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Tracy what ever you have going on this weekend, I will keep you all in my thoughts. just got done putting primer on the new ceiling i did, i have not an ounce of upper body strength, my arm is killing me from overhead painting! taking a quick relax break and then going to put some while paint on the walls, a friend of mine taught me this trick of putting paint on the walls and taping off and it gives the apperance of molding without the expense, I did the same in the kitchen and love it, so we are doing all the rooms like that. well have fun, i'll check in later, and will post pics tomorrow when it is all done, you will not even know it is the same bathroom

morning Thanks Laura and Suzie I feel pretty good on this and it has only been a week, so it works for quitting smoking, and you wont gain weight on it, i highly recommend..LOL with everything going on, I am happy to be -14 in 2 weeks, i lost the first 4 on high Protein and the rest on the meds. so i'm back to where i was to start over, I have a dr appt this month so at least I won't be up a ton. I don't think i'm going to get a fill or unfil, i think i'm just going to tell him about the lexapro and weight gain and all my issues with eating because of stress and schedule another appointment in 3 months. sorry, thinking outloud Terry- i hope you are having a great time Tracyk- how are things going with the dsd? things calming down I am off to paint, have my memorial service this weekend here

Hi gals i'm alive, wanted to check in. I was given Wellbutrin last week before everything, and was on 1/2 the dose, but was increased to the full dose on Sautrday, my dr left it up to me if i wanted or felt like i needed the full amount. Guess what... I did I have not slept in 3 days, maybe 5 hrs max since Thursday night, and last thing i ate was a snack wrap from McD's on Friday ... so I know not good, but I couldn't throw up again and now i'm just a mess. But happy news, i lost every ounce of what i gained on the last meds. So i'm back down 12lbs, so that is good. I had 1/2 cup of icecream tonigh, ran to the bathroom and wanted to die, but no throwing up. I had a very small wine glass of my drink tonight with my mom, but have been trying not to drink. Anyway, thanks, love ya and miss ya all, i'm doing much better than every imagined.

hi girls hope everyone had a great 4th. Concert was good, except for the part where Kev bailed on me and our kids. After all the begging he did to get me back and worked so hard, his mental state has spun so out of control that he can't do it anymore. So needless to say, our wonderful dd wants nothing to do with him and never wants to see him again for what he has done over the years, but this week was it. I will never forget 7/4 because in a sense it was one of the worst days of my life. How did I know i was going to need to be medicated this week? Yesterday i was numb, today i can't stop crying, He sent me a long email, and that is supposed to be my closure? His years of abuse has made me feel worthless and weak, and this i have realized now, and i stood up for myself Friday in front of our daughter, no yelling, just being strong, and he turned it into me - she needed me to be strong, how can she grow up to deal with anything different than she knows. 38 years old, and other than 2 great kids, i have been alone most of my life, i regret so much which is making my mental state so much worse. Thanks all for listening, i just need to get it out, I have not been able to eat or sleep for 2 days and i'm just not doing well.

Morning gals Laura - get rest when you can so you don't get sick. I alway seem to crash and get what ever is going around after i know everyone is well. Terry - have fun on your trip, my dd out of no where said she wanted to go to CO.... i don't have a clue where that came from, so post some pics so i can show her? Tracy - how old is dsd? Karma .... that is all i can say, not really knowing the situation, but i think you are right, they will do themselves in with her so I hope things settle down for your sake, I can't see you keeping quiet forever either... LOL... jk... or am I? I woke up on the wrong side of the bed today, my back is killing me, and dd didn't take the trash out last night so before my coffee i heard them coming and had to run out and get it all together... BEFORE MY COFFEE... not good, i nicely advised her that it should go out on Thursday night during the summer and it is not really an option at this point. After I tile the bathroom wall, i'm going to get ready and we are going to the DefLeppard, Poison, Cheap Trick concert tonight. I have to get up tomorrow morning and finish the border tiles on the wall in the bathroom. I'm starting to freak out about how much I have to do before the "memorial service" that is here next Saturday, and my mother has Tuesday and Friday to Paint. I have 2 parties to go to tomorrow, they both start at the same time, but 1 goes into the night so that is ok, the first one is dry, the second... well, the kids will be going home early, and it is at the end of the street so they will not be far. Sunday I have to work my butt off to get things done around here, my final day to finish repairing little holes and make sure they are good to go for the final paint and carpet cleaning on Friday.... I need to Breathe Well, off I go, so much to do, so little time

Thanks Haydee I'll work on that and figure out how I can make it and play the mind game now so i'll be in a better place next may.... plus i have a credit to fly ... lol after fighting with my faucet all morning, i'm finally going to tile the seat in the bathroom... ugh... waste of a morning screwing around with all that Michelle... how come you are not in a lot of the pics? were you the photographer. Looks like you all had a good time.....

Pamela have a fantastic time and birthday ! Morning gals raining again today, i just mowed on Sunday and has to be done again already, i don't know how the pool is up to 82 with all this rain. Painted the bathroom around the tub yesterday so i can start tiling today. I'm going to finish painting on Monday, but the tiles are the most time consuming thing at this point. I got tanish tiles with a mossy green paint. My friend has a very bad back and has been painting and pushed herself, so i told her i would come help this afternoon, i won't be able to do much here until the tiles are set, so why not. I went to my dr yesterday, my bp is high for me. 125/80 so she increased my water pill, which i told her I could tell was not working, so we will see. I was kind of put off when I said that the lexapro just made me sleep and gain weight... she said it will make you gain weight... I thought WTF???? right... she knows what i've been through the last 2 years, why would you give me something to make me gain weight? So, now i'm on welburtun (SP), which i have to take in the morning and has been known to help people lose weight as a bonus... not guaranteed but will not gain from it, so that is all that matters. Haydee - ok, where is it that I would fly into next May for your wedding? I'm going to plan a vacation around that and pump myself up. I did love TX so very much. I have to mentally prepare myself for a year and i'll be good to go! I'm going to try to get onto facebook and look at pics... Laura did you do a photobucket link?

