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    makemyownluck got a reaction from particularwave in recipe and pic: mini crustless quiche   
    Made this today, thought I would share! You can add in other goodies as your diet allows - I would like to try it with different veggie/cheese combinations!



    Mini crustless quiche
    makes: 4 servings

    ingredients:
    4 slices of prosciutto, very thinly sliced!
    4 eggs, beaten
    1/4 cup low-fat ricotta cheese
    1 slice american cheese (2% or skim milk cheese would be best)
    1 tbsp shredded parmesan cheese
    salt and pepper to taste (I also put in a bit of garlic powder - optional)
    *note: prosciutto is very salty on its own and you do not need much added salt in this recipe. In fact, you might want to skip salt altogether and just salt the finished product if it's needed

    instructions:
    spray 4 ramekins with cooking spray
    in the bottom of each ramekin, loosely pile one slice of prosciutto in each ramekin
    in a medium bowl, beat the 4 eggs and ricotta cheese together, season with salt and pepper to taste.
    pour mixture evenly over the prosciutto in the ramekins.
    tear apart and distribute bits of the american cheese among all 4 ramekins and top with parmesan cheese and one last bit of fresh cracked black pepper.

    Bake in a pre-heated 350 degree oven for about 13-15m or until toothpick comes out clear. Allow to rest for a couple of minutes. They should pop right out of the ramekin since you sprayed them first!

    per My Fitness Pal:
    per 1 serving:
    148 calories
    8.4g fat (you could cut this down if you use egg whites)
    1.4g carbs
    13.2 g Protein
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    makemyownluck got a reaction from Jenuine629 in New Whey Liquid Protein 42g   
    Protein shots aren't good, according to my NUT anyway.
    perhaps you're feeling nauseous because you're chugging them down? drinking too fast, maybe?
    powders?utm_source=BariatricPal&utm_medium=Affiliate&utm_campaign=CommentLink" target="_ad" data-id="1" >unjury makes an "unflavored" powder, you could add it to sugar free Jello or pudding.
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    makemyownluck got a reaction from Miss Mac in I need help   
    white coating to the tongue could be thrush? it's a yeast infection in your mouth, basically. Or it could be a sign of dehydration...
    I also had this side effect of everything tasting awful when I did my pre-op liquid diet for 2 weeks, it was keotone (sp?) related, basically going ALL Protein can do that to you, but it did go away after about 3 weeks. google "keotone breath" and you'll get a lot of pages with tips to control it. the good news is, if it is keotone related that means you're sticking to your Protein diet rather nicely and your body is doing it's job.
    I don't remember what the "tips" were to get rid of it. I just chewed a lot of gum and drank crystal light (cuz Water was disgusting with a mouth that tasted like garbage!)
    This DID pass for me, though. Even while still on the diet. IDK if it had to do with adjusting to the protein diet or what, but it did go away.
    I'm sorry you're having a tough time, but there is NO benefit from saying "I wish I hadn't done this" because there's no going back now. Try to get through it the best you can, drink your Water, take your Vitamins, eat your protein... it DOES GET BETTER. I promise! And when it does, you'll be glad you made a choice to improve your life!
    Stay Positive!! Good luck!
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    makemyownluck got a reaction from ges12877 in Any Chicago sleevers   
    I feel FANTASTIC. I haven't felt hungry, I have no nausea, vomiting, diarrhea.. I did get constipated a couple of times, but I have Colace now and I've been fine. I don't have any issues with gas or how I eat. I make sure I chew more than I did before, but the size of my bites and size of my sips feels pretty close to pre-op. I know some people have gas issues and have to sip/eat in much smaller portions, but since about day 3, I've been pretty close to normal.
    The only things that bug me is that I still get some soreness from the incisions if I try to do to much. It's not so bad that I can't keep doing what I'm doing, but it's there. Also, I'm a side sleeper and it's still not comfortable for me to roll to my side yet. I've been sleeping upright because laying flat on my back all night makes my back ache. Other than that, I'm feeling really good.
