Jennifur

Morning gals glad it seems all is well for everyone for the most part I needed this fill, bouncing between 198-201 but better. I've realized in the last 48 hrs what i need to do to get some more weight off... besides walk. In the beginning, i made sure i was getting 64g protein... and so what i'm on soup, the last 48hrs i've been getting soup out, which is not good... but i am only getting 30-35g protein a day the last 2, and stopped loosing. So tomorrow i am going shopping tomorrow and make a menu for the week, tuna, salsa, high protein buritos... the things i ate back in the beginning. I was nuts looking for my food journal last night and couldn't find it, so i'm going to get it together, might pick for Easter, i'm making Eggplant Rolatini (eggplant and cheese stuffing), i'm back and hope it works!

Morning gals up and drinking coffee. I had the best cup of seafood chowder last night, I'm sure it was not low fat like the soups i make, but boy was it good, and the seafood was so tender it melted in my mouth Judy can't wait to see pics Kat - it seems strange that you are working, but glad it is going well.... I found out last night they extended unemployment to 59weeks and gave a $30 raise... so after taxes i would only be getting $100 a week less than i make with no over time. It is a struggle now but i'm getting regular child support, which i wasn't when i was on unemployment last time, so i could survive. what is wrong with people???? i'm sitting here typing and watching the news... they found that poor 8 year old CA girl in a suitcase in an irrigation ditch? WTF? These poor innocent children - my heart hurts for the families, i would not be able to go on if anythinghappened to y children. anyway... have a good day, going to get dressed and out of here

hi gals just checking in nice to have you back Judy i'm holding strong today still 198, had a protein shake for breakfast and 2 cups of soup today and i'm full... going to have a liquid dinner.... some cranberry juice wink wink... anyway, going to see a local band for a bit hope you have a great night

Morning gals Jane, I love that song, it is on my mp3 today is another day, going to start digging holes in the back yard and moving my retaining wall, got my laundryroom/dylans playroom emptied and cleaned yesterday, with anticipation that is going to be my new office (keep praying) Have a few odds and ends to put away but today is going to be the only nice day so i'm going to clean out the back yard and have to get rid of my dumpster Tuesday, and it will be full today. I freaked out and told my kids that we need to have a spotless house all the time if i'm going to be working from home as a base, because i'm sure since it will be our office the super who will relocate here will be stopping in daily for work and people will eventually be in and out. Before DS i was a total neat freak (also weighed 10lbs more than i do right now, with no belly flab so i was ok with that) and we are getting back to that world, there is no reason for taking a year to get this place cleaned and spotless. I am back to 198 today, probably too full, but i can drink so i don't care, i needed this. Started protein shakes yesterday .... full and felt pretty good, so down 11lbs in a week including the 5pms - but have some motivation to rock this band again. 2lbs away from my post surgery weigh (gall bladder) so i'm happy, i'm going to blow that away, but keep my next goal simple, at 190. that is only 8lbs, i can do that. Anyway, Kev has been dealing with a bout of his severe depression from the accident, sometimes it doesn't take much to set him off, it has been a very hard week, because he pulled away, didn't vanish on me which is a huge step, but it was still hard. We made it, he got an emergency head dr appt, and was there for 2 hrs and talked about us for 3/4 of that and left feeling much better. He has an assignment of writing an essay for her to tell her what our life will be like when he moves in and our relationship. It got my head spinning and i did the same thing and sent it to him - I know that it will be different for both of us in different ways but he has been telling me for months that we can get through the past and move on only if we do it together... so when he was not good this week, i just kept reminding him of that.... something worked. There is hope for us .... by him not vanishing and at least calling me to let me know he was in meltdown mode was a huge huge step for him. Well enough of my blah blah blah, that is pretty much where i've been for the last couple of weeks, depressed and angry about all that stuff, but holding on and not jumping off the bridge, it is coming together... maybe it is finally going to be my time to shine! Thanks everyone for being such great friends.....

