nyxa

I hiccup a lot, never did that before. More in the morning than later in the day. My nose runs, it is a signal that I should not eat another bite. I am still on full liquids and it does it. I also am very sensitive to sweet tastes. The RTD shakes gag me with the strong sweet taste. I have to use twice as much Water in any of the drink powder sticks, they are super sweet! You have nasty breath all the time, I hate to breath on people. Also I burp so much more than before. My new frankentummy gurgles and makes crazy noises when I drink, especially warm drinks!!
Never trust a fart... Those are true words!!

I do have days where I have regrets but I KNOW for a FACT I could not have lost the weight any other ways. I could lose a pound and did lose 88 on low carb but I didn't have the will power to stick to it. With the sleeve, it IS my will power. I have not choice but to eat less. The days I have regrets, I'm mad all day thinking what have I done to myself??? THen I get on the scale and it goes down and thats when I remember why I did it. I have just now started having men open doors for me. Women complimenting me and my husband in his own way starting to pay attention to me. What I didn't expect is such low energy which I think will be ok when I can keep Protein down. The days I see someone eat a sandwich and I want one so bad, that is my regret or a piece of cake. Some people say one day...I will be able to eat those things again just in moderation like I should have in the beginning before surgery. I don't have a huge support system so I go to the monthly support group here in town. That helps. My mom makes comments on how I look but like any child...shes my mom...she has too.

lmao @ "make those shakes your b***h" xD butterthebean.. rofl. xD

i'm feeling a lot the same way as you.. also sorta feeling like... "i can do this on my own, i just need to get my head right." but i figured i would still learn all i can about this, just in case i fail... AGAIN... lol and then at the same time, i am like "if you could do this on your own, you'd be skinny and gorgeous by now! not fat and flabulous!" lol
and then i think.. as fat as i am, i can't really afford to fail again.. so.. maybe i DO really need this surgery. it can help me where i've failed all my life.. then i go back to making up reasons why & how i can do this on my own.. and back to this.. and so on.. lol
unlike you, i am scared of not waking up from the anasthesia.. cause that's happened to someone in my family & i wonder if it'd happen to me..
i'm weird (or at least feel weird) because i wonder what they will do with my stomach if i have the surgery.. and as weird as it may seem, i also think "can i take it home with me?" lol not to have a weird keepsake or anything, but because it's mine.. damnit! i was born with it, i wanna take it to the grave! not have it in some mysterious place that i have no idea what will happen to it or who's body parts it'll be mixed with... lol
i think wondering about all this stuff is normal... and put it into perspective.. at least you're not the one who said she wants to take her stomach home with her... so.. i guess you're pretty well off. LOL

My BMI was in the 50s. Now it's just under 40 and will one day be under 30. But even if it isn't, I already feel so much better than I have in the last 10 years. Hiked 4 miles today in the woods with my dogs. Tomorrow will be a 20 mile bike ride...I couldn't do these things 5 months ago. I'm planning a rim to floor to rim hiking trip in the Grand Canyon for next spring. My wife has been wanting to hike down there for years, but I never thought I could do it till now. So, what I'm saying is, I already feel like my sleeve has been a success even though I'm only half way to goal. My real goal was to live longer and feel better. I think that should be everybody's goal. In fact, we need a "feels crappy" to "feels good" ticker.
As far as nausea, I haven't had any. The only time I felt sick was when they made me drink that barium crap in the hospital. I tried to throw it up but there wasn't enough there. Since then, no problems. I think the biggest thing that has aided me was I already liked Protein shakes going in, and still do. I've said before, nobody likes those things in the beginning. You have to acquire the taste for them. You get used to them. Then it gets easier.
Dont stress over the Protein Shakes. Make those shakes your b***h.

Ditto! I don't have to be rail thin. I just wanna get out of the Women's Department! I don't want to avoid booths, chairs with arms, stairs, etc. I don't want to wonder constantly what people are saying about me! I just want to be average. That's not too much to hope for is it?
I'm also in my 90 days with Aetna. I'm hoping for a December surgery. You?

I'm laughing out loud at your post! As far as I'm concerned they can take my stomach and burn it...hell, I think having a little ceremonial burn right there in the OR would be great. That damn thing has been the bane of my life..
I finally came to the realization that I cannot do it on my own. I have literally tried for 40 years. I just want an opportunity to live a normal life -- not just living physically a normal life but mentally normal too. Every one of my thoughts and decisions is filtered through my FAT. I can't take it anymore...I just want to be normal.

