Jennifur

Morning violets sorry about my obnoxious post last night. I was feeling great. LOL up and going to the gym... tomorrow is the first day of school here... YIPEE. the house to myself

Well ladies, just wanted to say goooooooooooooooooood night. today is the last day of my self destruct. I AM WASTED!!!!! had 2 margaritas, 1 at home I made, and then went to the bar at the bottom of the hill and had 1 drink with 3 shots of tequila, and I'm still typing. Tomorrow is the start of shake day and going back to the gym but first.............. i am goin to literally pass out, talk to you all tomorrow. hope you all had a great holiday and were better than i was did i mention how wasted i am......... not good... had extra tequila in 1 drink so i didn't have to many calories in the mix. that is sadd

Kat - that is just so horrible, but it sounds like Rick was worth the wait. there is hope for me yet. LOL TracyK- me, no prom, homecomming either.... i so regret that sometimes we went to drive ins last night, saw ratatulli (sp) it was actually really cute. my phone range early so i'm up, going to enjoy my last day and then shake central here i come! I have a horrible yeast infection which is just horribly uncomfortable - I have to go get some meds this morning, but since I'm running with no health ins, i pray it works..I've had much worse but this one is obnoxious, not getting worse or better, just hanging around.. I KNOW TMI... sorry I have super sensitive skin and changed laundry detergent (mom picked it up) and then i got this, i have ezma rashes popping out all over my body. I am ready to re wash all my stuff, even if one has nothing to do with the other - or does it. Uneventful Labor day planned for today, we are just going to hang out, may go apple picking, the orchard opened up on the 1st. going to shampoo carpets and move furniture. I hope everyone has a good day - off to breakfast with mom and the kids.

Terry - wow - you are such a strong person I can only blame myself for my self destruct, and I feel myself falling again. this is take control of my life, so that is what i'm going to do. I have been feeling sorry for myself again.. NO MORE. I am eating lunch and then going for a walk with ds and then i'm going to take the kids to the drive ins tonight. I feel trapped in my house and it is not a nice feeling - all my fiends are mostly married and are all off doing the family thing this holiday weekend - so pitty party me.

TracyK - Like I said, try fiberone cereal, you can have it in milk or in yogurt which is what I do. I also keep sunchips in the house for snacks, they help too. I actually make nachos out of them or eat them plain. I was more like Terry - I always thought I was fat and ugly - I was chubby but not horrible, I was 150 in HS then when grad up to 175 then back down to 145 and I worked hard for that. at 145 I was wearing a small/med and was so happy with myself. Growing up at those weights, I thought I was fat, in 1st grade, they made fun of me because i was chubby - then put on a little more... in grade school, they made fun of me and were so much meaner. when i went to hs, i changed districts. I always had boys interested in me, was engaged after hs, and found out my df had cheated on me, ok. he was in the navy and it happened... not to make excuses, he came back, begged me back, was done with his duty, wanted to take care of me and my unborn child, i said nope, was in love with dbf (yes same one as today) wonder why I have commitment isues. Anyway this guy, my bff, who was in love with me but had accepted where we were, killed himself 3 years ago this month - there was rumor it had to do with me. I gained a shitload of weight after that and with issues with dbf - I went from 220 to 278 in a matter of less than a year. I couldnt figure out why i was just such a mess this week and last night it hit me. ANNIVERSARY of his death - I always get sad but I AM NOT going to get into a funk. I am going to the cemetary today or tomorrow and have my talk with him and get my lazy ass up and get to the gym. I do go to the cemetary every 4-6 weeks and I think it is much closer to the 6 at this point. I miss him. wow i can't beleive all that came out. anyway, now i'm back down to 214 where i was before my son, and i was happy and confident then, but now i still feel like a complete fat ass. HOW FRUSTRATING btw - i fell back asleep right after my last post at 8:19 and just getting up about 1/2 hr ago