Morning gals i missed a lot i guess... Michelle and Haydee ... you guys are going to cali????? how nice They had a work meeting Thursday and I have become really tight with the head of marketing...There was a couple of meetings but one of them was about me/an office in ENY. They were the committe to either approve or reject the proposal i put out there to open an office here. My friend didn't say much because well... i'm a favorite and he wanted to see where everyone else was going with this... and well.... approved and going for final approval to the owner (who already told me how he feels) next week and proposal was to get it up and running while i'm finishing up this job, so May... which means I should know for sure if i'm going to be working from home very soon. PRAY for me girls. I want this so bad i can taste it. I am going to watch Michelle today I am glad winter is over but spring here.... April showers.... may flowers... well now all it is doing is raining!

Morning gals I am at work, kind of quiet, but here Terry - never got it because i don't know where i'm going to be working and don't know what to do, i can't do anything if i'm only getting $400 a week to live on. This job thing is killing me, and now it looks like i'm going to be here until June 1 at least. I don't know what to do, my life is spinning out of control Jane - i'm so sorry, I feel the same way every day, why was it so easy and now I can't lose an ounce. I want it so badly and all the things i did worked, but do not now. In reality i've lost 20lbs in the last year, ok since May when I started this job, but i only want to lose 20 more, not 80 more which is where people tell me i should be... so instead, i get depressed and go to bed, that helps... that is all i've been doing, working and sleeping, i'm so unhappy i don't know what to do with myself on that happy note, I'm off tomorrow, so that will be good, i need to finish cleaning the house, so close to finishing up

Morning gals i have a lot going on, just completely stressed about everything, kev (not bad, just not quite where i want it yet) job, money, the fact i'm a fat ass and can't lose anything, and the job thing, i don't know what to do about our trip and that is eating me up. I did go get a fill yesterday, first one in a year, i expected great things this am when i got up and nope, gained 1/2 lb I went from 1.25 to 1 so they filled me back to 1.25 and i can't get another appt until 7/9 so i hope it was enough. It took 20 minutes to drink 1 cup of coffee so i hope that i can get back to onderland soon, was 202 yest at dr and monday from pms was up to 209 - i can't imagine that is good for my body, that is massive and how does it happen? anyway, miss you all - just trying to make it through every day, I guess if i know what was happening with my current job it would help me make decisions on what to do. I am in Safety class today so i'll try to check in when i get home

hi guys just checking in real quick- almost a week late with TOM felt really bloated yest and was up 5 lbs, and it finally came today and i feel less bloated but get this... up another 5.5lbs today. HOW THE F' do you gain 10lbs in 2 days, I have an appt with Dr. on Thursday and I am so depressed i'm up that much I want to hang myself. How does that even happen, I work hard and gain a ton, don't do anything and hover 1-2lbs, which i can live with. anyway, just had to vent, i'll come back later and get caught up from the weekend, between weight and job, i just don't know how much more i can take

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Morning gals running late, long night. tried no pain pills... bad move not quite there yet. i hate TOM, ever since i got my tubes tied ... i get a little spotting and goes away for 2 days (but still feel horrible) then on Friday night comes back for 2 days then and from Tues/Wed (spotting day) until Sunday I am so drained, I just can't get enough sleep. My door is in, but left my camera at home, today they are going to put trim up and lights outside and finish up some little stuff, that room looks amazing. i'll try to get a pic from my phone and email it later even not finished it is an amazing difference have a great day everyone

hi gals well, here i am... and nothing new... for today anyway. he is going in tomorrow at 11, they made an appointment and it should be all ready. not quite finished up today. ..... i'm glad he is working hard and it is sad that it took all this for him to realize i was not going to be here forever. and i'm glad he is trying to earn the kids back too. Judy, that is sad, but how long can it go on??? have a great trip Laura - I say easter! don't forget to let me know gals! Hi tracyks, how goes it i lost it all the phne rang, i'm still on pain meds, no more muscle relaxer, but i am still a space case. so hello everyone... 9"15 and i'm going to bed, how sad