Thankfully fruit is good for me and right now its nectarines all the way I eat one a day while they are in season and taste good lol
Does throw me off when I am cooking though where I never used to over salt anything (that’s what I was sensitive too salt and pepper) I have to mind I am not heavy handed because of the sweetness.
also I noticed spicy stuff isn’t so spicy I was really heavy handed when making chilli twice and to me it was still nothing special when I ate some but my family were like blimey that’s got kick!
lol

For the Constipation I personally just drink prune juice I would rather drink a more natural reliever than use medication!

THANK YOU!!!
I feel like everyone gave me some REAL helpful insight into some options for changing!!! I am so very appreciative of your feedback! I have my list here of what changes I will make.

i'm feeling a lot the same way as you.. also sorta feeling like... "i can do this on my own, i just need to get my head right." but i figured i would still learn all i can about this, just in case i fail... AGAIN... lol and then at the same time, i am like "if you could do this on your own, you'd be skinny and gorgeous by now! not fat and flabulous!" lol
and then i think.. as fat as i am, i can't really afford to fail again.. so.. maybe i DO really need this surgery. it can help me where i've failed all my life.. then i go back to making up reasons why & how i can do this on my own.. and back to this.. and so on.. lol
unlike you, i am scared of not waking up from the anasthesia.. cause that's happened to someone in my family & i wonder if it'd happen to me..
i'm weird (or at least feel weird) because i wonder what they will do with my stomach if i have the surgery.. and as weird as it may seem, i also think "can i take it home with me?" lol not to have a weird keepsake or anything, but because it's mine.. damnit! i was born with it, i wanna take it to the grave! not have it in some mysterious place that i have no idea what will happen to it or who's body parts it'll be mixed with... lol
i think wondering about all this stuff is normal... and put it into perspective.. at least you're not the one who said she wants to take her stomach home with her... so.. i guess you're pretty well off. LOL

I couldn't decide where to put this one so I figured that most of it's gonna come after surgery so I put it in post op. Feel free to move it if necessary.
I was reading another thread and someone said these words and it made me think about what I have learned reading this board and was amazed at the responses I saw stating that they were not told such and such before hand. What are some things that you have learned after the fact?? The things you didn't find out until you were elbow deep into this journey...
Let's hear them, the good, the bad, and the ugly. I know that I am not the only one to wander this and I know that others looking are curious as well. The only way to learn is to talk to others that have been through the experience. Thanks, Dave.

it means that it still tastes gross, but it's all of the bad flavor with nothing to make it remotely palatable whatsoever. at least that's been my experience.
the closest thing that i can think of in regards to what i've experienced is... chewing all of your Vitamins up at once and wishing that there was some sort of flavor to make it not taste so terrible.

a lot of the complications people think of are from folks who've had an RNY/gastric bypass... my aunt works for hospice & says that there's a lot of weight loss surgery people who are in hospice centers, even young ones (20's & 30's) because they can't digest food properly... and they dump everything they eat & are dying because of it. at least with the sleeve you won't have that, or won't have it AS MUCH.. i guess it is possible to dump when you have the sleeve.. but at least your intestines are still intact.
if your mind is made up to have the surgery, and if you're anything like me at all.. then of course you're going to fail and end up just wasting your money on another diet. i would suggest just going through with the surgery & tell your friend thank you for caring about you enough to try to offer you another option, but you know yourself & you have your mind set on the surgery. on the other hand, if you try medifast & it works & you feel better after you've dropped some weight, you may be inspired to start eating right and exercise and just lose your weight that way. maybe it could work for you. only you will be able to decide what's best for you. but if you really believe you're just going to mess it up, i'd just go for the surgery.. it's a permanent solution & you can deviate from the diet, but it will be a LONG time before you can stretch your stomach out and hopefully you'll feel so great & look so great that you won't want to.

There's ppl on YouTube who said in their videos that they failed their psych eval and then got a 2nd opinion - passed and had the surgery & did very well. I wasn't told I had to see a psychologist (I think I actually made an appointment with a psychiatrist) I would think that your psychiatrist who has treated you for 12 years would be the authority on whether you would do well with surgery.
Personally I think its more than ridiculous that after 1 session with a psychiatrist/psychologist that they can know you well enough to know whether you'd do well with surgery.
Personally - I'd check with your insurance or your surgeon & see if you can use your own psychiatrist to do your eval. Good luck to you and I hope it all works out.

i bet that made you feel TERRIBLE! lol jk awesome deal! hope you have lots of moments like that, where people can't believe you're you, cause you look so darn awesome!