Morning violets Laura - Breakfast suggestions. hmmmmmmmmm..... I make a crustless quiche - you can put anything you want it in and is easty to take on the go. TracyK- you know I was having serious issues myself. I am now regular as long as I eat regular, but here is what I did that helped. (fibersure didn't work for me either) found some whole grain pita's 45 cals and lots of Fiber have a yogurt and add fiberone cereal to it every morning have at least 1 salad a day and when all else fails, which i doesn't seem to, i have some cherry essence prunes, only need 3 or 4 and i'm working. I hope those suggestions help. Remember I was going weeks without going. I'm off to drink my coffee too. ds decided i needed to be up with him. I think i'm taking a nap today

Gina - so nice to see you again. Wow - I have been on self destruct mode this week, I pb'd slime and all on a chicken wing tonight... I am officially done. Protein shakes starting tomorrow for a week then get myself on a schedule. I hope everone has a great night. I was going to go out after work but guess not. I'm going to have myself a little drink and off to bed.

Laura - Pamela (Kity) post are out there. Maybe that is why you are missing it, we are calling her by name

Morning all OMG went to bed at 2am and my neighbor was pounding on my door at 8;30. He borrowed $70 I didn't have the other day (a true friend who needed help and I had it in my hand at the minute) and wanted to return it before he spent it. I'm glad because it was my cell phone money that is now late - but he has been there for me, so i'm very glad I could help, but at the same time glad i can run and pay my bill. I am NOT glad I'm awake - i'm so bloated. I am glad school next week, I can get into a regular eating habit and regular gym schedule. Nothing big planned for the weekend - going to relax. having a very emotional week and i don't think that is helping the diet. I have not made 1 good choce this week. oh well today is another day. well going to drink coffee...going to be a longggggggg day. Today is the first football game, my dd cheers. then doing a 9 hr shift and working on the ovens tonight. at least it cooled off.

MOJO passed. I think you all already got it, I stopped and everyone else is doing great. Sunday is the first...EVERYONE UPDATE THEIR EXERCISE CHALLANGE. School is on again, so life gets back to normal - which i so need. I've turned into a lazy slug the last 2 weeks

Yes, -18 but don't worry, I will be stuck until the next big drop. LOL well off to clean my room and shower for work. Friday is my long day

Morning violets TracyK - I lost 14 of it right after my fill and kept it off, another 4 on protein shake week after I gained back a few. I had a bad week this week. Mine goes in spurts too, i lose then do a great job of maintaining, the lose and maintain... at least it is staying off!!!!!!! I don't know what happened in August but I failed my exercise challange and by a lot, last month I exceeded, does that make up for it? LOL I have changed my august challange - I am going to get my butt out of bed every day with my dd when she goes to school, drop ds off at the sitter and go to aerobics. I have to ... time to boost this loss to hit my next goal... then ONEDERLAND HERE I COME!!!!! I was going to go today but realistically - I am going to start the week off right. TracyKS & Kat - Have a great time on your rally this weekend...i'm jealous. I have so many friends who camp I was thinking about picking up a used camper - cheap mini vacations. right now i'm so tapped it wouldn't matter - which sucks because I found a nice big self contained one for $1500, but... that is a mtg payment & car & motorcycle payment so you know what is not going to happen right now I bet Judy is having a great time, Hey Terry - did I mention how much I love my bracelet and wear it every day!!!!! you are so awesome Pamela - I hope your fill goes ok this morning, thinking about you everyone else i missed. MORNING!!!!!!!!

I've slowed down. I did lose 18 in August, but it was all quick and then nothing. Back to water aeorbics - if i'm not going to have a job, i might as well go to the gym like it is my job. 3 days a week i'm doing a dbl with water aerobics and 3 days a week weights. I need to get my ass in gear to kick it up to be down more. I'm no longer happy wearing the old clothes, I want new ones1!!!! TracyKS - sorry TOM is here in time for a quality alone time weekend Wow!!! #3 that says we are pretty darn special!!!

