SkinnyOnMe

I am sending the this link to my family that I have not told. But all of you in the VST are welcome to read my story.

This picture was taken last week.

Before it’s too late


Dear family,
I hope that you won’t consider me a cheater, talk behind my back, and tell everybody. I hope that you will instead congratulate my hard work that will come from exercising, dietary changes, and commitment to a healthier me. To be honest I thought about never telling you but because I love you and I hope you will support me I want to tell you how my life will change April 25th and why.
My name is _______ and I suffer from the disease of Morbid Obesity. Yes, morbid meaning if I don’t lose weight I will most likely die of a complication due to my excess pounds. I have been overweight my entire life. All I want is one chance at a normal body and there is nothing in this world that would allow me to ever gain this death that surrounds my bones again.
The thought of some people is how can you call fat a disease? Well heavy smokers call it lung cancer and there are a host of other diseases that we, in some ways, inflict on ourselves… but that doesn’t mean you shouldn’t have surgeries and get treatments for it. Almost 9 months ago I woke up and couldn’t walk because of my knee. This lasted for about 3 days. After going to my knee doctor he said I needed to either get a knee replacement or suggested I consider bariatric surgery. After meeting with my primary care doctor, a nutritionist, a bariatric surgeon, and a psychiatrist I decided I would start the 6 month process.
The never-ending pain in my knees, ankles and feet and arising health issues made me start the education process in August. However, it was the tumor on my pituitary gland that may be the culprit of my headaches and inability to lose weight that made me sign of the dotted line.
It took me 13 years of dieting for me to realize that I am not going to lose this weight alone. I yo-yo and end up gaining instead of losing pounds. Changing the way I eat and exercise alone will not allow me to lose the weight I need to. So, no, I am not getting gastric bypass or lap-band but rather a Sleeve Gastrectomy. This surgery will cut off the wildly overstretched part of my stomach and make it smaller and therefore also remove the gherelin. Although I will lose weight… it’s up to me how much and if I will maintain it.
Some may wonder why I would want to get the surgery since I am "not that fat" according to the black community or "still sexy" according to myself and others. But let's be honest... I'm 26 years old and 245 pounds- and this is not my heaviest.
Losing weight is not just cosmetic for me. As a morbidly obese woman I have trouble walking because of the stress on my arthritic knee. I have Migraines. I have an irregular period. I have a lot of facial hair due to the hormones produced from being obese. My pants often dig into my stomach to the point I become light headed... and this is when I wear my size but my stomach protrudes immensely. I break chairs, beds, and hammocks. I feel embarrassed to dance because I am jiggling in the wrong places (lol). I laugh at my pain and exude an overconfidence to cover up my inner insecurities. I have been able to fit my mother’s hand-me-downs since I was 11. I’m tired of being ((insert compliment here)) for a fat girl. I also am tired of facing the discrimination that I get in the world for being a big black woman. I want to live a life that isn’t suffocated by layers of fat and cellulose. I want to walk without getting out of breath and being in pain. I want to be carried over the threshold. And most of all… I don’t want to die.
So, please if you love me… don’t discredit my efforts by telling the world about my personal decision to have surgery. This is only between me and very few people I am sharing this with. Please support me and be there for me while I continue with this journey. A year from now I will be about 150 pounds and healthy… see you on the losers bench J
http://www.endocrineweb.com/conditions/pituitary-tumors/pituitary-tumor-symptoms

I am sending the this link to my family that I have not told. But all of you in the VST are welcome to read my story.

This picture was taken last week.