LOL i feel you.. if i could not eat spicy food after surgery, i'd be beside myself. how awful a fate! lol
lmao.. everybody here is all excited to go out & have themselves some hot skinny sex! that makes me giggle.. hahaha! how cute! y'all go out there & get ya some! LOL <3

This is a big surgery and is an emotional roller coaster ride. Just remember it will pass but I agree- see if you can get some help even a couple hours at a time so you can rest properly. As you heal- I'm sure you will get stronger ad the hormones will begin to balance out. We are here for you!! Keep talking girl! If it keeps you from taking it out on the kiddos - pop on here an just keep on talking- xxxx

I am so sorry you are feeling so bad. Sometimes we as Moms need a break and it is okay. Realizing it is have the battle. You need this time to recover and heel. I don't think your feelings are abnormal or make you less of a great Mom. You will be healthier because of this and with that be able to tend to them even better. But you gotta take a moment if you need it. Can the 7 year old put on a favorite movie or something for the 3 years old to keep him occupied? I am not sure what time zone you are in, but if you are east coast or central it is almost bed time for the 3 year old. But him/her to bed a little early. You may feel better in the morning after a nights rest.
Tell hubs you need a break.

I came home from the hospital about 4 hours before my son came back from his dads. He was about 16mos then. I had him all by myself the entire two weeks post-op before I went back to work and it was fine for us. He was pretty self sufficient, climbed the stairs by himself, climbed into bed himself, up on the couch... I pretty much just let him run free the whole time (he was confined the to kitchen/living room with a baby gate) and didn't worry about picking up the mess until nap time and bed time.
Your kids are older so I'm sure its probably harder, ur maybe you could ask your son to help mommy with the little ones? Just tell him that mommy's not feeling well and really neeeds his help until she feels better. He'll feel super important and useful, like he's helping you get healthy too...

I received my paperwork and it said like 2 hours for test and about 1 1/2 hour with the doctor. I dont like test anyways because I think way to much into things so if there was a question " would you like to be a race car driver" I would sit there and think long and hard about it..."It might be fun! i mean I could do it and I would be awesome so yes? I would like to be a race car driver??" lol
I agree though..i dont understand why its required only becuase obesity hits every type of person a little nuts or not.

nyxa said: (even though he seemed to be very nice.. except for the child molestation thing). lol
I'm truly LOL at this. I worked in a couple of prisons while in college. The child molesters are usually the nicest, most polite guys you'll ever find.

i have a bad liver, so i couldn't do that or smoke.. i have crappy veins, too, so i couldn't be a junkie.. looks like i'll have to find something else.. if i could pick a bad habit, i think it would be sex. if i was skinny, i'd go get me some. lol being fat, unattractive (or at least feeling unattractive even if others find you attractive) sucks.. and doesn't get you any. so there. i guess i have decided my new vice when i'm skinny will be sex.. where's the hot asian boys.. tell 'em to beware.. cause candy's coming to get 'em!!! lol --- just kidding, my morals wouldn't allow it.. even though i'd probably be thinking about it. so what's that leave?.. i can't think of anything except mutilation. damn. always get stuck with the socially unacceptable ones, don't i?.. *mopes off to practice being EMO*
just kidding, of course..
i think maybe i'd get more into sports.. that's what i used to do.. sports, martial arts, etc.. and traveling. it'd be fun to get back on a horse again & do competitions... maybe get back into bodybuilding.. could be fun.

Hello!
Sorry for the delay in response! For some reason my phone is not notifying me of replies!
Sorry your friend didn't recognize the changes!You've really worked hard and lost 50lbs! It feels good when people recognize all your efforts! Sorry she didn't!!!
I schedule an open MRI! I went to the appointment feeling so great! Third day in a row, third machine! I was determined I was going to be successful! I get into the room and it was a regular machine!!! BOLOGNA!!! I am feeling so defeated!! The universe is letting me know I do not need the MRI right now.

I imagine everybody's psyche evaluation varies somewhat, but mine consisted of a brief oral conversation with the doctor, then a very long test where the answers to the statements are either agree or disagree. It was about the dumbest test I've ever seen! I literally laughed out loud more than once over some of the statements....for instance, one said "My soul leaves my body" and then "I would like to be an auto racer," "Once a week or oftener I become very excited." Of course they have 'normal' statements like " I have very few headaches," and "I have no fear of water." It is easy to figure out how any of the questions should be answered.