I can do great all day long, but after a long, stressful day at work, it's like all the sense and determination and goals I have for myself just evaporate and I all of a sudden "deserve it" or can "get back to it in the next meal or tomorrow." Basically, how I struggled before surgery. It's absolute nonsense, and sometimes I know it is, but I make a bad choice anyway. I really thought that I was done with all of that struggle, but for the moment that struggle is still very real. I had a blissful year and (almost) a half with very few thoughts of food or struggles to make the right decision. I knew what I was doing and I just did it. I thought that my mind was all fixed up. This particular moment in time isn't so easy. Once things smooth out for me a bit in regards to the day-to-day, minute-to-minute decisions about food, I will be extremely careful to continue to make better decisions. I haven't had any trouble losing, but once a significant portion of the regain comes off, I have made bad decisions again and the cycle persists. I need to just stay the course until goal (again), then stay put. In general, the 5 months or so where I did maintain within the same 5 pound range were not all that easy either. It is tough right now, but I'm hoping that with enough time between me and carbs, I'll get back into the "this is just what I do" mode and it won't be the kind of struggle that it feels like right now.