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yea seriously!!! i dont wanna lose any more shoe sizes.. replacing clothes is bad enough as it is.. i really don't wanna have to replace all my shoes too..lol.. and again thank you guys.. i feel terrific!! ---on another note oddly after posting the other day.. AUNT FLOW decided she wanted to make an appearance.. and ive gained 3 lbs..lol.. poop on a stick, but i know it'll come back off once she departs.. but damn.. i was sooo happy to be in the 180's even if it was only 188.. but im back in the 190s now.. grrrrr...lol

yea my feet have definitely shrunk.. and its soo funny too cuz my favorite rings .. can't wear them any more .. my friend bought me a beautiful ring for my birthday.. cuz im more of a jewelry girl than a clothes girl.. i had to give it back cuz it doesn't fit me anymore.. lol I love slimming down, but man i go thru clothes like a little kid.. after about 3 weeks it doesn't fit anymore.

Ok so seriously... i just have to say.. I can't fit into my favorite pants anymore cuz they are tooooo damn big!!!!!---$10 to drive them to a friends house Yesterday I was a size 12 and this morning I can wear a size 10! --- $15 gettin the waist restiched so i can wear them another week I just went shopping at Kohls... I couldn't even find anything to wear in the adult section so I was forced to go buy 3 pairs of pants from the juniors section!! WTF?!?!?!---$57 I have given away literally 15 pairs of pants, 12 shirts, and I have 6 more pairs of pants at my house right now waiting to get picked up by a friend and 4 other shirts.. one also being my favorite.---$60 just basically giving clothes away I just bought a pair of pants 3 weeks ago.. haven't even taken the tags off yet.. and this morning i go to wear them.. oh they dont even fit anymore!!!---$25 wasted on not wearin the when i bought them MY WALLET IS TAKING A BEATING!!!!!!!!! Look on my moms face when she gets back from Japan today and I tell her we wear the same size pants-----ABSOLUTELY FREAKIN PRICELESS!!!!!!!!!!

thank you..im just tryin to catch up with you!!!

well hey hey hey.. lol.. glad that you are doing well.. you should update your ticker!!!

My face is definitely where i noticed it first. and yea its kind of a shocker to see the difference in pictures..im like hey look ma no double chin..lol

thank you... yea its definitely a mind game sometimes.. and i just need to realize that people are going to notice a 50 lb drop..lol the more that i look at my pics the more im starting to see what other people see .. its just seems sureal.. and i think its more of HOW people say their reaction.. like HOLY COW YOU LOST A LOT OF WEIGHT..im like damn people i mean i know but why you gotta make it sound like i was freaking hump back whale..lolol thank you.. i feel really good too.. i am 5'7 which isn't that much taller than you and at my highest weight 265 so i know that i was pretty big, but i have a lot of muscle which is why i guess when i told people how much i weight no one really ever believed me.. but its their reactions now that make me wonder if they were just being nice about it..lol Thank you... yea these photos are just messin with me now! im almost afraid to see what im gonna look like another 40 lbs down... LOL ALMOST.

ok so i work out 5-6 days a week.. and i started bootcamp training and i will be starting kick boxing next month.. I am seriously worried about all my wiggly bits.. lol.. i am hoping to keep some of my tightness by replacing lost fat with muscle, but for the ladies has any of the non stop exercising actually helped? I want to get a better idea of my realistic expectations.

thats awesome your gonna love it.. been a kj now for 12 years... its soooo much fun. and yea i had a great night.. it was my first performance as a lead vocalist.. and im just excited about performing now.

thank you.. yea thats what most people said, because i was really proportionate it just never looked like i weighed what i did.. but i promise that scale was brutal..lol thats what i did.. gave all my pants to a friend of mine.. and i see her wear what used to be my favorite pair of pants and im just astonished sometimes... thank you... im 5'7''

5'7'' HW: 265 GfS: 250 DoS: 238.1 CW: 192.1 GW: 150 So I just want to start out by saying thank you everyone for your support and caring words when im just in a rutt! I am doing sooooooo much better this week, I went to my masseus and she basically beat the hell out of me..lol but by the next day i was feeling expoentially better..I still hurt but not nearly as bad as i did a week ago. Im finally able to get back to running and some light weight lifting. Also, the weight started droping again so that made me happy!!!! I figure i need to look on the bright side of things.. Im down 46 lbs since surgery.. and its only been 2 and a half months.. i think im doin pretty damn good. And i am really excited about tough mudder coming up in sept.. if i can drop the last 40 lbs by then.. I am going to compete. (but im really hopin to lose the last 42 lbs way before then cuz i wanna be bikini ready by summer..lol....*cross my fingers*) probably not gonna happen, but a girl can dream can't she?!! well you know me blogs are not complete without some pics so here ya go!!!! this is me on 3-3-12 performing with my band!! had a great night! goofy face..i dunno...lol