    I'm down 25lbs in 3 1/2 wks... maybe a lil more, haven't weight myself in a few days.
    I'm still amazed at lunch when a little 4 oz container of cottage cheese fills me up! I think this has really gone as good as can be expected, and I'm so grateful for it!
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    makemyownluck got a reaction from BlondeChicago in Any Chicago sleevers   
    Hi! I'm out in aurora - 3 1/2 wks post op. I had surgery at Rush University, where are you having surgery?
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    makemyownluck got a reaction from LookatmeNow34 in Vitamins after gastric sleeve   
    I bought chewables the first few months after surgery but have since gone to regular pill Vitamins. You should talk with your MD to see what you need as it will vary based on your bloodwork and your age/gender.
    I'm 33 female, no other health conditions. I take:
    A Multivitamin (just a regular one, Centrum or One-A-Day, whatever is on sale when I need more)
    Vitamin D softgels
    sublingual B12
    Biotin softgels
    Vitamin E
    The vitamin E and Biotin are to keep my skin and nails healthy. My hair was thin before surgery and I think it's thinned out a little bit more, but not noticeably so. My nails are more brittle now as well, the Vitamin E is something I added to my Vitamins about 3 months ago and I'm noticing a slight difference.
    Some people also take Calcium supplements or Iron supplements. These shouldn't be taken at the same time, though, the Calcium interferes with your body being able to absorb the Iron. My iron and calcium levels are both normal so I don't take either of them.
    Hope this helps!
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    makemyownluck got a reaction from redlove1446 in How has your view of others changed since surgery?   
    For the record, I don't think that video is about fat acceptance, but is, instead, perpetuating a stereotype or joke about fat people. Your niece may actually think it's funny, but part of me can't help but wonder if she's trying to make it seem as if she's unaffected by her weight. I'm 99% sure that she's NOT okay with being obese, but it's easier to play along and make the joke on yourself before someone makes the joke on you and shames you for simply being what you are.
    As someone who has been overweight for my entire life, I can say that at no point in my life has anyone EVER said it was okay to be fat. Ever. It was always shameful. It was always "you have such a pretty face" or "you'd be so cute if you lost some weight" or just plain rude "you're so fat" comments.
    Fat acceptance is only about NOT SHAMING/RIDICULING other people for their size. If some people wanna take it to the "I'M FAT AND FABULOUS" level, then sobeit, but the point is for people not to be ashamed of who and what they are. It's not healthy to live that way and the damage of doing so can take a lifetime to undo (and is usually impossible to erase the emotional scars it causes).
    I think this whole movement is unnecessary in that we should just respect everyone anyway, but obviously overweight people are teased and bullied quite a lot and there has to be some way for them to feel better about themselves and not hate who they see in the mirror. Perhaps if I had some of that positivity in my life growing up, I wouldn't continue to hate myself every single day, even after losing so much of my weight.
    Feeling worthless because of your size is not pleasant and it is NOT justified. No one asks to be overweight. We can't loathe ourselves into being smaller. The point is to love thyself! NO MATTER WHAT! I have a whole life of being shamed to overcome before I can come close to accepting myself at ANY size. This movement could help this generation or the next avoid these emotions, and I'm all for that.
    It really hurts my heart that former overweight people would become less compassionate just because they are on the other side of the fence now.
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    makemyownluck reacted to terry1118 in Dating after Weight Loss Surgery   
    You will find someone who loves you for you. When the right one comes along it won't matter where you are in your journey. When it's right, it's right. Be patient. And in the meantime you'll get to figure out who you REALLY are inside! Many of us are hiding behind our weight. We find new confidence, self assurance, and self discovery! When you love yourself others see you differently and will love you too. Each pound lost allows a little more of that special person to shine through... :-)
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    makemyownluck reacted to redlove1446 in How has your view of others changed since surgery?   
