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good Morning all I had thoughts but I lost them. Kat - you are right, this is healing and helping me seperate the before and after, and does feel like I'm dealing with death. But when all is said and done I will be a better person Tracy how are ya? Suzanne - nice here too, cooking on the grill sounds like a good possibility today I didn't get an email from Laura, I must totally suck.. LOL (JK) well, off to shower, drain is finally fixed and dry and ready to use. YIPEE

Good Morning all Suzanne it is going to be near 80 here friday and saturday, I am so excited! Hi Tracy - when you coming to visit me? :thumbup: we need each other! Kat - I'm glad FIL is going to be a simple fix and not cancer Michelle - friend me? LOL I have my spring fling in 25 days so I have decided that I am going to focus all my energy on that - which is good, but is also part of my sad days. Kev was retired Seabee and it brings up a lot of memories but at the same time is helping me understand a lot and have closure Ok got to run, dad is on his way

hello all how goes it What a great dream Tracy, wish I was there I don't know why i'm torturing myself with these books. I am on my 2nd book by Nicholas Sparks, all I can say is that this one hits home in many ways too. I have done nothing buy cry, but on a happy note, helping me to do more soul searching and trying so hard to have a life for me. I am angry and sad. Everytime I think I'm ok I'm not. I am so angry at Kev for what he did to me, he kept me from being happy because he didn't want anyone else to have me and now I'm so screwed up I don't know what is right or what is wrong anymore. I just know I don't feel worth much of anything anyway - i guess good will come out of this when I clear my soul, I'll be free to be happy off to put dylan in the tub, finish my book and medicate so I can get some sleep, its been about 2 weeks with a couple hrs here and couple hrs there

good morning Tracy - look up slim shots on the internet, and ya know what sucks, i don't want to eat and can't lose a single ounce. working out for an hour a day and nothing $GH Kat - you mean i can't wish away my 25 lbs and have it go away? lOl i'm running late - catch ya'll later

Kat - that is funny, i love when kids are silly and just laugh forever what movie are you going to see? Alex and her friends went to see Alice... I have been writing a letter to Rachael Ray for the last 3 days, finally got it finished and sent it to the Pres of Patriot Hills, she has become a very close friend, and I wanted a 2nd pr of eyes before I sent it. RR is from the area that we are working to get this center built... and shoot, we got a personal letter from Michelle Obama so I'm sending one to RR! Well, I'm off to get some more info out, got our press release finished up and want to send it out.

morning all so quiet hope you are all well just did my hr on the elliptical and going to shower in a few.

hugs and kisses I second what Kat says... I'm in a funk too. Went out and got some slim shots today, they have worked for me in the past - I need to control the emotional eating. Defeats working out like a crazy person I am mentally and physical ehausted and think I'm going to soak in the tub and go to bed... I should clean my room - I have clothes everywhere and never made my bed today because I was going to flip my mattress but nope, none of it happened. i lost my thoughts, i'm so tired... i'll see ya all in the am

Good Morning Kat - that is just all crazy, your family is in my prayers! I'm in a funk, I am not horrible but slipping back. I have been having nightmares about kev for a couple weeks and its hard to explain, we were so close that we use to feel each other when we were apart and I would feel him in my sleep. It is starting agin and i don't know why - I don't want him in my head - out of my life. He is haunting me and I don't know how to make it stop I am going to shower and go to breakfast with my friend for her birthday, I'll hit the elliptical after lunch, it is freezing here! Hope you have a good day everyone -

Good Mornng all Suzanne - I don't know what is happening with job, I will not be on that site - that much I do know I wanted to check in and say hi, did 50 mins on elliptical and just had breakfast, going to shower and head to the army base... mmmmmmmmmmmmmm ya'll know how I love those military men, have to go doll myself up :confused: Hi Tracy :redface: It's Tuesday

morning all Job is not starting today, they would not let me on site because I didn't have enough experience for the site GC. It is BS and long story, but remember the Marine I dated... yea... he knew I'm family and is a bigshot on that site. I got my elliptical put together last night and I'm going to work out, raining here I'm glad court is over, it was a very emotionaly draining on Friday and I just cried, it was like the final goodbye but I can move on, free of him. I'll be back to read and catch up, i need to get moving before I get distracted