Before it’s too late


Dear family,
I hope that you won’t consider me a cheater, talk behind my back, and tell everybody. I hope that you will instead congratulate my hard work that will come from exercising, dietary changes, and commitment to a healthier me. To be honest I thought about never telling you but because I love you and I hope you will support me I want to tell you how my life will change April 25th and why.
My name is _______ and I suffer from the disease of Morbid Obesity. Yes, morbid meaning if I don’t lose weight I will most likely die of a complication due to my excess pounds. I have been overweight my entire life. All I want is one chance at a normal body and there is nothing in this world that would allow me to ever gain this death that surrounds my bones again.
The thought of some people is how can you call fat a disease? Well heavy smokers call it lung cancer and there are a host of other diseases that we, in some ways, inflict on ourselves… but that doesn’t mean you shouldn’t have surgeries and get treatments for it. Almost 9 months ago I woke up and couldn’t walk because of my knee. This lasted for about 3 days. After going to my knee doctor he said I needed to either get a knee replacement or suggested I consider bariatric surgery. After meeting with my primary care doctor, a nutritionist, a bariatric surgeon, and a psychiatrist I decided I would start the 6 month process.
The never-ending pain in my knees, ankles and feet and arising health issues made me start the education process in August. However, it was the tumor on my pituitary gland that may be the culprit of my headaches and inability to lose weight that made me sign of the dotted line.
It took me 13 years of dieting for me to realize that I am not going to lose this weight alone. I yo-yo and end up gaining instead of losing pounds. Changing the way I eat and exercise alone will not allow me to lose the weight I need to. So, no, I am not getting gastric bypass or lap-band but rather a Sleeve Gastrectomy. This surgery will cut off the wildly overstretched part of my stomach and make it smaller and therefore also remove the gherelin. Although I will lose weight… it’s up to me how much and if I will maintain it.
Some may wonder why I would want to get the surgery since I am "not that fat" according to the black community or "still sexy" according to myself and others. But let's be honest... I'm 26 years old and 245 pounds- and this is not my heaviest.
Losing weight is not just cosmetic for me. As a morbidly obese woman I have trouble walking because of the stress on my arthritic knee. I have Migraines. I have an irregular period. I have a lot of facial hair due to the hormones produced from being obese. My pants often dig into my stomach to the point I become light headed... and this is when I wear my size but my stomach protrudes immensely. I break chairs, beds, and hammocks. I feel embarrassed to dance because I am jiggling in the wrong places (lol). I laugh at my pain and exude an overconfidence to cover up my inner insecurities. I have been able to fit my mother’s hand-me-downs since I was 11. I’m tired of being ((insert compliment here)) for a fat girl. I also am tired of facing the discrimination that I get in the world for being a big black woman. I want to live a life that isn’t suffocated by layers of fat and cellulose. I want to walk without getting out of breath and being in pain. I want to be carried over the threshold. And most of all… I don’t want to die.
So, please if you love me… don’t discredit my efforts by telling the world about my personal decision to have surgery. This is only between me and very few people I am sharing this with. Please support me and be there for me while I continue with this journey. A year from now I will be about 150 pounds and healthy… see you on the losers bench J
http://www.endocrineweb.com/conditions/pituitary-tumors/pituitary-tumor-symptoms

I am sending the this link to my family that I have not told. But all of you in the VST are welcome to read my story.

This picture was taken last week.

Before it’s too late


Dear family,
I hope that you won’t consider me a cheater, talk behind my back, and tell everybody. I hope that you will instead congratulate my hard work that will come from exercising, dietary changes, and commitment to a healthier me. To be honest I thought about never telling you but because I love you and I hope you will support me I want to tell you how my life will change April 25th and why.
My name is _______ and I suffer from the disease of Morbid Obesity. Yes, morbid meaning if I don’t lose weight I will most likely die of a complication due to my excess pounds. I have been overweight my entire life. All I want is one chance at a normal body and there is nothing in this world that would allow me to ever gain this death that surrounds my bones again.
The thought of some people is how can you call fat a disease? Well heavy smokers call it lung cancer and there are a host of other diseases that we, in some ways, inflict on ourselves… but that doesn’t mean you shouldn’t have surgeries and get treatments for it. Almost 9 months ago I woke up and couldn’t walk because of my knee. This lasted for about 3 days. After going to my knee doctor he said I needed to either get a knee replacement or suggested I consider bariatric surgery. After meeting with my primary care doctor, a nutritionist, a bariatric surgeon, and a psychiatrist I decided I would start the 6 month process.
The never-ending pain in my knees, ankles and feet and arising health issues made me start the education process in August. However, it was the tumor on my pituitary gland that may be the culprit of my headaches and inability to lose weight that made me sign of the dotted line.
It took me 13 years of dieting for me to realize that I am not going to lose this weight alone. I yo-yo and end up gaining instead of losing pounds. Changing the way I eat and exercise alone will not allow me to lose the weight I need to. So, no, I am not getting gastric bypass or lap-band but rather a Sleeve Gastrectomy. This surgery will cut off the wildly overstretched part of my stomach and make it smaller and therefore also remove the gherelin. Although I will lose weight… it’s up to me how much and if I will maintain it.
Some may wonder why I would want to get the surgery since I am "not that fat" according to the black community or "still sexy" according to myself and others. But let's be honest... I'm 26 years old and 245 pounds- and this is not my heaviest.
Losing weight is not just cosmetic for me. As a morbidly obese woman I have trouble walking because of the stress on my arthritic knee. I have Migraines. I have an irregular period. I have a lot of facial hair due to the hormones produced from being obese. My pants often dig into my stomach to the point I become light headed... and this is when I wear my size but my stomach protrudes immensely. I break chairs, beds, and hammocks. I feel embarrassed to dance because I am jiggling in the wrong places (lol). I laugh at my pain and exude an overconfidence to cover up my inner insecurities. I have been able to fit my mother’s hand-me-downs since I was 11. I’m tired of being ((insert compliment here)) for a fat girl. I also am tired of facing the discrimination that I get in the world for being a big black woman. I want to live a life that isn’t suffocated by layers of fat and cellulose. I want to walk without getting out of breath and being in pain. I want to be carried over the threshold. And most of all… I don’t want to die.
So, please if you love me… don’t discredit my efforts by telling the world about my personal decision to have surgery. This is only between me and very few people I am sharing this with. Please support me and be there for me while I continue with this journey. A year from now I will be about 150 pounds and healthy… see you on the losers bench J
http://www.endocrineweb.com/conditions/pituitary-tumors/pituitary-tumor-symptoms