thank you everyone, I feel great and honestly i completely understand when you look at the before and after i look way bigger..lol.. And i get why people say wow you lost hella weight.. i just need to take it as a compliment and not damn you were seriously fat before..lolol.. what cracks me up sometimes is that everyone assumes that ive always been big and i really havent ive only been big for about 4 years... after my 3rd knee surgery i packed it on like sumo wrestler.... apparently thats what happens when you can't move and continue eating like you did in grade school... hopefully my mind will catch up to my body, and just be happy about it. cuz i truely am a happier person since the surgery.. im more energetic and i feel all glowy inside!

ok so this is starting to get strange to me.. lol.. lately i have people comin up to me goin.. 'wow you lost a lot of weight...' and im thinkin ok.... i mean they tell me i look good, but im like im only down 46 lbs.. i know its a lot, but i guess i thought i always carried my weight pretty well cuz im very proportionate.. I mean i know i was a chunky girl, but damn WAS I REALLY THAT BIG???? Its just odd..I mean I was happy with my looks when i was chunky... and im happy with my looks now that im only slightly chunky..lol.. but still i guess i just never saw myself as being really big, but the fact that people make it seem like i was HUGE just kinda makes me feel uncomfortable.. I guess yea at 265lbs I was a big girl.. i guess its just odd now that i know how other people perceived me.. Does anyone else feel like this sometimes.. or am i just thinking about it too much? this is me just a few days ago at my bands show... this is me at my heaviest..... i mean ok yea im definitely fatter, but i guess i just didn't see that i lost soooo much weight that its that its OMG noticable..i guess..but whatever...don't get me wrong i feel terrific and im not complainin about the loss... i guess i just feel awkward when people come up to me sayin.. 'damn you lost HELLA wait' and they do with that much emphasis on HELLA!!!!

good luck to you hun!!! im sure everything will go smoothly!! keep us updated on your progress :0)

welcome to the forum!!!!!!

k.. i know i need to just suck it up and be happy, but i just don't know what to do. So here goes.. My health insurance ran out, so im not getting the post op care that i need. My 3 month appointment is on the 5th and i can't go. Im in excruciating pain because of my cyatic nerve (sorry if my spelling is off) so i can't really exercise...which in turn means ive only lost 6 lbs this month. Im really dissappointed in myself. And I do not want to get down because when that happens my mind automatically reverts to food! Please help me.. i am askin now cuz i already see my past habits rearing its ugly head!!!! I know im doing well, but i feel like i did 45 lbs ago.. not wanting to move cuz im in pain and just wanting to wallow in food! Luckily I can't actually fit that much in me so i guess i wont be eating a lot, but i will start eating the bad things. also anyone know if i can go to like med7 or something if i don't have med insurance?

hello hello!!!!! congrats on the surgery... hope everything went well!!! This is gonna be one hell of a journey but your gonna love yourself for it!!!!!!!

that is true, but i guess i look at it this way.. the benefits out weight my desire to eat an abundance of food. I would say the first few weeks i was right there with you... i just want to be able to sit down and actually eat a meal... but honestly within the last week i just don't care as much.. and when i look around i sometimes feel bad for people because i see them gorging themselves. its funny cuz when i was over weight i never noticed all the overweight people around me, but now that i have to pay attention to what i eat its just insane when i look around. I feel bad for people ... and not in a sarcastic ha ha im skinny your not way.. i mean i really feel bad. i didn't realize just how much of the population is overweight and unhealthy. I know that in a few more months ill be able to eat more, and im actually dreading that day because im wondering if my brain will go back to the old mentality that just because i can fit it in my belly i SHOULD eat it.. even when im not hungry.. i don't wanna get there again.. I don't want food to have the hold on me that it once did. I would eat because i was bored, pissed off, happy, sad, hell basically just because i was awake! Sorry i kind of go off topic sometimes, lol... anyways, yes its going to be a struggle at first because you are gonna WANT to eat, but trust me that feeling will slowly dissapate when you start seeing amazing results in your body! your gonna start wanting to eat better because you FEEL better!

just wanted to say thank you for the kind words of support! i have actually been resting for the past 4 days now.. not one lick of a work out..lol its been tough, but i know my body really needs the rest. Dorrie im sorry to hear about the family troubles.. makes mine seem really insignificant..lol i know i just need to not complain cuz i guess it can always be worse right?! however im glad that you got to see family. so far i have tried motrin, heating and icing, and salonpas patches.. it helps a little, but unfortunately the one thing that would help which is my epidural injections i can't get until i have my insurance back. so hopefully it will just correct itself in time. jennifer, that is where all my issues are to L3-4-5 its not fun i can say that much.. and i know that you can't work out right now, but have you tried the swimming pool.. that might be something to do until you can really start working out. it would at least give you resistance training and help tone muscles as well as speed up weight loss in a low impact environment. anyways, hope you ladies have a good week. and i will keep you posted on my recovery, cuz i really wanna get back into the swing of things.

so excited for u!!!!! i was nervous to goin into surgery, but its really not that bad. Yea it had its ups and downs, but goin on 11 weeks out.. im a machine! lol i feel better than i have in a long while.. and i know you are gonna be fine.

