Ariella

I had to stop my birthcontrol before my surgery so I got my period from that, then again a week later for my actual cycle and this month my period started earlier and has been heavier than normal with my bcp. Fun times!!!

Yesterday was spent harrassing my surgeons office as well as my PCP's office making sure all of my documentaion was in. Finally the coordinator told me she had everything and that was needed and that she sould give my name to the scheduler. I waited all afternoon for that call back. Of course I got as I stepped on an elevator trying to get out of work to rush to class. The call dropped. I went to call her back, but when I got outside it was monsooing and hailing. I had to hide my phone and run to my car. I got so wet I ended up having to skip class anyway. When I finally got in my car I called back and spoke with her. She told me to start the first phase of the pre op diet, and that she would call me the next day to give me a date. Today they gave me Feb. 7th as my surgery date. OMG! Thats just over 2 weeks! I am so excited and nervous. More excited than anything else. This is going to be amazing!!!

OMG a heating pad! That is brilliant and I will make sure to remember that once I am on the post op side! Keep on keeping on girl!!

I had my first appointment with my surgeon 2 days ago. In the days leading up to it I had dreams of getting a date during the visit and nightmares of psych evals that deemed me crazy because my mother died two years ago. I was filled with a lot of feelings at that appointment. Me and my boyfriend Michael went in knowing a lot, but not realizing what exactly would happen. I met my surgeon, and she was almost ecstatic to have me as a patient. I don't have any road blocks, or pescky insurance companies to deal with. (Sidebar: I am so thankful I am able to be self pay, and my heart really goes out to all of you guys that are dealing with the a*****e insurance companies) I was given the list of the 2 tests I needed done and a sheet for my PCP to sign to give clearence. She also gave me my pre op diet. I was not given a date, but the timeline of once all the tests are in, about 3-4 weeks out. For some reason, even after all of my dreaming this was now real and immediate. I am still partially in shock and close to overwhelmed that all of this is happening and happening so quickly. I am trying to sort through all of my anxieties and finding new ones that focus on failing post op along the way. These are ones I wouldn't dare to speak aloud, I feel like if I give them that much credit they will come true. I want this so bad. Losing this weight will mean so much for me. I will no longer be inhibited by my own body. I should have a surgery date by next week. I am thrilled and scared and excited. The journey is beginging. I'm like Frodo heading out of the Shire to lands unknown, on journey with a far away goal and countless unknown obstacles ahead. "Mordor, Gandalf, is it left or right?"