Image hosting, free photo sharing & video sharing at Photobucket this is what i have been doing with all my time. The landscaping was a huge thing, i can build walls and mow lawn, but plant... yuck oh... the seat was a closet, i took a wall and door down, the dryer was in there

morning gals sorry was distracted and my computer was freaking out from all my facebook stuff. Haydee, i got kicked off facebook from everything i got trying to load all at one time. i'm drinking coffee and getting ready for my dr appt, primary, who i hope will give me something to mellow me out without the weight gain, and adjust my water pill, which does not seem to be working anymore then home to tile the bathroom seat, so tomorrow i can tile the wall around it. I have a week to get it all done

hi guys you all look like you had so much fun, was just looking on face book I got kicked off, my family reunion was last week so i had millions of photos

Morning girls It sounds like you all had a wonderful time. I missed you and thought of you all weekend. Next year, I will be there, I just need to have everything work for me so that I can mentally deal with it. Kev just told me we are going to Chicago for his son's navy graduation in August..... mmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.... don't think so anyway, been working on gtting the house back together, having my aunts memorial service here in 2 weeks and my bathroom is a mess, but i hope to be able to put the tiles up Thursday and get it finished. My new laundry room i got when i did the kitchen needs a lot to be finished and is last on the list so the door gets closed. The kitchen/deck caused a mess in 3 other rooms, but i guess they will be done. I'm still at +10 but back on protein shakes, stupid lexapro made me gain all that and i can't get rid of it. I'm going to my primary tomorrow and going to get my water pill adjusted, that is not working anymore, and going to try to get another anxiety/anti-depressant that will not make me gain weight. Cant wait to see pictures Jane, thank you so much for my present, I love it and used it over the weekend..... love ya' all

thanks gals take lots of pics!

Happy Birthday Judy and Suzie hope you have a great day. Today is ds's last day of schoo, it is cloudy here again, he has turned into a little fish and wants to swim after school, hope the sun comes out. have a great day everyone Tracyk - I saw the today show is in Galviston today giving donations to help rebuild. I thought of you

Hi gals I am sorry, i was in tears and only had Terry's email when i sent the email. I had made myself sick with the thought of flying, with the storms, all the crashes, and just my general fear pushed me over the edge, I am still full of hives but they are getting better every day and i stopped throwing up almost instantly. I lost $150 for canceling my flight but i was making myself insanely ill. I'm so sorry for being such a wimp and a complete basket case.

morning another day, at least it looks like there might be some sun here today.

hi gals i started liquids again, i'm stress eating and have gained 5lbs. glad you are all doing well Terry - sorry x is being a jerk, but glad dd is happy, and you too i'm seriously depressed and stressed out, so not much to say just wanted to check in

just wanted to say hi to everyone first i've been out of bed in 2 days have a good n ight

Morning gals

i'm nervous about flying.... freaking out to wanting to cancel

Morning gals not much going on this morning, i'm exhausted - going to start taping my living room and bathroom today, i hope, want to have it done this week when i get back i'm going to start the laundry room, it needs to be framed around the washer/dryer and tile floor put down, then paint. no biggie compared to what has been done have a great day everyone

wow it is quiet round here

morning gals quiet here I was typing my post last night, which is odd i was the last one, that was early... and one of my good friends called to tell me my fav bar was on fire. How very sad off to field day today, ds still has school until the 24th have a great day Terry you back?

Haydee Congrats, that is so exciting and such a beautiful ring... and an excuse to go to TX... Can't wait to see the rock and my violets! been busy framing the new wall in the bath, i didn't take a before, i should have, but i'll get some tomorrow b efore i sheet rock, you will get the idea of where the wall was i took down from the closet... trying to get everything done around here with hopes that my mom will paint before I leave... how frustrating because she just booked a flight to AZ the day after i get back

Michelle not really more .... just finishing where the window came out and the door went in, and the bathroom where the dryer came out when I officially got my laundry room, which, btw, is not finished either, but i can close that door, that is going to be finished in the fall. My next big project is going to be when my mother finds a perm residence someplace... maybe next spring... she doesn't know where she wants to plant herself... I'm going to take the room she has here and ds's room and make it 1 big bedroom, poor ds has the smallest room in the house... I am pb'n all over the place so eating comfort food which i'm sure you all know that is very bad... i'm going to do liquids for a week to try to get this undercontrol.

Good morning gals i guess it was good i was busy... looks like there was some technical difficulty Terry - Happy Birthday Laura - how beautiful... I got to see the end of a rainbow last summer right in front of me, and i couldn't get it on my cell and no camera, but it was breathtaking. How often do you really get to see the end of a rainbow? I get double rainbows from my house all the time, we just had one, and i was in the living room and saw the sun starting to come out and told my mom and kids to go look at the rainbow, they looked at me like i was nuts because i didn't move, but there it was. I have been cleaning like a crazy person, shampoo carpets, dusting fans, windows... how nice it is in here, and today i'm going to take down a wall so i can put in some insulation and get the living room finished around the new door. I'm having my aunts memorial service at my house on July 11th and my dd is having a summer party on Aug 8, i just want my house done... or down stairs will be done anyway. 1 wall and the bathroom left, and that wont be too horrible either. hope you are all having a good weekend, i'm off like a prom dress