Good Morning all Kat - MIL and entire family is in my prayers - Tracy - thanks sister! I'm just quick checking in, I have family court wheich is going to be adjourned again for his disclosures, he is trying to completely screw me. I really don't like him at all and wish I didn't need his money, I'd walk away completely. It has been 60 and sunny all week so I have been busting my butt, walking my 6 miles a day and then doing my spring yard work, my body is killing me but it is almost done, have 1 corner of the yard left - so when I go back to work monday, i can enjoy my weekends and not have to do this hard work. Miss ya'll - off to get ds on the bus and shower for court. Give me strength - I'm going to need it after what he did to me, I can't even be in the same room with him at this point in my life

Good morning all just a quick check in, going to drink some coffee and head out for my last few morning walks. I'll have my elliptical and walk my butt off at my site, so i'll just walk on weekends. Kat - what a day... sign me up i'll get in trouble with you Tracy - how are ya sister? how nice i'll have money when you get here :wub: Suzanne - thanks for such kind words - and that makes for a long night, hope today is better. It is going to be 58-60 here all week, how nice right? Cindy, michelle - howdy

HI EVERYONE.... I'M BACK I had a fantastic Birthday - thank you for all your well wishes! Went this morning to the omputer shop and they plugged me in to a new cord and they had 1 in stock... so obviously you all see it worked. I am just flying by because I am getting ready to go back to work! I am going to be safety coordinator for a specific job site, will be there for 1-2 years and then will be moved to another site if I prove my worthiness, and it is with my brother-in-law so I will work extra hard to kick ass because of that! I have a safety class tomorrow, one on either thurs or next tuesday, and another on the 22nd and may 3... so I'll be busy and runing like crazy! BUT MY DREAM JOB! I'll continue to get my certs and next year can start taking state test for training instructor! go me! I'll be back to catch up later

Hi all I was having a hard time loGging in and now my dd plugged the broken cord into my computer and we threw the good one away. So tomorrow she is going to dig the bag of garbage out and find it So I just wanted to check in. Kat, rick and lee, Cindy. You all All in my prayers. Yes you all saw right 6 miles. I have a killer blister to prove it. Forgot to change into other shoes yesterday and of course ya'll know me I did the entire walk I wasn't quitting! I had mAjor PB eppisode today and now I'm having horrible gas pains. Yuck! Anyway Ill try to check in from my phone until. I get the charger. It is tiny writing and hard to type so small Hugs all

good morning my friends just got back in from my 6 mile walk, it was social hour so took me 2 hrs, but a nice morning... although my legs are killing me from stopping and going. Hope you all have a good day, it is beautiful out ther... spring has arrived Trying to eat as healthy as I can, but heck, its my bday and I slipped big time yesterday and know I get strawberry cake friday night my favorite

LOL that is funny! Slow and steady ... slow and steady

Morning all quick check in Tracy, that is why I spent 700 on one, because I had specific requirements so I felt safe, and that one is similar to the one I use at the Y... and on that happy note, I thought I was slacking last week building back up, well, I just did my 6 mile walk in 1hr 15mins where i was doing it every day and took me 1hr 45 mins.. GO ME Ok off for breakfast, shower and some running. more later

hello all just really sitting down for the first time in days. Been absolutely beautiful here, so went for a 5 mile walk yest and 2 today and went to the gym and did weights. Spent most of the day with the doors open to let some fresh air in and cleaned my back room and living rooms, I mean spring cleaned, moved furniture, cleaned windows, dusted, ya know the stuff you do in spring. I'm completely exhausted, going to give ds a bath and and then maybe take one myself and do the same. Itsn't this great Suzanne, maybe you will get a nice few days off and enjoy

ProForm Crosswalk 8.0 @ ProForm.com there is the monster. It is a good one. The Arc Trainer I really wanted was $2500 and that was not new! This is a close 2nd

