onmyway1969

I went in for my first fill today, and the Dr. was unable to access my port. I have another appointment tomorrow in radiology to see what is happening, and he will try again. Is this common? Is it possible that I will have to have my port repositioned? Disappointed. Hoping for the best tomorrow.

Thank you for posting, this has been one of my concerns about having the surgery. I heard an acquaintance speak at a support group about grieving for food, a few weeks after her surgery, she felt as if she had lost her best friend. I heard this over a year ago and I knew that it was something I would experience. I also have support at home, and while this is very important, no one can get through the emotions but me. Recognizing our emotional issues surrounding food is the first step. There are many mixed emotions that I experience in a single day. I know I have an unhealthy relationship with food. I have a lot of work to do surrounding my addictive behaviors. I can learn to live a healthy lifestyle. This will include eating foods to nourish my body, to be kind to myself, to strengthen my body, to allow myself to miss food, to ask for help when I need it, learn to be inside my head without escaping by using food. I hope I am not getting too heavy for you.... I have a lot to learn. It is almost like I will discover who I am without using food as a crutch. I will still struggle, but I will struggle in different ways. This is a process. There will be hard days and easier ones. Embrace them all. Your feelings of uncertainty are very normal, I think. And, they will pass. You have made a decision to create a new, healthier YOU. There is no room for "regret" when you make a decision like that. shakes..... BLAH! I did two weeks of pre op diet (choc and vanilla shakes), had surgery on Tuesday of this week, and am now able to have things other than shakes. Tomato Soup was FABULOUS! Jello wasn't bad either. Cream of celery. chicken broth. Popsicles. Gatorade. coffee with a choc protien shake. Obviously I am looking forward to having more food choices, but I am feeling much more satisfied with these additions.

I have a physical job, and need the Dr. to sign off on lifting 50 pounds, kneeling, standing, squatting, etc for part of each day. His nurse said she thought it would be four weeks. I have the time.... Viewing it as recovery and 3 weeks off with my kids.