HOLD THE PHONE!!!! ok i try not to disagree with people since we are supposed to be supportive to one another, but i have to say this... please DO NOT START BAD HABITS NOW! You obviously had the surgery because you were overweight which mean early on in your life you picked up a bad habit. eatting ice cream everyday is not gonna be a good habit to pick back up. You are young and so im sure right now you have a higher metabolism than most, and because you are active at work its probably keeping it that way, but with age your metabolism will slow.. trust me, and if you pick up these habits now you will most likely wind up gaining weight that you did mean to later on. my suggestion to you is start hitting the gym and doing strenght training, weights, bells, circuit training, obviously you don't need to really do a lot of cardio, but this way you can pack on a healthy weight because of muscle gain instead of fat weight from high sugar content. take in a good amount of Protein to help build and recover muscle before and after training.. most of the guys i know that wanna pack on muscle to gain weight injest between 60-120 grams of protein a day depending on your activity level. I just really wanna caution you on eatting fatty, sugary foods to gain weight, because its not the type of weight you want to put on. good luck to you tho.

5'7'' Hw: 265 GfS: 250 DoS: 238.1 Cw: 194.1 Gw:150 Ok I normally try and be really positive on my blogs cuz everyone has there ups and downs but the key is to keep pushin on, but this week has literally got me down. And let me start off by sayin im not upset that I only lost 1 lb this week, im upset because i am now on a slight bed rest. I have been working out a lot because I am training for the tough mudder, and i have been pushing myself. But I know how to work out so its not like im hurting myself because of my work out. Ok i have to give a little back ground. In my 28 years of existence i have probably been in about 12 car accidents. the last one was pretty bad, and now i have 3 herniated discs in my low back. and one of them is pressing against my ciatic nerve. normally it doesn't hurt bad, but at times like this when it gets inflammed it almost paralyzes me from the waist down. I can't bend or move much without this really excruciating pain. Well im at that point right now, and unfortunately my health insurance ran out from my last job at the end of last month, so im kinda screwed. anyways, all i wanna do is be able to go running or workout, and i feel like im stuck in this damn if i do damn if i don't state! well hopefully this pain subsides soon so that i can get back to losing weight.. I didn't do any pictures this week, because i didnt lose anything, lets hope next week is better! Hope all of you are having a better week than I am.

at any point for anyone you will stop losing weight either because there is no more fat for you to lose, or no more fat that you should lose! I wouldn't think that most people will lose much more 2-3 years out because it really shouldn't take that long in the first place to lose your excess weight. At that point it you should really just be maintaining if anything. I also think that a lot of people might not hit goal (and i say that very lienently) because once they drop the excess fat that they have the may also have excess skin which is going to add a few lbs that they wont be able to get rid of unless they have plastic surgery to correct it.. and for a few people that can be an excess of 20lbs or more. Stalls and plateaus happen, but nothing really that can't be conquered. Hope that helped

definitely won brownie points!!! lol... see i knew there where more of you guys out there than the handful that i see posting...... Not TMI at all.. congrats that you are so close.. you are gonna love your sleeve. depending on how much you have to lose it may take time, but im sure you will do great! just stick to the program, don't get me wrong it aint gonna be easy and you are probably gonna stall like every other person, lol, but at least u will have the awesome support of this group to keep you on track!!!!

Im sorry that you are feeling this way, and im glad that you are taking steps to help correct your self sabotoge...I really think that you should take a look at the boot camp thats pinned to the forum by lilmissdiva.. it may be a great tool to help you get back on the right track again. And my honest advice is.. when you wake up in the mornin.. dont hate yourself for what you did the day before, because it will automatically put you in a slump and make you feel bad, and im sure like a few people on here that bad feeling is what makes you eat in the first place. wake up and know that today is a new day whatever happend yesterday can't be fixed or changed, but TODAY can be different. start as if its a new diet every day, that way you can try and manage. Its how i work on my stuff to. Everyday is a new day and everyday you have your slate wiped clean. I hope you can get your food issued under control. I would suggest also calling your nut and seeing what they recommend. Good luck to you!