I am sending the this link to my family that I have not told. But all of you in the VST are welcome to read my story.

This picture was taken last week.

Before it’s too late


Dear family,
I hope that you won’t consider me a cheater, talk behind my back, and tell everybody. I hope that you will instead congratulate my hard work that will come from exercising, dietary changes, and commitment to a healthier me. To be honest I thought about never telling you but because I love you and I hope you will support me I want to tell you how my life will change April 25th and why.
My name is _______ and I suffer from the disease of Morbid Obesity. Yes, morbid meaning if I don’t lose weight I will most likely die of a complication due to my excess pounds. I have been overweight my entire life. All I want is one chance at a normal body and there is nothing in this world that would allow me to ever gain this death that surrounds my bones again.
The thought of some people is how can you call fat a disease? Well heavy smokers call it lung cancer and there are a host of other diseases that we, in some ways, inflict on ourselves… but that doesn’t mean you shouldn’t have surgeries and get treatments for it. Almost 9 months ago I woke up and couldn’t walk because of my knee. This lasted for about 3 days. After going to my knee doctor he said I needed to either get a knee replacement or suggested I consider bariatric surgery. After meeting with my primary care doctor, a nutritionist, a bariatric surgeon, and a psychiatrist I decided I would start the 6 month process.
The never-ending pain in my knees, ankles and feet and arising health issues made me start the education process in August. However, it was the tumor on my pituitary gland that may be the culprit of my headaches and inability to lose weight that made me sign of the dotted line.
It took me 13 years of dieting for me to realize that I am not going to lose this weight alone. I yo-yo and end up gaining instead of losing pounds. Changing the way I eat and exercise alone will not allow me to lose the weight I need to. So, no, I am not getting gastric bypass or lap-band but rather a Sleeve Gastrectomy. This surgery will cut off the wildly overstretched part of my stomach and make it smaller and therefore also remove the gherelin. Although I will lose weight… it’s up to me how much and if I will maintain it.
Some may wonder why I would want to get the surgery since I am "not that fat" according to the black community or "still sexy" according to myself and others. But let's be honest... I'm 26 years old and 245 pounds- and this is not my heaviest.
Losing weight is not just cosmetic for me. As a morbidly obese woman I have trouble walking because of the stress on my arthritic knee. I have Migraines. I have an irregular period. I have a lot of facial hair due to the hormones produced from being obese. My pants often dig into my stomach to the point I become light headed... and this is when I wear my size but my stomach protrudes immensely. I break chairs, beds, and hammocks. I feel embarrassed to dance because I am jiggling in the wrong places (lol). I laugh at my pain and exude an overconfidence to cover up my inner insecurities. I have been able to fit my mother’s hand-me-downs since I was 11. I’m tired of being ((insert compliment here)) for a fat girl. I also am tired of facing the discrimination that I get in the world for being a big black woman. I want to live a life that isn’t suffocated by layers of fat and cellulose. I want to walk without getting out of breath and being in pain. I want to be carried over the threshold. And most of all… I don’t want to die.
So, please if you love me… don’t discredit my efforts by telling the world about my personal decision to have surgery. This is only between me and very few people I am sharing this with. Please support me and be there for me while I continue with this journey. A year from now I will be about 150 pounds and healthy… see you on the losers bench J
http://www.endocrineweb.com/conditions/pituitary-tumors/pituitary-tumor-symptoms

