terilynne1966

Thank you for relating Proudgrammy. That's how I feel at times. Like they only like the new me. Had they known the old they wouldn't want anything to do with her. But then I have to check myself because frankly I didn't want anything with the old me either. Hence the drastic measures to change. So I guess it all comes with the territory and I've got to embrace it.

Thanks doll! I also created a new FB page. It's called The Light To Healthy Living feel free to request and share.

All your kind words mean so much!!! If my journey helps anyone else that's all I can ask for. We are here to support each other and encourage one another.

This is my journey in video. Check it out.
http://fgr.am/f/reyoRbcmuE

I was so annoyed by that 6 month wait. But I survived. I used the time to work on my psychological relationship with food. Didn't pay much attention to "dieting" until the last month. Lots of therapy and journalling and researching.

Am almost five months post op and down over a 100 pounds since day of surgery and feeling amazing! Never thought it was possible to feel this good! I'm off all blood pressure and cholesterol meds, no more border line diabetic, more energy, I just feel beyond amazing and wishing nothing but the best for everyone, pre op and post op!

...every single day.
Some days are easier than others. The first month was certainly an emotional roller coaster and physically draining. I'm just heading into week 6 and I finally feel like things are not SO out of control as they felt.
This IS the head struggle everyone talks about. Not giving up hope, not losing focus, not giving in. I got up today and pushed myself on Protein. If this were someone ELSE that needed this kind of support to be successful I would give it. Why is it we don't give that kind of love and support to ourselves?
So starting today I am becoming my own coach, my own best friend, my own mentor. When I get scared I think "I can't do this" or "I don't know what to do to be successful" or "there is something weird about me biologically, I'm not going to lose like everyone else." But every day we have to fight that back.
I get so excited when I start to lose and I have gotten so down when it doesn't move. I've gotten much better about only weighing once a week. I'm now considering moving to only weighing ONCE a month (on my surgery date) to check in on on things. The head game is a KILLER. I'm not feeling sadness about eating I'm feeling impatient with myself.
I have no patience for this. But I'm also struggling with a breakup and something in me thinks that losing the weight will make me stronger, less hurt somehow. Wow, we all have so much built up hurt over the years, don't we?
I'm going back to see my therapist this week. It is time to do the emotional and head work to complement my sleeve and my nutrition work.
I haven't figured out what works yet and it frustrates me. I want there to be a set formula that says if you do x you will get y. I workout and it seems like on the days I workout the scale doesn't move. I stick to protein and low calories and the scale doesn't move. And then when I do things I shouldn't (like put crackers in soup) the scale moves. This is a confusing process. Nothing feels consistent.
My only remaining thought is that Water matters the most and on days I don't get enough I don't lose. So I'm now drinking water like it's medicine. This is not only about what I want to put in my body, it's about what I need to put in my body.
Thanks for everyone out there who shares their struggles, their victories, their insights. I have no one right now and you all mean a lot to me - you help me get through the fight - everyday.
-coffeegrinDr

Last Sunday I weighed 204. Today 197!!! Woohoo!!!!! I was beginning to fear I would never weigh less than 200 lbs again. That means I lost 7lbs in one week. I know for some of y'all that is no big deal, but for me it is amazing! I began my journey with a month long stall. My average rate of loss is 5 lbs a month with 2-3 lbs a week if its a losing week. I am over the moon! I just wanted to say keep following the plan and things do work out!

A little over 8 months out. About 15lbs from my goal. So happy with my decision to do this. Could do without the sagging skin, but I'll work on that!
 

As of today I'm down 53lbs!

Well I finally did it... I am under 250!! I have a whole new wardrobe. I had bins of clothes in various sizes so don't have to buy anything until I am in single digits! I can actually wrap a towel around myself when I get out of the shower and it covers me!! It is all so exciting! I finally had my ankle surgery on 2/3, I am still in fracture boot for another couple weeks and up to 12 weeks of therapy but I am ready to work out.
Had my 3 month follow up and he said I am doing great and is very happy with not only my progress but also I can tolerate just about anything and my energy level is through the roof!
Loving it!

Sooo..we finally hashed it out and I got my apology...apparently there were a lot of unspoken feelings about me changing..and carrying myself different and taking all sorts of extra care in my make up, hair, etc...so he was really choking on his jealous bone plus said he felt attacked when I started listing all the things he wasn't doing to please the new me...so..I get it...well keep working through it..(but I'm keeping my secret savings just in case I gotta fly the coupe)

This pic is before and 8 weeks post op.
HW-274
Sw-265
This pic -218

Thanks for the support...as of this evening his things are packed and he's on the couch..I'm nobody's door Mat..I've never taken crap off him and I'm not about to start...

That would be very depressing. My hair wasn't super long but I did have a lot cut off last week in preparation of what's to come. I would rather see short strands coming out rather than longer ones, if that makes sense.

I can reach down and touch my toes with absolutely no issue. Strain or soreness. This from a girl who 15 months ago could not even see her knees let alone her feet.....Exercising is already seeing results!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Now that's a NSV.....Yes me!!!!!!!!!

It is generally acceptable to say person of color or persons/people of color when referring to brown or tan people of different races at the same time. Your original post sounds like your heart is probably in the right place it was just a strange choice of words.

For me, the thought of having a foreign object in me was way freakier than having stomach removed! Its probably the permanence of it that's getting to you. You can't just get that stomach replaced! So, nervousness is understandable. If it helps, you barely notice its gone...except the whole three bites and you're full thing.

A little fear is a good thing. Healthy. Take this seriously. But don't let a little discomfort and a few days/weeks of feeling crappy keep you from making a decision that could radically improve your health and life for the better. Nothing worth having comes cheap. Sacrifice is part of the deal. You don't get to have your cake and eat it, too. You want to lose weight? Great-- but don't think it comes without cost. The only question is are you willing to pay?

A couple of days ago I bought a size 16 pants down from a 20. And I bought my first non plus size shirt in 10 years. Happy day!!!!

Me..I have decided I will not let it happen to anyone if I am in hearing distance....I have had enough of that crap for a life time and refuse to allow someone to say such terrible things to another human being....
I would have said.. you know the difference between you and her is...she can change and you'll always be stupid. Or she can improve. you your stuck being ignorant and looking just like you do now...so sorry for you!!!!!!
I know I shouldn't but I have had a huge change in my life and no longer will tolerate ignorant people!!!!!!

We had gorgeous weather in TX yesterday so I was finally able to rock my new mini! And boy did jaws drop. Lol. I can't help but toot my own horn. Double takes left and right. And I was thinking to myself, yup a year ago you would have never noticed me. I was invisible! Now you wanna peak?! Enjoy the window shopping because this girl is not interested! Lol

Everything I hide I eventually eat. Besides, I just lost 77 pounds in 6 months so who was I fooling? I tell everyone. What I don't do is defend it. I don't have to. This was the best decision I ever made and I won't let anyone make me ashamed of it.

It because some people ERRONEOUSLY believe WLS is the easy way out, having been post op for 5 months, I can tell you it's never been easy. Good luck on pushing through your decision.

Waiting in the pre op room then off to surgery! IVs are all hooked up! This is where I am contemplating... but I have done my research and I want this new start! I want to be healthy!
Wish me luck guys! I am going to be a POST opper.. on the losing side!