good morning gals Kat, i missed it... you are going to work? I know you have been worried about layoffs, so what is the worst thing that happens ... you work until things calm down and then decide you don't want to work... and hey... Rick is not going to get laid off (positive thinking) and you will have a nice little stash to do all the things you planned plus more... I feel pretty darn good this morning, not great but much better. no flexural last night. 1 pain pill when i got home and 1 at bed time and i slept like a baby and feel rested and still sore, but much better. good thing, i realized that in my drugged state the last few days, i forgot to buy a door knob for the new door, and it is going to rain tonight. so i am going to run to get one tonight, I also have to get my carpet cleaner from my friend. Kev has obviously been spending lots of time with all of us, yes quality time with kids too.... but anyway, he is allergic to cats, and i have 2 long hair... he made a hospital trip the other night after he helped me get something from under my bed and the cats sleep under there an he was a mess. so he is trying so i'm going to get the cats groomed, which i do anyway, and clean my carpets. The next big step for him and us to move to the next step is supposed to happen today. He is waiting for his attorney to finish up his settlement and disburse his funds, which has been going on for 2 weeks. He is stressed out and there are a lot of details to work out, but he was told it would be done today, good violet thoughts girls.... this is a big part of his closure he needs to move on to the little things he needs to deal with. (plus he is going to give me the money he owes me too) i'm off, running late now, have lots of company at work and big screw ups yesterday so it is not going to be fun. hugs and kisses!

Pamela that is beautiful!!!! i'm jealous... need another one Laura - we didn't get a baby pic update this week... did we? when is your due date? I did great with food until tonight, had 2 boneless chicken wings and a pc of pizza contractor had to get help, window and door are so heavy so... i will have a door tomorrow. I got a dumpster to clean out the garage and get rid of a couple of dressers and my grill, i'm going to get a new one when the deck is done. I have the dumpster for 2 weeks but i have a ton of yard work to do to get ready for the deck, i have a stone retaining wall that needs to be moved, and where it is going needs to be leveled out, and my herbs need to be moved. I have to dig out a 6x6 area for my slab and 3 holes at least 2' deep 8" wide for my footers... I'll be lucky if i get this all done in a couple of weeks, plus work on saturday mornings. Man i'm tired thinking about it... LOL hi everyone, miss you all i'm distracted, i've been doing this post for 20 mins. LOL took a pain pill when i get in from work and ready for another, my back is better now, but much worse today, i get it undercontrol and then can't take the meds while working... so i'm a mess by time i get in

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Morning gals all these places we can visit... Not much happens here, nothing exciting, but you are all welcome to come visit upstate NY too, would love to have you. Michelle, send me some of your motitvation would you? actually, i will use my back as an excuse, but, it is cold and windy here, but spring is just a day or away and i'm going to start walking again. I walked up my hill last week at 3am, and i was only slightly out of breath, where even last spring i would have been dead 1/2 way up. Thanks again for all the kitchen comments.... i do love it in there Terry - the color is Old Mexico - so a brick kind of cyanne color.... i love it and my tan living room is going to be a deeper mocha/chocolate type color when it is all done. anyway, i am late for work, what a shock....i'll try to check in but lots of company today. have a great day everyone oh... Laura... I meant to say i'm so excited for you... weekly visits... you are getting so close!

oh Kat My kitchen was much bigger without the island and the extra large cabinets, but it is so nice to have space for everyone to do a job, and just got island hooked up.... LOVE the garbage disposal... how did i live without it??? LOL i'm off for a muscle relaxer and bed...

man... just lost a post Thanks for the comments... i love my kitchen, i now have bar stools around so we can hang in there.... i'm going to save befor and during on photobucket too. Michelle, i had someone sheetrock and hang cabinets, i did floor, demo and framing insulating and painting. Thanks to my aunt I took before of my window, but Dave my GC already cut out sheetrock.... but i took outside too because that is where deck is going. I'm stil floating around... i try to log on every day and ever morning when i drink my coffee. It has been crazy t work, and we have company for the rest of the week and i'm just drained when they leave. You guys are my rock, and even when i'm completely mental, i check in even if not to post, i love you guys.... i am going for a fill on april 2, or i hope i am, i'm going to try hard to be good and lose a couple lbs by then.. good thing i'm super pms and should be over that by Sunday at the very latest.... I guess that would explain why i have been wanting and able to eat everything under the sun. hugs everyone!!!!!

kitchen pictures by jlstroman-2009 - Photobucket hi guys don't know if this is going to work, but i found these today on my camera. i'll check back in later... boss just got here and man o man... glad i'm leaving!!!!!