    @@makemyownluck "It really hurts my heart that former overweight people would become less compassionate just because they are on the other side of the fence now." 100% Agree.
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    makemyownluck got a reaction from redlove1446 in How has your view of others changed since surgery?   
    For the record, I don't think that video is about fat acceptance, but is, instead, perpetuating a stereotype or joke about fat people. Your niece may actually think it's funny, but part of me can't help but wonder if she's trying to make it seem as if she's unaffected by her weight. I'm 99% sure that she's NOT okay with being obese, but it's easier to play along and make the joke on yourself before someone makes the joke on you and shames you for simply being what you are.
    As someone who has been overweight for my entire life, I can say that at no point in my life has anyone EVER said it was okay to be fat. Ever. It was always shameful. It was always "you have such a pretty face" or "you'd be so cute if you lost some weight" or just plain rude "you're so fat" comments.
    Fat acceptance is only about NOT SHAMING/RIDICULING other people for their size. If some people wanna take it to the "I'M FAT AND FABULOUS" level, then sobeit, but the point is for people not to be ashamed of who and what they are. It's not healthy to live that way and the damage of doing so can take a lifetime to undo (and is usually impossible to erase the emotional scars it causes).
    I think this whole movement is unnecessary in that we should just respect everyone anyway, but obviously overweight people are teased and bullied quite a lot and there has to be some way for them to feel better about themselves and not hate who they see in the mirror. Perhaps if I had some of that positivity in my life growing up, I wouldn't continue to hate myself every single day, even after losing so much of my weight.
    Feeling worthless because of your size is not pleasant and it is NOT justified. No one asks to be overweight. We can't loathe ourselves into being smaller. The point is to love thyself! NO MATTER WHAT! I have a whole life of being shamed to overcome before I can come close to accepting myself at ANY size. This movement could help this generation or the next avoid these emotions, and I'm all for that.
    It really hurts my heart that former overweight people would become less compassionate just because they are on the other side of the fence now.
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    makemyownluck reacted to lsereno in finally a veteran...   
    If you're going to skip Vitamins, don't let it be B Vitamins or Calcium. Once that damage is done, it can't be reversed.
    Re: the boyfriend, If he was your best friend's boyfriend, what would you tell her? Do that. Playing devil's advocate, maybe he is just mentioning your best qualities to him instead of commenting by silence about your weight, shape, etc.
    I agree with Cowgirl Jane's post. She's been down that road too.
    And finally, welcome to the Vet's Group!
    Lynda
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    makemyownluck got a reaction from ☠carolinagirl☠ in How has your view of others changed since surgery?   
    I understand completely where you are coming from... But here's what I think the fat acceptance is trying to accomplish --
    EVERYONE has the right to be happy. Regardless of their size. Yes, you could resolve a lot of medical issues by losing weight. Accepting your size doesn't mean you can't be committed to a healthier lifestyle, these aren't mutually exclusive things. But as humans, we all come in different shapes and there's absolutely no reason that anyone should be shamed for it.
    I do think there is a difference between "I'm fat and I love being fat!" and "I'm fat and that's okay." But still, to each their own. If someone is happy being 500 lbs, then it's not up to me to tell them they shouldn't be.
    I feel like obesity is the last thing that's socially acceptable to discriminate against. An airline doesn't make gay people buy two tickets so their gayness doesn't offend the person sitting next to them... Our society makes any other form of discrimination socially unacceptable, but it's still funny to ridicule a fat person or okay to treat an overweight person like an animal. It's not fair, and the fat acceptance movement, to me, is about getting society to see that no matter how big you are, you're still a human who deserves respect.
    No matter how big or small, it's not up to me to tell someone else how to live their life, even if it's under the premise of "it's about your health". Skinny people are just as unhealthy as fat people are, but they don't get shamed for eating potato chips or enjoying an ice cream cone and that's really just not fair.
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    makemyownluck reacted to CowgirlJane in finally a veteran...   
    Congrats on becoming a vet!
