Jennifur

Well, I'm up. I feel like I just went to bed. YUCK I have started bringing food to the pizza shop with me. I find it is better if I'm going to pick if I have stuff I can eat. and this tom is bad, I actually made a pizza out of a pita last night 45cal whole grain crust, lots of sauce and a little cheese and onions. It was different but the first time I had an actual slice of pizza. So my hair is still falling out. Not as bad but it is, and today for the first time i noticed how thin it is getting. Anyone else still having hair problems? Today was measurement day. The numbers may be slowing down, but... 46 inches lost!!! have a great day all

TracyK - you are blowing me away - I need to get my butt in gear to catch up. What have you been doing? I've been stuck. When TOM is gone I'm doing a 3 day liquid diet like post fill, I'm still not eating lots so it should be easy. Anyway. tomorrow is a huge day, shopping with dad and all older granddaughters and then taking ds to a church baseball game. going to be a busy day off.

Wow - the Violets are AMAZING as usual. congrats JUDY!!!!!!!

Wow, what a great weekend for everyone!!!! Sara - you are absutley stunning TracyK - congrats on the panties. LOL Michelle - 20mins is not bad. I couldn't or wouldn't do 2 miles on a bike. Terry - I can't wait to see them! SO as for me>...TOM is here this am, man, I could have killed someone at work last night, but on a happy note, I was only 218 this am, which considering I usually gain 5lbs easy, I am very impressed. I think I have things under control a bit. Last night I was crazy, I was looking for something to wear because I went out after work...and I found a formal dress I wore 7 years ago to a formal holiday party. OMG, It was actually big on me!!!!!!!! and the little black dress I worked so hard to wear for DBF's military promotion dinner 5 years ago when I thought I looked way great... gettin big. It was a size 18 but I had it altered when I bought it, a 16 was tight in my belly so I got the 18 and had it fixed to fit me. What a great feeling - all this with PMS bloat. LOL As for my night out. the other guy who has been wanting to go out with me forever went out to a bachelor party last night an then went out, so i went out with him at midnight. He lives about 30 minutes away from me. there is a river that seperates us and it is funny, people rarely cross the river to party. Anyway I actually had a good time. I had my first real drink or 2. I was wasted!!!!! They were the small rocks glasses and I had Orange Vodka and cranberry. The only way they could have been better would be if they had CranRasp jucie LOL. I can say this.... as he is a very nice person, and has kissed me before... he is not a good kisser after a drink or 2.....or maybe it was just me. Anyway, had a great time either way. Crazy neighbor/old very good friend who thinks I did her wrong by caring for myself.... remember her... well yesterday when i was leaving for work, she pulled in, and her sister came up behind her and stopped in the middle of the road to tell me how great I looked, we talked for a quick minute because I was late but she was very impressed. She asked me if I saw it yet. Funny because I don't see it at all sometimes, ok most of the time...and the sister, just stood in her driveway looking at me like i was shit..... not my loss at this point, but I do miss her Step mom's friend has been telling me how great I look, and when I was grocery shopping with mom, we ran into this lady, I introduced her to my mom and she told my mom she was my biggest fan. At least I'm learning to say thank you.... and hope I can see it some day soon. I know blah blah blah... I am a basket case... don't know if there is any hope for me, but i had to share TracyKS- 9500... hmmmmmmmmmmmmm... that is a tax return check for me..... LOL I would do tt and arms. I did notice the other day my arms are beginning to show muscle and as they are, I am beginning to see more sagging below.

Denise - they are right...... but hey when you figure it out would you please fill me in... I know I need to get there too. I get compliments up the but and I just can't see it. I have actually had on my Levi's 2 times this week. I remember how hard it was for me to get to the point in my life that I could fit into regular size and they looked good. Well 4 months ago, i could not get them over my hips, now they fit more comfortably than when I bought them, but I just can't stop seeing myself as a "skinny thinker" I am going to take a shower and get changed for work, just got back from a shopping trip with my aunt and mom took the kids shopping. So nice and quiet, and clean in the house. what a nice feeling. Have a great day everyone. OH JUDY - it is that cold here today too. It is suppose to warm back up to mid 80's this week after this crazy front goes through, but it feels like late sept here. How sad.

Oh Theresa........ I LOVE DD carmel latte x shot of expresso and skim milk... you know what is better....... Starbucks ice carmel machiato (sp) OMG to die for. they are expensive so a treat. I mailed my resume out, had lunch, got home just in time for my ds's speech therapy session and then to work in an hour. what a day TracyKS - not going to take mail room job, 9>75/hr, WTF who can live on that????????????? SO NICE TO HAVE YOU BACK

Hi all I don't want to know my BF% because I already know... it is not pretty I did another workout, I feel so much better, I don't think it is good for me when I take too many days off. Off to get my resume printed... then work.. fun fun hope you all are having a great day

Morning violets well I survived the gym yesterday - and getting ready to go again today. My foot is killing me from squeezing it in my shoes but other than that it felt great. TracyK - Yup... my turn too, I'm staying away from the scale too, I was still 217 today but I'm sure that is going to change. I took measurements this morning and have not logged them, I am about at a 44inch loss since april. Who can complain there. My mom and I had a nice night last night, the first one where we just hung out since she moved back to NY. We rented Music & Lyrics. It was a very cute movie. Well I guess now that I think about it I can laugh a little, but I guess it makes more sense that I was hyperventelating the other day... ya know with TOM and all. it is funny because I notice that I am not needing as much sleep and that it more regulated and I am much more emotional as I loose weight. well ... off to the gym and to apply for a few jobs.......

