and Thirty Something block. I won’t miss you, but I am sure that I will remember you fondly –or not. Please don’t try to contact me because although I have no ill feelings towards you, should we ever meet again I will not be happy to see you (unless I get pregnant sometime soon and that is unlikely).

If we don’t talk again, before I leave you, I just want to say, “Good-bye and thank you. You were just what I needed, when I needed you and for that I will always be grateful."

The Diva

Congrats on making it to a size 12!!! You must feel incredible. I was really happy to read about your daughter's decisions - more than I was read of your success. It’s a beautiful thing that you have inspired your daughter to take better care of herself and to get up and get out. One of my big reasons for taking this journey is so that I can help to prevent my daughter from ever living in FATLAND. I want her to learn to value healthy living and being active. Obviously, you have already reached that goal with your daughter. BEST OF WISHES to You!!!!!

This morning I weighed in .25 lb heavier. I can’t even say that I’m upset. I mean it’s that time (sorry guys) and I usually gain then. I did not sit on my butt this past weekend so I’m ok. Of course if I don’t see some weight loss next Monday, I won’t be so chipper about it. I have yet to exercise, but I have been doing lots of house work. I just moved into my new home and I have so much work to do! I hate it, but it’s a necessary evil. Today I am going out into the yard and pick up sticks, branches, rocks, left over pipes and pieces of cement, scraps of roofing material – most of the stuff I thought the contractors should have cleaned up after they finish building a house). I need to cut my grass (for the first time this season). The grass is high now, but I won’t have my lawn mower until tomorrow. I hope I don’t run into any snakes. If I do, then I will certainly be getting some exercise then!!! J This fat chick will be hustling out of that grass so fast, you’d think Florence Griffith Joyner (FloJo) had come back to run through my yard rather than just plain ole me:lol:.

My restriction is funky. I’m not really sure what’s going on with my band. Some days I can eat whatever and then other days I can’t eat anything. Then of course there are the times that only crap like a Snicker bar will go down and stay there. The last time I went in for a fill, I had to have it taken right back out. My doctor told me that I shouldn’t get another fill until I had lost about 25 lbs more. I think I’m five lbs away from that goal. I’m not sure but I think I was around 265 then. Well, I still have PBs, sometimes if I drink too fast and sometimes if I don’t chew properly I guess. I am well aware of my band at all times. I hate not being sure if I am going to be able to keep down the glass of water that I’m drinking. Of course I have not been back to the doctor since then – that was in October 2008 – I think – yeah that’s when it was – or was it late September? Well anyway…this week I got a letter from my surgeon’s office saying that I am due in for a check up. I made an appointment for May 5th. Who knows, maybe by then I’ll have lost 4.75 lbs to make that 25 lb goal, but I’m not looking to get a fill. In fact, I may ask him to check to make sure my band has not slipped. I really don’t want to know if it has, because I am not willing to give it up or be unfilled. I just don’t want anymore of a fill right now. In fact I don’t want one until I get to a point where I can drink a glass of water whenever I want (I know I cannot drink while eating) without the fear of having it come right back up. I think there is something wrong with the way I eat and drink though. For some reason I take in a lot of air which causes burping. (My doctor says the burping comes from eating too fast, but sometimes I burp even when I eat slowly).

I’m always going to look at the before and after pictures forum, for inspiration. I look at those pictures and I tell myself that I can do this too. At first I was kicking myself for not losing as fast as others, but now not so much. I just want to do and be my best. I try really hard not to compare my journey to someone else’s – that’s always an easy task, but I’m working on it. So, usually I look at successful people’s photos and I feel hope and encouraged. Sometimes I need that. Sometimes I think, “I’ve lost 69 lbs and I’m still FAT!!!:thumbdown:” But when I look back at some of my own before pictures, I realize that I lost a lot more than 69 lbs and although I am not thin, I am on my way to becoming the best me that I can be. Now THAT pumps me up!!!! (now if I could only get my living room cleared and my Wii hooked up…):thumbup:

That is the cutest blog. It is weird to have someone flirting with you again. I used to be a big blirt and then I was just big. It's really nice to have someone pay attention to you - as long as they are not too forward. Enjoy the experience!!!