    It is easy to get discouraged, not just by the scale, but LIFE. I think it is important to keep the perspective of focusing on how much you have acheived - both health benefits, mobility, looks etc rather than comparing yourself to what you envision as "ideal". You would be shocked at how many women at a "normal" weight despise their own looks. It really is a waste of energy.
    I was told by my NUT and found it to be try that as long as you keep "working it" the sleeve will keep working for you. You CAN continue to lose weight as a vet, just keep on keeping on. I know what you mean about sometimes thinking how long the journey is - for me, when i weighed over 300# it seemed impossible to get to a normal size/weight, but i did it. I too thought about the ladies who were "only" 75-100# overweight... but in the end that doesn't really matter. It only matters how I live my life, not how I compare to anyone else.
    I can be bad about Vitamins sometimes... and then get back on track, but I implore you to get your Protein in. As you are losing weight, adequate Protein can help maintain your muscle mass. It can also prevent hair loss and other unpleasant things like that.
    Anyway, keep posting on the vet forum! Welcome!
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    makemyownluck got a reaction from ☠carolinagirl☠ in How has your view of others changed since surgery?   
    I understand completely where you are coming from... But here's what I think the fat acceptance is trying to accomplish --
    EVERYONE has the right to be happy. Regardless of their size. Yes, you could resolve a lot of medical issues by losing weight. Accepting your size doesn't mean you can't be committed to a healthier lifestyle, these aren't mutually exclusive things. But as humans, we all come in different shapes and there's absolutely no reason that anyone should be shamed for it.
    I do think there is a difference between "I'm fat and I love being fat!" and "I'm fat and that's okay." But still, to each their own. If someone is happy being 500 lbs, then it's not up to me to tell them they shouldn't be.
    I feel like obesity is the last thing that's socially acceptable to discriminate against. An airline doesn't make gay people buy two tickets so their gayness doesn't offend the person sitting next to them... Our society makes any other form of discrimination socially unacceptable, but it's still funny to ridicule a fat person or okay to treat an overweight person like an animal. It's not fair, and the fat acceptance movement, to me, is about getting society to see that no matter how big you are, you're still a human who deserves respect.
    No matter how big or small, it's not up to me to tell someone else how to live their life, even if it's under the premise of "it's about your health". Skinny people are just as unhealthy as fat people are, but they don't get shamed for eating potato chips or enjoying an ice cream cone and that's really just not fair.
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    makemyownluck got a reaction from ☠carolinagirl☠ in How has your view of others changed since surgery?   
    I understand completely where you are coming from... But here's what I think the fat acceptance is trying to accomplish --
    EVERYONE has the right to be happy. Regardless of their size. Yes, you could resolve a lot of medical issues by losing weight. Accepting your size doesn't mean you can't be committed to a healthier lifestyle, these aren't mutually exclusive things. But as humans, we all come in different shapes and there's absolutely no reason that anyone should be shamed for it.
    I do think there is a difference between "I'm fat and I love being fat!" and "I'm fat and that's okay." But still, to each their own. If someone is happy being 500 lbs, then it's not up to me to tell them they shouldn't be.
    I feel like obesity is the last thing that's socially acceptable to discriminate against. An airline doesn't make gay people buy two tickets so their gayness doesn't offend the person sitting next to them... Our society makes any other form of discrimination socially unacceptable, but it's still funny to ridicule a fat person or okay to treat an overweight person like an animal. It's not fair, and the fat acceptance movement, to me, is about getting society to see that no matter how big you are, you're still a human who deserves respect.
    No matter how big or small, it's not up to me to tell someone else how to live their life, even if it's under the premise of "it's about your health". Skinny people are just as unhealthy as fat people are, but they don't get shamed for eating potato chips or enjoying an ice cream cone and that's really just not fair.
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    makemyownluck got a reaction from ☠carolinagirl☠ in How has your view of others changed since surgery?   