Michelle I think we are in the same place. I am so stuck weight wise. overall I'm feeling better but Inches and numbers have really slowed down... then add the rest of my issues. I know both of us will be ok... we are strong people. I need a break but can't afford a day off. so ... because of this.... I just got back from breakfast and stuffed all of it in me.... 2 eggs, a pc of sausage and some potatoes. Just what I need... fat ass

Morning all I have some catching up to do with the gym. I'm going to hit there this am - or try anyway. Well I have to deal with health insurance today, they never got my payment and I've been cancelled. Pray for me, I can't be without because then everything will pre exhisting and that will be bad. I don't really have the money at $10/hr to pay cobra but I just need to hold on. I was just telling my mom how absolutely frustrating all this is to me. I don't have enough money to survive and am spinning my mind. I try so hard to stay positive and know the right thing is out there for me, but it is not always easy. Anyway, I'm going to do a few cover letters today and have them printed - email and snail mail them to a few places. I am off today, up and going way too early, I COULDN'T SLEEP AT ALL LAST NIGHT. What is up with that. I had horrible dreams and woke up feeling sick to my stomach. IT IS GOING TO BE A GOOD DAY!!!!!!!IT REALLY IS!!!!!!!!!!!! I am going to breakfast with one of my good friends, maybe that will be just what I need

9.75/hr!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Yes the benefits would be great, but it would be 1 day 3-11 and could be anytime between 7-5 - if the pay was better I would say it is worth it, but why leave something i'm getting $10/ for something that is not any better?

morning all Sara - thank you. This is just such a trying time in my life, it is all suppose to be good. I am healthier, looking better, loosing weight... yet can't get a job, and took a huge huge huge pay cut. I try so hard to stay positive but sometimes it feels like the world is crashing around me. I do have my 2 beautiful children - albe to keep my house. I do have lots of blessings, I just want things to be better for us. Well, today is Walmart grocery shopping day with my aunt, that is always an adventure. I really do need the money but......... I am glad I have thursday off.

Hi gals - you all all awesome. I think that I am just at my wits end with everything and one little thing can just set me over the edge. Job market sucks, only offers are $10/hr. I was making $17 with bonus of 10-15k/yr on top of that... see the problem???? I'm burried in bills, I am going to have to give my bike back because I just can't afford it. I deal with dbf every day, and honestly, I knew he was going to be a grandfather... it was just the 1 thing that pushed me over the edge and I completely freaked. I feel like I can't get a job because I am a fat ass and a woman... 2 things against me... yes, i feel so much better about me but strangers just look at me as being fat, they don't know that I've lost 60lbs and how great I feel. It is all so depressing, and every day my mom tells me I can't work nights, how bad it is for me and everyone around me.... HELLO/////////I know this..... but I am doing all I can to get out!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AND THEN that is not good enough, I'm not looking in the right places, i'm not doing this or that.... oh I've done it all and still do it all. now I don't have any stinking health insurance and don't know what to do. and we wonder why I'm a basket case/????????? on a happy note, I don't have a clue how many cals I'm eating but I didn't gain an oz yesterday, i had 2 small salads today, 1 w/grilled chicken and the 2nd with chicken salad. yogurt with fiberone cereal in it and sun chips and a serving of 2% cheese melted on top. I'm still not eating that much which is good since my appt was cancelled today. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH... I just want to call in one thing to start making things better in my new life.

Terry, I remember that, and then I started working full time nights and everything around me got lost. I might have to order it tonight so i don't forget. thanks well, off to make my bed and tidy my room a bit before work.........now that i've balled my eyes out hyperventelating I feel a bit better.

i know girls, it is like an addiction. I so need to go to my head dr and my insurance was cancelled, i need to fix it if I can. I hope to get state insurance on Thursday and then I'll be good for sept 1 but i won't know until thursday. I am so insecure and with it all, i have never felt like i did this am, and i told him he will never make me feel like that again and still have me here. I would have never said that before. I need courage, strength and self confidence. well i'm going to clean my room, it is a mess, that is what happens when you get changed 6 times a day

well. what a way for self destruct mode. dbf just put me in my place. through all our issues he has never been mean to me. I guess there is a first time for everything. today is going to be a great day. NOT now that my heart truely feels broken...

