Teresita

It's not PMS but I just feel off. I want to cry periodically, I want a hug.....I know I am missing Linda. I feel like a failure.....(psychological examination) my father once told me I did nothing right.....that kinda stuff doesn't go away. It is a shame the stuff we hold on to and just creeps back into our minds. All the shit I forget and this is something that I remember.

Whatever

I ate to much last night....my band is officially missing but I will try to ignore that and continue for another week before I decide to get a fill. My band hides every now and then.

Life Sucks Sometimes ha ha ha ha but God is Good All the Time, I like that

I would just die if I had to get on a scale today.

I can't stop eating.

pop tart 7am

pineapples 3 cubes 8am

peppermint patty 9am

5 crackers w/grd turkey 9:45

pineapples 6 cubes 11am

It is 12 and my stomach is growling.....whyyyyyy.....I want to eat but I know I am not HUNGRY.

1

2

3 3.5 Track 2 Tucker Rd

4 3 HP

5 TTC and 2 parking lot

6

7sweating cleaning a freinds house

8eating pork chops (pop)

9 I will exercise tonight:D

10 nope

11 walked at track 2 miles (then picnic):confused:

12 2.5 miles at TTC:clap2:

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14

15

16

17 HP 3 miles

18 Watkins Park 3.4

19 TTC

20

21

22 1 1/2 hrs pool

23 30 min pool

24 2 miles STrack

25 2 hrs pool

26 TTC

25 miles of walking for the month of June....that is pitifull.

Oh my goodness, Oh my goodness, I am so stoked I am doing it!!! I can make my birthday/bandiversary goal 375!!!!!

388 6.6.05

375

71 pounds gone

459 began

391 now

68 pounds gone

391 now

375 birthday/bandiversary

16 pounds to go for July4/July8

I need to start looking at new goals.

July 375

August 365

September 350

391-389-385-380-379-375-370-369-365-360-359

JUNE 6 -3 388

JUNE 13

JUNE 20

JUNE 27

JULY 4

Saturday- It began raining when I left home, so I went to the track. There were people there so I said if they can do it so will I. I would stop if it rained harder but the rain and cool breeze felt so refreshing. I kept walking. I did 3.5 miles and wanted to do more. Some folks left the track but more came. I like that... I have not been walking due to the heat (excuse) but my body responded well to the rest. Later that day I walked again with Crystalstart 2 miles at Tucker Rd Path.

Sunday- 3 mile walk at HP w/Crystalstar I felt great, we took a break by the water and it was just an awesomely, beautiful day. I felt so good that near the end I would job a tiny bit. I felt good to have the extra energy at the end. WOW I hope next weekend is as beautiful and cool.

I have to get serious about doing my exercise at home. I can not walk out there in that heat. I WILL walk EARLY on Saturday and Sunday....7am should be good at HP and or Watkins. I love the morning anyhow.

I am wearing my pedometer and trying to put steps on it throughout the day. I made an attempt to get all my steps in yesterday but I only got about half....not good. I will do more today for sure. I have to run errands so I will do laps around Wal Mart. LOL

I am tickled about my lost this week ....8 pounds yeahh me....391 pounds now.

459 began

391 now

68 pounds gone

391 now

375 birthday/bandiversary

16 pounds to go for July4/July8

You are sweet thank you.

A great friend passed yesterday, unexpectantly. I am lost again. I am hurt. I'm not walking today.:cry

I took off yesterday to get somethings done. I am stressed!! Washed clothes, cleaned up a tiny bit, went to cleaners twice in the morning, picked up kids, took them to Duke Ellington for tests, realized they get out of school in a matter of DAYS!!!! Traffic was tighter then expected getting there, visited friend in hospital, very pesimistic person, picked up kids, they came out late, hot out, traffic was silly going home, going over everything I need to do for DC prom thingy. Go back to cleaners and pick up clothes, beauty supply store spend more then wanted to. Ended up showering and blow drying DC hair, went to sleep after ironing blouse while watching made. he he he

This morning stressing about all that I still need to do before prom tonight

necklace, nails, hair, wash car, her girlfriends hair, purse and who knows what else :faint:

How personal can I get on this thing......have you ever gased and it felt really good to have it out but it stinks...:girl_hug:

I have gone to several threads/forums this morning and I can't even gocus to get my thoughts together.:confused:

You are so sweet telly. Thank you for that and for being a continuous inspiration for everyone on the boards. Everyone knows Telly....LOL

I decided to take Friday for myself. I went to the park early and did my 3 miles.

Saturday I walked my first official 5K for Diabetes Association w/Pooky,Karen, LSasha, Pat and Jackie. It was a great since of accomplishment.:clap2:

Sunday I went to the park early and walked with Karen. It always great to get a walk in and over with.

9 miles for the weekend.....I am so excited about where all these miles are taking my body. THE WEATHER WAS ABSOLUTLY GORGEOUS ALL THIS WEEKEND!!! WOW THE SKY AND CLOUDS WERE AWESOME!!!