    I understand completely where you are coming from... But here's what I think the fat acceptance is trying to accomplish --
    EVERYONE has the right to be happy. Regardless of their size. Yes, you could resolve a lot of medical issues by losing weight. Accepting your size doesn't mean you can't be committed to a healthier lifestyle, these aren't mutually exclusive things. But as humans, we all come in different shapes and there's absolutely no reason that anyone should be shamed for it.
    I do think there is a difference between "I'm fat and I love being fat!" and "I'm fat and that's okay." But still, to each their own. If someone is happy being 500 lbs, then it's not up to me to tell them they shouldn't be.
    I feel like obesity is the last thing that's socially acceptable to discriminate against. An airline doesn't make gay people buy two tickets so their gayness doesn't offend the person sitting next to them... Our society makes any other form of discrimination socially unacceptable, but it's still funny to ridicule a fat person or okay to treat an overweight person like an animal. It's not fair, and the fat acceptance movement, to me, is about getting society to see that no matter how big you are, you're still a human who deserves respect.
    No matter how big or small, it's not up to me to tell someone else how to live their life, even if it's under the premise of "it's about your health". Skinny people are just as unhealthy as fat people are, but they don't get shamed for eating potato chips or enjoying an ice cream cone and that's really just not fair.
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    makemyownluck got a reaction from ☠carolinagirl☠ in How has your view of others changed since surgery?   
    I understand completely where you are coming from... But here's what I think the fat acceptance is trying to accomplish --
    EVERYONE has the right to be happy. Regardless of their size. Yes, you could resolve a lot of medical issues by losing weight. Accepting your size doesn't mean you can't be committed to a healthier lifestyle, these aren't mutually exclusive things. But as humans, we all come in different shapes and there's absolutely no reason that anyone should be shamed for it.
    I do think there is a difference between "I'm fat and I love being fat!" and "I'm fat and that's okay." But still, to each their own. If someone is happy being 500 lbs, then it's not up to me to tell them they shouldn't be.
    I feel like obesity is the last thing that's socially acceptable to discriminate against. An airline doesn't make gay people buy two tickets so their gayness doesn't offend the person sitting next to them... Our society makes any other form of discrimination socially unacceptable, but it's still funny to ridicule a fat person or okay to treat an overweight person like an animal. It's not fair, and the fat acceptance movement, to me, is about getting society to see that no matter how big you are, you're still a human who deserves respect.
    No matter how big or small, it's not up to me to tell someone else how to live their life, even if it's under the premise of "it's about your health". Skinny people are just as unhealthy as fat people are, but they don't get shamed for eating potato chips or enjoying an ice cream cone and that's really just not fair.
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    makemyownluck got a reaction from cryss in Insurance and obesity coverage denials   
    I agree that it's wrong to exclude obesity related treatment from an insurance plan, however if it's stated in your policy that it's excluded, then no amount of letters will change the insurance policy.
    Many insurance companies exclude this because it saves them a lot of money and they can offer lower premiums. The same company can offer plans that have coverage for obesity and different plans that exclude it. Employers especially will exclude this coverage because it saves them money as well... the same goes for maternity coverage. The more you exclude, the more you can save, the more attractive your company/policy seems to whoever is in charge of selecting it (even though the insured is screwed out of medically necessary coverage).
    I'm so grateful I had my surgery when I did as I lost my health coverage about 6 months post-op... but now I'm in the same boat as anyone else. I missed out on open enrollment for Obamacare and now no one will issue me a temp policy because I have a history of Hypertension in the last 5 years (I can't even get to the actual application to advise of my surgical history and how my blood pressure is totally normal now for over a year!).
    The system is flawed on many levels... I'm sorry you're having to clear out your retirement to pay for your surgery, but in the end, it should be worth it. Good luck to you!!
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    makemyownluck reacted to Ginger Snaps in finally a veteran...   
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    makemyownluck got a reaction from ☠carolinagirl☠ in How has your view of others changed since surgery?   