I am sending the this link to my family that I have not told. But all of you in the VST are welcome to read my story.

This picture was taken last week.

Before it’s too late


Dear family,
I hope that you won’t consider me a cheater, talk behind my back, and tell everybody. I hope that you will instead congratulate my hard work that will come from exercising, dietary changes, and commitment to a healthier me. To be honest I thought about never telling you but because I love you and I hope you will support me I want to tell you how my life will change April 25th and why.
My name is _______ and I suffer from the disease of Morbid Obesity. Yes, morbid meaning if I don’t lose weight I will most likely die of a complication due to my excess pounds. I have been overweight my entire life. All I want is one chance at a normal body and there is nothing in this world that would allow me to ever gain this death that surrounds my bones again.
The thought of some people is how can you call fat a disease? Well heavy smokers call it lung cancer and there are a host of other diseases that we, in some ways, inflict on ourselves… but that doesn’t mean you shouldn’t have surgeries and get treatments for it. Almost 9 months ago I woke up and couldn’t walk because of my knee. This lasted for about 3 days. After going to my knee doctor he said I needed to either get a knee replacement or suggested I consider bariatric surgery. After meeting with my primary care doctor, a nutritionist, a bariatric surgeon, and a psychiatrist I decided I would start the 6 month process.
The never-ending pain in my knees, ankles and feet and arising health issues made me start the education process in August. However, it was the tumor on my pituitary gland that may be the culprit of my headaches and inability to lose weight that made me sign of the dotted line.
It took me 13 years of dieting for me to realize that I am not going to lose this weight alone. I yo-yo and end up gaining instead of losing pounds. Changing the way I eat and exercise alone will not allow me to lose the weight I need to. So, no, I am not getting gastric bypass or lap-band but rather a Sleeve Gastrectomy. This surgery will cut off the wildly overstretched part of my stomach and make it smaller and therefore also remove the gherelin. Although I will lose weight… it’s up to me how much and if I will maintain it.
Some may wonder why I would want to get the surgery since I am "not that fat" according to the black community or "still sexy" according to myself and others. But let's be honest... I'm 26 years old and 245 pounds- and this is not my heaviest.
Losing weight is not just cosmetic for me. As a morbidly obese woman I have trouble walking because of the stress on my arthritic knee. I have Migraines. I have an irregular period. I have a lot of facial hair due to the hormones produced from being obese. My pants often dig into my stomach to the point I become light headed... and this is when I wear my size but my stomach protrudes immensely. I break chairs, beds, and hammocks. I feel embarrassed to dance because I am jiggling in the wrong places (lol). I laugh at my pain and exude an overconfidence to cover up my inner insecurities. I have been able to fit my mother’s hand-me-downs since I was 11. I’m tired of being ((insert compliment here)) for a fat girl. I also am tired of facing the discrimination that I get in the world for being a big black woman. I want to live a life that isn’t suffocated by layers of fat and cellulose. I want to walk without getting out of breath and being in pain. I want to be carried over the threshold. And most of all… I don’t want to die.
So, please if you love me… don’t discredit my efforts by telling the world about my personal decision to have surgery. This is only between me and very few people I am sharing this with. Please support me and be there for me while I continue with this journey. A year from now I will be about 150 pounds and healthy… see you on the losers bench J
http://www.endocrineweb.com/conditions/pituitary-tumors/pituitary-tumor-symptoms

I am sending the this link to my family that I have not told. But all of you in the VST are welcome to read my story.

This picture was taken last week.