Congratulations:thumbup:!!! And Welcome to the World of Bandsters:hurray:. I pray that you reach your WL goals. Keep up the wonderfully detailed blogging if you have the time - there are so many out there that will gain from your experiences. I hope to start blogging regularly again. My life is hectic, but I want to record my journey. Take care of yourself and if you ever feel discouraged find the before and after pictures forum…that will definitely motivate you!!!

ValJeean and New&Improved,

Thank you so much for your support. I am always saying that one of the things I love most about this site is the honesty that you find here. It is helpful to read another person's trials and it is cathartic to write about your experiences. It’s a Win - Win!

A friend's mother was just (and I mean just - she babysat for me last night) telling me about a liquid supplement that she’s taking that sounds a lot like the one the you’ve recommended N & Improved. She said it also comes in pill form – the kind that I can twist open and shake into my food. I’m going to check this Web site out… Who knows, maybe I can actually get something for me…that would be an awesome event. –

Wow, you’re not cutting anyone any slack are you? I can understand how you may find someone else’s “whining” frustrating, but they are entitled to self expression. Reading about someone’s struggles helps those contemplating surgery make more informed decisions. There is no way my doctor could have prepared me for some of the tings I have experienced since being banded. Of course they tell you what to expect, but words mean nothing. When we are hearing that (well when I heard it) – I thought, “I can handle that” or “I won’t make that mistake.” You don’t know until you’re in it and then you have to deal with it one way or another… venting here helps some people to cope. In the end we all want success we just don’t all travel the same path to get there.

I have got to learn to respect my band. Yesterday I could not keep anything down. I mean nothing (not even water!!!) well I was able to keep a Butterfinger candy bar down:blushing:, but dammit I was hungry!!! The night before I threw up and I think it was because I didn’t properly chew up a few brussel sprouts. When it can back up there were a few whole leaves in there. I should have known at that point that I would need to take it easy for a day, but not me. Sometimes I’m a pig – but this is why I needed the band in the first place. Apparently I have not learned. I tried to eat a piece of cake for breakfast – yes I said that… I am ashamed, but I figured it would go down and stay since most things that we aren’t supposed to eat do just that. Well it did go down, but I stopped after about four spoonfuls. It wasn’t going down smoothly and heck I don’t need to eat cake for breakfast anyway. Maybe I’ll do liquids for the rest of the day – my stomach needs a break. Besides, I’ve been on spring break – and I have gained about two pounds – so much for that…. I need to get those 2 pounds off. When I go to weigh in on Monday I do NOT want to see 250 – anything. I need to see 249 or lower!!!!:scared2:

Well saying that means nothing without the right actions to get me there. So my new goal is to truly respect the fact that I have this band. It was my decision. Nobody forced me to do it, in fact of the few people who knew I was contemplating getting it, most tried to discourage me. I am down 64 pounds, but I was banded over a year ago (March 24, 2008). I’ve got to do better. I’ve got to exercise. The band cannot do all the work. I have to do my share. I need my hip replaced and have arthritis and bone spurs in both knees, but I can still do something. I have basically done nothing. I’ve used my joint problems as an excuse, a crutch. But I can move… I can walk, I can move my arms. I can even do Leslie Sansone 1 mile walk DVD at my own pace – which I am sure would pick up if I just did it on a consistent basis:bananapowerslide:. NO MORE EXCUSES AND EMPTY PROMISES!!!!! I’m trying for hip replacement this summer. I want to drop 25 lbs between now (Saturday, April 18, 2009) and June 18, 2009. I know it’s a lofty goal. I will settle for 20 pounds. Look out Wii Fit:boxing_smiley:… We’re about to embark on a serious quest!!!!!!