    I understand completely where you are coming from... But here's what I think the fat acceptance is trying to accomplish --
    EVERYONE has the right to be happy. Regardless of their size. Yes, you could resolve a lot of medical issues by losing weight. Accepting your size doesn't mean you can't be committed to a healthier lifestyle, these aren't mutually exclusive things. But as humans, we all come in different shapes and there's absolutely no reason that anyone should be shamed for it.
    I do think there is a difference between "I'm fat and I love being fat!" and "I'm fat and that's okay." But still, to each their own. If someone is happy being 500 lbs, then it's not up to me to tell them they shouldn't be.
    I feel like obesity is the last thing that's socially acceptable to discriminate against. An airline doesn't make gay people buy two tickets so their gayness doesn't offend the person sitting next to them... Our society makes any other form of discrimination socially unacceptable, but it's still funny to ridicule a fat person or okay to treat an overweight person like an animal. It's not fair, and the fat acceptance movement, to me, is about getting society to see that no matter how big you are, you're still a human who deserves respect.
    No matter how big or small, it's not up to me to tell someone else how to live their life, even if it's under the premise of "it's about your health". Skinny people are just as unhealthy as fat people are, but they don't get shamed for eating potato chips or enjoying an ice cream cone and that's really just not fair.
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    makemyownluck got a reaction from ☠carolinagirl☠ in How has your view of others changed since surgery?   
    I understand completely where you are coming from... But here's what I think the fat acceptance is trying to accomplish --
    EVERYONE has the right to be happy. Regardless of their size. Yes, you could resolve a lot of medical issues by losing weight. Accepting your size doesn't mean you can't be committed to a healthier lifestyle, these aren't mutually exclusive things. But as humans, we all come in different shapes and there's absolutely no reason that anyone should be shamed for it.
    I do think there is a difference between "I'm fat and I love being fat!" and "I'm fat and that's okay." But still, to each their own. If someone is happy being 500 lbs, then it's not up to me to tell them they shouldn't be.
    I feel like obesity is the last thing that's socially acceptable to discriminate against. An airline doesn't make gay people buy two tickets so their gayness doesn't offend the person sitting next to them... Our society makes any other form of discrimination socially unacceptable, but it's still funny to ridicule a fat person or okay to treat an overweight person like an animal. It's not fair, and the fat acceptance movement, to me, is about getting society to see that no matter how big you are, you're still a human who deserves respect.
    No matter how big or small, it's not up to me to tell someone else how to live their life, even if it's under the premise of "it's about your health". Skinny people are just as unhealthy as fat people are, but they don't get shamed for eating potato chips or enjoying an ice cream cone and that's really just not fair.
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    makemyownluck reacted to bagonian74 in 100 lbs gone wow   
    Hey guys 7months 1 week post op and 100 pounds gone wow excited
    20 more to go

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    makemyownluck reacted to piercedqt78 in How has your view of others changed since surgery?   
    I'm 200% with your friend that doctors need to look beyond just weight. I spent 35 years of my life with an auto-immune disorder and was told my pain, and joint problems were all weight related. Well now I'm 110 pounds on a good day and my pain and joint problems are still here. The only difference is now that I'm no longer fat they actually looked at my health and didn't dismiss me. I have a diagnosis, is it what I wanted? no, is it the hand I was dealt? Yes. But I could have avoided 5 surgeries if I had been taken seriously from the first doctor, and not just dismissed for being fat. I had a doctor tell me that I tore my rotator cuff because of being morbidly obese.
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    makemyownluck got a reaction from ☠carolinagirl☠ in How has your view of others changed since surgery?   
    I understand completely where you are coming from... But here's what I think the fat acceptance is trying to accomplish --
    EVERYONE has the right to be happy. Regardless of their size. Yes, you could resolve a lot of medical issues by losing weight. Accepting your size doesn't mean you can't be committed to a healthier lifestyle, these aren't mutually exclusive things. But as humans, we all come in different shapes and there's absolutely no reason that anyone should be shamed for it.