Good Morning Suzanne ((hugs)) I second what Tracy said Kat - So glad Rick is coming home Michelle - what an awesome dog! SuzyT - how touching, brought happy tears to my eyes. When you have such good happy kids in your life you tend to forget there are kids out there that are really in bad places. Tracy - what you up to? How is Macy? I have not seen my friend, she has cheer competition this week so cancelled on me. I found a ranch I want to go to this summer or for a weekend, it is up north in the mountains, about 1 hr away, but is beautiful, kind of expensive for me but not really, they have a couples weekend no kids for $450, 2 nights, food, horseback riding and a bunch of other stuff. I didn't think that was horrible. I love horseback riding, have not done it in about 20 years, and was so huge was embarrassed to even ask if i could. Thurs, my sister gave me a $200 gift card for my bday. Between sisters and made me promise not to tell. I have been wanting western boots for a long long time and well $150 later, i got the best boots ever! I took the other $50 and went to old navy and got a bunch of cami's and a tshirt for st patty's day, and a skirt, $15! I just paid $30 for one wish i knew they were going to be on sale. Anyway, I got a size 10 non stretch thinking that I'll be able to wear it soon... I sucked it up and put it on.. Holy Crap it fit perfectly! I almost cried. I think i might go back and get a size 8 in one or 2 since I'm on my mission and I love them, $15 is a great price! I'll wear them all summer with a tank and flip flops or now with boots! I am listening to CMT, I love Zac Brown, man I wish I could go on the cruise in September. I might have to take a trip to PA to see them in Concert. I'm waiting for our summer concert schedule to come out then i'm planning a trip. Oh, So my mom gave me $1000 of her tax return because she felt horrible about mine, she is so nice like that. Anyway the only deal was I had to get the elliptical I was going to get because she knows I drive to the Y just for that. So last night I ordered it! I am painting my laundry room before it gets here so I won't have to move it to paint later. It will be perfect in there, enough room, I always keep an ac in there and it is not in the way. I'm putting a small, kitchen size tv on the wall in there and off I go. I've been to the gym every day this week and I'm going to go for a 2mile walk after I wake up and skip the gym. My right leg has had several huge purple baseball size bruises and for some reason the muscle around them is burning on the elliptical so I figured I'd walk the weekend for a break. Plus it is sunny and 45 out! OK enough ramble. Have a great day

Michelle, good luck with the dog. I am searching for a berenese mountain dog but not ready until the summer at least. ok i'm really off

Tracy - talk to the school. They way it works in NY, once school age services run with them. Call me?! too long to type but know what I have to do, when he was little it was county. School services are good, Dylan does speech 3 x's a week and was doing reading the same amount, and it is in groups of kids with needs so it doesn't isolate them. Dylan did summer speech with school too, and it is a service with school so unlike when he was county, they don't run our insurance anymore. I'm on protein shakes as of today, have been to the gym all week and feeling good, hope to lose a lb or 2 while I'm at it. Ok off to clean, I am getting a jump on spring cleaning.

That is good Tracy I will let you know, I'm running way late now, but applied for jobs and got stuff done, but have to shower and be out of here and make copies in an hour. LOL xoxoxo

Tracy - in some ways kind of sounds like Dylan. I am suppose to have Margarita night later and my friend is Dylan's old therapist, Do you mind if I share and ask her what she thinks? Is this new or just in a school now that pays attention? Macy is the young one in the class right? Dyan works very hard and goes to speech/reading classes 3 times a week, but he always wrote his numbers backwards and when he is tired, he makes very simple mistakes - not to make light of it, but it may be as much emotional as well as physical. By emotional, I mean having to share you. I think you made a great choice! Love ya, let me know what you think, Kerry is amazing at what she does.:thumbup:

Good Morning all Well, yesterday I started back to the Y, then drank 1/2 bottle of wine and ate like a pig. Productive right? Suzanne - you are my motivation to get my lazy butt up and moving, thanks! Tracy - I don't know much about it, but my son has dysfractia, which is switching of a couple of letters and sounds which is his big issues with speaking, I just found out another one of my friends has dyslexia and she is retired military and is a strong successful person. Well, I'm sitting her applying for a couple jobs, making some phone calls and copies for my military function, just signed up for another safety class, going to shower and do a little running - I'm looking to have a job lined up by time I go to court on 3/19! I think spring is on its way here - going to be in the high 30's mid 40's for the next week! snow will be gone by time St Patty's parade is here, yipee! hey everyone, sorry I've been slacking on posting, have not had my puter on much but i am going to check in at some point every day.