Before it’s too late


Dear family,
I hope that you won’t consider me a cheater, talk behind my back, and tell everybody. I hope that you will instead congratulate my hard work that will come from exercising, dietary changes, and commitment to a healthier me. To be honest I thought about never telling you but because I love you and I hope you will support me I want to tell you how my life will change April 25th and why.
My name is _______ and I suffer from the disease of Morbid Obesity. Yes, morbid meaning if I don’t lose weight I will most likely die of a complication due to my excess pounds. I have been overweight my entire life. All I want is one chance at a normal body and there is nothing in this world that would allow me to ever gain this death that surrounds my bones again.
The thought of some people is how can you call fat a disease? Well heavy smokers call it lung cancer and there are a host of other diseases that we, in some ways, inflict on ourselves… but that doesn’t mean you shouldn’t have surgeries and get treatments for it. Almost 9 months ago I woke up and couldn’t walk because of my knee. This lasted for about 3 days. After going to my knee doctor he said I needed to either get a knee replacement or suggested I consider bariatric surgery. After meeting with my primary care doctor, a nutritionist, a bariatric surgeon, and a psychiatrist I decided I would start the 6 month process.
The never-ending pain in my knees, ankles and feet and arising health issues made me start the education process in August. However, it was the tumor on my pituitary gland that may be the culprit of my headaches and inability to lose weight that made me sign of the dotted line.
It took me 13 years of dieting for me to realize that I am not going to lose this weight alone. I yo-yo and end up gaining instead of losing pounds. Changing the way I eat and exercise alone will not allow me to lose the weight I need to. So, no, I am not getting gastric bypass or lap-band but rather a Sleeve Gastrectomy. This surgery will cut off the wildly overstretched part of my stomach and make it smaller and therefore also remove the gherelin. Although I will lose weight… it’s up to me how much and if I will maintain it.
Some may wonder why I would want to get the surgery since I am "not that fat" according to the black community or "still sexy" according to myself and others. But let's be honest... I'm 26 years old and 245 pounds- and this is not my heaviest.
Losing weight is not just cosmetic for me. As a morbidly obese woman I have trouble walking because of the stress on my arthritic knee. I have Migraines. I have an irregular period. I have a lot of facial hair due to the hormones produced from being obese. My pants often dig into my stomach to the point I become light headed... and this is when I wear my size but my stomach protrudes immensely. I break chairs, beds, and hammocks. I feel embarrassed to dance because I am jiggling in the wrong places (lol). I laugh at my pain and exude an overconfidence to cover up my inner insecurities. I have been able to fit my mother’s hand-me-downs since I was 11. I’m tired of being ((insert compliment here)) for a fat girl. I also am tired of facing the discrimination that I get in the world for being a big black woman. I want to live a life that isn’t suffocated by layers of fat and cellulose. I want to walk without getting out of breath and being in pain. I want to be carried over the threshold. And most of all… I don’t want to die.
So, please if you love me… don’t discredit my efforts by telling the world about my personal decision to have surgery. This is only between me and very few people I am sharing this with. Please support me and be there for me while I continue with this journey. A year from now I will be about 150 pounds and healthy… see you on the losers bench J
http://www.endocrineweb.com/conditions/pituitary-tumors/pituitary-tumor-symptoms

Please tell me how it goes! I am going in april 25th! I'm so scared!

That is terrible! I went through the same scare at the beginning of the year thinking I wasn't going to be covered. I know it must have really sucked to be in this position after that much work. I hopw that you find a way to get the money up soon. Honestly, if I were you I'd get the loan and get it over with already.

I hope you feel better as well. Hopefully the pain will end soon and the pound shedding and energy will come!
Thanks for being real about the pain. I don't want to be surprised later.

I have been through every emotion in the past 8 months when I started getting ready for this surgery. The only thing that has remained is the fact that I think for the most part I have very positve self image. I already think I am like one of the sexiest people on earth. lol. Well maybe not on Earth- but I think I have a curvacious body and I am afraid I will not like the skinny me.
I do think my husband will love me either way... but besides health and sometimes feeling like the fat girl I am really scared I will hate a me that is smaller than a size 12. I mean honestly I may be 244 pounds in a very TIGHT size18 and probably will only get back heavier like I was before... but atleast my skin is tight and I look healthy. WIll I look sick with loose skin flapping all around? Will my long beautiful hair think out and lack luster? ((sigh))
SORRY I know I am going on and on... but is anybody in the same boat?

Ah the joys of surgery. You look amazing though! I hope I look that great the next day!

Congrats to you, you're a SLEEVER now! :-D