WARNING – this might get gross and will definitely be long….:thumbs_up:

Be very careful of what you ask for – you just might get it. My goodness, I just posted that that yesterday and already I have been blasted twice. Here’s the real kicker – I wanted restriction – oh boy do I have restriction. I may be too tight. I have no clue how to determine this. Yesterday I got 2ccs added to my band. That makes for a total of 5cc in a 14cc band. My surgeon said, “If this doesn’t do the trick, the next one definitely will.”

Yesterday was horrible. I was hungry – I forgot to eat before I got my fill – actually I forgot that I could not eat for three hours before my fill. I tried to sip water on the way home – it was not going down smoothly at all. I called and left a message at the surgeon’s office. I got home, made some cream of chicken soup, but decided to wait until after I cut the grass to eat it. So I cut the grass, took a show and sat down to savor my soup – WRONG!!!! First of all I stupidly took an orso (sp?) pill (for gall stones). I did not crush it – I bit it into pieces. I also took a pill to keep me from throwing up – but I got that right after surgery so I though it was tiny enough to not have to bite. Well let’s just say that soup was not going down smoothly. AND it tasted like cream of chicken and pill soup.

I eventually gave up on that – the lump in my throat should have deterred me sooner, but the growl in my stomach kept egging me on. I tried to lie down and get some rest – or at least fined a comfortable position. That’s when my five year old bundle of joy decided she needed some Mommy time and came to plop down on my stomach. Well I finally got her in a position (off my belly but still cuddle close) that SHE was comfortable with and was able to nod off. My slumber was abruptly interrupted by a horrible burning sensation in my nose and a retched taste coming from my throat. I immediately got up and called my surgeon at home (Yes I said I called him – no between man answering service. Isn’t he wonderful?). My surgeon asked me questions about coughing and saliva. He then told me to try to sip water and if I didn’t feel better tomorrow (now today) to come in and he would take some of my fill out.

I then walked around and tried to calm my nerves. I got my bed all comfy like and slipped in the finally get some sleep – WRONG AGAIN… Within 4 minutes I was up and heading to the bathroom. I knew it was coming – I could not fight it so I simply prayed that God would make this as gentle on my stomach as possible. I usually throw up from my toes – but this time was much milder. I got foam, bile, and a few retches but no soup. I think those pills were sitting on top of my stoma opening. Afterwards I felt much better and was able to sleep.

Today I am doing better. I have been able to get some water down and I even had black bean bisque for lunch. However, my surgeon’s nurse wants me to go back to clear thin broths for the rest of today and to sleep with an extra pillow so that I get a little assistance from gravity tonight. For once gravity is working in my favor (this does not make up for what it is doing to my breast).

Hopefully the worst is over and my band just needed some time to loosen up. If I am not feeling back to normal by tomorrow I will be making that 2.5 hour drive up there and back. There’s no way I am going through this weekend feeling like crap.

That’s my soap opera… what’s your’s?

I am scheduled for fill #2 today. It was originally scheduled for the 21st, but my surgeon added another surgery so the office had to change my appointment. I'm not complaining; I would want someone to change their fill date so that I could get the band. I'm just glad that it was moved up instead of further away. I seem to be stuck. I am hungry. When I'm hungry I eat. I try not to eat too much, but I'm not one of those people that can walk around hungry. My stomach has a notorious growl - its so embarrassing....

I received 3cc during my first fill. I'm hoping for at least another 3cc this time. That would put me at 6 cc in a 14 cc band. I hope this offers a lot more restriction that I have now. I'm getting a little desperate - I am 2 months (on the 24th) post op and I am only down 1 lbs - heck I lost those 18 lb within the first two - three weeks post op. Since then I've been struggling to maintain. I'm glad that I am not gaining - boy am I happy about that - I just want to lose more.