hi guys i'm drugged and loopy... just took 2nd pain pill and that was enough to make me feel loopy, but i hurt so bad, had ds's special ed meeting today, which went well, but that hard wooden chair nearly killed me. I'm going to take a muscle relaxer in about 30 mins and hopefully sleep the night and not hurt. this is horrble... all because i wanted to do laundry... shoot, my blanket needs to be dried

Hi gals Terry - I thought that was on the do not take list, went to the dr, they did heat/ultrasonic thingy on my back, helped a little, could breathe, got a pain killer, not too bad, i'm functioning on them, and flexeral (sp) to take 1 at night and a low dose. I am still hurting but feel so much better Just laying low today... actually got a load of laundry done and that is about it. oh and before i hurt myself, i put a pot roast, potatoes and carrots in the crock pot, thank goodness... got up and dd put the bowl in my programable crock pot (LOVE IT TERRY) and turned it on.... so i don't have to take care of anyone today

good morning gals i pulled something in my back last night, I got out of the shower and it was cold here... i had to reach in a 3 foot narrow spot and think the cold was enough to wreck me, i hurt but got up to get laundry and i couldn't move, couldn't even lift a sock. HERE IS MY QUESTION... i know we cant take motrin, but is it the NSAID (i might have killed that but you all know what i'm talking about right?) that we can't take??? I have some Naproxin and am afraid to take them and can't take muscle relaxer because i need to function. I also just recovered beginning of last week from the stomach bug that was going around, and did nothing but eat for days so i feel so fat! I made a batch of ham & cheese soup and going to fix this problem before i get out of control. anyway, i'm a mess all together. My aunt is here from CA, i wish she didn't bother me so much - she is so good to us, but she is just so odd that it makes me crazy. I'm home today and she is already driving me nuts, i can't even talk about it... I'm breaking out just thinking about it. speaking of... KAT - I am so sorry about your hives, i am a mess, scratched the back of my neck raw and the actual hives have calmed down a bit, but i have a raw spot and every time a the slightest thing stresses me out i start itching all over... I think i just need to go to the dr this am

Morning gals up and showered, don't want to be... but have to work found out yesterday worst case i will get unemployment so at least i will have some kind of income....now that i'm getting regular support that pays the mortgage, i'll be ok, not great but can survive. Kat - that is crazy, almost sounds like they were looking for someone or to make an example of someone. I miss riding... i have not been out since I lost my bike. sad sad sad, Kev was going to come pick me up the other day but my helmet fell off a top shelf and had a big crack so i tossed it. He is going to get me one this week, although he got rid of his road king and got a rocker c... not much passenger room ,good thing i'm a little smaller than i was. anyway, going to be nice here today, i'm going to work on the garage and rake the yard, and switch my living rooms for my summer room. I usually don't change so early, but hope the door is going in the next week and by changing now, big furniture goes in the other room so they won't have to be moving. I've had a lot on my mind so i have not done much ofanything.... can't live like that. i can't wait for my fill, gall bladder swelling was definately pushing everything, cause i can eat for the first time in almost a year. I'm going to live on soup for the next week 1/2 to get back to 196 (i hope) by my appt on 4/2, and thank goodness my appt is in the am, I hate afternoon appts.

morning gals You are funny Pamela and Laura have to leave in 5 minutes, i'm exhausted and can eat, had 4 chicken tenders and a couple fries, although they were tiny and i was exploding full, i could still eat. Can't ait to see DR. April 2nd can't get heresoon enough have a great morning, i'll be back later, everyone leaves at 1 today.

OMG i just did a huge personal post and lost it... said something about "my token had expired" WTF???? anyway, love ya all, running late... meeting week for me

I have lost massive amounts of hair, anisthesia (sp) is a cause and took a couple months to catch up for me post surgery. I had my bloodwork done regularly and was fine, 2 months after it was ok, I was lacking zink and folic acid. Lack of Zink is a major cause of hair loss. I went to my obgyn because I have never been able to take zink, he suggested children's flinstone with minerals. Has worked, bloodwork is great again and my bald spots have hair on them, and it has only been 3 months of taking them. I also found that focus on Protein is great, but you actually do need veggies too, which is where zink comes from, and i was not eating any. Best of luck