I can see my body changing. I finally see some more diffrence in my face. My thighs, wow there is actually less of them. LOL (I can't see using the word smaller when talking about my thighs). I think I can keep this walking up because I do see results. I really enjoy seeing the numbers of the scale come down. I am going to ask my sister in law for a scale for my birthday. I still won't be able to weigh on it but it will be a goal. The scale I saw goes up to 350. If I am about 390 now that is 40 pounds.....I could make that a Christmas goal realisticly speaking but I would love to do by fall. You never know.

Weigh in is tomorrow and I am excited. At my unofficaly weigh in last week I gained about a pounds so I know I will have a nice lost this week.

I put this dress as my dream dress and as I believe it is not a dream, it will become reality. I am not looking to be skinny. I want to be neat. So many fat people just look a ....mess. I don't want to be a mess anymore.

I went shopping with my child last night and shopping is always so traumatic. She was trying on tops and looked unhappy and said she looked pregnant....that hurt because I know the feeling. I was sitting in the dressing room thinking I have lost 65 pounds but I am still a mess. I feel better then I use to sitting in the dressing room looking to a mirror but I have a long way to go.

We went to a second store and and we found a nice top but wasn't sure so we went to payless to check out shoes but of course she has her mothers feet (big) so that wasn't so much fun. We went to another store like the second one and they didn't have anything so I had them to call back and hold the blouse at the second store. She really looked nice in it. Now we just have to look for shoes, jewlery, deal with a little make, hair oh yeah and a purse. The capri suit is black, blouse is green with a beautiful silver flower on the front so silver accesories is it. It is fun but stressful. My child does not really like to take pictures so I am going to get her picture taken that day or the weekend when we do the trial run. LOL

It's going to be ok.

Girl that was 35 miles in 15 days. Hello@@@ ding ding ding ding

You are the "spunky" one of the board!!!!

Yeahhhhh I like the LBT Team!!!

395 gained a pound. I won't go through the excuses again because I feel good about what I have accomplished so far. I guess I can't expect to lose 4 pounds every week:confused:

Anyhow I will step it up this week so I can see those 5 pounds gone so I can see....WHAT......389. I will we try to get in 2 days of 5 miles and 3 days a week of floor exercise.:paranoid

394--- and tomorrow is going to be 390 then 389--385---380---379---375 I just like looking at that number.

My birthdayand bandiversary goal 375. At last weight in I was 19 pounds away. :confused:

394, 393, 392, 391, 390, 389....... {375 July 4/8}

So far 35 miles of walking this month. MAY

I'm EXCITED...I am just so pleased at what I have accomplished.

459- 394 WOW I'm below 400, I am so happy, I can walk for 3 miles and not die, I can say no to food.

I feel like I can do so much more now. I use to sit and think about exercising and now if somone says let's walk.....:girl_hug: I would be gone....to sit somewhere else. I feel energized and I want everyone else to feel the same way.

I have to say I am excited about weighing in tomorrow.:whoo:

I'm in the groove of this walking now and it feels good. I really want to add more but once TTC begins I know it will help. I see my body changing a little at a time but I love seeing the numbers coming down on the scale.

459----398---394--- and tomorrow is going to be 390 then 389--385---380---379---375 I just like looking at that number. My birthdayand bandiversary goal 375. At last weight in I was 19 pounds away. :Banane09:Tomorrow should be 15 pounds away. I can do this.:confused:

I have 54 days to my bandiversary.

Thank God for all of my support:grouphug:, LBT, MD LB Suuport Group, my child, my friends. They keep me motivated!!!

I thought my eating was worse then it was yesterday. I had about 1200 calories yesterday. It just wasn't meals. So today I took the time to go get a LC meal 150 calories and I have 2 salmon cakes, hopefully I will only eat one. They are about 100 calories a piece so it is really ok but I did not walk yesterday so I want to keep my calories down.

I did do floor exercise last night and I will walk today.:clap2: :clap2: :clap2: I forgot my dag gone shirt again. I need to put one in the car so I don't forget.

398 Now

• Lose 14 pounds during May I think I will be getting a fill at the end of the month.

• Lose 14 pounds during June

375 by July..... 22 more pounds gone for birthday and bandiversary..:bandit

I can do this......getting there with you guys support is great :humble:

Now at 394 5/9/06

19 pounds to go 375

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Seeing how this journaling works

60 MILES FOR JUNE

SUN

MON

TUES

WED

THURS

FRI

SAT

1 3 miles

2 3 miles

3 toe break

4 toe break

5 3miles

6 3 miles

7 3 miles

8 no walk

9 3 miles

10 3 miles

11 floor exercise

12 3 miles

13 3 miles

14 5 miles

15Monday 3 miles

16 3 miles

17 finally a break went shopping :phanvan

18 didn't walk, why:confused:

19 3 miles

20 3.1 miles 5K ha ha ha:clap2:

21 3 miles

22 Monday I better (but I didn't)

23 weigh in tonight no walk

24 walked 3 (thank God)

25 no walk (ran errands for dance)

26 no walk (do hair for dance)

27 Sat walked 3 miles around the Tidal Basin and up the Jefferson Memorial steps w/Crystalstar and Connie

28 Sun walked almost 3 miles at Haines Point w/Pookie

29 Mon walk 3.4 miles at Watkins Park, just beautiful, Crystalstar, Pookie,Kee and friend

30 no walking (a tiny bit of walking in place and Te Bo Kicks)

31 no walking ( walking at home, a little bit)