OMG Laura that is horrible - you should stop those pills, maybe loosing weight would regulate a bit more but obviously how is that going to happen on those pills??? what a mess!!!!!!!!!!1 off to work, ate breakfast and went back to bed. i'm getting in a funk and it is not a good one

Haydee - how long are you going to NY for? Maybe I'll come meet you for lunch or something while you are here? I would love to meet a fellow violet. Terry - I agree. I use to be even harder on myself than I am now, but I have been setting goals and if I don't make it, as long as I'm moving in the right direction I'm happy. that is huge for me. As long as i get there I'm good. Like my -75lb goal. I'll get there ... slow and steady

TracyKS - is that why that strange dent is there? I had that shortly after surgery and is just starting to go away Michelle - honelstly honey, they don't care in traffic court. Plea not guilty they will slap you on the hand, give you a fine and move on. they just want your money. (that is how it works here) CALL YOUR LOCAL LEGISLATOR!!!! Find out what you need to do to get something done about that spot and the right way to fight that fight, but traffic court is not it. I promise you that. I use to be there on a monthly basis. anyway, not weighing myself until tuesday, i only ate a small plate (child size) but dad came to work last night and cooked me and my step mom steak, mashed potatoes and summer squash. YUMMY Kat I'm cracking up.. let them go to pull out the wrinkles...

thanks tracy, I needed a good laugh... I have always had the opposite problem... well off to the sweat shop for the night..... Maybe I'll get my hair colored tomorrow... mood booster

I want to have the fat removed from my belly and moved to my boobs.... there is nothing to lift...LOL

Tracy - thanks girlfriend. I don't need anyone to beat me up, I am hard enough on myself. I know this I think that is the rest. I don't have a penny to my name at the moment. I have not left my house in days because I don't have money and have enough gas to get me to payday so I am not going anywhere - i have clothes that fit me and the only thing I wear are boxers and tank tops to work. As for bras... LOL that is depressing ... my boobs have shrunk this too shall pass... I might see about going out this weekend

Michelle - I am having the same kind of day, very frustrated with cheerleading and everything going on with that. I called the head coach this morning to try to get a grip on what is happening and how I felt that I could not even go to practice. I do feel better about that talking to her, but very very sad this week. I don't know what my problem is. I have been picking all day. at least high protein, had 4 slices of turkey bacon and 3 chicken tenders today. not the best choices. how do i get out of this funk? I think I'm honestly sad because I feel more changes going on, it is almost like good bye to another bad but comfortable part of my fat ass life.

wooooooohoooooooooooo Terry!!!! That is great no gain with not smoking!

Morning gals Unfortunately I'm up... Have not been sleeping great and just so tired, I can't seem to go to bed before 1 lately and have to get up with the kids. man, it is going to really suck next week when dd has to go back to school, she catches the bus at 6:50am!!! I am bouncing today, but it was hot last night and I wore my real shoes and my feet are so swollen. my stupid foot is really in bad shape, but since fall is around the corner I'm trying to get it in a shoe, can't wear flip flops forever. Tracy - you will be in those jeans... man a size 14... I can't remember when I last wore that size, let alone a 12. Terry - ok I failed my exercise challange this month. how sad last month I exceeded this month i suck. Next month back to normal. I'm going to change my plan next month when schol is in. Hello everyone else. slow start today

That is great Tracy - I am sure you can hit the teens!!!!! I am hungry today - probably because of all the crap I ate last night and it was late, still 213 today, i broke down and had to check... so going to grab a shake and get ready for work!!!!! Hope you all have a grat afternoon

Judy it worked for me... great pics, and what a great family.

Kat - get your head checked out girlfriend....it is important....but I'm sure it is allergy stuff, I've had a killer sinus headaches the past week and I have not had ones like that in a couple of years. Laura. I designed my tramp stamp too. Have fun at the concert, they are going to be here in Sept or Oct. Puddle of Mud is coming here at this local hall/bar, tickets are only 20, that is in my budget right now. LOL