My goal was/is to be 280 by June 13th. That may not be possible at this point. If I lose 2lb a week from now to then that would put me at 288 lb. I guess that will have to do. I'm going to have to buckle down - really monitor what goes into my mouth so that I can drop those 8 lbs by June 13th. Then I'll start working towards my July 4th goal - originally I wanted to be 270 lb by then. I'll settle for 278 lb. I'm putting this in writing here because I need some accountability to someone other than myself. No one (except my immediate family knows about my band) so there's no one to push me to try harder (and no one to monitor every morsel of food I eat or whisper about me doing this the easy way - which is why I have chosen to keep this to myself). There are a few people here who have had the band - the conversation that some people have about them is ridiculous. I just don't choose to open myself up to that kind on intense scrutiny and ridicule - I feel like a gay woman whose afraid to come out of the closet - but then again I guess not - I have no idea what that kind of pain feels like and I don't want to compare my petty problems to that.

Anyway.... If you guys don't see my ticker going down soon - BLAST ME!! Since that's the last thing I want to see here I will be doing my best to make that dag gone scale move!

NSV - I have officially left size 4x behind. I had a peasant blouse that I waited all winter to wear. I put that gorgeous thing on and I was swimming in it!!!! My coworker - who is losing weight, gave me a brand new linen peasant shirt that she is now too small to wear (size 3x) it fit perfectly :thumbs_up:. WHOOO HOOO!!!! That’s right - I'm celebrating being a size 3x. Do the happy dance, do happy dance - spin it around and shake your body down - doing the happy dance !

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I have BCBS PPO - my surgery didn't cost me a dime. IS THE BAND WORTH THE cost for some and and the hoops you go hrough to get it? I believe it is. At least is for me. Good luck on your journey.

it belongs here... so I hope this isn't considered cheating.. this is how I feel so this is my blog.

First of all, let me say why I post in large print. I have 15/20 vision, but I work on a computer all day long. Reading the 10 point font size prints drive me nuts. In addition I cannot Zoom my screen size at home. So, to compensate I use 12 point font. It just appears bigger than 12 online. Whew, I’m glad I got that off my chest. I hope you all don’t mind.

Second, I’d like to personally welcome Ejmdiva to the March 2008 Bandsters’ Master Thread. WELCOME!!!!!!! Ejmdiva, helped to calm my fears as I approached my surgery date. I was terrified; she offered her words of wisdom and then suggested that I go to the chat room. I did I found several people who were able to give me statistic information regarding the death rate in the US that made me feel much better. I am a single mom and my biggest fear was doing something that would leave my child motherless. Thank you so much Ejmdiva, I really appreciate what you did for me.

Third, I’d like to say… HOW THE HECK DID I GAIN 2.5 POUNDS!!!!!!!! I’ll be dog gone. I hate the mushie stage! I cannot seem to get it right. I cannot eat every four hours. I’m a teacher; I can’t just whip out a snack of pureed chicken and chow down in the middle of a class. In addition, I cannot survive on 2- 4 oz per meal. I’m eating a cup – yeah that’s right a cup! I try to keep it down to three meals a day. I usually have a shake for breakfast, then a "regular" lunch and dinner. I never make my water goal. I forgot to take either one or both of my vitamin supplements three days in a row. H4eck I haven’t taken my B12 yet today – let me do that now….Energy my rear. I am so out of shape that my body aches from WALKING and the use of 3lb weights! That’s right I’m in major _itch mode right now.

(Stomps around, breathing heavily glaring at the mirror on her desk).

Now that I have that out of the way… I think my body is in starvation mode. It is holding on to every calorie. Cuz I know I was eating around or over 3000 per day pre band. Now I’m eating anywhere between 800 and 1300 calories (except yesterday – yesterday I had 1560 cals).

Fours later….This morning I was trippin. I feel much better now. I called a friend who was banded 1.5 years ago. She helped me get my head right. Now I have two mantras lol 1) I won’t really start to lose weight until after my first fill, until then I will do my best to make good choices and exercise and 2) I did not have gastric bypass surgery. The weight will not come off in a week. It takes time, it’s healthier, and I must not lose faith.

WOOO-SAHHH! I feel so much better. So what my body hurts from walking – I went walking. I did again today too. I am going to walk everyday until I get to a point that it does not leave me with body ache – then I gonna walk farther and/or faster so I can ache again.

Yall are fantastic! Thanks for the support!... no I am not crazy – just happy….