Morning gals I slept like i was dead. Picnic went great, I ate way too much food, I had baked beans and lots of them, 2 small pcs of cake that had a pudding mixure & crushed pineapple as a topping and a small pc of chicken. I would eat a little and then go back for more when it settled. I feel like a total pig. Then I had a total jealous moment - dbf is a grandfather again from his adopted daughter - he spends more time with grandkids and not his own. it kills me. I think he knows how great our kids are and knows I am strong and take good care of them, the adopted kids are always in trouble, teen moms, pot heads, and drink heavily. maybe he is there so much because he feels like a failure - I don't know, but I just had a meltdown when it became a reality yesterday and had 2 margarita's. They were not even strong enough to make me completely happy. I'm afraid to get on the scale this am so i'm not, I'm going to do protein shakes for 3 days and then try it. TOM this week, I'm sure that is not helping either. Kat, the shooting star night sounds so nice. I'm sorry about your granddaughter, it breaks my heart when small children are that angry. I'm going to drink some coffee.... i need it

Just a quick check in... I am not all the way caught up but I was laughing. first WWJD???? I'm sure not have a bowl of ice cream for lunch... LOL Terry thank you for your prayers... I love the sun and heat. but it is hot out in my yard, no shade so i'm happy. Thanks for permission to take today off.... that means a lot coming from the gym nazi!!! omg i was just going to try to add a smilie... i usually don't go there... some of them are funny as heck.... and the full line of banannas... holy smokes... some of them look a little perverted... LMAO

Ok gals I'm up... how i don't know and I have a hug list of things I need to accomplish. I am still thinking about hitting the gym but i have running to do and setting up for the picnic. and I HAVE to go talk to the guy where i use to work. I am going to have a job this week, I know it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am so jealous of all you gals with the heat. It is usually like that here in August. It is only going to be 80 today and 70 on Friday.I am going to want to close the pool already. How sad. i hope you all have a great day, I'm sure i'll be checking in

hey hey hey all... I'm home from work, just painted my toes, brown with white butterflies today. They have been blue for so long I thought i would mix it up. LOL I have a super busy day tomorrow, hitting the gym, job stuff and then lots of people over. what fun Kat- you look so amazing... and so happy. what an inspiration you are. TracyK - see... told ya!!!!!!!!!!!!! well... off to bed... so very tired. oh ... pamela, so nice to have you back, can't wait for pics.

hello all well, I just updated my cardio. I always count Sat night at work - that is the only night. I am working 4 ovens, sweating my butt off, stretching and lifting. I also count lawn mowing which I just got done doing. 2hrs which included weed wacking. My gym counts lawn mowing and I log my sat night as general aerobics. I am sure I could count more time there but sat is the one I actually "work out" I am going to get ready for work - tomorrow is the co picnic here at my house. it is all so nice and clean, yard looks good, so happy, i got more done in the last 4 months than I have in the last 4 years. Thank you Band.... Judy - 4lbs. you are awesome. I am stuck, can't wait for a normal job so I can stop being bloated and working in the heat.

Kat - I would love to help, but that is something I think Terry or TracyKS would be good at. I am not good at the photo thing either> LOL I have one of those neighbors too... Sometimes I wonder how he does it. Anyway, we dated when I was at my worst so it is a little tease. no only kidding, he is married now - but I wear a tshirt until I get into the pool steps so no one sees me. I never had a muffin top and it is almost gone again and my bottoms cover the worst part, so i figure what is the difference if my upper belly is covered when I am alone? silly isn't it. . . I can't wait to the day where I don't HAVE to wear old lady bottoms ( I probably always will) or I can walk around out front with a top on. I use to be there. anyway, drinking my coffee ds let me sleep in, he watched toons in my room this am and let me sleep. dd is still passed out.

Hey all I'm going for ice cream lunch on Tues after my Dr. appt and I'll get my camera - actually maybe i'll pick it up tomorrow for the picnic. I usually wear my bathing suit in the back yard that only I can see. boy cut bottoms and bikini top but when people are around I have a halter tank top to wear, I will not post side view but maybe i'll post some. we will see. Kat - i hope you survived the day Michelle, nice to have you back. I don't like going in ocean deep because of things out there... but I love the beach, love walking in the waves, love the sounds.

Hey guys, thanks, you are so awesome, the time is coming. I have an appt on Tues but I know no fill for me. I am still only eating 3 small meals a day and not hungry and have lost 15lbs since my last appt 1 month ago. He is going to laugh at me. He usually does, I love to entertain people and more so now that I feel so great about myself. Anyway, I'm wearing a tank and my pooh boxers to work, it will be so nice to wear real clothes again You all enjoy the sun, i've been cleaning inside and cabinets all morning, no gym, but feel good about what I've done. I will go tomorrow and tuesday, there is no way i'm going to get there Monday with the job thing and having the picnic at noon. so much to do so little time LOL I wanted to hit the next level at the Y by the end of July. I FORGOT TO TELL YOU ALL... I DID IT, EARNED 6000 POINTS IN 1 MONTH!!!!!!!!! I am so thrilled, actually made the wall for most weight lifted for females - all ages so my goal for sept is to hit the list for that and cardio. it will be so much easier once I'm not working nights. Have a great day

Laura CONGRATS!!!!!!!!!! isn't that a great feeling. I put on a size 16 skirt yest that was one of my favorites. i'm going to post a pic. I looked awesome and that felt great... keep up the great work