    I do think there is a difference between "I'm fat and I love being fat!" and "I'm fat and that's okay." But still, to each their own. If someone is happy being 500 lbs, then it's not up to me to tell them they shouldn't be.
    I feel like obesity is the last thing that's socially acceptable to discriminate against. An airline doesn't make gay people buy two tickets so their gayness doesn't offend the person sitting next to them... Our society makes any other form of discrimination socially unacceptable, but it's still funny to ridicule a fat person or okay to treat an overweight person like an animal. It's not fair, and the fat acceptance movement, to me, is about getting society to see that no matter how big you are, you're still a human who deserves respect.
    No matter how big or small, it's not up to me to tell someone else how to live their life, even if it's under the premise of "it's about your health". Skinny people are just as unhealthy as fat people are, but they don't get shamed for eating potato chips or enjoying an ice cream cone and that's really just not fair.
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    makemyownluck got a reaction from BKLYNgal87 in finally a veteran...   
    Well, my one year surgiversary came and went without any fanfare. I knew it was coming about a week before the date, then completely forgot about it until now.
    I'm one year and 6 days post op as of today. WOO!
    Life has pretty much returned to "normal" for me. I eat what I want, when I want, which isn't much. I don't really get my Protein in, I don't take my Vitamins regularly and I'm not following up with my doctor like I should because I no longer have health insurance. I'm a bad, bad girl...
    That said, I do work out fairly regularly and I'm so pleased to be able to do things like walk up 4 flights of stairs without being winded or run with my stepdaughter outside and chase her around without stopping to catch my breath. I'm also able to sit in booths at restaurants, and for a long time, I avoided the movie theatre because my butt was too wide to sit comfortably next to my date... never no more, life is better post-sleeve!
    I'm still a big girl. I started out as a REALLY big girl, and sadly, losing 150lbs hasn't made me skinny. I could lose another 150lbs and be right in the "normal" BMI range, and that does discourage me. I don't want to weigh 160lbs, I can't envision myself as a skinny girl (I've been big my whole life). I'm tall so I wear my weight well, I'm a size 22 bottom and 18/20 top - but then I realize there are people who START OUT at that size and get surgery and I'm just happy to finally BE IN that size... I know and hope I'll lose more, but my body is such a wreck now that losing too much more worries me just as much as not losing any. I stay off the scale, I don't want to see the numbers anymore, I just focus on eating when I need to and getting my exercise in. I feel like I'll NEED to get a Tummy Tuck at some point (and a thigh lift, and my arms done, and probably a boob-lift too... lordy), but I can't afford any of that now, so I'm in no rush to lose more weight. It will happen as it's supposed to.
    I started dating quite a bit at the end of last year and now I've found myself a very nice gentleman that I'm quite happy with. He's never been with a big girl before, and he makes comments about how he loves my mind, my heart and my pretty face... I can read between the lines. It's hard for me to resent him for not loving my body when I hate it more than he ever could. But it does hurt... it feels like validation for all the negative things I feel when someone else recognizes it as well. I'm trying to get over it, to see my sagging body as a reminder of all the hard work I've done, but I just don't know that I'll ever be okay with my body. Most women (maybe men too, I wouldn't know) aren't fully okay with their bodies, so I realize this just makes me human, but I wish that I could accept myself and stop being so harsh. My inner voice is MEAN.
    Sometimes I wonder if I've done the right thing. I'm so grateful for all the positive changes in my life and I'm grateful for my improved health. But when I think of how I went so far as to have this surgery and I'm still so overweight... it makes me wonder why I did it or if I did the right thing for me. Why didn't I get the bypass? Why didn't I get the switch? Did I settle? These thoughts have literally kept me up at night... not often, but often enough.
    These are the things that play on my mind. Maybe in another year, I'll have better perspective, I'll lose more of this weight and feel even better and I won't play these mind games with myself. All I want, all I've ever wanted, is to be happy... so everyday I just try to focus on the things that make me smile and forget the things that don't.
    Hope all my old buddies on the board are doing well!

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